e boredom is getting onto me..
me jus completed the da vinci code by dan brown!
see im so bored ritex?
im gg to swim in the morn tml so i mus quickly finish this entry and go to bed!
yah..nv felt so bored for ages!haha..
yest i met up with weinee!and we jus sat at the coffee club at wisma and chatted!for nearly 3hrs!believe it or nt!
we jus talked and talked..bt the guys who cm and went in our lives..yah..and its really came and went..haha..we bitched and expressed our regrets and stuff
weinee!u mus take care okie!
i was a bit taken aback when i heard u sae those things..worried oso!
weinee!u r my idol!i noe u can do it!jiayou!
now u noe my current status and feelings and...yah!i will lk for ya and u mus promised to cm to me if ya need help k?wad ya said is true and ill ponder over it dear!
an iceberg melting?no!i dun tink im moved at all!yesh!i mus remain an iceberg!i mus rem dat im cold!im unwavered..and wads more..aft one wk things will be diff!yesh!diff..i dare nt pin too much hope..though he msged me todae..so?i dun gif a damn!
yah i dun!i cant!i dun wanna b hurt!not again!no!i cant!
or do i?am i realli feeling dat wae?y issit so hard to sever this pain..?im withdrawing myself alr..i jus cnt help to long for sth..i admit i cant let go..
oh no!this is nv ending..its bad!i dunno..i dun wanna noe..i cnt imagine..i jus hope smone will tk over this place..i noe its unfair to this person..but...
i dun wanna tink further..a wk w/o contact may be better..yah..god bless us and bless me lord!
Monday, May 30, 2005
Friday, May 27, 2005
aiyo!
todae getting results alr..i am not having any special feelings abt it..
btw just got a B for me last ge..so okie lahx..
my main aim now is to settle my exercise regime!and yes!went swimming today and going to get a new swimsuit tml and offf to the pool again!im going to be super onz swimming since me gt nothing to do other than giving tuition and swimming and shopping..
i mean window shopping coz no work how to shop..haha..
i am going to be bired to the corecoz al frans haf fd jobs haha..
he is gg pattaya frm mon to sat so if we were to meet up it will a wk ltr..
hey!whus free jio me out leh!haha..
kkie..its late and mes gg to slp sn..
(darrens nt gg overseas alr..so hes gg to b my co gl again..latest update frm jeremiah:)
sleeping well tonitex!
btw just got a B for me last ge..so okie lahx..
my main aim now is to settle my exercise regime!and yes!went swimming today and going to get a new swimsuit tml and offf to the pool again!im going to be super onz swimming since me gt nothing to do other than giving tuition and swimming and shopping..
i mean window shopping coz no work how to shop..haha..
i am going to be bired to the corecoz al frans haf fd jobs haha..
he is gg pattaya frm mon to sat so if we were to meet up it will a wk ltr..
hey!whus free jio me out leh!haha..
kkie..its late and mes gg to slp sn..
(darrens nt gg overseas alr..so hes gg to b my co gl again..latest update frm jeremiah:)
sleeping well tonitex!
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
the BEACh!
yeah!i finally went to the beach today!haha..thot will be cycling but in the end..never..!
yah..currently still jobless!so nothing to do..
haha..
yah..went dere with him..thot it wld rain..in the end didnt..he asked if i wanna learn cycling but i wasnt prepared leh..haha..realli missed the times when i was still in vj..the running route..but the open air food center has been renovated..
i wanted to go bedok jetty and aft he parked his car nearby we strolled dere!e feeling the calmness the peacefulness was back..when we walked dn to the end of the jetty!and dis time rd it feels diff coz its w a diff person..yah...haha..
we laughed at the uncles..the fish..the peeps..we crapped...he told me bt his life his duty in the army..his jc life..haha..even his gfs and alot bt rain...yah..i knew much more..bt his parents..their bkgrd..rain n stuff..cun believe we tok..i mean i listened to his stories and as n when chipped in..haha..
den at ard 7pm went to the renovated lagoon hawkwe to eat!i felt real guilty eating those food!but gor wans to eat..so i no choice..guess wad!
he ordered..satay sugarcane and bbq stingray..me ordered my fav rojak and he wanted the oyster omelette...din touched dat..onli a bit of the egg!
dats y mes slping early to swim tmr morn!going to swim for an hr n a half!haha..no choice n tmrs gg to diet!
haha..he said sm funny stuff abt finding bf and dunno wad..wad husband..dunno wad always be mine..huh?
dunno wad..i choose not to tink bt it..given me status nw..haha..hes nice..but im not longing/hoping for anithing alr..its tiring..and mes nt gg to exhaust meself lidat..
hes gg pattaya next wk..asked me to go?me dun wan..no bucks oso..haha..he wans me to go for the kelong one..mb bah..haha..mes filling up me next wk wif activities since mes jobless..onli tuition..haha..
slpin nw..pool!!here i come!!whoohoo!!!
yah..currently still jobless!so nothing to do..
haha..
yah..went dere with him..thot it wld rain..in the end didnt..he asked if i wanna learn cycling but i wasnt prepared leh..haha..realli missed the times when i was still in vj..the running route..but the open air food center has been renovated..
i wanted to go bedok jetty and aft he parked his car nearby we strolled dere!e feeling the calmness the peacefulness was back..when we walked dn to the end of the jetty!and dis time rd it feels diff coz its w a diff person..yah...haha..
we laughed at the uncles..the fish..the peeps..we crapped...he told me bt his life his duty in the army..his jc life..haha..even his gfs and alot bt rain...yah..i knew much more..bt his parents..their bkgrd..rain n stuff..cun believe we tok..i mean i listened to his stories and as n when chipped in..haha..
den at ard 7pm went to the renovated lagoon hawkwe to eat!i felt real guilty eating those food!but gor wans to eat..so i no choice..guess wad!
he ordered..satay sugarcane and bbq stingray..me ordered my fav rojak and he wanted the oyster omelette...din touched dat..onli a bit of the egg!
dats y mes slping early to swim tmr morn!going to swim for an hr n a half!haha..no choice n tmrs gg to diet!
haha..he said sm funny stuff abt finding bf and dunno wad..wad husband..dunno wad always be mine..huh?
dunno wad..i choose not to tink bt it..given me status nw..haha..hes nice..but im not longing/hoping for anithing alr..its tiring..and mes nt gg to exhaust meself lidat..
hes gg pattaya next wk..asked me to go?me dun wan..no bucks oso..haha..he wans me to go for the kelong one..mb bah..haha..mes filling up me next wk wif activities since mes jobless..onli tuition..haha..
slpin nw..pool!!here i come!!whoohoo!!!
Monday, May 23, 2005
blOgging heals E soul!
im so bored!
its been a long time since im feeling this way!
aiyo!gave tuition for the past two daes:P wow!suddenli felt so shiong..!
but wat to do?mus wk den can earn money..some more jobless!3 students at one go..4.5 hrs of tuition..one after another..some more consecutive for 2 daes!wow!
nvm..joleens shen!
but seriously speaking i dunno when my fuel will run dry..i need the money!yes!to support the halls, schs and personal expenses..given the things which i wanna do..to save up and my monthly singing course..wow!me need to be a 'mini' millionaire!haha
finished one book..starting another..mes trying to pack meself with stuff to do..to go out with friends!and yesh!mes meeting yanshan in 12 hrs' time and meeting weinee on tuesday!haha..wed n thurs will be tuition..sat and sun too! but sat n sun may hafta wk at the wrld book fair!
i hope will gt calls for jbs!else veri sianx..and the trainer for the bk fair is stressing me out!aiyo!c'mon!we r dere to help sell the bks not to compete who can ans ur stupid qns in the shortest possible time lehx..
btw jeremiah told me that darren is not gg to be gl animore..no special feeling but jus wanna blog it dn..felix may be the next best alt..haha..acc. to jeremiah..hillst. may gt an imported male gl..jus lyk ladyhill hafing an imported joleen..dat is if im moving to mayfair..hope i do!
yah toking bt jeremiah..hes quite nice..haha..dat dae was asking him hw to get to gt to the jurong east swimming pool and he act. helped to check it out and msged me the cfmed mrt station!haha..nice nice..in the end we fd e place!hey!me and huishanx were zai too kaex!
recently,guys are behaving weirdly..but joleen has chosen to block off everything!me s not reacting..so sorrie..and please dun jio me to club!i wun go!haha..
i hope u gt wad i mean..so sorrie to turn ya dn..but i jus dun club!sorrie..
mixing a lot w galfrans!
good!
went out with my meimei on fri!we bought lotsa stuff!at least i was bk w a fila bag,a pair of goggles and 3 tops!one frm fox 2 frm baleno!!
im so bored!people jio me out lehx!haha..
weilin!come back quickly!waiting for ya to come k w us!hurry!
its been a long time since im feeling this way!
aiyo!gave tuition for the past two daes:P wow!suddenli felt so shiong..!
but wat to do?mus wk den can earn money..some more jobless!3 students at one go..4.5 hrs of tuition..one after another..some more consecutive for 2 daes!wow!
nvm..joleens shen!
but seriously speaking i dunno when my fuel will run dry..i need the money!yes!to support the halls, schs and personal expenses..given the things which i wanna do..to save up and my monthly singing course..wow!me need to be a 'mini' millionaire!haha
finished one book..starting another..mes trying to pack meself with stuff to do..to go out with friends!and yesh!mes meeting yanshan in 12 hrs' time and meeting weinee on tuesday!haha..wed n thurs will be tuition..sat and sun too! but sat n sun may hafta wk at the wrld book fair!
i hope will gt calls for jbs!else veri sianx..and the trainer for the bk fair is stressing me out!aiyo!c'mon!we r dere to help sell the bks not to compete who can ans ur stupid qns in the shortest possible time lehx..
btw jeremiah told me that darren is not gg to be gl animore..no special feeling but jus wanna blog it dn..felix may be the next best alt..haha..acc. to jeremiah..hillst. may gt an imported male gl..jus lyk ladyhill hafing an imported joleen..dat is if im moving to mayfair..hope i do!
yah toking bt jeremiah..hes quite nice..haha..dat dae was asking him hw to get to gt to the jurong east swimming pool and he act. helped to check it out and msged me the cfmed mrt station!haha..nice nice..in the end we fd e place!hey!me and huishanx were zai too kaex!
recently,guys are behaving weirdly..but joleen has chosen to block off everything!me s not reacting..so sorrie..and please dun jio me to club!i wun go!haha..
i hope u gt wad i mean..so sorrie to turn ya dn..but i jus dun club!sorrie..
mixing a lot w galfrans!
good!
went out with my meimei on fri!we bought lotsa stuff!at least i was bk w a fila bag,a pair of goggles and 3 tops!one frm fox 2 frm baleno!!
im so bored!people jio me out lehx!haha..
weilin!come back quickly!waiting for ya to come k w us!hurry!
Friday, May 20, 2005
sun burnT?
wow!
i actually can get sunburn!i really din noe dat!haha
today me n huishan-me very good friend whom ive made through nbs orientation camp last year went to the jurong east swimming complex!haha..just felt like gg to swim and have fun so since huishans work hasnt started so decided to jio her out..
guess wad!reached dere at 9.30am thinking that it is too early for a storm to occur but...the sky was menacingly black over at lakeside...aiyo!scary dear!haha
me n huishan..as gungho as ever still insisted..luckily it merely drizzled and we were blessed w partially good weather!heng ah!haha..was bored w the 'fun' so we returned the flaots and started some serious swimming in the competition pool!
yah!dis is where the burning started!haha..swam continuously for 45mins den slacked in the pool till 1pm!
whoohoo!toked and tanned!haha..finally the sun was out!den got burnt on the face!i was still laughing at huishan!when she commented dat me too!oopps!haha...
after dat us!e two hungry souls headed to ikea to eat!haha..MEATBALLS!yumyum!slurp!huishan also saes nice!so see me taste..walked round ikea to look for hall's decor!hee..mus save up alr..act. wanted to go queenways shopping center..but we were too tired and it really poured at ard 5 plus..so we decided to head home..heeeheee
fun but tiring day..coz i woke up super early!guess huishan was feeling similar..:P
im very glad to have known huishan!if not me life in ntu will be veri miserable..and im gg to be real stranded..act. to think of it..im a veri blessed gal!since primary mes always not afraid to be without friends..especially in tk vj and now god is kind enough to let me meet a friend like huishan..heng ah!(hey!dats my surname!)haha
yah as i was saying..huishan is my closest friend in ntu..my soulmate!thanks huishan!
good friends are hard to come by and we shall treasure them!
and i am very confident dat i have a few true blue good friends at this pt of my life!thank you god for being for being so kind to me!
me cant go for og gathering at gors place again tml..a bit dissappointed..but promised mei to go shp alr..haha..but nvm lar..his hse is lyk hw far away..another time bah..
im giving meself space..and learning to relax and not to pin any hopes on any thing..jus let things be bah..
darius!dun worri!joleen is going to be fine..thanks a lot for your concern dude!we shall go k when linnie is back!ey!org lei!get the veri long hrs lei!me gt one whole list of songs to k!heehee...
take care everyone..think this hols mes gg to be partial jobless..onli tuition and a short temp job..
haha..act. i dun realli mind..its been a lg lg time for me to be this slack alr!haha..enjoying meself man!haha
i actually can get sunburn!i really din noe dat!haha
today me n huishan-me very good friend whom ive made through nbs orientation camp last year went to the jurong east swimming complex!haha..just felt like gg to swim and have fun so since huishans work hasnt started so decided to jio her out..
guess wad!reached dere at 9.30am thinking that it is too early for a storm to occur but...the sky was menacingly black over at lakeside...aiyo!scary dear!haha
me n huishan..as gungho as ever still insisted..luckily it merely drizzled and we were blessed w partially good weather!heng ah!haha..was bored w the 'fun' so we returned the flaots and started some serious swimming in the competition pool!
yah!dis is where the burning started!haha..swam continuously for 45mins den slacked in the pool till 1pm!
whoohoo!toked and tanned!haha..finally the sun was out!den got burnt on the face!i was still laughing at huishan!when she commented dat me too!oopps!haha...
after dat us!e two hungry souls headed to ikea to eat!haha..MEATBALLS!yumyum!slurp!huishan also saes nice!so see me taste..walked round ikea to look for hall's decor!hee..mus save up alr..act. wanted to go queenways shopping center..but we were too tired and it really poured at ard 5 plus..so we decided to head home..heeeheee
fun but tiring day..coz i woke up super early!guess huishan was feeling similar..:P
im very glad to have known huishan!if not me life in ntu will be veri miserable..and im gg to be real stranded..act. to think of it..im a veri blessed gal!since primary mes always not afraid to be without friends..especially in tk vj and now god is kind enough to let me meet a friend like huishan..heng ah!(hey!dats my surname!)haha
yah as i was saying..huishan is my closest friend in ntu..my soulmate!thanks huishan!
good friends are hard to come by and we shall treasure them!
and i am very confident dat i have a few true blue good friends at this pt of my life!thank you god for being for being so kind to me!
me cant go for og gathering at gors place again tml..a bit dissappointed..but promised mei to go shp alr..haha..but nvm lar..his hse is lyk hw far away..another time bah..
im giving meself space..and learning to relax and not to pin any hopes on any thing..jus let things be bah..
darius!dun worri!joleen is going to be fine..thanks a lot for your concern dude!we shall go k when linnie is back!ey!org lei!get the veri long hrs lei!me gt one whole list of songs to k!heehee...
take care everyone..think this hols mes gg to be partial jobless..onli tuition and a short temp job..
haha..act. i dun realli mind..its been a lg lg time for me to be this slack alr!haha..enjoying meself man!haha
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
iTS nOt too BAd aFTerall!
yah its wasnt as bad as i thought..
i went out with him..yah went out on a one on one 'date' with him yeaterday..was really apprehensive to meet him actually..dunno why..maybe coz tink we dun really have much to talk about..i wanted to pass him the cookies which ive bought for him:)
yah i was early n was alr at orchard at 1pm.after gg to a jb agency in the morn w huishan and mel.he woke up at ard 1+pm and he msged to meet at 43opm..was fine w it and went to gt bks frm orchard lib and happily indulged myself in a cup of vanilla latte at coffeebean whilst reading e bk..
huishan saw him online..she told him to come n meet me asap..he wanted to go for a swim first..but coz of huishans wrds he din go swim afterall..i wasnt pissed or anithing that he made me wait..afterall im always waiting for pple to turn up..for the past years my frans even the gals.. i dun mind or maybe its coz of another reason? i cnt confirm..
he msged me n told me that hes on his way alr..i asked why he din go swim?as usual..he thought i din noe its coz of huishans chiding dat he decided to come earlier..he msged dat hes worried dat im alone and will be bored..!haha..c'mon lah!huishan called me lor!hey!mes nt stupid u noe!try to sd nice issit..try harder yeah!mes nt like ur other gals boy!u can do all the sweet talking..its nice to hear..touches one heart..but..hey!joleens noe her stuff..coz i didnt show..im smart kaex?
went to watch the interpreter..nt too bad though..he finished half of my popcorn!and the cookies which i gt for him..haha..
ill give him credit to be sweet enough to bring a huge addidas sweater with him..
for me i mean..haha..and it was really comfy to be covered in it during the show as it was really cold!thanks boy!yah!maybe dis is the kinda of little minor things that will make me feel a little for him..
mes a simple gal..jus a little care n concern ill be happy already..haha..
he drove me home..yah its nice coz dun nid to take train and walk 2 stops back home..its lyk the 2nd time if im nt wrong dat he sent me hm..or was it the 1st?i cant remember
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i told my mum bt him and the stuff he told me yeaterday and wad he did..his actions his words..yah my mum is very open bt dis kinda of things..which is good!my mum is lyk my fran..
she act din disapprove me gg out with him in the future..if ever deres one!yah..she jus asked me to be careful about wad he said and his various more than intelligent qns and ways to sd me out..haha..im nt ignorant too u noe!im nt taken in by ur wrds n sweet talking dear..haha..coz im immune to them alreadi!yes im!
btw shanx and tingx dun tink highly of him..yah not at all..tingx saes he does not look lyk a good guy..shanx commented nonstop dat he lks lyk a beng..haha
okok..me mum tinks otherwise though..haHA
he has his mind of his own..he plans for his future..a high achiever..a focused boy..but sad to say a flirt?
haha..he has so many gals who throw emelves at him..no fear that he will be lonely..he goes out will different gals..haha..flirt?maybe?maybe not..he goes out with them cox he wans to noe them better yah better as in to find out more about em..i think its not considered flirting..y am i finding excuses for someone whom everyone calls him a flirt?i dunno ..jus dun ask me y?i realli dunno..
jus wan the storm in my heart is clearing..deres another waiting to come..i cant let my heart be filled w this feeling again..yah..i am a deep thinker..i jus think too much..sometimes i jus hope to nt be bothered bt it so much..
im seriously tired..real exhausted..im a depressed soul..i cant wait to see a peaceful sea..a beautiful shore..a better joleen!
i went out with him..yah went out on a one on one 'date' with him yeaterday..was really apprehensive to meet him actually..dunno why..maybe coz tink we dun really have much to talk about..i wanted to pass him the cookies which ive bought for him:)
yah i was early n was alr at orchard at 1pm.after gg to a jb agency in the morn w huishan and mel.he woke up at ard 1+pm and he msged to meet at 43opm..was fine w it and went to gt bks frm orchard lib and happily indulged myself in a cup of vanilla latte at coffeebean whilst reading e bk..
huishan saw him online..she told him to come n meet me asap..he wanted to go for a swim first..but coz of huishans wrds he din go swim afterall..i wasnt pissed or anithing that he made me wait..afterall im always waiting for pple to turn up..for the past years my frans even the gals.. i dun mind or maybe its coz of another reason? i cnt confirm..
he msged me n told me that hes on his way alr..i asked why he din go swim?as usual..he thought i din noe its coz of huishans chiding dat he decided to come earlier..he msged dat hes worried dat im alone and will be bored..!haha..c'mon lah!huishan called me lor!hey!mes nt stupid u noe!try to sd nice issit..try harder yeah!mes nt like ur other gals boy!u can do all the sweet talking..its nice to hear..touches one heart..but..hey!joleens noe her stuff..coz i didnt show..im smart kaex?
went to watch the interpreter..nt too bad though..he finished half of my popcorn!and the cookies which i gt for him..haha..
ill give him credit to be sweet enough to bring a huge addidas sweater with him..
for me i mean..haha..and it was really comfy to be covered in it during the show as it was really cold!thanks boy!yah!maybe dis is the kinda of little minor things that will make me feel a little for him..
mes a simple gal..jus a little care n concern ill be happy already..haha..
he drove me home..yah its nice coz dun nid to take train and walk 2 stops back home..its lyk the 2nd time if im nt wrong dat he sent me hm..or was it the 1st?i cant remember
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i told my mum bt him and the stuff he told me yeaterday and wad he did..his actions his words..yah my mum is very open bt dis kinda of things..which is good!my mum is lyk my fran..
she act din disapprove me gg out with him in the future..if ever deres one!yah..she jus asked me to be careful about wad he said and his various more than intelligent qns and ways to sd me out..haha..im nt ignorant too u noe!im nt taken in by ur wrds n sweet talking dear..haha..coz im immune to them alreadi!yes im!
btw shanx and tingx dun tink highly of him..yah not at all..tingx saes he does not look lyk a good guy..shanx commented nonstop dat he lks lyk a beng..haha
okok..me mum tinks otherwise though..haHA
he has his mind of his own..he plans for his future..a high achiever..a focused boy..but sad to say a flirt?
haha..he has so many gals who throw emelves at him..no fear that he will be lonely..he goes out will different gals..haha..flirt?maybe?maybe not..he goes out with them cox he wans to noe them better yah better as in to find out more about em..i think its not considered flirting..y am i finding excuses for someone whom everyone calls him a flirt?i dunno ..jus dun ask me y?i realli dunno..
jus wan the storm in my heart is clearing..deres another waiting to come..i cant let my heart be filled w this feeling again..yah..i am a deep thinker..i jus think too much..sometimes i jus hope to nt be bothered bt it so much..
im seriously tired..real exhausted..im a depressed soul..i cant wait to see a peaceful sea..a beautiful shore..a better joleen!
Sunday, May 15, 2005
pINk vIsor!
firstly i would like to thank yanshan yiting and charmaine for celebrating me 20th birthday with me at billy bombers yesterday!
its has been years and its so sweet dat we still meet up!haha..
hmm..next will ya our dearest tingx and charmx bdae!
me and shanx mus tink of a place and gifts already dearies!
haha..me LOVE the visor!on top of that its PINK!yes its soft baby pink!so so sweet!
heh now ive a white cap a puma reddish pink cap and a soft pink visor!suddenly its caps overload!haha..
i LOVE E GIFT!!thanks babes!heehee
todae had vj clas gathering and as usual a few of us paiseh us again!wadever!urghh!
yah..and as usual jon is still as crappy and hes always disturbing..he is a nice guy lah..talented..excellent speaker!and actually to be truthful hes actually a charismatic boy..if hes not so vulgar tink hes a nice bf!haha..tink he shud be lah..
e guys still look the same btw..haha..a bit awkward after looking at those in uni!haha..uni guys are lots more mature and yah more gentlemanly bah!haha
me status?nw?
i dun care about guys/no guys!they are not gg to be part of my life!
as what i had blogged before..i am in the state of recovery..yah..i am immersing meself in joy and laughter..to forget the hurt the pain the depression and shit which were with me for months..i am learning to let go slowly..n i dont care anymore!
joleen is joleen!i love myself!
my vj frans are a bunch of weirdos lyk to ask questions especially if i am attached or not?do i look like those who will get attached?haha..yah i do hope so but my prince charming has not appeared yet..haha..why u pple keep on asking? dont ask already kaex?i understand till i am numb already!and i am going to be numb going to turn cold!
yah it will be hard to move this partially frozen mountain!any brave soul can attempt to melt her!but let me warn you!she pricks when she is frozen..it is not going to be easy when she really turn into an iceberg..yah..very soon i guess..it is really not going to be easy..and once she is frozen ahe is going to be hard!yah 'heartless'!dont try to mess with her yeah!
hope?
i wish joleen will not be turning COLD!
its has been years and its so sweet dat we still meet up!haha..
hmm..next will ya our dearest tingx and charmx bdae!
me and shanx mus tink of a place and gifts already dearies!
haha..me LOVE the visor!on top of that its PINK!yes its soft baby pink!so so sweet!
heh now ive a white cap a puma reddish pink cap and a soft pink visor!suddenly its caps overload!haha..
i LOVE E GIFT!!thanks babes!heehee
todae had vj clas gathering and as usual a few of us paiseh us again!wadever!urghh!
yah..and as usual jon is still as crappy and hes always disturbing..he is a nice guy lah..talented..excellent speaker!and actually to be truthful hes actually a charismatic boy..if hes not so vulgar tink hes a nice bf!haha..tink he shud be lah..
e guys still look the same btw..haha..a bit awkward after looking at those in uni!haha..uni guys are lots more mature and yah more gentlemanly bah!haha
me status?nw?
i dun care about guys/no guys!they are not gg to be part of my life!
as what i had blogged before..i am in the state of recovery..yah..i am immersing meself in joy and laughter..to forget the hurt the pain the depression and shit which were with me for months..i am learning to let go slowly..n i dont care anymore!
joleen is joleen!i love myself!
my vj frans are a bunch of weirdos lyk to ask questions especially if i am attached or not?do i look like those who will get attached?haha..yah i do hope so but my prince charming has not appeared yet..haha..why u pple keep on asking? dont ask already kaex?i understand till i am numb already!and i am going to be numb going to turn cold!
yah it will be hard to move this partially frozen mountain!any brave soul can attempt to melt her!but let me warn you!she pricks when she is frozen..it is not going to be easy when she really turn into an iceberg..yah..very soon i guess..it is really not going to be easy..and once she is frozen ahe is going to be hard!yah 'heartless'!dont try to mess with her yeah!
hope?
i wish joleen will not be turning COLD!
Thursday, May 12, 2005
tanNED BLAckenED suN-KisseD babe!
haha..tink this title sds gd yeah?
sunkissed babe!haha..sounds good yea?
yah mes so tanned after me resort trip!and today i went swimming!haha..after many months!haha..will go more often if i still cannot find a job!haha..
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not much to blog today actually..and i felt great after penning down my thoughts in my book of secrets!haha..yah i do have such a book!and its only for meself!yah!its a book which i have my 'darkest' secrets!haha..
maybe im not really feeling how i shud be feeling..what i need is time i guess..a bit more time for my wounds to heal..for my injuries to be gone!yah to be gone with e wind!
im longing to be emotionless..learning not to feel..i had no such problems in jc!why when i come to uni ive such shit to handle?mayb its bcoz in uni dere are more pple
who care more who show more who r frank..or was i just a blur sotong yrs ago?
i rather to feelingless..dunno anithing!den i can be jus me!haha
issit it great?lifes was simpler den!sighh..haha
getting tired!and im lking fwd to meeting shanx tingx n charmx!haha..and our neoprints!
sunkissed babe!haha..sounds good yea?
yah mes so tanned after me resort trip!and today i went swimming!haha..after many months!haha..will go more often if i still cannot find a job!haha..
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not much to blog today actually..and i felt great after penning down my thoughts in my book of secrets!haha..yah i do have such a book!and its only for meself!yah!its a book which i have my 'darkest' secrets!haha..
maybe im not really feeling how i shud be feeling..what i need is time i guess..a bit more time for my wounds to heal..for my injuries to be gone!yah to be gone with e wind!
im longing to be emotionless..learning not to feel..i had no such problems in jc!why when i come to uni ive such shit to handle?mayb its bcoz in uni dere are more pple
who care more who show more who r frank..or was i just a blur sotong yrs ago?
i rather to feelingless..dunno anithing!den i can be jus me!haha
issit it great?lifes was simpler den!sighh..haha
getting tired!and im lking fwd to meeting shanx tingx n charmx!haha..and our neoprints!
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
sLeePY priNCess!!
yesh!me jus gt meself a new nick name!a sleepy PRINCESS!haha...all e pochahontas e lilo e mulan and stuff..i wanna b a PRINCESS!!ONE TO B PAMPERED and showered wif lotsa love care and concern!
haha
jus gt bk frm perhentian,kota bahru yesterdae morn!and me thot mes gg johore bahru!happily told me mum dat im taking a 10hrs bus ride to johore bahru!cant std myself!'clever'as usual!
haha..slpt on the bus..then i act. sat on a speed boat to cocohut e resort where we stayed for 3 daes 2 nights:)haha..basically jus eat snorkel and relax n bask under the sun!of cox!ive bcm more tanned!haha
went snorkelling!was super scared esp seeing the corals and rocks!guess wad me saw huge turtle,baby shark!nemo!!clown fish!wow!!!but i was super frightened of the sea dat i held on to hanyan's hand lyk no ones business!haha
at night watched em play mahjong..soccer and jus laze ard!haha
rather relaxing!and me bought meself a pink puma cap and a top and a pair of res sandals!haha
okie!relaxing trip..
jeremiah helped me fd a job for the cming wrld bk fair!haha at least cn earn a bit more on top of tuition fees!haa
yeah!gg swimming tmr!!yippee!!
haha
jus gt bk frm perhentian,kota bahru yesterdae morn!and me thot mes gg johore bahru!happily told me mum dat im taking a 10hrs bus ride to johore bahru!cant std myself!'clever'as usual!
haha..slpt on the bus..then i act. sat on a speed boat to cocohut e resort where we stayed for 3 daes 2 nights:)haha..basically jus eat snorkel and relax n bask under the sun!of cox!ive bcm more tanned!haha
went snorkelling!was super scared esp seeing the corals and rocks!guess wad me saw huge turtle,baby shark!nemo!!clown fish!wow!!!but i was super frightened of the sea dat i held on to hanyan's hand lyk no ones business!haha
at night watched em play mahjong..soccer and jus laze ard!haha
rather relaxing!and me bought meself a pink puma cap and a top and a pair of res sandals!haha
okie!relaxing trip..
jeremiah helped me fd a job for the cming wrld bk fair!haha at least cn earn a bit more on top of tuition fees!haa
yeah!gg swimming tmr!!yippee!!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
yawnx
yah i jus woke up after napping..yawnxs..n me mum was nagging dat im up to disturb pple while dad n sis r sleeping alr..sighh
suppose to b in sentosa now for my nbs camp but den yann cheng didnt book chalet whatsoever n tadah!we get to come home!the best thing was that the camp ended 5hours earlier!heehee..thanks mel for being so understanding that me dun need to go sentosa again tmr!thanks gal!
gor suddenly appeared out of no where during the last part of today's camp!
sighh..i was dressed sloppily in a red sleeveless top and 37 degress shorts..yucks!i hate dressing lyk this!urghh..!hate wearing shorts except fbt..mb thats y dun realli lyk camps!dun care im jus gg to b myself and wear me fbt during camps from nw on:)
talking about camps makes me want to faint(weilin if u r reading this im alr trying my best to type full alr!)haha..
yah talking about camps!!??!!me have to clear 5 more camps--2 actual and 3 precamps!haha
and the 'best' thing is that they all clash!ok lah..its like one after another!and its really one day after another!i dunno how im going to survive!haha but its a great opp for me to control my diet!haha
great i can be noisy again!but must bao chi xing xiang so that wont leave a bad impression and be called an air head again!but haha they eventually changed their impression on me!which is good!
and danny how can u say that im noisy?im me!haha.
yah!its true that i love attention!yes i agree sometimes that im an attention seeker!maybe its because i am trained since sec 1 to be loud!yah loud!but one has to understand it was because of my unhappy past..shant mention them...that's y i love attention!
when people give me their attention i just feel great..maybe that's y i feel great performing in front of others bah!FUN FUN FUN and ,making frans..pple may tink that im a bimbo!but im not okay?my close frans can vouch for me i hope!
JOLEENS NOT A BIMBO!NOT AN AIRHEAD!
but if you guys think so..ive nothing to say also:(
tmr mes going perhentian..but ive not packed or anything..so slack..will jus pack light and do it last minute when i wake up tmr bah..yawnxs..haha..going to sleep again!
and gor said that ive become more tanned!haha..oopps!i swear that i didnt do anything to get darker except walking under the super hot sun on tue when i went to sentosa with the gals to check out the fright nite's route...
haha..gg to get worse when i come back from me trip..gg to get sun block but from experience whether block or dun block will still be a burnt joleen lah..haha
n yah i become another disney character alr!this time round im not only pocohantas but also lilo!haha im getting all the funny disney characters!am i really this funny looking?so weird!im very conscious of my looks and please i need assurance if all these resemblance are good or not?i hope so!please tell me yes!haha
see the vain side of me emerging again?haha
oh yah went to kbox with sis ytd!and yesh!me and me sis onli super shiok!we sang for 3.5 hours!haha..so shiok!think i can sing celest songs and we had fun singing FIR's songs practically bringing the room down!haha..me is in love with yi shi de mei hao!so nice!and i finally saw tong hua's mtv!so sad but i din cry lah jus shocked over the story..sighh!
sang landy's zu wo shen ri kuai le..yah its so nice..when i was singing this..i thought of the day i spent in hall alone trying to mug and yah..wishing myself shen ri kuai le..so depressing huh?haha.. this is part of the song:
还爱你 带一点恨 还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 幻灭重生 祝我生日快乐
and this is my favourite song at the moment:
海的思念绵延不绝 终于和天 在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远 应该也会跟幸福相见
承诺常常很像蝴蝶 美丽的飞 盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言 就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑 一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角 就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠 只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好 但就是谁都替代不了
在最开始的那一秒 有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑 真心会和真心遇到
i just cant wait to start my singing course again!i love to sing and i have a dream!yesh!i shall call it a dream!a dream to make singing my career!haha..yah see!that is y i call it a dream!its so far fetch ritex?so unattainable ritex!just let me continue dreaming and maybe one day this dream may come true!haha..oh no!joleens is really thinking too much!haha
linnie!if u managed to survive till here..haha..guessed i did a good job for this entry rite?i give myself 3 pats on my shoulders!haha maybe today im in a neutral mood thats y!haha
oh great! me the sleeping princess is sleepy again!oh great!i shall go back to lala land and quickly walk up to pack my stuf tmr morn!yawnxs!so sian only teck seng talking to me on msn..haha..wad a sianx dae..haha..but i get a peaceful time to blog all this!dun complain its too long coz ill only be back on tue!
DUN MISS JOLEEN YEAH!
I BEtta go and sleep and not be crappy anymore else u peeps cannot take it animore!so sorrie!haha this is JOLEEN!!
HAHA
suppose to b in sentosa now for my nbs camp but den yann cheng didnt book chalet whatsoever n tadah!we get to come home!the best thing was that the camp ended 5hours earlier!heehee..thanks mel for being so understanding that me dun need to go sentosa again tmr!thanks gal!
gor suddenly appeared out of no where during the last part of today's camp!
sighh..i was dressed sloppily in a red sleeveless top and 37 degress shorts..yucks!i hate dressing lyk this!urghh..!hate wearing shorts except fbt..mb thats y dun realli lyk camps!dun care im jus gg to b myself and wear me fbt during camps from nw on:)
talking about camps makes me want to faint(weilin if u r reading this im alr trying my best to type full alr!)haha..
yah talking about camps!!??!!me have to clear 5 more camps--2 actual and 3 precamps!haha
and the 'best' thing is that they all clash!ok lah..its like one after another!and its really one day after another!i dunno how im going to survive!haha but its a great opp for me to control my diet!haha
great i can be noisy again!but must bao chi xing xiang so that wont leave a bad impression and be called an air head again!but haha they eventually changed their impression on me!which is good!
and danny how can u say that im noisy?im me!haha.
yah!its true that i love attention!yes i agree sometimes that im an attention seeker!maybe its because i am trained since sec 1 to be loud!yah loud!but one has to understand it was because of my unhappy past..shant mention them...that's y i love attention!
when people give me their attention i just feel great..maybe that's y i feel great performing in front of others bah!FUN FUN FUN and ,making frans..pple may tink that im a bimbo!but im not okay?my close frans can vouch for me i hope!
JOLEENS NOT A BIMBO!NOT AN AIRHEAD!
but if you guys think so..ive nothing to say also:(
tmr mes going perhentian..but ive not packed or anything..so slack..will jus pack light and do it last minute when i wake up tmr bah..yawnxs..haha..going to sleep again!
and gor said that ive become more tanned!haha..oopps!i swear that i didnt do anything to get darker except walking under the super hot sun on tue when i went to sentosa with the gals to check out the fright nite's route...
haha..gg to get worse when i come back from me trip..gg to get sun block but from experience whether block or dun block will still be a burnt joleen lah..haha
n yah i become another disney character alr!this time round im not only pocohantas but also lilo!haha im getting all the funny disney characters!am i really this funny looking?so weird!im very conscious of my looks and please i need assurance if all these resemblance are good or not?i hope so!please tell me yes!haha
see the vain side of me emerging again?haha
oh yah went to kbox with sis ytd!and yesh!me and me sis onli super shiok!we sang for 3.5 hours!haha..so shiok!think i can sing celest songs and we had fun singing FIR's songs practically bringing the room down!haha..me is in love with yi shi de mei hao!so nice!and i finally saw tong hua's mtv!so sad but i din cry lah jus shocked over the story..sighh!
sang landy's zu wo shen ri kuai le..yah its so nice..when i was singing this..i thought of the day i spent in hall alone trying to mug and yah..wishing myself shen ri kuai le..so depressing huh?haha.. this is part of the song:
还爱你 带一点恨 还要时间 才能平衡
热恋伤痕 幻灭重生 祝我生日快乐
and this is my favourite song at the moment:
海的思念绵延不绝 终于和天 在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远 应该也会跟幸福相见
承诺常常很像蝴蝶 美丽的飞 盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言 就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑 一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪滑过嘴角 就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠 只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好 但就是谁都替代不了
在最开始的那一秒 有些事早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑 真心会和真心遇到
i just cant wait to start my singing course again!i love to sing and i have a dream!yesh!i shall call it a dream!a dream to make singing my career!haha..yah see!that is y i call it a dream!its so far fetch ritex?so unattainable ritex!just let me continue dreaming and maybe one day this dream may come true!haha..oh no!joleens is really thinking too much!haha
linnie!if u managed to survive till here..haha..guessed i did a good job for this entry rite?i give myself 3 pats on my shoulders!haha maybe today im in a neutral mood thats y!haha
oh great! me the sleeping princess is sleepy again!oh great!i shall go back to lala land and quickly walk up to pack my stuf tmr morn!yawnxs!so sian only teck seng talking to me on msn..haha..wad a sianx dae..haha..but i get a peaceful time to blog all this!dun complain its too long coz ill only be back on tue!
DUN MISS JOLEEN YEAH!
I BEtta go and sleep and not be crappy anymore else u peeps cannot take it animore!so sorrie!haha this is JOLEEN!!
HAHA
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
had FUN
haha..slept and forgot abt ytd alr..haha..realli? tink not so..
anw woke up super early this morn so dat i can be at harbour front to meet huishan and mel..went sentosa to check out the fright nitexs route!wow!walked at least 5 km i think!walked n walked n poor mel got injured coz she jumped off the tram before we can even stop her!oh no!
as usual we are so sen dat we managed to find the route in 2.5 hrs!yes!walked dat number of hours!not bad huh!im zai okie!haha
den rushed home to bathe and went to meet charmaine..heh!finally treated her to sakae buffet!me?had sakae buffet in like 4 days!so paiseh same peeps served us..haha
but yet again i dun puke sushi!heehee..yahyah..gd gd!
we went heerens to take neoprints!yupx its the same machine..e $10 machine!so nice as usual!haha w me ard of coz nice lah!n both of us?haha best pic sia!haha
ooppss being bitchy yeah!haha
but e photos were gd k?we had fun editing!and hey!charmaine pinks nice kaex!haha..shall save up and go n take more of em!heehee...
me is sleepy
and im so proud of my mango skirt!my mango shocking pink jacket!my shades and my belt!haha
oh no!mes becoming vainer?haha..no such word i guess!
haha..
sianx dun realli like to go orchard esp e orchard mrt area..its e 2nd/3rd time dat i got approached by wad talent scounters and stuf..haha..todaes one veri funny..char helped me to siam them..haha..
hmm..morale booster number 2/3?haha..no lah..not really a big deal..lots of babes around also
whatever!dont wanna tink of unhappy stuf and am going to sleep now!yawnxs
i really like prints me took with huishan mel and charmaine..haha..shanx tingx n charmx we go take oso k?
haha!
feeling betta today!heh..thanks thanks!
anw woke up super early this morn so dat i can be at harbour front to meet huishan and mel..went sentosa to check out the fright nitexs route!wow!walked at least 5 km i think!walked n walked n poor mel got injured coz she jumped off the tram before we can even stop her!oh no!
as usual we are so sen dat we managed to find the route in 2.5 hrs!yes!walked dat number of hours!not bad huh!im zai okie!haha
den rushed home to bathe and went to meet charmaine..heh!finally treated her to sakae buffet!me?had sakae buffet in like 4 days!so paiseh same peeps served us..haha
but yet again i dun puke sushi!heehee..yahyah..gd gd!
we went heerens to take neoprints!yupx its the same machine..e $10 machine!so nice as usual!haha w me ard of coz nice lah!n both of us?haha best pic sia!haha
ooppss being bitchy yeah!haha
but e photos were gd k?we had fun editing!and hey!charmaine pinks nice kaex!haha..shall save up and go n take more of em!heehee...
me is sleepy
and im so proud of my mango skirt!my mango shocking pink jacket!my shades and my belt!haha
oh no!mes becoming vainer?haha..no such word i guess!
haha..
sianx dun realli like to go orchard esp e orchard mrt area..its e 2nd/3rd time dat i got approached by wad talent scounters and stuf..haha..todaes one veri funny..char helped me to siam them..haha..
hmm..morale booster number 2/3?haha..no lah..not really a big deal..lots of babes around also
whatever!dont wanna tink of unhappy stuf and am going to sleep now!yawnxs
i really like prints me took with huishan mel and charmaine..haha..shanx tingx n charmx we go take oso k?
haha!
feeling betta today!heh..thanks thanks!
PISSED
yes im pissed!
simply..extremely pissed!jus pissed!dunno jus PISSED!PISSED!PISSED!PISSED!
morning was still fine..
maybe its because he called to arrange to meet ytd( lin i just cannot type full lah!so mafan!)
will try again next time mes not in the mood todae!
so sorrie
yah..as i was saying..yah im pissed coz promises r broken yes made and broken!
wad e hell sorrie for the swearing..but i cnt take it animore!pls dun make empty promises if u dun intend to keep em!
pls i beg u!
he called to arrange to meet up,,yah when i was bt to slp ytd nitex..okie lah..meet up den meet up lor..i dun mind lah..
hey c'mon lor..me intended to meet up w lin n von n esp thot dat it shud b alrite to meet in the evening since u r so insistent to meet!specially brought the cookies..who noes as usual ganna pangse..nt as if im desperate to meet u but u r e one who said so!
mood was lousy upon receiving ya msg..yah was affected n ewas half sianx alr..luckily von n lin were ard else i wld realli jus flare up man!yes!
dis me..ganna pangse is nt gd!
the feeling suxs!yes suxs!
u wan me to make time for u?yah i did!nt dat i didnt make time..i did todae..too bad u missed the chance..yes frans im dis mean...dun incur me wrath!i cn b nasty oso!yes when i wan to be...i dun wanna be the angelic joleen whom one noes..im sorrie..im PISSED IM PISSED REALLI PISSED!!
i had enuf of ur sweet talking.yes i had enuf!stp toking to me bt the crap!
yah!
i hate guys at the moment!including u!i dun care hw much u sae bt gor n mei!
i jus dun care!hope dat i cn jus burst out crying nw!yes nw!teas brimming again!i jus cnt cry nw..parents everyone is at hm..no i cnt..
wad tim sum?wad wanna go out wif mei?a piece of shit!sorrie im swearing again:(i cnt stand it animore!u hafta wait?yah!u haf to wanna ask me out is nt easy u noe!im lyk hw pked!im sorrie!u jus hafta wait n i noe u will jus forget!n yah forgt kor!i dun care!i dun wanna care!im me
i love myself!jus myself!i dun wanna get hurt!im gg to be selfish!joleen is gg to be selfish!its gg to b me n onli me!
u made me upset!u made me despair!u made me bcome sm1 whom i dun even dare to noe!u r the c
simply..extremely pissed!jus pissed!dunno jus PISSED!PISSED!PISSED!PISSED!
morning was still fine..
maybe its because he called to arrange to meet ytd( lin i just cannot type full lah!so mafan!)
will try again next time mes not in the mood todae!
so sorrie
yah..as i was saying..yah im pissed coz promises r broken yes made and broken!
wad e hell sorrie for the swearing..but i cnt take it animore!pls dun make empty promises if u dun intend to keep em!
pls i beg u!
he called to arrange to meet up,,yah when i was bt to slp ytd nitex..okie lah..meet up den meet up lor..i dun mind lah..
hey c'mon lor..me intended to meet up w lin n von n esp thot dat it shud b alrite to meet in the evening since u r so insistent to meet!specially brought the cookies..who noes as usual ganna pangse..nt as if im desperate to meet u but u r e one who said so!
mood was lousy upon receiving ya msg..yah was affected n ewas half sianx alr..luckily von n lin were ard else i wld realli jus flare up man!yes!
dis me..ganna pangse is nt gd!
the feeling suxs!yes suxs!
u wan me to make time for u?yah i did!nt dat i didnt make time..i did todae..too bad u missed the chance..yes frans im dis mean...dun incur me wrath!i cn b nasty oso!yes when i wan to be...i dun wanna be the angelic joleen whom one noes..im sorrie..im PISSED IM PISSED REALLI PISSED!!
i had enuf of ur sweet talking.yes i had enuf!stp toking to me bt the crap!
yah!
i hate guys at the moment!including u!i dun care hw much u sae bt gor n mei!
i jus dun care!hope dat i cn jus burst out crying nw!yes nw!teas brimming again!i jus cnt cry nw..parents everyone is at hm..no i cnt..
wad tim sum?wad wanna go out wif mei?a piece of shit!sorrie im swearing again:(i cnt stand it animore!u hafta wait?yah!u haf to wanna ask me out is nt easy u noe!im lyk hw pked!im sorrie!u jus hafta wait n i noe u will jus forget!n yah forgt kor!i dun care!i dun wanna care!im me
i love myself!jus myself!i dun wanna get hurt!im gg to be selfish!joleen is gg to be selfish!its gg to b me n onli me!
u made me upset!u made me despair!u made me bcome sm1 whom i dun even dare to noe!u r the c
PISSED
yes im pissed!
simply..extremely pissed!jus pissed!dunno jus PISSED!PISSED!PISSED!PISSED!
morning was still fine..
maybe its because he called to arrange to meet ytd( lin i just cannot type full lah!so mafan!)
will try again next time mes not in the mood todae!
so sorrie
yah..as i was saying..yah im pissed coz promises r broken yes made and broken!
wad e hell sorrie for the swearing..but i cnt take it animore!pls dun make empty promises if u dun intend to keep em!
pls i beg u!
he called to arrange to meet up,,yah when i was bt to slp ytd nitex..okie lah..meet up den meet up lor..i dun mind lah..
hey c'mon lor..me intended to meet up w lin n von n esp thot dat it shud b alrite to meet in the evening since u r so insistent to meet!specially brought the cookies..who noes as usual ganna pangse..nt as if im desperate to meet u but u r e one who said so!
mood was lousy upon receiving ya msg..yah was affected n ewas half sianx alr..luckily von n lin were ard else i wld realli jus flare up man!yes!
dis me..ganna pangse is nt gd!
the feeling suxs!yes suxs!
u wan me to make time for u?yah i did!nt dat i didnt make time..i did todae..too bad u missed the chance..yes frans im dis mean...dun incur me wrath!i cn b nasty oso!yes when i wan to be...i dun wanna be the angelic joleen whom one noes..im sorrie..im PISSED IM PISSED REALLI PISSED!!
i had enuf of ur sweet talking.yes i had enuf!stp toking to me bt the crap!
yah!
i hate guys at the moment!including u!i dun care hw much u sae bt gor n mei!
i jus dun care!hope dat i cn jus burst out crying nw!yes nw!teas brimming again!i jus cnt cry nw..parents everyone is at hm..no i cnt..
wad tim sum?wad wanna go out wif mei?a piece of shit!sorrie im swearing again:(i cnt stand it animore!u hafta wait?yah!u haf to wanna ask me out is nt easy u noe!im lyk hw pked!im sorrie!u jus hafta wait n i noe u will jus forget!n yah forgt kor!i dun care!i dun wanna care!im me
i love myself!jus myself!i dun wanna get hurt!im gg to be selfish!joleen is gg to be selfish!its gg to b me n onli me!
u made me upset!u made me despair!u made me bcome sm1 whom i dun even dare to noe!u r the culprit!
I HATE YOU!I JUS HATE YOU!!
GET OUT OF MY LIFE WILL YOU!!
N DUN PROMISE WHEN U NOE U CANT KEEP IT!
joleen u r nuts u r a failure..thot u gt over it alr?u didnt did u?u r confused bt ur feelings arent u?even u cnt help urself who can?u r starting to hate to loathe to forgt to ignore..the feeling..u keep denying..but do u mean it?
pple ask u said no..yah confidently...but u realli mean it..u seem excited when u tok bt it..y?when u rceive e msges u r over the moon..y?hw cm?yah he cares..but does he mean it?u r jus a spare tyre joleen!yes!u r theirspare tires!
onli my yanshan my yiting my tkgs charmaine my yvonne my weilin..my zhiyu r my true frans..my soulmates..my everything.dey r always dere for me!
yanshan!i miss toking to you!i need ur listening ears!i wanna cry out loud u noe yanshanx..i cnt!im depressed!onli u noe me well!yes well enuff!
i hate the wrld!i hate my present life..i hate everything..yah i may seem happi on the outside..i try to be!try nt to affect others..coz i dun wanna affect me impression as a cheerful gal..but inside every cheerful gal..joleen cn b veri miserable..im still a fragile person..i do break dn..n esp ever since last yr dis feeling has been grabbing me for a long time..it jus cnt disappear..yah cnt disappear..
god pls gif me sm enlightenment!i need sm!im suffocating!
n rem!promises r realli meant to b kept!
simply..extremely pissed!jus pissed!dunno jus PISSED!PISSED!PISSED!PISSED!
morning was still fine..
maybe its because he called to arrange to meet ytd( lin i just cannot type full lah!so mafan!)
will try again next time mes not in the mood todae!
so sorrie
yah..as i was saying..yah im pissed coz promises r broken yes made and broken!
wad e hell sorrie for the swearing..but i cnt take it animore!pls dun make empty promises if u dun intend to keep em!
pls i beg u!
he called to arrange to meet up,,yah when i was bt to slp ytd nitex..okie lah..meet up den meet up lor..i dun mind lah..
hey c'mon lor..me intended to meet up w lin n von n esp thot dat it shud b alrite to meet in the evening since u r so insistent to meet!specially brought the cookies..who noes as usual ganna pangse..nt as if im desperate to meet u but u r e one who said so!
mood was lousy upon receiving ya msg..yah was affected n ewas half sianx alr..luckily von n lin were ard else i wld realli jus flare up man!yes!
dis me..ganna pangse is nt gd!
the feeling suxs!yes suxs!
u wan me to make time for u?yah i did!nt dat i didnt make time..i did todae..too bad u missed the chance..yes frans im dis mean...dun incur me wrath!i cn b nasty oso!yes when i wan to be...i dun wanna be the angelic joleen whom one noes..im sorrie..im PISSED IM PISSED REALLI PISSED!!
i had enuf of ur sweet talking.yes i had enuf!stp toking to me bt the crap!
yah!
i hate guys at the moment!including u!i dun care hw much u sae bt gor n mei!
i jus dun care!hope dat i cn jus burst out crying nw!yes nw!teas brimming again!i jus cnt cry nw..parents everyone is at hm..no i cnt..
wad tim sum?wad wanna go out wif mei?a piece of shit!sorrie im swearing again:(i cnt stand it animore!u hafta wait?yah!u haf to wanna ask me out is nt easy u noe!im lyk hw pked!im sorrie!u jus hafta wait n i noe u will jus forget!n yah forgt kor!i dun care!i dun wanna care!im me
i love myself!jus myself!i dun wanna get hurt!im gg to be selfish!joleen is gg to be selfish!its gg to b me n onli me!
u made me upset!u made me despair!u made me bcome sm1 whom i dun even dare to noe!u r the culprit!
I HATE YOU!I JUS HATE YOU!!
GET OUT OF MY LIFE WILL YOU!!
N DUN PROMISE WHEN U NOE U CANT KEEP IT!
joleen u r nuts u r a failure..thot u gt over it alr?u didnt did u?u r confused bt ur feelings arent u?even u cnt help urself who can?u r starting to hate to loathe to forgt to ignore..the feeling..u keep denying..but do u mean it?
pple ask u said no..yah confidently...but u realli mean it..u seem excited when u tok bt it..y?when u rceive e msges u r over the moon..y?hw cm?yah he cares..but does he mean it?u r jus a spare tyre joleen!yes!u r theirspare tires!
onli my yanshan my yiting my tkgs charmaine my yvonne my weilin..my zhiyu r my true frans..my soulmates..my everything.dey r always dere for me!
yanshan!i miss toking to you!i need ur listening ears!i wanna cry out loud u noe yanshanx..i cnt!im depressed!onli u noe me well!yes well enuff!
i hate the wrld!i hate my present life..i hate everything..yah i may seem happi on the outside..i try to be!try nt to affect others..coz i dun wanna affect me impression as a cheerful gal..but inside every cheerful gal..joleen cn b veri miserable..im still a fragile person..i do break dn..n esp ever since last yr dis feeling has been grabbing me for a long time..it jus cnt disappear..yah cnt disappear..
god pls gif me sm enlightenment!i need sm!im suffocating!
n rem!promises r realli meant to b kept!
Friday, April 29, 2005
finally HAD sakae!
yah todae finally had sakae..din haf dinner ytd bf n lunch todae n no dinner no bf tmr n lunch..den will b gg for ctc mini gathering at marina bay..gg to eat a bit n mostly veggie bah..
mus lose wt!
hhaa
spent quite alot of money dese few daes but still gt lotsa things to buy!
urghh!!! haha
kkie!
cnt blog for too lg...so dats it..
btw bought a mango skirt..a belt..a fox top..a pair of shoes
needa buy a cap..sports shoes
more skirts surf shorts a tangini..hahaso mani hw broke i cn gt
haha
mus lose wt!
hhaa
spent quite alot of money dese few daes but still gt lotsa things to buy!
urghh!!! haha
kkie!
cnt blog for too lg...so dats it..
btw bought a mango skirt..a belt..a fox top..a pair of shoes
needa buy a cap..sports shoes
more skirts surf shorts a tangini..hahaso mani hw broke i cn gt
haha
itS finALLy pLAy tIMEx
yah!its finalli play timex!
all the hell the shit the sucki life has past!finalli its over!gone gone gone!im feeling much lighter nw..at least im at hm..slacking slping gg out..getting rid of eye bags and stuf..coz opp cost is the nagging i get frm me mummy!but she means well lah
act.!its nt easy..for those who r an 'AVID' reader of me entries u guys shld noe dat me lifes is nt a bed of roses...
it lked lyk it was in the beginning..as in yah the new pple..environment n stuf..the hall the studies the results n stuf..gradually the feeling jus vanquished..esp when it cmes to matters of the heart im lyk a plain smooth piece of paper..nw scratched..
mb its cox of being too uptight bt stuf bah..mb i jus cnt let go of sm stuf..haha..hope mes feeling a bit betta nw..
btw jus sm updates..
gor helped me settle dat joker desmond guy!
hes nt bothering me animore..act. i feel dat he means no harm jus e timing n mb nt fated lah..he scared me off!yah hes jus too frank..direct bt his feelings n im frightened!haha...gutless joleen:)
hes trying to 'date' me out but mes realli packed dear!haha..dun realli wanna go out w him act. hes jus trying to find sth to do to forgt bt her n im his hou lu!yucks!its always lidat..but hes me fran yah his fan or wat he lyks to refer as his sweetest *** haha..yah his sweetest his best his watever..gtta gif him sm moral support though..hes nt too bad aft all huh!haha
gg for sakae w huishan n mel!we r the 3 maskateers?is this the spelling..haha..cnt rem alr!haha..den sagt will be stembt w councillors at marina bay..eeks smelly place leh!haha..den sun tuition n its me n me sis' timex!haha
next mon meeing vonnie n mb in the evening meeting him bah..seehw tue..sentosa den tuition wed learn hw to cycle n k box n tuition thurs n fri camp fri to tue overseas den bk for tuition wed meeting zhiyu..thurs n fri free at the moment sat vj clas gathering sun tk sec 2 clas gathering...
so u guys see y mes short of time?
haha
den mes gg to find wk!
haha
yah..me act. gt lotsa more to blog..but mental block yah..
oh ya charmaine(chikini) aft e 15th den jio u for sakae k?
i dun forgt me promise lyk guys do!
n i mean realli!guys dun forgt wad ya promise k!coz we guys haf ultra mem!n well rem all details u saed!a promise is a promise n once uve promised n its broken!!sorrie u r nt forgiven!
so rem!promise r meant to be kept if nt it wnt be called a promise!
all the hell the shit the sucki life has past!finalli its over!gone gone gone!im feeling much lighter nw..at least im at hm..slacking slping gg out..getting rid of eye bags and stuf..coz opp cost is the nagging i get frm me mummy!but she means well lah
act.!its nt easy..for those who r an 'AVID' reader of me entries u guys shld noe dat me lifes is nt a bed of roses...
it lked lyk it was in the beginning..as in yah the new pple..environment n stuf..the hall the studies the results n stuf..gradually the feeling jus vanquished..esp when it cmes to matters of the heart im lyk a plain smooth piece of paper..nw scratched..
mb its cox of being too uptight bt stuf bah..mb i jus cnt let go of sm stuf..haha..hope mes feeling a bit betta nw..
btw jus sm updates..
gor helped me settle dat joker desmond guy!
hes nt bothering me animore..act. i feel dat he means no harm jus e timing n mb nt fated lah..he scared me off!yah hes jus too frank..direct bt his feelings n im frightened!haha...gutless joleen:)
hes trying to 'date' me out but mes realli packed dear!haha..dun realli wanna go out w him act. hes jus trying to find sth to do to forgt bt her n im his hou lu!yucks!its always lidat..but hes me fran yah his fan or wat he lyks to refer as his sweetest *** haha..yah his sweetest his best his watever..gtta gif him sm moral support though..hes nt too bad aft all huh!haha
gg for sakae w huishan n mel!we r the 3 maskateers?is this the spelling..haha..cnt rem alr!haha..den sagt will be stembt w councillors at marina bay..eeks smelly place leh!haha..den sun tuition n its me n me sis' timex!haha
next mon meeing vonnie n mb in the evening meeting him bah..seehw tue..sentosa den tuition wed learn hw to cycle n k box n tuition thurs n fri camp fri to tue overseas den bk for tuition wed meeting zhiyu..thurs n fri free at the moment sat vj clas gathering sun tk sec 2 clas gathering...
so u guys see y mes short of time?
haha
den mes gg to find wk!
haha
yah..me act. gt lotsa more to blog..but mental block yah..
oh ya charmaine(chikini) aft e 15th den jio u for sakae k?
i dun forgt me promise lyk guys do!
n i mean realli!guys dun forgt wad ya promise k!coz we guys haf ultra mem!n well rem all details u saed!a promise is a promise n once uve promised n its broken!!sorrie u r nt forgiven!
so rem!promise r meant to be kept if nt it wnt be called a promise!
Sunday, April 17, 2005
HAPPY birthday DAPH!!
HAPPY BDAE DAPHNE!!! haha..tink this the 3rd time mes wishing u alr!hmm in 5 weeks' time it will be mine!eeekss!hate the 22nd yr n mes cfm dreading it to be here!!!alas!!!pls dun cm mans!!hope daph enjoyed herself n bet u did right?with us ard!haha
may all ur wishes come true n our new bdae wish: hope to find a bf a nice, sweet, thotful as ******...haha..we shall keep our fingers cross yar?haha..
todays the 3rd day of CNY n mes glad tt me went for the gathering a jeromes place..yar at bradell, far, but thot might as well since ive gt nothing on today n mes graduating soon so might as well spend more time with my hall peeps..not dat me gt nothing to do at home..jus dun feel like doing tut..hmm..me shall finish up tmr since tmrs my free day!heehee
so was at jeromes house played 2 rds of mj in a blurry n confused state den watched a bit of shws, guessed me dozed off bahs..after waiting for our mr. darren to appear which was alr 7pm we headed to junction 8's cafe cartel..ordered chicken n mushroom macaroni, not bad but since it was alr nearing nine so me din finish the food..hmm..feeling fat mans..but paiseh to order salad oso..haha..so in the end shunzhao the hungry bioy finished it..good at least not wasted!nice to be cutting cake n celeb daphs bdae dere again!haha..rd 1 was last thurs!!haha..supposed to go watch movie in the end due to e limited number of shows n the odd timings we decide to jus go home..by tt time it was alr 10pm..yawns..haha
luckily darren drove so he sent me daph n zhao home!!so nice..glad he did mans since mes hafing blisters!dunno y will haf blisters since ive worn dat pair of heels a few times le..aiyos..painful..haha..mus thank daph mans..tuo ni de fu!haha..:) a nice chap he is..thanks daph thanks darren..haha
hmm..shall go slp early swim in the afternn tmr..gt myself out of the hse mans!exercise since ive input quite a bit..n mes gg to revert back to my formal diet regime!haha..hmm...guess mes rather good at calculating n est my intake this few days..okie mus jiayou!!n so dis explains y my mum has to coax us into eating those CNY goodies!aha.
really cant wait for recess to cm n mes gg to ensure dat mes gonna go swim at least 2x n mugged for my jap, do my ge proj!veri soon its gg to be over!
may all ur wishes come true n our new bdae wish: hope to find a bf a nice, sweet, thotful as ******...haha..we shall keep our fingers cross yar?haha..
todays the 3rd day of CNY n mes glad tt me went for the gathering a jeromes place..yar at bradell, far, but thot might as well since ive gt nothing on today n mes graduating soon so might as well spend more time with my hall peeps..not dat me gt nothing to do at home..jus dun feel like doing tut..hmm..me shall finish up tmr since tmrs my free day!heehee
so was at jeromes house played 2 rds of mj in a blurry n confused state den watched a bit of shws, guessed me dozed off bahs..after waiting for our mr. darren to appear which was alr 7pm we headed to junction 8's cafe cartel..ordered chicken n mushroom macaroni, not bad but since it was alr nearing nine so me din finish the food..hmm..feeling fat mans..but paiseh to order salad oso..haha..so in the end shunzhao the hungry bioy finished it..good at least not wasted!nice to be cutting cake n celeb daphs bdae dere again!haha..rd 1 was last thurs!!haha..supposed to go watch movie in the end due to e limited number of shows n the odd timings we decide to jus go home..by tt time it was alr 10pm..yawns..haha
luckily darren drove so he sent me daph n zhao home!!so nice..glad he did mans since mes hafing blisters!dunno y will haf blisters since ive worn dat pair of heels a few times le..aiyos..painful..haha..mus thank daph mans..tuo ni de fu!haha..:) a nice chap he is..thanks daph thanks darren..haha
hmm..shall go slp early swim in the afternn tmr..gt myself out of the hse mans!exercise since ive input quite a bit..n mes gg to revert back to my formal diet regime!haha..hmm...guess mes rather good at calculating n est my intake this few days..okie mus jiayou!!n so dis explains y my mum has to coax us into eating those CNY goodies!aha.
really cant wait for recess to cm n mes gg to ensure dat mes gonna go swim at least 2x n mugged for my jap, do my ge proj!veri soon its gg to be over!
Saturday, April 16, 2005
I LOVE MY MEI !
'I LOVE MY MEI !'
dats wad he typed todae when he initiated on msn..haha..
it sds sweet..realli sweet..coz it cm frm him..*grinx*
i tink its onli for dat moment when i read it..haha..wads the meaning of 'love' in his dictionary?its veri vague..realli veri vague..he cn sae he love this mei a few times in a wk n hw sweet this mei is..im immune..numbed after awhile..nt sinking in n nt takin these wrds literally as bfore..hes jus another better fran jus dat we r much closer?closer?nt exactly i shud tink so..
to me..love is a sacred wrd which i wnt use so freely..its nt ani 4letter wrd..it means a lot..onli reserved for 'the one'. so i wnt use it unless..having said so..means dat i wnt waste it on him..yah..I WONT!!
mayb im jus too conservative over such matters but wad to do?w me upbringing...haha..
he cfmed broke up her..i suppose so..i mean its e other wae..she broke up w him..hes super depressed i guess..me try nr to ask too much oso..dun let his current state destroy me mood to studi n lyk wad charmaine said..its silly to let his burden bcm mine..nt dat ill ignore him/shw less concern but jus nt as much..it hurts n its tiresome to constantly do so..joleen is halfwae up the shithole..haha
ytd.he said:'dun leave me mei' i was taken aback a little'mes trying to protect meself..me dearest xxx! nt dat i wanna desert u..but ive had me share of ur troubles n thoughts..ur life..strenuous!so do spare me for once...i guess u cn manage ritex..i cn onli acc u dis much..hard to carry on..i wan a life too!
ritex nw..concentrating on studies..one ge paper dn!!todae left earli...first time in me life dat i left 45 mins earli in an exam!haha..will end on the 26th..but nt prepared for it..next wed!!heehee..gg redang for 4 daes!yippee!w hall mates to relax!heehee n oso had palns here n dere alr..to meet w pals all over!of coz me beloved pal!yanshan!!!haha
nt forgetting me dearest zuzu..li n vonnie!!ct mates..weinee n me triplet babe!!!haha..oh yah..oso mus rem to treat charmaine to sakae..aiyo if nt start wrk no time to do all dese!oh yah!!
gg to take up singing classes again!heehee its gg be 4 times per mth for 150 bucks in a sch near bugis area..singing is me interest..a passion..its jus so nice to be indulging in music..close frans will noe me dreams:)
haha..was tinkin of me 21st bdae!!!
yah n act onli wanted to bk a chalet n invite frans to celeb..but gt a shock of me life!!im gg entend invitation to ard 160 peeps!most frans whom ive met in me life!
cox inclusive of me family members n relatives lah!!wow!will be holding on the 25th march..which is a sat!!so dose who haf access to me blog..u r privileged to noe bt di bforehand!!!start saving up n prepare for me da sou bah!
me needa save up lotsa more!!!dunno hw..tiking of hafin a bdae committee to help me out!ani volunteers? i need a venue n stuf..mb its too earli..but if dun start earli den no time..haha..cn tell me if ya r interested to help me out k?thxs thxs!!!
haha..gg for a portfolio shoot which will cost ard 200 odd oso..die mes a spendthrift dear..but me mentality is that..since im yg i shud do wadever i feel lyk..im afraid to grw old..im afraid to see meself wither..im afraid to mature..i dread 20..but im alr 20..i wanna lk yg!
din wanna blog dis part..but since u guys managed to survive thus far..its jus a bit more bfore i revisit me lala land!
went jogging on tue..n was utterly surprised dat a guy named desmond approached me for directions..as gullicle n blur as ever..shwed him e wae..he claimed he has a tuition agency n thus gave him me contact..i was silly enuf to gif it to him!!!!me dear frans..dun scold me but dis is the joleen u noe..so paiseh..feel lyk digging a hole n bury meself in it!!urghh...
he said hes frm nus yr 4..doing ee..lives in blk 6 which is lyk e blk opposite mine..lyk i care..den suddenli he msged n called me but i din pick up..he keep asking me to meet up..but i refued n gave him excuses dat i needa mug..nw me frans sae i mus avoiod him n nt reply..yah i din when he msged me dis morn to wish me gd luck for the ge paper..
he said dat he wans to noe me..wan me to gif him a chance to noe me better!wad crap is this..thot dis kinda thing onli happens in movie shws?dunno wad sincere..first time noeing a gal lyk dis..hes sorrie n stuf..huh?wad dis?
tink im cursed to meet strange n despo pple..its scaring me..n ive to keep a constant lkout so dat he wnt appear within me vicinity..esp when i go jogging..gg to jog tmr..crossing me fingers real tight!oh no!!
though its lyk a confidence booster for me..but c'mon!dis kinda of thing is hw sucky!aiyo!!thot leaving hall for hm will be betta but nw it doesnt seem like it..lyk worse leh..at least sch pple nt so direct n frightening..dis case is serious n i tink hes real serious too!help help!!jiu wo bah!!
din dare to tell me mum!shell definitely freak out..nw shes lyk nagging over stuf lyk me dressing n stuf..short skirt..n most of the time..im lyk hafing sex education at hm!oh man!!!wad the hell!haha..if i were to tell her..tink shell acc me everywhere as if im much protected overgrown kid!jus praying hard dat hell forgt bt me n nt do anithing funni..
yah..its nice to haf admireres but nt when its lyk dis..
dear all!
to those who r hafing exams:all the best for ya papers n we shall meet up sn!
to those who haf finished!: start tinking n quickly 'book' me k?im real busy...!!haha..
to those who r troubled over sae..r'ship/other personal stuf: god will lk after us as lg as we persevere..we will survive thru!
nitex!me gg to lala land!!
huggies!!!
dats wad he typed todae when he initiated on msn..haha..
it sds sweet..realli sweet..coz it cm frm him..*grinx*
i tink its onli for dat moment when i read it..haha..wads the meaning of 'love' in his dictionary?its veri vague..realli veri vague..he cn sae he love this mei a few times in a wk n hw sweet this mei is..im immune..numbed after awhile..nt sinking in n nt takin these wrds literally as bfore..hes jus another better fran jus dat we r much closer?closer?nt exactly i shud tink so..
to me..love is a sacred wrd which i wnt use so freely..its nt ani 4letter wrd..it means a lot..onli reserved for 'the one'. so i wnt use it unless..having said so..means dat i wnt waste it on him..yah..I WONT!!
mayb im jus too conservative over such matters but wad to do?w me upbringing...haha..
he cfmed broke up her..i suppose so..i mean its e other wae..she broke up w him..hes super depressed i guess..me try nr to ask too much oso..dun let his current state destroy me mood to studi n lyk wad charmaine said..its silly to let his burden bcm mine..nt dat ill ignore him/shw less concern but jus nt as much..it hurts n its tiresome to constantly do so..joleen is halfwae up the shithole..haha
ytd.he said:'dun leave me mei' i was taken aback a little'mes trying to protect meself..me dearest xxx! nt dat i wanna desert u..but ive had me share of ur troubles n thoughts..ur life..strenuous!so do spare me for once...i guess u cn manage ritex..i cn onli acc u dis much..hard to carry on..i wan a life too!
ritex nw..concentrating on studies..one ge paper dn!!todae left earli...first time in me life dat i left 45 mins earli in an exam!haha..will end on the 26th..but nt prepared for it..next wed!!heehee..gg redang for 4 daes!yippee!w hall mates to relax!heehee n oso had palns here n dere alr..to meet w pals all over!of coz me beloved pal!yanshan!!!haha
nt forgetting me dearest zuzu..li n vonnie!!ct mates..weinee n me triplet babe!!!haha..oh yah..oso mus rem to treat charmaine to sakae..aiyo if nt start wrk no time to do all dese!oh yah!!
gg to take up singing classes again!heehee its gg be 4 times per mth for 150 bucks in a sch near bugis area..singing is me interest..a passion..its jus so nice to be indulging in music..close frans will noe me dreams:)
haha..was tinkin of me 21st bdae!!!
yah n act onli wanted to bk a chalet n invite frans to celeb..but gt a shock of me life!!im gg entend invitation to ard 160 peeps!most frans whom ive met in me life!
cox inclusive of me family members n relatives lah!!wow!will be holding on the 25th march..which is a sat!!so dose who haf access to me blog..u r privileged to noe bt di bforehand!!!start saving up n prepare for me da sou bah!
me needa save up lotsa more!!!dunno hw..tiking of hafin a bdae committee to help me out!ani volunteers? i need a venue n stuf..mb its too earli..but if dun start earli den no time..haha..cn tell me if ya r interested to help me out k?thxs thxs!!!
haha..gg for a portfolio shoot which will cost ard 200 odd oso..die mes a spendthrift dear..but me mentality is that..since im yg i shud do wadever i feel lyk..im afraid to grw old..im afraid to see meself wither..im afraid to mature..i dread 20..but im alr 20..i wanna lk yg!
din wanna blog dis part..but since u guys managed to survive thus far..its jus a bit more bfore i revisit me lala land!
went jogging on tue..n was utterly surprised dat a guy named desmond approached me for directions..as gullicle n blur as ever..shwed him e wae..he claimed he has a tuition agency n thus gave him me contact..i was silly enuf to gif it to him!!!!me dear frans..dun scold me but dis is the joleen u noe..so paiseh..feel lyk digging a hole n bury meself in it!!urghh...
he said hes frm nus yr 4..doing ee..lives in blk 6 which is lyk e blk opposite mine..lyk i care..den suddenli he msged n called me but i din pick up..he keep asking me to meet up..but i refued n gave him excuses dat i needa mug..nw me frans sae i mus avoiod him n nt reply..yah i din when he msged me dis morn to wish me gd luck for the ge paper..
he said dat he wans to noe me..wan me to gif him a chance to noe me better!wad crap is this..thot dis kinda thing onli happens in movie shws?dunno wad sincere..first time noeing a gal lyk dis..hes sorrie n stuf..huh?wad dis?
tink im cursed to meet strange n despo pple..its scaring me..n ive to keep a constant lkout so dat he wnt appear within me vicinity..esp when i go jogging..gg to jog tmr..crossing me fingers real tight!oh no!!
though its lyk a confidence booster for me..but c'mon!dis kinda of thing is hw sucky!aiyo!!thot leaving hall for hm will be betta but nw it doesnt seem like it..lyk worse leh..at least sch pple nt so direct n frightening..dis case is serious n i tink hes real serious too!help help!!jiu wo bah!!
din dare to tell me mum!shell definitely freak out..nw shes lyk nagging over stuf lyk me dressing n stuf..short skirt..n most of the time..im lyk hafing sex education at hm!oh man!!!wad the hell!haha..if i were to tell her..tink shell acc me everywhere as if im much protected overgrown kid!jus praying hard dat hell forgt bt me n nt do anithing funni..
yah..its nice to haf admireres but nt when its lyk dis..
dear all!
to those who r hafing exams:all the best for ya papers n we shall meet up sn!
to those who haf finished!: start tinking n quickly 'book' me k?im real busy...!!haha..
to those who r troubled over sae..r'ship/other personal stuf: god will lk after us as lg as we persevere..we will survive thru!
nitex!me gg to lala land!!
huggies!!!
Monday, April 11, 2005
me purrfect match!
me haf been taking lotsa online quizzes n stuff!haha..self entertaining i guess..
haf been slping more den mugging..yawnx jus cm bk frm mac at bras basah where me n huishan mugged..haha
gg to studi again..
this test i tk todae after reading me dearest tingx blog!haha..
so ya suit the following traits u shall be e purrfect guy!haha....
Your dating personality profile:
You matched the following traits:
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.Your date match profile:
You match with men who have following traits:
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Stylish
3. Big-Hearted
4. Liberal
5. Romantic
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Traditional
8. Adventurous
9. Shy
10. Intellectual
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Big-Hearted
3. Practical
4. Outgoing
5. Stylish
6. Traditional
7. Adventurous
8. Intellectual
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Conservative
haf been slping more den mugging..yawnx jus cm bk frm mac at bras basah where me n huishan mugged..haha
gg to studi again..
this test i tk todae after reading me dearest tingx blog!haha..
so ya suit the following traits u shall be e purrfect guy!haha....
Your dating personality profile:
You matched the following traits:
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.Your date match profile:
You match with men who have following traits:
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Stylish
3. Big-Hearted
4. Liberal
5. Romantic
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Traditional
8. Adventurous
9. Shy
10. Intellectual
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Big-Hearted
3. Practical
4. Outgoing
5. Stylish
6. Traditional
7. Adventurous
8. Intellectual
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Conservative
me purrfect match!
me haf been taking lotsa online quizzes n stuff!haha..self entertaining i guess..
haf been slping more den mugging..yawnx jus cm bk frm mac at bras basah where me n huishan mugged..haha
gg to studi again..
this test i tk todae after reading me dearest tingx blog!haha..
so ya suit the following traits u shall be e purrfect guy!haha....
Your dating personality profile:
You matched the following traits:
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.Your date match profile:
You match with men who have following traits:
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Stylish
3. Big-Hearted
4. Liberal
5. Romantic
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Traditional
8. Adventurous
9. Shy
10. Intellectual
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Big-Hearted
3. Practical
4. Outgoing
5. Stylish
6. Traditional
7. Adventurous
8. Intellectual
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Conservative
haf been slping more den mugging..yawnx jus cm bk frm mac at bras basah where me n huishan mugged..haha
gg to studi again..
this test i tk todae after reading me dearest tingx blog!haha..
so ya suit the following traits u shall be e purrfect guy!haha....
Your dating personality profile:
You matched the following traits:
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.Your date match profile:
You match with men who have following traits:
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Stylish
3. Big-Hearted
4. Liberal
5. Romantic
6. Wealthy/Ambitious
7. Traditional
8. Adventurous
9. Shy
10. Intellectual
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Big-Hearted
3. Practical
4. Outgoing
5. Stylish
6. Traditional
7. Adventurous
8. Intellectual
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Conservative
Sunday, April 10, 2005
tink its really TRUE!!
Every Gals R born Different....
Some's up to your taste, some's not.
& out of millioNs of Gals, there's bound to be the
Right One
juz for you.
Do you know?
Gals= cute, sweet, faithful, determined,
caring and
has a beautiful side which no one else
other den
her Prince can see.
Gals= When they cry, it would means tat
their
heart is really bleeding and tat you have
hurt her
too deeply.
Gals=They smile the sweetest when you
made
them really happy...
Gals= They are really beautiful...even if
they're not
facially perfect, they're beautiful in the
inside...
Lastly................
Girls........
could really love a guy for who they
are.............
They could learn to forgive & forget their
guy's
mistakes..............
That's just how noble they are................
But guys don seems to understand.........
That's just their surface...................
Being strong is juz their surface...............
They need you around to be there for
them..........
That's why they would miss you badly
when you're
not there.............
Love might not be important for the
guys...........
But it's everything to a gal.............
The taste of love is the same taste as
Chocolates.....
It's sweet and bitter...........
All they wants is a perfect sweet ending
in their
relationship.........
Don hurt them...........Gals are fragile.......
Love your loved ones with true love........
Not pityness.............
SMS an " I Love You" to your gf..........
She'll be surprised and happy............
Only then could you be able to see.........
Her sweetest smile........
The most beautiful side of her...........
Feel the love and care she showered on
you.......
Until this, you'll find Love.........
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
Some's up to your taste, some's not.
& out of millioNs of Gals, there's bound to be the
Right One
juz for you.
Do you know?
Gals= cute, sweet, faithful, determined,
caring and
has a beautiful side which no one else
other den
her Prince can see.
Gals= When they cry, it would means tat
their
heart is really bleeding and tat you have
hurt her
too deeply.
Gals=They smile the sweetest when you
made
them really happy...
Gals= They are really beautiful...even if
they're not
facially perfect, they're beautiful in the
inside...
Lastly................
Girls........
could really love a guy for who they
are.............
They could learn to forgive & forget their
guy's
mistakes..............
That's just how noble they are................
But guys don seems to understand.........
That's just their surface...................
Being strong is juz their surface...............
They need you around to be there for
them..........
That's why they would miss you badly
when you're
not there.............
Love might not be important for the
guys...........
But it's everything to a gal.............
The taste of love is the same taste as
Chocolates.....
It's sweet and bitter...........
All they wants is a perfect sweet ending
in their
relationship.........
Don hurt them...........Gals are fragile.......
Love your loved ones with true love........
Not pityness.............
SMS an " I Love You" to your gf..........
She'll be surprised and happy............
Only then could you be able to see.........
Her sweetest smile........
The most beautiful side of her...........
Feel the love and care she showered on
you.......
Until this, you'll find Love.........
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
tink its really TRUE!!
Every Gals R born Different....
Some's up to your taste, some's not.
& out of millioNs of Gals, there's bound to be the
Right One
juz for you.
Do you know?
Gals= cute, sweet, faithful, determined,
caring and
has a beautiful side which no one else
other den
her Prince can see.
Gals= When they cry, it would means tat
their
heart is really bleeding and tat you have
hurt her
too deeply.
Gals=They smile the sweetest when you
made
them really happy...
Gals= They are really beautiful...even if
they're not
facially perfect, they're beautiful in the
inside...
Lastly................
Girls........
could really love a guy for who they
are.............
They could learn to forgive & forget their
guy's
mistakes..............
That's just how noble they are................
But guys don seems to understand.........
That's just their surface...................
Being strong is juz their surface...............
They need you around to be there for
them..........
That's why they would miss you badly
when you're
not there.............
Love might not be important for the
guys...........
But it's everything to a gal.............
The taste of love is the same taste as
Chocolates.....
It's sweet and bitter...........
All they wants is a perfect sweet ending
in their
relationship.........
Don hurt them...........Gals are fragile.......
Love your loved ones with true love........
Not pityness.............
SMS an " I Love You" to your gf..........
She'll be surprised and happy............
Only then could you be able to see.........
Her sweetest smile........
The most beautiful side of her...........
Feel the love and care she showered on
you.......
Until this, you'll find Love.........
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
Some's up to your taste, some's not.
& out of millioNs of Gals, there's bound to be the
Right One
juz for you.
Do you know?
Gals= cute, sweet, faithful, determined,
caring and
has a beautiful side which no one else
other den
her Prince can see.
Gals= When they cry, it would means tat
their
heart is really bleeding and tat you have
hurt her
too deeply.
Gals=They smile the sweetest when you
made
them really happy...
Gals= They are really beautiful...even if
they're not
facially perfect, they're beautiful in the
inside...
Lastly................
Girls........
could really love a guy for who they
are.............
They could learn to forgive & forget their
guy's
mistakes..............
That's just how noble they are................
But guys don seems to understand.........
That's just their surface...................
Being strong is juz their surface...............
They need you around to be there for
them..........
That's why they would miss you badly
when you're
not there.............
Love might not be important for the
guys...........
But it's everything to a gal.............
The taste of love is the same taste as
Chocolates.....
It's sweet and bitter...........
All they wants is a perfect sweet ending
in their
relationship.........
Don hurt them...........Gals are fragile.......
Love your loved ones with true love........
Not pityness.............
SMS an " I Love You" to your gf..........
She'll be surprised and happy............
Only then could you be able to see.........
Her sweetest smile........
The most beautiful side of her...........
Feel the love and care she showered on
you.......
Until this, you'll find Love.........
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
("V")
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
e lAsT laP
finalli it proj is over!dread it!yucks!
but finalli its over..super duper tired nw!haha..jus had dinner n yesh! half a pk of maggie egg 2hotdogs n jap mushrm..haha..gd diet!haha
slept at 2 but woke up at 530..coz of his stupid msg at 430am..so bright dat i woke up..
finalli dn w me single rm application..fine w all five rms n yeah!of cox gtting mayfair will be nice as in me first choice n nt depriving hanyan of her rm!mb gg redang this hols!!!haha,,great first time gg on trip w frans and guess wad!!mummy act. agreed!haha
nw mugging hard!
yeah!!but i tink nt as hard as last sem i mus still buck up joleen!
toking bt mugging..went out to mug after tuition at orchard..haha..suppose to meet charmaine at 530 in e end me skye n her ate at cartel..had salad as usual..haha..
wanted to go mac at ymca to studi but it was alreadi ard 8 when we were done. went heerens spinelli instead..open air n full of cigar smoke!i swear me nt gg to mug in dat kinda of environment again!
enjoyed toking to ya n fd out a lot frm u partner..i mean u r definitely more experienced since uve been thru a lot den me..glad dat u nic sds happier dese few daes..n dun tink too much!nice to haf a nice senior lyk u!interesting person n crappy at times..tink lyk wad u sae u can feel more for..dats y its comfortable to tok to ya..n analyse me probs.
thanks thanks!will try to heed yr advice bt him..yah..its nt realli worth it..passed him the prez n asked him if he noes mine..haha...n he frankly asked when!haha..yes partner..i shld consider wad im realli doing..silly me!yesh i need scolding..i need to wake up!u mus help me..haha..
hols cming!but hafta settle exams..wanna meet up w shanx n stuf..
me tink im gtting more n more vain..which is bad..im nt the joleen frm tk n vj animore..smtimes i dunno wad im tinkin..its nt wad i shld do..i mean..i cnt understd meself..mb im deprived of close frans..shanx tingx charmx!y mus we split..if onli u all r by me side..
mb ive been in a gal sch for too lg n gg into a jc n nt having a bf are affecting me..haha..nt dat im deprived or wad..but seeing frans gtting attached so fast makes me realli wonder wads happening to me.haha..ill b left alone?haha..no lah..
problems will surface in a r'ship too..n i tink im nt dat kind h who cn tk such things..im will luf him dearly..hold him close to me heart..gor kept saeing im e sweetest in earth!haha..u realli tink so?i dun..mb onli u tink so..me jus wan to see pple smilex so i dun mind spending a little more time n effort to shw close frans more concern..hope pple wnt gt e wrg idea..
even if i lyk sm one i wnt tk e initiative..hes gtta tell me!though its the 21st century but mes nt this kind..me gal leh..haha..out of pt! i noe..
pARtner..ur theory:its all abt feeling seems to set in..one cnt force another..if its here its here, we cnt stop it frm cming..im beginning to understd wad dis means!:)
time to nap n mug for acc ltr!no more msn n its studi time!!!
but finalli its over..super duper tired nw!haha..jus had dinner n yesh! half a pk of maggie egg 2hotdogs n jap mushrm..haha..gd diet!haha
slept at 2 but woke up at 530..coz of his stupid msg at 430am..so bright dat i woke up..
finalli dn w me single rm application..fine w all five rms n yeah!of cox gtting mayfair will be nice as in me first choice n nt depriving hanyan of her rm!mb gg redang this hols!!!haha,,great first time gg on trip w frans and guess wad!!mummy act. agreed!haha
nw mugging hard!
yeah!!but i tink nt as hard as last sem i mus still buck up joleen!
toking bt mugging..went out to mug after tuition at orchard..haha..suppose to meet charmaine at 530 in e end me skye n her ate at cartel..had salad as usual..haha..
wanted to go mac at ymca to studi but it was alreadi ard 8 when we were done. went heerens spinelli instead..open air n full of cigar smoke!i swear me nt gg to mug in dat kinda of environment again!
enjoyed toking to ya n fd out a lot frm u partner..i mean u r definitely more experienced since uve been thru a lot den me..glad dat u nic sds happier dese few daes..n dun tink too much!nice to haf a nice senior lyk u!interesting person n crappy at times..tink lyk wad u sae u can feel more for..dats y its comfortable to tok to ya..n analyse me probs.
thanks thanks!will try to heed yr advice bt him..yah..its nt realli worth it..passed him the prez n asked him if he noes mine..haha...n he frankly asked when!haha..yes partner..i shld consider wad im realli doing..silly me!yesh i need scolding..i need to wake up!u mus help me..haha..
hols cming!but hafta settle exams..wanna meet up w shanx n stuf..
me tink im gtting more n more vain..which is bad..im nt the joleen frm tk n vj animore..smtimes i dunno wad im tinkin..its nt wad i shld do..i mean..i cnt understd meself..mb im deprived of close frans..shanx tingx charmx!y mus we split..if onli u all r by me side..
mb ive been in a gal sch for too lg n gg into a jc n nt having a bf are affecting me..haha..nt dat im deprived or wad..but seeing frans gtting attached so fast makes me realli wonder wads happening to me.haha..ill b left alone?haha..no lah..
problems will surface in a r'ship too..n i tink im nt dat kind h who cn tk such things..im will luf him dearly..hold him close to me heart..gor kept saeing im e sweetest in earth!haha..u realli tink so?i dun..mb onli u tink so..me jus wan to see pple smilex so i dun mind spending a little more time n effort to shw close frans more concern..hope pple wnt gt e wrg idea..
even if i lyk sm one i wnt tk e initiative..hes gtta tell me!though its the 21st century but mes nt this kind..me gal leh..haha..out of pt! i noe..
pARtner..ur theory:its all abt feeling seems to set in..one cnt force another..if its here its here, we cnt stop it frm cming..im beginning to understd wad dis means!:)
time to nap n mug for acc ltr!no more msn n its studi time!!!
Saturday, April 02, 2005
jus to update..
busy wk?nah..nt realli..skipped tut on thurs morn..jus cnt wake meself up to go sch..
its gg to b to n fro for this last wk den cmes the exams n break!
haha..mugging hard.am?
econs, biz law and it still more /less on time..but acc..im scared..everywk do tut dun haf xtra time to mug..
todae tuition ended earli..went parkwae to gt gor his bdae prez..gt him a pierre cardin 'metal' pen w his name engraved on it!!haha..hope he lyks it!had a hard time tinking of wad to gt him..
m i too nice to him?
i jus cnt help it!
u noe wad..he din even msg me to wish me on me birthdae..act. i expected bfore dat..i expectd him to forgt n nt do anything...
luckily i was prepared else ill b super miserable that he din msg me..
but who cares ive gt lotsa other msges!!thxs babes n dudes for the msges..n thxs huishan n mel for the macro mini puremilk skirt..its damn short...omg!!!
haha..dun realli dare to wear it...haha..
wanna thank u guys for remering!at least my dream for a peaceful n quiet nitex was realised!haha..though i spent it mugging in me rm the whole nitex..i was happy..deres serenity in me..he wished me happie bdae n we chatted for quite a while..me moving to mayfair if realli successful n hes trying to gt himself out of the gl thing so i tink its fate daft we will nt haf a chance to find out more bt each other..haha
wanna thank him for e e-card he created using 'paint' n the msn's bdae cake n candles..thank u u guys for 'keeping' me online..yesh!its indeed a satisfactory nitex
wanna thank twin n huifen for the wishes..thanks alot..
wanna thank u charmaine for 'singing'me bdae sg over sms!haha..dats sweet..
wanna thank charmx,tingx n shanx for remering!luf u n miss u babes..
wanna thank ct frans for ur wishes!realli surprised dat zhenhao, kirit n even zhixian remered..
wanna thank nee,ginny,zhiwei n triplet oso!!oh no!!so mani to thank
COZ cnt forgt me closer councillors!!clarence for calling..von n darius..
wanna specially mention me mum n dad for this dae..me sis for the new bags!!me mum oso..me sis pei for the pen..haha..u silly gal..
though it was a hooha this year but i dun mind..coz i was mugging for 2 tests!!n jus let me shw off a bit!!haha..gt 72.5% for it n 95%for econs!haha...see im smart!!jeremiah n darren!!!i dun need smarties!
haha..
hafing thanked so mani pple..cnt believe dat gor u r nt included in the list..u shld b at the top of e list act.!
as ur mei!i wanna thank u for being me gor..i noe this sounds silly but u r still me gor n i noe u will always treat me as ur mei yesh!ur onli mei for ur troubles onli...but at least u pour ya em onto me..it may b a burden on me but as lg as u r ok..i wish u all e best..
cnt wait to pass ya ur prez!n ur reaction!but guess i wnt b able to see dat..
cnt wait for exams to b over
cnt wait to reside in me lalala land for daes
cnt wait to do lotsa of things during the hols!!
so in order to enjoy..ill mug hard for gs results!!!
AABC is me GOAL!!!
take care frans!
its gg to b to n fro for this last wk den cmes the exams n break!
haha..mugging hard.am?
econs, biz law and it still more /less on time..but acc..im scared..everywk do tut dun haf xtra time to mug..
todae tuition ended earli..went parkwae to gt gor his bdae prez..gt him a pierre cardin 'metal' pen w his name engraved on it!!haha..hope he lyks it!had a hard time tinking of wad to gt him..
m i too nice to him?
i jus cnt help it!
u noe wad..he din even msg me to wish me on me birthdae..act. i expected bfore dat..i expectd him to forgt n nt do anything...
luckily i was prepared else ill b super miserable that he din msg me..
but who cares ive gt lotsa other msges!!thxs babes n dudes for the msges..n thxs huishan n mel for the macro mini puremilk skirt..its damn short...omg!!!
haha..dun realli dare to wear it...haha..
wanna thank u guys for remering!at least my dream for a peaceful n quiet nitex was realised!haha..though i spent it mugging in me rm the whole nitex..i was happy..deres serenity in me..he wished me happie bdae n we chatted for quite a while..me moving to mayfair if realli successful n hes trying to gt himself out of the gl thing so i tink its fate daft we will nt haf a chance to find out more bt each other..haha
wanna thank him for e e-card he created using 'paint' n the msn's bdae cake n candles..thank u u guys for 'keeping' me online..yesh!its indeed a satisfactory nitex
wanna thank twin n huifen for the wishes..thanks alot..
wanna thank u charmaine for 'singing'me bdae sg over sms!haha..dats sweet..
wanna thank charmx,tingx n shanx for remering!luf u n miss u babes..
wanna thank ct frans for ur wishes!realli surprised dat zhenhao, kirit n even zhixian remered..
wanna thank nee,ginny,zhiwei n triplet oso!!oh no!!so mani to thank
COZ cnt forgt me closer councillors!!clarence for calling..von n darius..
wanna specially mention me mum n dad for this dae..me sis for the new bags!!me mum oso..me sis pei for the pen..haha..u silly gal..
though it was a hooha this year but i dun mind..coz i was mugging for 2 tests!!n jus let me shw off a bit!!haha..gt 72.5% for it n 95%for econs!haha...see im smart!!jeremiah n darren!!!i dun need smarties!
haha..
hafing thanked so mani pple..cnt believe dat gor u r nt included in the list..u shld b at the top of e list act.!
as ur mei!i wanna thank u for being me gor..i noe this sounds silly but u r still me gor n i noe u will always treat me as ur mei yesh!ur onli mei for ur troubles onli...but at least u pour ya em onto me..it may b a burden on me but as lg as u r ok..i wish u all e best..
cnt wait to pass ya ur prez!n ur reaction!but guess i wnt b able to see dat..
cnt wait for exams to b over
cnt wait to reside in me lalala land for daes
cnt wait to do lotsa of things during the hols!!
so in order to enjoy..ill mug hard for gs results!!!
AABC is me GOAL!!!
take care frans!
Friday, April 01, 2005
cool analysis of mmmmme111
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this worldSo much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficultYou are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficultYou are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
cool analysis of mmmmme111
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this worldSo much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficultYou are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficultYou are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Friday, March 25, 2005
aT hOMe!!!
yah finally cn use me laptop at hm n connected to net!!
blur me connect line to wrg 'hole'
was surprised dat he n mingfeng gave me a surprised visit last tues..22nd of april!
he was carrying my stats textbk:) haha..so nerdy gor!!!
haha..its been a lg time since we toked thot it will b onli the two of us but mf cm..i admit dat i felt a bit disappointed when i saw mf..bad ritex?
haha..act supposed to haf bffet n sp viewing at e 21 tv lounge but in e end jus sat o/s the walkwae n toked..its been a lg time..since the 3 of us chatted:)
quite nice!
me gor so blur!!me went to gt sago for him n asked him to hold onto me oranger squash he left one mouthful for me!!!urghh...haha
dey kept asking the guys in me hall..but dey r nice frans..i mean shwed me a bit more concern..sometimes do feel more..haha but mes nt realli interested coz nt realli me type:)
he hinted several times on msn n hes always willing to listen..smtimes even chatted on msn for hrs..cldnt believe it..
he always initiates n sms me things to update me bt stuff..veri odd..
hes lyk probing into wad im doing..so awkward..asked bt who i was toking to n stuf..
hes weirder..added me on msn n ever since we kept chatting..din even noe him as in jus suan me dat dae..i din even noe his name..but coz hes frm e sm hall lah..
dey saed im an XY!im not!
mf u asked me to gif em a chance/guys a chance..i din sae im nt gifing..but dey din do anithing mb scared bah..scared as in they noe ive high stds?mb..but at least 2 of em noes:P told me treasure box but the other i swear i didnt!!!
act.. u r a great pal..i gt sm light n enjoyed toking to ya..u made a lot of sense..
hes nice but i felt being made used of..as a rubber float?as a safety net?
ut wat to do..its u!!all u tok bt is results n ask me to intro u to gals..
act. frankly speaking..im confused bt meself..at one pt of time i thot will slip onto the XY path..mb its bcoz of that period..when i was realli dn..realli dn..realli dn..i dunno if im still feeling dis wae..i hope nt!
let me put everything aside n im into the mugging mode!
dun understd y zhiwei kept asking me to go out..too bad gt exams..haha..even asked me to go mug when hes in army!wats dis?haha
mb hes jus too free!
gg to mug nw:)
haha
my AABB!!
blur me connect line to wrg 'hole'
was surprised dat he n mingfeng gave me a surprised visit last tues..22nd of april!
he was carrying my stats textbk:) haha..so nerdy gor!!!
haha..its been a lg time since we toked thot it will b onli the two of us but mf cm..i admit dat i felt a bit disappointed when i saw mf..bad ritex?
haha..act supposed to haf bffet n sp viewing at e 21 tv lounge but in e end jus sat o/s the walkwae n toked..its been a lg time..since the 3 of us chatted:)
quite nice!
me gor so blur!!me went to gt sago for him n asked him to hold onto me oranger squash he left one mouthful for me!!!urghh...haha
dey kept asking the guys in me hall..but dey r nice frans..i mean shwed me a bit more concern..sometimes do feel more..haha but mes nt realli interested coz nt realli me type:)
he hinted several times on msn n hes always willing to listen..smtimes even chatted on msn for hrs..cldnt believe it..
he always initiates n sms me things to update me bt stuff..veri odd..
hes lyk probing into wad im doing..so awkward..asked bt who i was toking to n stuf..
hes weirder..added me on msn n ever since we kept chatting..din even noe him as in jus suan me dat dae..i din even noe his name..but coz hes frm e sm hall lah..
dey saed im an XY!im not!
mf u asked me to gif em a chance/guys a chance..i din sae im nt gifing..but dey din do anithing mb scared bah..scared as in they noe ive high stds?mb..but at least 2 of em noes:P told me treasure box but the other i swear i didnt!!!
act.. u r a great pal..i gt sm light n enjoyed toking to ya..u made a lot of sense..
hes nice but i felt being made used of..as a rubber float?as a safety net?
ut wat to do..its u!!all u tok bt is results n ask me to intro u to gals..
act. frankly speaking..im confused bt meself..at one pt of time i thot will slip onto the XY path..mb its bcoz of that period..when i was realli dn..realli dn..realli dn..i dunno if im still feeling dis wae..i hope nt!
let me put everything aside n im into the mugging mode!
dun understd y zhiwei kept asking me to go out..too bad gt exams..haha..even asked me to go mug when hes in army!wats dis?haha
mb hes jus too free!
gg to mug nw:)
haha
my AABB!!
Monday, March 21, 2005
i feel lyk crying
yesh!the stress is cming again...im depressed again...
i wan to cry!yes! i need smone...all me frans arent free..even shanx is nt..im alone..i cn do it at hm..ma n pa will be shocked..
no shoulders to lean on..no support..i cnt take it..
i need smone who cares..to listen..to cry to..
im jus so sick..so sianx..
nv felt lyjk dis bfore:(
i wan to cry!yes! i need smone...all me frans arent free..even shanx is nt..im alone..i cn do it at hm..ma n pa will be shocked..
no shoulders to lean on..no support..i cnt take it..
i need smone who cares..to listen..to cry to..
im jus so sick..so sianx..
nv felt lyjk dis bfore:(
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
pOOr Gor..
hes currently depressed..realli.. feel sad for him..his health is affecting him..his studies..everything seems to b against his wishes..i jus cn help to shw him a bit more concern..
praying that hell gt past this stage fast!if nt its gg to do him harm..no gd! dunno wad happened..all dat ive heard r his std..but i cnt doubt him..cn i?
putting everything aside n wanna stop meself frm tinking..
RUBBISH!!!
joleen ITS RUBBISH!!
yeah im trying hard to do so..but me mind will wonder..nt onli to him but others too?
me mum did sae:'gal ah! u all ritex?y ya keep falling sick?is dere sth wrong? dun go e wrg track k?...'
yah mum!i noe!i wish im bk to those innocent daes..but mes nt dat simple minded animore..i wish..i dream...i hope..i yearn for the daes when u will jus nag at me for me mistakes...staying at hm to slack..protecting me frm pple...
nw i noe y u wan me to go to a gal sch alr:) thxs mummy!!!muckXXss!!!
im doubting meself every moment..though i appear confident...haha..
had me ge presentation last wk..haha..gt a super off comment..stupid!haha..dis stupid comment makes e wanna puke!haha...
wad confident...sexy..cute...haha..read alr also wanna laugh!haha...
nv jus tk it as a compliment bah..haha...ill b interested to noe whos he though...haha...
tired..gtta tk med n slp alr:)
god bless all!
praying that hell gt past this stage fast!if nt its gg to do him harm..no gd! dunno wad happened..all dat ive heard r his std..but i cnt doubt him..cn i?
putting everything aside n wanna stop meself frm tinking..
RUBBISH!!!
joleen ITS RUBBISH!!
yeah im trying hard to do so..but me mind will wonder..nt onli to him but others too?
me mum did sae:'gal ah! u all ritex?y ya keep falling sick?is dere sth wrong? dun go e wrg track k?...'
yah mum!i noe!i wish im bk to those innocent daes..but mes nt dat simple minded animore..i wish..i dream...i hope..i yearn for the daes when u will jus nag at me for me mistakes...staying at hm to slack..protecting me frm pple...
nw i noe y u wan me to go to a gal sch alr:) thxs mummy!!!muckXXss!!!
im doubting meself every moment..though i appear confident...haha..
had me ge presentation last wk..haha..gt a super off comment..stupid!haha..dis stupid comment makes e wanna puke!haha...
wad confident...sexy..cute...haha..read alr also wanna laugh!haha...
nv jus tk it as a compliment bah..haha...ill b interested to noe whos he though...haha...
tired..gtta tk med n slp alr:)
god bless all!
Thursday, March 10, 2005
vAnishing ACT!!
the feeling of depression is cming bk onto me again...
ask me to explain y?
ive no idea too...as i walk dwn me ladyhill i jus feel so stressed..so so stressed nt that kind of feeling which i had enjoyed...it cld be due to e exams?
yah...i guess dats the reason...
me family n frans keep speculating the reasons y i suddenly become so enthu to go hm?
but the reason is:i dunno
its jus dat e stress is building..i cn feel it cming...staying in hall will do me no gd...i dun wan me frans n seniors to see this ugly side of me..its nt nice:P
after next wed will disappear fully...haha...great...but coz will b bk for lessons n stuf lah...!at least stay for a dae or sth/wk!!after dat yr 2 alr!!!!haha...okie lah...not too bad..
so sianx nw....slping real sn...
btw if frans wannajio me to mug/go out walk walk do drp me an early sms k??haha..thxs im nt shutting myself frm u guys but jus wanna conc...we cn still haf fun tough!!!haha...
haven eaten me sakae sushi leh...!haha....
slping is me current most effective remedy!!!!
ask me to explain y?
ive no idea too...as i walk dwn me ladyhill i jus feel so stressed..so so stressed nt that kind of feeling which i had enjoyed...it cld be due to e exams?
yah...i guess dats the reason...
me family n frans keep speculating the reasons y i suddenly become so enthu to go hm?
but the reason is:i dunno
its jus dat e stress is building..i cn feel it cming...staying in hall will do me no gd...i dun wan me frans n seniors to see this ugly side of me..its nt nice:P
after next wed will disappear fully...haha...great...but coz will b bk for lessons n stuf lah...!at least stay for a dae or sth/wk!!after dat yr 2 alr!!!!haha...okie lah...not too bad..
so sianx nw....slping real sn...
btw if frans wannajio me to mug/go out walk walk do drp me an early sms k??haha..thxs im nt shutting myself frm u guys but jus wanna conc...we cn still haf fun tough!!!haha...
haven eaten me sakae sushi leh...!haha....
slping is me current most effective remedy!!!!
vAnishing ACT!!
the feeling of depression is cming bk onto me again...
ask me to explain y?
ive no idea too...as i walk dwn me ladyhill i jus feel so stressed..so so stressed nt that kind of feeling which i had enjoyed...it cld be due to e exams?
yah...i guess dats the reason...
me family n frans keep speculating the reasons y i suddenly become so enthu to go hm?
but the reason is:i dunno
its jus dat e stress is building..i cn feel it cming...staying in hall will do me no gd...i dun wan me frans n seniors to see this ugly side of me..its nt nice:P
after next wed will disappear fully...haha...great...but coz will b bk for lessons n stuf lah...!at least stay for a dae or sth/wk!!after dat yr 2 alr!!!!haha...okie lah...not too bad..
so sianx nw....slping real sn...
btw if frans wannajio me to mug/go out walk walk do drp me an early sms k??haha..thxs im nt shutting myself frm u guys but jus wanna conc...we cn still haf fun tough!!!haha...
haven eaten me sakae sushi leh...!haha....
slping is me current most effective remedy!!!!
ask me to explain y?
ive no idea too...as i walk dwn me ladyhill i jus feel so stressed..so so stressed nt that kind of feeling which i had enjoyed...it cld be due to e exams?
yah...i guess dats the reason...
me family n frans keep speculating the reasons y i suddenly become so enthu to go hm?
but the reason is:i dunno
its jus dat e stress is building..i cn feel it cming...staying in hall will do me no gd...i dun wan me frans n seniors to see this ugly side of me..its nt nice:P
after next wed will disappear fully...haha...great...but coz will b bk for lessons n stuf lah...!at least stay for a dae or sth/wk!!after dat yr 2 alr!!!!haha...okie lah...not too bad..
so sianx nw....slping real sn...
btw if frans wannajio me to mug/go out walk walk do drp me an early sms k??haha..thxs im nt shutting myself frm u guys but jus wanna conc...we cn still haf fun tough!!!haha...
haven eaten me sakae sushi leh...!haha....
slping is me current most effective remedy!!!!
Saturday, March 05, 2005
sLEepless nITEx...
tonites is gonna b hell...
ive slept less den 30 hrs for the past wks...oh no..lotsa stuf to do...n exams r in 6 wks time...im mugging liaox..haha...
will b bk in hall on sun nitex to wk on the acc proj...sianx..but wad to do...?
haha...after 15 march hall dinner im nt gg to b involved in anithing n im into accelerated mugging mood...
kie...let me nap nap first n ltr gg for sakae...will eat moderately so i wnt end up puking out everything jus lyk last yrs session with yanshan!!!ger!!! next time we four go again k
!!!!mus get charmaine out of nus to join us!!!dat ger forever nt w us!!!
haha...back on sun den!!!
yawnx!!!
ive slept less den 30 hrs for the past wks...oh no..lotsa stuf to do...n exams r in 6 wks time...im mugging liaox..haha...
will b bk in hall on sun nitex to wk on the acc proj...sianx..but wad to do...?
haha...after 15 march hall dinner im nt gg to b involved in anithing n im into accelerated mugging mood...
kie...let me nap nap first n ltr gg for sakae...will eat moderately so i wnt end up puking out everything jus lyk last yrs session with yanshan!!!ger!!! next time we four go again k
!!!!mus get charmaine out of nus to join us!!!dat ger forever nt w us!!!
haha...back on sun den!!!
yawnx!!!
Friday, March 04, 2005
gOing Home..
haf nothing to do nw so decide that i shld jus type sth..
mb im jus too bored..haha
will be gg hm instead of gg for the nitex cycling event..
fevers bk n im grateful dat daph allows me to go hm after dat...will reach hm at 11 odd 12 but i dun mind..tmrs gonna b a super lg dae..gtta be bk for choir practice on sun so ...for hall dinner next next tue n afterdat im gg to b super off hall...yes!off as in wnt b in hall at all...unless haf morning lesson...
cming bk on mon den off on tue except the 28th of mar,ill escape hm after sch instead e hall pple wanna do sth funny..ill rather spend the nitex quietly..its nothing to b happi bt anw..unless deres sth realli special...den bk on thurs n bk hm again...realli off ritex..but i dun care..dis is gg to b me muggin schedure n im gg to stick to it!!!
haha...hope me resposibilty will be over quick so i can head home!!!!yeah...
'infatuated w lala land- place for peace, quiet, solitude n beauty!'
spending time in this place will definitely be the choice for me at the very moment..
everyone take care as exms are near the corner, drink more water..
p.s. feeling so satisfied after me chilli dog frm mos..din haf food since yesterdae nitex...simply forgt bt eating...haha....had med! wanna slp...zzzz...
mb im jus too bored..haha
will be gg hm instead of gg for the nitex cycling event..
fevers bk n im grateful dat daph allows me to go hm after dat...will reach hm at 11 odd 12 but i dun mind..tmrs gonna b a super lg dae..gtta be bk for choir practice on sun so ...for hall dinner next next tue n afterdat im gg to b super off hall...yes!off as in wnt b in hall at all...unless haf morning lesson...
cming bk on mon den off on tue except the 28th of mar,ill escape hm after sch instead e hall pple wanna do sth funny..ill rather spend the nitex quietly..its nothing to b happi bt anw..unless deres sth realli special...den bk on thurs n bk hm again...realli off ritex..but i dun care..dis is gg to b me muggin schedure n im gg to stick to it!!!
haha...hope me resposibilty will be over quick so i can head home!!!!yeah...
'infatuated w lala land- place for peace, quiet, solitude n beauty!'
spending time in this place will definitely be the choice for me at the very moment..
everyone take care as exms are near the corner, drink more water..
p.s. feeling so satisfied after me chilli dog frm mos..din haf food since yesterdae nitex...simply forgt bt eating...haha....had med! wanna slp...zzzz...
iVe faILed aGAin???!!!
alone in rm nw...daph nt ard..had an hrs nap but me onli slpt lyk 2 odd hrs last nitex..hes so nice to help me edit me work..feeling grateful..yes!jus grateful..:) im sorrie...u r another stanley..im realli sorrie...mb its jus that me heart has been pked..both pple n things..i cm afford to make ani space for u..lets jus stay as frans:)
ive failed..ive tried for the past 4 daes..but ive slipped bk again!
was super exhausted......saw him at s4..as usual..mb dis time we felt more..its not dat simple animore..coz i noe more bt him n he noes mine too...cn see that hes trying hard to take things easy...n yes ive promised to lk normal...hope i did it...
huishan if ya ve been reading all dese pls dun tell ani one!!pls dun!!!i trust u dear!u r my closest fran in me og...he dun haf access to me blog onli u haf frm our og...gal!i trust u!!!i noe u wun sae!!
ive failed...
was rather frightenened when i woke up frm me nap..coz i dun switch off the lights when im slping n i paly music..jus nw onli haf table lamp n it was quiet..so quiet..im scared..nwadaes im afraid of being alone...the feeling is sucki...im jus too stressed i guess...yah i m..!!
tingx!guess ya r ritex...when i need him hes nt dere for me..its others who r shwing me the concern..mb dats y.im suppressing myself..tingx..shanx.. n lg time no see--charmx!!i miss those daes!carefree..u gals r nt w me...im lost my dearest frans..dun b in the sn boat as me k..
i hate to cry!i hate to tear..i hate myself im doing this so often these few daes..nv felt so miserable in me life bfore..NEVER i swear!so desperate dat im even feeling super blessed to be sick!jus wanna be sick...den ill b too weak for anithing..i cn dun bother stuf n rot at hm nug at hm..gif tuition..nt b in touch w ani one...jus b w me mummy..though she keeps nagging at me..bt me diet..my short skirts..me safety..but she means well for me...sorrie mum dat im always nt listening n talked bk..ill ctrl myself...i LOVE u MUMMY!!! let me stay by ya side n Be ur guai NUer...PA oso...it hurts to see ya two aging yr after yr...MUM n DAD!!!!dun wan u two to see me lyk dat dats y i always appear as if im coping well n enjoying me life here...
dunno hw mani pkts of tissue ive used tonitex...luckily no ones ard to see me in this ugly state...its nt nice...
zuzu..u will b disappointed if ya see me lyk dis..im too ashamed to be ya zuren!im so sorrie...
feel lyk seeing the sunrise at east coast guess ill b able to do dat on sat...its a symbol of hope for me at the moment..jus dun let me see him..nt hear frm him...let me b away frm all stuf for a while..i needa indulge my self in studying..yes to mug as hard as possible..no interruption..
guess im ill coz of all these happenings n coz insufficient lala time...me falling ill again..best din bring my med to hall...surviving on panadol...my heads feeling heavy..needa rest n wake up ltr to mug...go bathe first mb ill feel betta..
im nt gg to cry or even tear again..nt in the next few daes at least..i cn do it!!!!can i????
oh yah...charmaine..thxs for ya concern but dun tink i cn get over sn...as in..in the near future..tink ive gtta owe u hundreds of taupok!owe u first...thanks for listening to me complain..n complain!!thanks gal!u r a nice fran!!thxs thxs!!!
may god bless all of us n wish ya well!!!
ive failed..ive tried for the past 4 daes..but ive slipped bk again!
was super exhausted......saw him at s4..as usual..mb dis time we felt more..its not dat simple animore..coz i noe more bt him n he noes mine too...cn see that hes trying hard to take things easy...n yes ive promised to lk normal...hope i did it...
huishan if ya ve been reading all dese pls dun tell ani one!!pls dun!!!i trust u dear!u r my closest fran in me og...he dun haf access to me blog onli u haf frm our og...gal!i trust u!!!i noe u wun sae!!
ive failed...
was rather frightenened when i woke up frm me nap..coz i dun switch off the lights when im slping n i paly music..jus nw onli haf table lamp n it was quiet..so quiet..im scared..nwadaes im afraid of being alone...the feeling is sucki...im jus too stressed i guess...yah i m..!!
tingx!guess ya r ritex...when i need him hes nt dere for me..its others who r shwing me the concern..mb dats y.im suppressing myself..tingx..shanx.. n lg time no see--charmx!!i miss those daes!carefree..u gals r nt w me...im lost my dearest frans..dun b in the sn boat as me k..
i hate to cry!i hate to tear..i hate myself im doing this so often these few daes..nv felt so miserable in me life bfore..NEVER i swear!so desperate dat im even feeling super blessed to be sick!jus wanna be sick...den ill b too weak for anithing..i cn dun bother stuf n rot at hm nug at hm..gif tuition..nt b in touch w ani one...jus b w me mummy..though she keeps nagging at me..bt me diet..my short skirts..me safety..but she means well for me...sorrie mum dat im always nt listening n talked bk..ill ctrl myself...i LOVE u MUMMY!!! let me stay by ya side n Be ur guai NUer...PA oso...it hurts to see ya two aging yr after yr...MUM n DAD!!!!dun wan u two to see me lyk dat dats y i always appear as if im coping well n enjoying me life here...
dunno hw mani pkts of tissue ive used tonitex...luckily no ones ard to see me in this ugly state...its nt nice...
zuzu..u will b disappointed if ya see me lyk dis..im too ashamed to be ya zuren!im so sorrie...
feel lyk seeing the sunrise at east coast guess ill b able to do dat on sat...its a symbol of hope for me at the moment..jus dun let me see him..nt hear frm him...let me b away frm all stuf for a while..i needa indulge my self in studying..yes to mug as hard as possible..no interruption..
guess im ill coz of all these happenings n coz insufficient lala time...me falling ill again..best din bring my med to hall...surviving on panadol...my heads feeling heavy..needa rest n wake up ltr to mug...go bathe first mb ill feel betta..
im nt gg to cry or even tear again..nt in the next few daes at least..i cn do it!!!!can i????
oh yah...charmaine..thxs for ya concern but dun tink i cn get over sn...as in..in the near future..tink ive gtta owe u hundreds of taupok!owe u first...thanks for listening to me complain..n complain!!thanks gal!u r a nice fran!!thxs thxs!!!
may god bless all of us n wish ya well!!!
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
sLOwlY..sLOwly
din go for ge todae...too lazy to wake up though i was awake since 8am..slpt at 4
went to walk walk...gtta see e nitex views in ntu..quite nice but scary..coz its jus too quiet i guess...but the calmness and the serenity of the nitex made me feel bettaesp after yesterdaes entry..perfect to mend those wounds:)
so paiseh to trouble u charmaine..thanks for bringing me ard to explore e sch..haha..hoped i din bore u to death w those things...yah i shld gif up n nt tink bt it n b a happy soul..but it will take sm time..sm time again bfore i cn get bk..
as promised..will record wad happened for e past 9 daes but i din..so it goes..
was extremely touched n relieved when beauty wrld realli cm to an end on the 20th feb at nafa theatre:) coz was pleased n delighted to see me frans n family dere..everyone was elated i guess..went for dinner at this coffee shp near bugis village..went to go k but me twin n closer seniors nt gg...so instead we walked all the wae to ps to catch a late nitex movie...hide n seek..haha..as usual..slpt halfwae thru e shw..interesting...
the 6 gals n 2 guys-darren n melvin combi refused to go hm n stayed at this kopitiam n had breakfast den headed hm..reached hm at 7+am..haha..dats quite a feat for me:)
he asked me if mes gonna b gl...im nt too sure i told him..asked him e sm qn n he gave me the sm reply too..haha..quite stupid but i dun care..haha..esp in this state..me gonna mug n mug n mug!!!
its funni...yesterdae daph told me to b more careful when im walking ard hall..haha..of coz was puzzled by this comment...i was lyk huh? she refused to sae names but i managed to guess correctly...haha..100% perfect..accurate!haha..jolens a smart gal leh!
yah..hes nice but jus nt me kind..too short n haha psychotic..went running w him 2wice?lent me his tut when i din even ask him...bought us flowers for vdae n for me perf..haha...but sorrie..u r my good fran!will b n always be:)ill act as if i din noe:)
haha..mb i shld jus move hm n stone..no probs..no stuff...but its nt me!!i wan fun!!i wanna b involved..i wan frans!haha..guess hafta gif n take..
will b gg hm on tues n bk on thurs n hm again..tuition...mug n stuf so minimal time in hall for this period to prepare for me papers!n yes hols will b here again!!!
target:AAAB!
haha..ive a new motto..a targt to work towrds to..n hope a NEW LIFE!!
went to walk walk...gtta see e nitex views in ntu..quite nice but scary..coz its jus too quiet i guess...but the calmness and the serenity of the nitex made me feel bettaesp after yesterdaes entry..perfect to mend those wounds:)
so paiseh to trouble u charmaine..thanks for bringing me ard to explore e sch..haha..hoped i din bore u to death w those things...yah i shld gif up n nt tink bt it n b a happy soul..but it will take sm time..sm time again bfore i cn get bk..
as promised..will record wad happened for e past 9 daes but i din..so it goes..
was extremely touched n relieved when beauty wrld realli cm to an end on the 20th feb at nafa theatre:) coz was pleased n delighted to see me frans n family dere..everyone was elated i guess..went for dinner at this coffee shp near bugis village..went to go k but me twin n closer seniors nt gg...so instead we walked all the wae to ps to catch a late nitex movie...hide n seek..haha..as usual..slpt halfwae thru e shw..interesting...
the 6 gals n 2 guys-darren n melvin combi refused to go hm n stayed at this kopitiam n had breakfast den headed hm..reached hm at 7+am..haha..dats quite a feat for me:)
he asked me if mes gonna b gl...im nt too sure i told him..asked him e sm qn n he gave me the sm reply too..haha..quite stupid but i dun care..haha..esp in this state..me gonna mug n mug n mug!!!
its funni...yesterdae daph told me to b more careful when im walking ard hall..haha..of coz was puzzled by this comment...i was lyk huh? she refused to sae names but i managed to guess correctly...haha..100% perfect..accurate!haha..jolens a smart gal leh!
yah..hes nice but jus nt me kind..too short n haha psychotic..went running w him 2wice?lent me his tut when i din even ask him...bought us flowers for vdae n for me perf..haha...but sorrie..u r my good fran!will b n always be:)ill act as if i din noe:)
haha..mb i shld jus move hm n stone..no probs..no stuff...but its nt me!!i wan fun!!i wanna b involved..i wan frans!haha..guess hafta gif n take..
will b gg hm on tues n bk on thurs n hm again..tuition...mug n stuf so minimal time in hall for this period to prepare for me papers!n yes hols will b here again!!!
target:AAAB!
haha..ive a new motto..a targt to work towrds to..n hope a NEW LIFE!!
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
tRUe hEARt.tRUe fEelINgS n tRUE...
dis gonna b a super lg entry and its gonna hurt..serious..
frans dun needa b worried or anithing guess i shld b alrite sn...
wanted to nap badly but jus cldnt..those words jus keep flashing in my mind..within 9 daes lotsa things happened!i din noe where n hw to start..jus dunno..nv let me jus start with e latest the freshiest memories..or shld i sae its a burden?
been a lg lg time since weve tok...yes toked!umm..its typed via msn..started at ard 1am n till 2=am...was super tired..but jus cnt bear to let him noe coz..
told me his deepest secret..sth which has been in his heart for sm time..i guess..he wanted to gt it off..burdened mind..poor thing..i m too burdened..jus cnt breathe..help!
'i may seem lyk a happy gal...' yah i m!in front of him at least..ive gtta be strg..i cnt let me see e state im in..no wae..
'cnt let ani one in ntu know..will ya std by me forever..u r my one n onli dearest mei..u mus not forgt me even when u r attached..im so happy to haf a mei lyk u..im so proud of u when i see ya perform..r u dissappointed in me..will u abandon ur gor..will do anithing for my mei..'
i jus cnt stop thinking of these..keep flashing in my mind..non stop..i noe im drained entirely..off everything n anything,i cnt function well..im dragging myself n forcing myself to do things nw..this is nt myself..i swear..
'of coz ill std by ya!forever?hw to?but yes coz i gtta sae forever..thxs im touched to b ya treasured meimei..u r talented n im proud of u too..i wnt abandon u..'..these promises even me find em ridiculous..i dunno wad gave me the energy to sae dese..
'hw i hope im nt in ntu..ill rather b in smu/nus den u cn share it w me..'cldnt believe i act typed it..yes it came frm me..i sent it..he read it..n told me..honoured..
I HATE U!!!
HATE U TERRIBLY!!
u r always doing this to me..let me b a freer kite..a freer arrow..let me flame extinguished..let it vanish..y issit that when im succeeding..u will always spoil it..u noe ill cm bk..u noe dat!
U R JUS too MEAN!
ill rather b ur mei..one who 'cn destress me by pouring everything onto me' is this fair to me?nv it doesnt matter..as long as u r happy..
u r jus letting me fall deeper..deeper whenever im jus climbing out of the pit..u will nt let me go..STOP TELLING ME that im ur dearest mei..dun chuck me inside n off u go n cm bk again!its nt nice...leave me a gd impression...
im sorrie!cnt let u noe..u cnt read all dese!no wae!im always cheerful in front of u n U irriTATING!!!dun keep sding me out!i wnt shw!!!unless u kill me...n im nt!!u tink too highly of yaself dear..jus lyk wad i thot i was until nw i realise dat im nt...
nt at all..joleens nt a perfect gal..shes changed..becm worse...shes nt her jovial self animore..in pples eyes she may b so..but inside shes deteriorating..even shes nt realising it..silently veri silently u will kill her..so pls free her frm dese!she cnt make it animore..give her peace..
cnt let u noe..frans reading pls keep it as a secret..i beg u..
heart has been worn off..broken..in fact broke n mended numerous times since im in uni..esp after noeing u..y m i feeling lyk this when ive so mani choices ard..so mani guys ard me?no...i dun mean that but im jus xtremely bothered when u tell me stuff..ur probs seem to b me prob..its lyk dey haf been transferred to me..i bearing ur burden..those troubles...on top of mine!
its not fair..yes!i wish ya well my dearest gor..but dis is nt e wae to treat a mei..no way?!i cn support u n std by u..but..i need my life too..
nt dat im complaining...i dunno where to channel my energy to gt out of the pit again..u haf plunged another sword into me again..each time u do it the worser it gts..
spare me if ya wish me well but dun abandon me..treasure e daes we had..
i cnt stp myself from tinking..i promise wad ive promised!
yes..to std by u n support u..to b ya mei forever..will not abandon u..b ur one n onli dearest mei...
status: a place to cool dn..away frm everything..mending a battered soul..
frans dun needa b worried or anithing guess i shld b alrite sn...
wanted to nap badly but jus cldnt..those words jus keep flashing in my mind..within 9 daes lotsa things happened!i din noe where n hw to start..jus dunno..nv let me jus start with e latest the freshiest memories..or shld i sae its a burden?
been a lg lg time since weve tok...yes toked!umm..its typed via msn..started at ard 1am n till 2=am...was super tired..but jus cnt bear to let him noe coz..
told me his deepest secret..sth which has been in his heart for sm time..i guess..he wanted to gt it off..burdened mind..poor thing..i m too burdened..jus cnt breathe..help!
'i may seem lyk a happy gal...' yah i m!in front of him at least..ive gtta be strg..i cnt let me see e state im in..no wae..
'cnt let ani one in ntu know..will ya std by me forever..u r my one n onli dearest mei..u mus not forgt me even when u r attached..im so happy to haf a mei lyk u..im so proud of u when i see ya perform..r u dissappointed in me..will u abandon ur gor..will do anithing for my mei..'
i jus cnt stop thinking of these..keep flashing in my mind..non stop..i noe im drained entirely..off everything n anything,i cnt function well..im dragging myself n forcing myself to do things nw..this is nt myself..i swear..
'of coz ill std by ya!forever?hw to?but yes coz i gtta sae forever..thxs im touched to b ya treasured meimei..u r talented n im proud of u too..i wnt abandon u..'..these promises even me find em ridiculous..i dunno wad gave me the energy to sae dese..
'hw i hope im nt in ntu..ill rather b in smu/nus den u cn share it w me..'cldnt believe i act typed it..yes it came frm me..i sent it..he read it..n told me..honoured..
I HATE U!!!
HATE U TERRIBLY!!
u r always doing this to me..let me b a freer kite..a freer arrow..let me flame extinguished..let it vanish..y issit that when im succeeding..u will always spoil it..u noe ill cm bk..u noe dat!
U R JUS too MEAN!
ill rather b ur mei..one who 'cn destress me by pouring everything onto me' is this fair to me?nv it doesnt matter..as long as u r happy..
u r jus letting me fall deeper..deeper whenever im jus climbing out of the pit..u will nt let me go..STOP TELLING ME that im ur dearest mei..dun chuck me inside n off u go n cm bk again!its nt nice...leave me a gd impression...
im sorrie!cnt let u noe..u cnt read all dese!no wae!im always cheerful in front of u n U irriTATING!!!dun keep sding me out!i wnt shw!!!unless u kill me...n im nt!!u tink too highly of yaself dear..jus lyk wad i thot i was until nw i realise dat im nt...
nt at all..joleens nt a perfect gal..shes changed..becm worse...shes nt her jovial self animore..in pples eyes she may b so..but inside shes deteriorating..even shes nt realising it..silently veri silently u will kill her..so pls free her frm dese!she cnt make it animore..give her peace..
cnt let u noe..frans reading pls keep it as a secret..i beg u..
heart has been worn off..broken..in fact broke n mended numerous times since im in uni..esp after noeing u..y m i feeling lyk this when ive so mani choices ard..so mani guys ard me?no...i dun mean that but im jus xtremely bothered when u tell me stuff..ur probs seem to b me prob..its lyk dey haf been transferred to me..i bearing ur burden..those troubles...on top of mine!
its not fair..yes!i wish ya well my dearest gor..but dis is nt e wae to treat a mei..no way?!i cn support u n std by u..but..i need my life too..
nt dat im complaining...i dunno where to channel my energy to gt out of the pit again..u haf plunged another sword into me again..each time u do it the worser it gts..
spare me if ya wish me well but dun abandon me..treasure e daes we had..
i cnt stp myself from tinking..i promise wad ive promised!
yes..to std by u n support u..to b ya mei forever..will not abandon u..b ur one n onli dearest mei...
status: a place to cool dn..away frm everything..mending a battered soul..
Monday, February 28, 2005
iS diS mY lIfE???
im jus exhausted..tired...physically...mentally n emotionally...
everything isnt ritex for me.....dis is nt wat i wan!i wanna run escape..to a place faraway..nt sc..no pressure..my life us empty at the moment...onli me frans me families..dats enuf!
realli?
i dunno...y?whenever im alone...ill haf dis feeling..im lonely?nO!!!but is dis a denial?i dunno!im realli troubled..or mb is jus plain exhaystion..i wanna go to the beach...the boundless sea!th blue horizon!i miss east coast...i wanna bike but dunno hw to cycle...i wanna feel the wind against me face...
feeling empty nw...i mean ritex nw as im typing...haf a lot to sae...but guess its jus nt rite to do so...i mean dis me blog i can type watever i wan but....
frans pls keep it a secret esp if ya haf read n r still reading...
let me gt sm slp n ill continue 'reporting' wad happened...
a blistered gal awaits..
everything isnt ritex for me.....dis is nt wat i wan!i wanna run escape..to a place faraway..nt sc..no pressure..my life us empty at the moment...onli me frans me families..dats enuf!
realli?
i dunno...y?whenever im alone...ill haf dis feeling..im lonely?nO!!!but is dis a denial?i dunno!im realli troubled..or mb is jus plain exhaystion..i wanna go to the beach...the boundless sea!th blue horizon!i miss east coast...i wanna bike but dunno hw to cycle...i wanna feel the wind against me face...
feeling empty nw...i mean ritex nw as im typing...haf a lot to sae...but guess its jus nt rite to do so...i mean dis me blog i can type watever i wan but....
frans pls keep it a secret esp if ya haf read n r still reading...
let me gt sm slp n ill continue 'reporting' wad happened...
a blistered gal awaits..
Sunday, February 20, 2005
tOdAE iS e eNd..bUT iTs nT fOR e frieNDShIP fOrgED!!!!
act. wanted to blog yesterdae but was super tired...urghh...cldnt believe dat i slpt at 530am the dae bfore...oh no!!!
mus gt back all my beauty slp this cming recess wk!!!!if nt...gosh!!!!
yesterdaes performance werent up to me owns satisfaction...i mean my own part..TODAY mUS AND CAN DO IT!!!!
after today 1030???everything will be over..real over...haha...but its a great feeling..no more packed suns...haha...but kinda miss the practices sm times...
sort of lking fwd to after perf...we r gg to spend the nitex tgt!!!!haha...fun fun...lg time nv go out late alr.!!!!yippee!!!!
kkie...betta gt prepared to meet in 1/2 hrs time...n all mugging activities will start in MON!!!this mon!!!!n of coz projS!!!!n EXAMS!!!!
god bless us all!!!!
mus gt back all my beauty slp this cming recess wk!!!!if nt...gosh!!!!
yesterdaes performance werent up to me owns satisfaction...i mean my own part..TODAY mUS AND CAN DO IT!!!!
after today 1030???everything will be over..real over...haha...but its a great feeling..no more packed suns...haha...but kinda miss the practices sm times...
sort of lking fwd to after perf...we r gg to spend the nitex tgt!!!!haha...fun fun...lg time nv go out late alr.!!!!yippee!!!!
kkie...betta gt prepared to meet in 1/2 hrs time...n all mugging activities will start in MON!!!this mon!!!!n of coz projS!!!!n EXAMS!!!!
god bless us all!!!!
Friday, February 18, 2005
iTs HeRe...FINALLY!!!!
finally...my halls production is finally here...very sn it will b over sn!
ill realli miss it!!!despite all the lg rehearsals..the scoldings..ill miss the people!!!the time we spent gossiping..playing...suaning one another...the suns we spent tgt...those canvassing times..laughing at one other's makeup...the list goes on...
the pple of coz...ill MISS...my cabaret mummy!!!my twin!!!cindy...my dancer frans...eliza+liying...my jiemei!!!cabaret gals!!!!huiqi n angeline...of COz!!!my veri impt dance PARTNER...charmaine...haha.....n oso super onz seniors lyk huifen...xuefen...seok ling...miner...grace for the hair...fione for e makeup...nt forgtting the directors!!!!yunting n skye...oooppsss still haf our chairman...weisheng!
nice things mus cm to an end!!!its a fact!!!!
current feeling: dead fish...super shag...hurt!as if a thousands pins r piercing into my heart...i dun understd y it is lyk dat...i jus dun...NO!!! oh NO!!!
ill realli miss it!!!despite all the lg rehearsals..the scoldings..ill miss the people!!!the time we spent gossiping..playing...suaning one another...the suns we spent tgt...those canvassing times..laughing at one other's makeup...the list goes on...
the pple of coz...ill MISS...my cabaret mummy!!!my twin!!!cindy...my dancer frans...eliza+liying...my jiemei!!!cabaret gals!!!!huiqi n angeline...of COz!!!my veri impt dance PARTNER...charmaine...haha.....n oso super onz seniors lyk huifen...xuefen...seok ling...miner...grace for the hair...fione for e makeup...nt forgtting the directors!!!!yunting n skye...oooppsss still haf our chairman...weisheng!
nice things mus cm to an end!!!its a fact!!!!
current feeling: dead fish...super shag...hurt!as if a thousands pins r piercing into my heart...i dun understd y it is lyk dat...i jus dun...NO!!! oh NO!!!
Thursday, February 17, 2005
i GoT e aNsweR finalllllllllly:(
in jus two daes..two impt things happened...its bad...
im slpy....but daphs words were heartbreaking for a moment...yah i mean for a moment...
but at least i noe his std n it wun b awkward animore...haha
e other finally gt wad i mean!!!n me std!din xpect his msg yesterdae...but at least hes nt a blkhead afterall...gd!
the other?
haf been msnsing for the past daes...hes always dere to listen to me crap/complains...etc...but as ive saed we cn b gd frans...haha
my dance partner is super nice...haha...im feeling so blessed to haf known her...
deteriorating every moment....im depressed...YESH!ive admitted..yes...the sadness is sinking in...realli deep dn
hes nt dere for me...hes smwhere else....but as ive saed...hes onli my.....
a sunken heart:(
im slpy....but daphs words were heartbreaking for a moment...yah i mean for a moment...
but at least i noe his std n it wun b awkward animore...haha
e other finally gt wad i mean!!!n me std!din xpect his msg yesterdae...but at least hes nt a blkhead afterall...gd!
the other?
haf been msnsing for the past daes...hes always dere to listen to me crap/complains...etc...but as ive saed we cn b gd frans...haha
my dance partner is super nice...haha...im feeling so blessed to haf known her...
deteriorating every moment....im depressed...YESH!ive admitted..yes...the sadness is sinking in...realli deep dn
hes nt dere for me...hes smwhere else....but as ive saed...hes onli my.....
a sunken heart:(
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
haha...jus when i was bt to gif up...
oh no...
act. din wanna blog again ina dae...or shld i sae in 13 hrs?
but tink it shld b more/less aworthwhile entry bah...
jus when i was bt to gif up n sae ill surrender..we msned again...n yes..on vdae...haha
started wif him thankin me for the rocher n we jus crapped a bit...haha..den we drifted to my mummy...den bt his nick n such...though its nt a lot...but haha...it feels great...haha
the feeling is jus light an almost extinguished flame being rekindled...slightly:P i dunno whether its gd /bad...i jus dun wanna place too much hope n will jus see hw...let things be bah joleen...
came across this song last wk during mood for love..so nice.....its tong hua!super romantic...if smone were to sing dis to me...ill jus simply melt...haha...oh no...haha
feeling real slpy nw...letting things b on their own....
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局 我会变成童话里
你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局 一起写我们的结局
act. din wanna blog again ina dae...or shld i sae in 13 hrs?
but tink it shld b more/less aworthwhile entry bah...
jus when i was bt to gif up n sae ill surrender..we msned again...n yes..on vdae...haha
started wif him thankin me for the rocher n we jus crapped a bit...haha..den we drifted to my mummy...den bt his nick n such...though its nt a lot...but haha...it feels great...haha
the feeling is jus light an almost extinguished flame being rekindled...slightly:P i dunno whether its gd /bad...i jus dun wanna place too much hope n will jus see hw...let things be bah joleen...
came across this song last wk during mood for love..so nice.....its tong hua!super romantic...if smone were to sing dis to me...ill jus simply melt...haha...oh no...haha
feeling real slpy nw...letting things b on their own....
我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局 我会变成童话里
你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局 一起写我们的结局
Monday, February 14, 2005
mUggING vALentine!!!
todae is valentines dae again...as usual...spending it alone...but w/o shan to acc to me delifrance n spending it in hall w daphne....do wad?
mug..MuG...MUGGGGGG...yes!!!!MUG for test tmr n THURS!!!!NOTIME FOR THE REST OF THE WK COZ Perf is on fri n sat:) wed gg dn nafa to rehearse...tmr rehearse in sch n thurs oso...aiyo..betta complete dis entry fast!!!so i cn go mug for the rest of the dae!!!
frans!!!thxs for wanting to cm to support k:)
yesterdae had rehearsal...full dress...finally felt dat the gns r still manageable...so i shall stick to the diet plan...haha..nw eating lotsa vegie n dats it!haha
bought 56 rochers to dist to frans n gues wad spent lyk 50 bucks on em!haha...
frans frm vj n tk n frans..u guys gt no fu qi alr...haha...was surprised dat he act. passed me a soft toy in exchange for the rocher...haha...but me dun lyk soft toy!!!!haha
fran frm dnstairs bought us roses...haha...nice nice..but eventually the rose ill die..he didnt do anithing...i dun care...haha...me nt gg to care liao!jus gonna concentrate on my studies after dis sat....do i really wan this fri n sat to cm n pass?
nt really...me feeling chengzhong nw...its gd dat we dun need to to cm bk on sun nitexs..the pple...they r those whom ill miss...my 2 other cabaret gals...my twin cindy...mummy teresa..eliza n liying...jessica?haha...nt coz the funni cabaret guys lyk shiwang...shuai shuai jian ming...e ever so slpy lk kevin...nerd nerd qien....my dance partner!!!!charmaine of coz...n ill miss his voice....bernard!haha..
tink i shdnt babble on so much...mus gt to work alr....great...gg to do online quiz nw...everyone take care n dun forgt to cm support me k???thxs frans!!!
mug..MuG...MUGGGGGG...yes!!!!MUG for test tmr n THURS!!!!NOTIME FOR THE REST OF THE WK COZ Perf is on fri n sat:) wed gg dn nafa to rehearse...tmr rehearse in sch n thurs oso...aiyo..betta complete dis entry fast!!!so i cn go mug for the rest of the dae!!!
frans!!!thxs for wanting to cm to support k:)
yesterdae had rehearsal...full dress...finally felt dat the gns r still manageable...so i shall stick to the diet plan...haha..nw eating lotsa vegie n dats it!haha
bought 56 rochers to dist to frans n gues wad spent lyk 50 bucks on em!haha...
frans frm vj n tk n frans..u guys gt no fu qi alr...haha...was surprised dat he act. passed me a soft toy in exchange for the rocher...haha...but me dun lyk soft toy!!!!haha
fran frm dnstairs bought us roses...haha...nice nice..but eventually the rose ill die..he didnt do anithing...i dun care...haha...me nt gg to care liao!jus gonna concentrate on my studies after dis sat....do i really wan this fri n sat to cm n pass?
nt really...me feeling chengzhong nw...its gd dat we dun need to to cm bk on sun nitexs..the pple...they r those whom ill miss...my 2 other cabaret gals...my twin cindy...mummy teresa..eliza n liying...jessica?haha...nt coz the funni cabaret guys lyk shiwang...shuai shuai jian ming...e ever so slpy lk kevin...nerd nerd qien....my dance partner!!!!charmaine of coz...n ill miss his voice....bernard!haha..
tink i shdnt babble on so much...mus gt to work alr....great...gg to do online quiz nw...everyone take care n dun forgt to cm support me k???thxs frans!!!
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
pLS leT tIMe FREEZE!!!
after acc tut clas....haf lect ltr but khakis went hm..dat means deres a high possibility dat ill skip...but after sm rest ill do my biz law tut!!!haha. ..
hafta study for tests during CNY>>>>the worst is dat ive to cm bk for rehearsal on chu san nitex!!!!!dis wkend will b spent in hall!!!!!gosh!!!will pia lyk siao!!!NO TIME!!!gosh!!!
rehearsals?every session will gt scolding....sighh...but we r realli nt serious so i guess dats the reason...
panda eyes...tonitex at 1030pm...tmr gg to wake up real earli to chiong hm n mug MUG MUG!!!!!
incentive for tonitex?gttao see gor ...act. to pass him stuf!!!haha...he msned me yest nitex...haha..said dat hell rem me whenever he uses my ntes...haha...daph saes its super sweet...but ill rather nt..coz....oh PLEASE!!!!gor gor gor.....!!!can ya pls dun shw me so much concern?its nice but pls...overdose will cause me harm!!!if ya din noe...cant let ya noe...else i cnt forsee wat will happen!!!so pls......
tok to him for 3 hrs!was surprised by this oso....dunno y jus managed to tok...but everytime hell tok bt boy gal stuf...mayb jus trying to find out more?haha..i onli treat him as a fran:) potential to b a gd fran...mayb shld nt shut dn dis option...but me dun haf e kind of feeling nw....
yest jus realised dat qian ming was frm ctc oso...sm more my direct senior!!!wad a coincidence!!!haha...seriously speaking, hes a gd choice too!!!haha...nt bad nt bad....haha...
im tired of all these....y cnt time jus freeze???????
nt matter hw bad i dread CNY...ill still wish all happy CNY n HAPPY VDAE!!!!
hafta study for tests during CNY>>>>the worst is dat ive to cm bk for rehearsal on chu san nitex!!!!!dis wkend will b spent in hall!!!!!gosh!!!will pia lyk siao!!!NO TIME!!!gosh!!!
rehearsals?every session will gt scolding....sighh...but we r realli nt serious so i guess dats the reason...
panda eyes...tonitex at 1030pm...tmr gg to wake up real earli to chiong hm n mug MUG MUG!!!!!
incentive for tonitex?gttao see gor ...act. to pass him stuf!!!haha...he msned me yest nitex...haha..said dat hell rem me whenever he uses my ntes...haha...daph saes its super sweet...but ill rather nt..coz....oh PLEASE!!!!gor gor gor.....!!!can ya pls dun shw me so much concern?its nice but pls...overdose will cause me harm!!!if ya din noe...cant let ya noe...else i cnt forsee wat will happen!!!so pls......
tok to him for 3 hrs!was surprised by this oso....dunno y jus managed to tok...but everytime hell tok bt boy gal stuf...mayb jus trying to find out more?haha..i onli treat him as a fran:) potential to b a gd fran...mayb shld nt shut dn dis option...but me dun haf e kind of feeling nw....
yest jus realised dat qian ming was frm ctc oso...sm more my direct senior!!!wad a coincidence!!!haha...seriously speaking, hes a gd choice too!!!haha...nt bad nt bad....haha...
im tired of all these....y cnt time jus freeze???????
nt matter hw bad i dread CNY...ill still wish all happy CNY n HAPPY VDAE!!!!
Friday, February 04, 2005
dEsperate waiting...AINT ya gonna do sth?
hmm...its yet another thurs:(
this means dat its the end of the wk n the next fresh wk is cming...it doesnt help dat next wk is CNY....will be spent mugging for the tests for the wk after...n guess wad!!!! my performance has come!!!!stressed! ive gt to lose 2 kilos n yes!!!im realli doing so....
v dae cming...its gonna b another another lonely yr...haha...act. i dun mind staying in hall to mug for the tests...ive no time aniwae!
he did try to sd me out if ive gt a date...n i jus mentioned im gg hm...wun noe if i will agree if he asks again...coz..me tink hes nt the one...but hes nt doing anithing substantial....im nt gg to care...its him whos nt max. the opp....mayb its nt wat ive thot all alg....im tired w this....tink im nt being fair to him....gif him a chance?im nt sure...but its nt 'the' feeling...i guess....
nt much time to think of these..but sm times the thots will jus surface....'lets things be joleen',this is wad i always sae...yahyah..i will stick to it!!!
hes my gor n he will n always be....no matter wad he saes n does...hes mus still b gor!yes!gor!!!its been 6 mths!i jus cnt believe it!yah...HES ONLI MY GOR N ILL ALWAYS BE HIS MEI.....
it hurts actually...'u r my one n only mei!'...im confused by my own feelings...y?hes my gor...i swear!!!
this means dat its the end of the wk n the next fresh wk is cming...it doesnt help dat next wk is CNY....will be spent mugging for the tests for the wk after...n guess wad!!!! my performance has come!!!!stressed! ive gt to lose 2 kilos n yes!!!im realli doing so....
v dae cming...its gonna b another another lonely yr...haha...act. i dun mind staying in hall to mug for the tests...ive no time aniwae!
he did try to sd me out if ive gt a date...n i jus mentioned im gg hm...wun noe if i will agree if he asks again...coz..me tink hes nt the one...but hes nt doing anithing substantial....im nt gg to care...its him whos nt max. the opp....mayb its nt wat ive thot all alg....im tired w this....tink im nt being fair to him....gif him a chance?im nt sure...but its nt 'the' feeling...i guess....
nt much time to think of these..but sm times the thots will jus surface....'lets things be joleen',this is wad i always sae...yahyah..i will stick to it!!!
hes my gor n he will n always be....no matter wad he saes n does...hes mus still b gor!yes!gor!!!its been 6 mths!i jus cnt believe it!yah...HES ONLI MY GOR N ILL ALWAYS BE HIS MEI.....
it hurts actually...'u r my one n only mei!'...im confused by my own feelings...y?hes my gor...i swear!!!
Sunday, January 30, 2005
feeling....
yawnx...
in hall nw....its gg to b e start of another wk....sianx...next wk is CNY alreadi...den SP perf!
cant wait for 1 wk break to come!!!needa a real gd rest!
actualli its gg hm to MUG!!!YESH!!!! im gg to be A super MUGGER after dat!!!!
sleepy...yawnx!!!!
in hall nw....its gg to b e start of another wk....sianx...next wk is CNY alreadi...den SP perf!
cant wait for 1 wk break to come!!!needa a real gd rest!
actualli its gg hm to MUG!!!YESH!!!! im gg to be A super MUGGER after dat!!!!
sleepy...yawnx!!!!
dUn foRce mE to HatE yOu, pLeaSe!
todae...or shld i sae yesterdae was super shag!
ge in the morn...luckily jus presentaion...n gt feedback frm the rest....nt too bad!but next time betta dun haf emotion overdose..
had full dress rehearsal...fun but super tiring..in n out!me betta make sure me hair is nt spoilt frm all the curling n stuf...the makeup...gosh!
very pro but its diff me...aiyo!they sae veri pretty...haha....gor saed i lked veri different...but is it a +ve/-ve comment?haha...
tmr still gt dance...gg hm n cming bk again at nitex....aiyo..go hm n mug a sub first...suddenly dun feel lyk gg for comm ball...kkie..me slping le....gtta go hm earli tmr!!!!
ge in the morn...luckily jus presentaion...n gt feedback frm the rest....nt too bad!but next time betta dun haf emotion overdose..
had full dress rehearsal...fun but super tiring..in n out!me betta make sure me hair is nt spoilt frm all the curling n stuf...the makeup...gosh!
very pro but its diff me...aiyo!they sae veri pretty...haha....gor saed i lked veri different...but is it a +ve/-ve comment?haha...
tmr still gt dance...gg hm n cming bk again at nitex....aiyo..go hm n mug a sub first...suddenly dun feel lyk gg for comm ball...kkie..me slping le....gtta go hm earli tmr!!!!
Monday, January 24, 2005
aIyO!!!
aiyo!
jus realised dat that ive nt ben blogging for the past 6 daes!
aiyo..din keep track of my feelings n thoughts...
btw, tis week is finally here....a feeling of apprehension, excitment, exhaustion....wadever ya name it i tink ill haf the feeling...
haha, last wk....it was so last min dat we had to perform in front of the hall....DIS week?even worse!this time rd....we haf t operform in opur sch's nanyand auditorium as an advertisment!!!it was so last min but luckily we had some feel of it last wk:) heng ah,,,but den todae n tmr will b realli, extremely....very packed....tut till 1230...ge prac sing till ard 2pm...pub meeting at 3pm....lect at 430...preparation for dance at 630..perf at 740....catwalk after dat+ sp rehearsal till dunno wad time....
tmr? lesson till 3+ aerobics at 630...full dress rehearsal till ??????haha...so busy but exciting to see myself in a new outfit n fresh look?
wed shall mug in hall n thurs?gg for clarences comm ball...luckily managed to borrow a dress daniel yam's dress frm grae...phew!after dat shall go hm....aiyo!tink ill make a tripp hm on wed afternn after my ecns tut....sianx....yawnx woke up at 6 dis morn....to do acc2 tut...
haha...on sat went to do garung guni for nbs foc camp...gor paired up wif me...dunno y jus cant bring myself to haf a heart to heart tok wif him...haha...tink dis y we r onli gor n mei...hope i din bore ya to death gor!!!pleasant surprise to see ya!!!!haha...
todae mus squeeze into the orange tiger dress again n im nt eating lunch n dinner!
haha....me sick?mayb...jus dun feel lyk eating....
real sianx but fri gg chinatwn wif mei...den chiong again...mus study 3 chaps of it!!!!!!aiyo!test cmin:(
jus realised dat that ive nt ben blogging for the past 6 daes!
aiyo..din keep track of my feelings n thoughts...
btw, tis week is finally here....a feeling of apprehension, excitment, exhaustion....wadever ya name it i tink ill haf the feeling...
haha, last wk....it was so last min dat we had to perform in front of the hall....DIS week?even worse!this time rd....we haf t operform in opur sch's nanyand auditorium as an advertisment!!!it was so last min but luckily we had some feel of it last wk:) heng ah,,,but den todae n tmr will b realli, extremely....very packed....tut till 1230...ge prac sing till ard 2pm...pub meeting at 3pm....lect at 430...preparation for dance at 630..perf at 740....catwalk after dat+ sp rehearsal till dunno wad time....
tmr? lesson till 3+ aerobics at 630...full dress rehearsal till ??????haha...so busy but exciting to see myself in a new outfit n fresh look?
wed shall mug in hall n thurs?gg for clarences comm ball...luckily managed to borrow a dress daniel yam's dress frm grae...phew!after dat shall go hm....aiyo!tink ill make a tripp hm on wed afternn after my ecns tut....sianx....yawnx woke up at 6 dis morn....to do acc2 tut...
haha...on sat went to do garung guni for nbs foc camp...gor paired up wif me...dunno y jus cant bring myself to haf a heart to heart tok wif him...haha...tink dis y we r onli gor n mei...hope i din bore ya to death gor!!!pleasant surprise to see ya!!!!haha...
todae mus squeeze into the orange tiger dress again n im nt eating lunch n dinner!
haha....me sick?mayb...jus dun feel lyk eating....
real sianx but fri gg chinatwn wif mei...den chiong again...mus study 3 chaps of it!!!!!!aiyo!test cmin:(
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
i dID iT!!!
hmm...its the first time im sitting infront of the comp n slacking..drinking my soya drink!(finished 1 litre carton le! haha...on a liq diet...)
haha...jus cm bk from our hall's courtyard 2--basically its a series of skits by the hall's drama :)
was rather surprised that we had to do an ad for our special production..we had to dance our bitchy dance!!!
i freaked out on sun but i did it man!!!!haha...gt a bit of mistakes but dey sae cnt really see...i jus realised dat thruout the whole main cast onli me n my TWIN--Cindy are year ones!toking bt cindy!im veri to her....coz of her i gt into choir...i gt to n oe her mayfairians...gt to noe a lot of nice seniors:)coz of her...i gt to try modeling on 1st feb..haha...im even closer to her den daph....haha...sp rocks!!!we rock!!!!n we will n shall continue to rock!!!!haha
toking bt the dance jus nw....haha din manage to cm in when music coz dey were too noisy but i pulled it thru!haha...i can do it n m gg to b more daring when i dance...my beloved frans!!!!zuzu!!!if ya wanna check out another side of joleen...cm to my performance!!!! (ACTUALLY U GUYS DUN HAF A CHOICE!!!!DO YOU?)with my constant pushing of tixs n stuf...haha
but if u guys dun support me...who will:(
next wk is another hectic wk....mon...catwalk rehearsal...tue ge, aerobics, sp full dress rehearsal...as in w makeup n everything...wed gtta help qianyi sell tixs...thurs clarences ball...gosh!!kkie...i betta mug mug n mug n finish tut by sun morn....yes!!!hey sun gt rehearsal again...haha..kkie...ill read sm tb n slp sn!!!!
haha...jus cm bk from our hall's courtyard 2--basically its a series of skits by the hall's drama :)
was rather surprised that we had to do an ad for our special production..we had to dance our bitchy dance!!!
i freaked out on sun but i did it man!!!!haha...gt a bit of mistakes but dey sae cnt really see...i jus realised dat thruout the whole main cast onli me n my TWIN--Cindy are year ones!toking bt cindy!im veri to her....coz of her i gt into choir...i gt to n oe her mayfairians...gt to noe a lot of nice seniors:)coz of her...i gt to try modeling on 1st feb..haha...im even closer to her den daph....haha...sp rocks!!!we rock!!!!n we will n shall continue to rock!!!!haha
toking bt the dance jus nw....haha din manage to cm in when music coz dey were too noisy but i pulled it thru!haha...i can do it n m gg to b more daring when i dance...my beloved frans!!!!zuzu!!!if ya wanna check out another side of joleen...cm to my performance!!!! (ACTUALLY U GUYS DUN HAF A CHOICE!!!!DO YOU?)with my constant pushing of tixs n stuf...haha
but if u guys dun support me...who will:(
next wk is another hectic wk....mon...catwalk rehearsal...tue ge, aerobics, sp full dress rehearsal...as in w makeup n everything...wed gtta help qianyi sell tixs...thurs clarences ball...gosh!!kkie...i betta mug mug n mug n finish tut by sun morn....yes!!!hey sun gt rehearsal again...haha..kkie...ill read sm tb n slp sn!!!!
bUSy wEEk aHEAd...
haha...as im typing this entry im lyk jus half awake..but wat cn u expect frm someone who jus had 4hrs of slp?
rehearsal ended lyk 1230 yesterdae!n worse still me was trying to do acc tut till 3am...urghh...jus managed to complete it!!!YES!!woke up at 730 to do it....urghh....ltr gonna kip let excercise....haha...dun care!
tonitex gonna b hell againx..but FUN i guess:) if i din still in hall n is the inactive n off hall kin...i wun b doing all dese...hafta go somerset for another fitting for the modeling on 1st feb!first time im gg for all dese...nv modelled bfore dats y hafta try...hm...coz nt eating for the dae...haha..den hafta rush bk for social subcomm meeting...n tmr's is court yard n we have to dance the dance as an advertisment...im still nt too familiar...gosh!dun wanna malu leh!!!!kkie!!!!mus do well n b fang n b bitchy!!!!!!yes!!!bitchy!!!!
rehearsing yesterdae:) n was super surprised to see gor!haha...realli...depressed to sae dat my feelings have been rekindled!oh no!!!i jus cant!JOLEEN!u r mad,a lunatic...simply cRAZI!
yahyah...hes my gor...realli!!!
haha...saw mingfeng his roomie oso...haha...shuaishuai:)haha...added me in his msn..was rather surprised!haha...he bought tau hua n passed me one...so SWEET..haha..hmm...SO NICE...:)
next thurs is clarence's comm ball...looking for a gown frantically...hw hw...no gown...dun wanna wear too informal...wanna lk pretty pretty though he said no need to b too elaborated but i tink shld b presentable....act. dun realli wanna go..but do my buddy a favour lah....haha...
hope will survive todae..tmrs ge at 9am...gosh...eyelids r closing le....yawnx...gg for lesson nw:( sianx
rehearsal ended lyk 1230 yesterdae!n worse still me was trying to do acc tut till 3am...urghh...jus managed to complete it!!!YES!!woke up at 730 to do it....urghh....ltr gonna kip let excercise....haha...dun care!
tonitex gonna b hell againx..but FUN i guess:) if i din still in hall n is the inactive n off hall kin...i wun b doing all dese...hafta go somerset for another fitting for the modeling on 1st feb!first time im gg for all dese...nv modelled bfore dats y hafta try...hm...coz nt eating for the dae...haha..den hafta rush bk for social subcomm meeting...n tmr's is court yard n we have to dance the dance as an advertisment...im still nt too familiar...gosh!dun wanna malu leh!!!!kkie!!!!mus do well n b fang n b bitchy!!!!!!yes!!!bitchy!!!!
rehearsing yesterdae:) n was super surprised to see gor!haha...realli...depressed to sae dat my feelings have been rekindled!oh no!!!i jus cant!JOLEEN!u r mad,a lunatic...simply cRAZI!
yahyah...hes my gor...realli!!!
haha...saw mingfeng his roomie oso...haha...shuaishuai:)haha...added me in his msn..was rather surprised!haha...he bought tau hua n passed me one...so SWEET..haha..hmm...SO NICE...:)
next thurs is clarence's comm ball...looking for a gown frantically...hw hw...no gown...dun wanna wear too informal...wanna lk pretty pretty though he said no need to b too elaborated but i tink shld b presentable....act. dun realli wanna go..but do my buddy a favour lah....haha...
hope will survive todae..tmrs ge at 9am...gosh...eyelids r closing le....yawnx...gg for lesson nw:( sianx
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
spirits Boosted!!
todaes dance is much much easier...phew but still mus work harder to b perfect...!!!
me quite worried for me own dance!!!!but todaes betta den yesterdaes:P
joleen can do betta!!!haha...
hes so comical n had a new hairstyle...haha..
die...always haf a veri relaxed feeling when i see *** its jus lyk so natural...feels the same when me receive the msges....me is such a failure...
toking to him nw:) haha..but stopped....sighh..
real busy w musical nw!!!frans u guys mus cm okie!!!!! cnfirmed 2 tixs liaox...liying n her beloved danny!!!thxs! of coz, shanx tingx charmx mus oso go!!!von lin darius clarence oso..weinee...zhiyu....huishan...melissa....xiaohan....ngayee ginny....rioja mates!haha
no time to tink bt these...but v-dae cming...will be stoning in rm/go jp n eat lor...haha
me quite worried for me own dance!!!!but todaes betta den yesterdaes:P
joleen can do betta!!!haha...
hes so comical n had a new hairstyle...haha..
die...always haf a veri relaxed feeling when i see *** its jus lyk so natural...feels the same when me receive the msges....me is such a failure...
toking to him nw:) haha..but stopped....sighh..
real busy w musical nw!!!frans u guys mus cm okie!!!!! cnfirmed 2 tixs liaox...liying n her beloved danny!!!thxs! of coz, shanx tingx charmx mus oso go!!!von lin darius clarence oso..weinee...zhiyu....huishan...melissa....xiaohan....ngayee ginny....rioja mates!haha
no time to tink bt these...but v-dae cming...will be stoning in rm/go jp n eat lor...haha
Monday, January 10, 2005
lOSt mY tEMPer fINAlly
din actually wanna blog todae...i mean yesterdae since its bt 2am 10th liaox:P
had a rehearsal jus nw...acting part still satisfactory but i mus buck up on the dance part...cnt seem to rem sm actions...:(
sighh...lost my temper at james yesterdae but luckily meijiao's enthusiam to learn sort of balanced my feelings....hope that little wnt create trouble for me again!!!
urghh...lotsa stuff to do tmr...mus wake up earli to finish tut so slping nw:)
tink shall end here:) nitex everyone!!!!!
had a rehearsal jus nw...acting part still satisfactory but i mus buck up on the dance part...cnt seem to rem sm actions...:(
sighh...lost my temper at james yesterdae but luckily meijiao's enthusiam to learn sort of balanced my feelings....hope that little wnt create trouble for me again!!!
urghh...lotsa stuff to do tmr...mus wake up earli to finish tut so slping nw:)
tink shall end here:) nitex everyone!!!!!
Friday, January 07, 2005
hOME sWEEt hOme tMR!!!!
act. wanted to blog yesterdae but as wat u cn see i onli managed e title...sianx
sleep super earli yesterdae lyk ard 1030pm n woke up late at 930am...but still tired:( so ended up slping again at 1130am to 1pm after reading a few pages of biz law text:) haha...went for lect n cm bk to continue the chap...so routine....urghhh!
haha...finally finished the first dance n we were polishing the dance movements...cnt imagine dancing in the gowns n the 2++ high inches heels!!!me so clumsy!urghh!!!!
am not satisfied w my performance:( dun seem to rem where the leg is suppose to be:( sighh...todae my partner charmaine isnt here so hafta dance w 'the air'....im stressed to do betta...my dance!i mean our song!mus be more bitchy!daring!!!the stage belongs to me!!!no one cn act rosie but me!!!!these r the stuff which i needa tell myself constantly...i mus do it n i can do it!!!!
thot wll have a lg wkend to pia my tut but mus cm bk for rehearsals on sun...sighhh...I MUS DO MY BEST N NO MISTAKES on sun!
act. me n daph wanted to go run nw!!!i mean nw!!!but tired so its gonna b tmr morn instead:)
yesh!!!!good good!!!to lose wt fats watever!!!i jus needa lose em all so dat i cn fit nicely into the gowns which i tried yesterdae!!!chose 2 silver gowns:one is a tube kinda gn e other is a super high collared one...nt bad i tink!
haha...therefore to look betta mus lose wt!haha...signed up for aerobics classes!gd!with daph!
haha...act. instead of the tube i wanted a corset look alike one....so pretty...haha...but pple using it for rom...so cnt:( a little disappointed but nv mind lah...haha
the best thing was!!!!!we saw thomas ong!!!!yes!!!thomas ong...wang tian cai...the mediacorp wang tian cai!!!i act. tok to him!!!!cnt believe it!we were in his shp(we believed to b co-owned) den he suddenly....we jus froze!!!really froze!!!haha
so shuai!!!!gosh!!!act. i saw him upfront at the scent shp...that time i toked to him oso!!!haha...i remed he asked if ive lavender oil...haha...oh my god!he simply so friendly!no air!!!but one thing he smokes...n i HATE people who smokes!jus dun smoke in front of me!!!!sighh...in uni lotsa pple smoke...wads up w em i oso dunno....
kkie...let me consolidate my thots bfore i ko.....1) needa finish tut n readings 2) needa realli diet n lose wt--- veg+fruits+milk+cheese+prunes+little carbo...3) exercise!aerobics...run...swim...
too busy to tink of it act. but deres no progress watsoever...seems to take note of my feelings,nics n stuff...can sense sth-get me attention...watever...no time+study+results....
this sem's aim!!!!
AAAB!!!!!!JOLEEN HENG!!!!! U CAN N U MUST DO IT!!!!!!!ALL THE WAY!!!!!!
sleep super earli yesterdae lyk ard 1030pm n woke up late at 930am...but still tired:( so ended up slping again at 1130am to 1pm after reading a few pages of biz law text:) haha...went for lect n cm bk to continue the chap...so routine....urghhh!
haha...finally finished the first dance n we were polishing the dance movements...cnt imagine dancing in the gowns n the 2++ high inches heels!!!me so clumsy!urghh!!!!
am not satisfied w my performance:( dun seem to rem where the leg is suppose to be:( sighh...todae my partner charmaine isnt here so hafta dance w 'the air'....im stressed to do betta...my dance!i mean our song!mus be more bitchy!daring!!!the stage belongs to me!!!no one cn act rosie but me!!!!these r the stuff which i needa tell myself constantly...i mus do it n i can do it!!!!
thot wll have a lg wkend to pia my tut but mus cm bk for rehearsals on sun...sighhh...I MUS DO MY BEST N NO MISTAKES on sun!
act. me n daph wanted to go run nw!!!i mean nw!!!but tired so its gonna b tmr morn instead:)
yesh!!!!good good!!!to lose wt fats watever!!!i jus needa lose em all so dat i cn fit nicely into the gowns which i tried yesterdae!!!chose 2 silver gowns:one is a tube kinda gn e other is a super high collared one...nt bad i tink!
haha...therefore to look betta mus lose wt!haha...signed up for aerobics classes!gd!with daph!
haha...act. instead of the tube i wanted a corset look alike one....so pretty...haha...but pple using it for rom...so cnt:( a little disappointed but nv mind lah...haha
the best thing was!!!!!we saw thomas ong!!!!yes!!!thomas ong...wang tian cai...the mediacorp wang tian cai!!!i act. tok to him!!!!cnt believe it!we were in his shp(we believed to b co-owned) den he suddenly....we jus froze!!!really froze!!!haha
so shuai!!!!gosh!!!act. i saw him upfront at the scent shp...that time i toked to him oso!!!haha...i remed he asked if ive lavender oil...haha...oh my god!he simply so friendly!no air!!!but one thing he smokes...n i HATE people who smokes!jus dun smoke in front of me!!!!sighh...in uni lotsa pple smoke...wads up w em i oso dunno....
kkie...let me consolidate my thots bfore i ko.....1) needa finish tut n readings 2) needa realli diet n lose wt--- veg+fruits+milk+cheese+prunes+little carbo...3) exercise!aerobics...run...swim...
too busy to tink of it act. but deres no progress watsoever...seems to take note of my feelings,nics n stuff...can sense sth-get me attention...watever...no time+study+results....
this sem's aim!!!!
AAAB!!!!!!JOLEEN HENG!!!!! U CAN N U MUST DO IT!!!!!!!ALL THE WAY!!!!!!
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Monday, January 03, 2005
iN sCHool
in hall nw...had biz law lect....gg for sp's rehearsal n dance...gonna slp real late tonitex...sighh...:(
read tingx n von's blog....
super sleepy...yawnx...
will update when haf new stuff....
oh yah...i rejected an invitation to his comm ball....act. i feel lyk gg but its him...i dun wan...i jus dun feel lyk...nw he msged to me n asked bt sun's...i realli dun wan to lead him on...haven reply...hw?but ive gt tuition...n hall's stuff...hw?
m i being mean???
no...i dun tink so....or at least i tink im nt?
read tingx n von's blog....
super sleepy...yawnx...
will update when haf new stuff....
oh yah...i rejected an invitation to his comm ball....act. i feel lyk gg but its him...i dun wan...i jus dun feel lyk...nw he msged to me n asked bt sun's...i realli dun wan to lead him on...haven reply...hw?but ive gt tuition...n hall's stuff...hw?
m i being mean???
no...i dun tink so....or at least i tink im nt?
Sunday, January 02, 2005
iTs 3rD jAn!!!
i shall make this entry short n sweet!
sighh..have a strg feeling that im really falling ill again!since when my immunity has declined so drastically??its bad...its really bad as the year has jus started!sleep deprived n as usual bothered by diet n stuff...tink ive sm health n eating prob....sighh...but i jus cldnt help it...
todae went out with shanx n tingx but bfore that had two tuition...nearly died!hw siannx!!!for the past few daes or shld i sae since fri ive been out to celeb darius' bdae w lin von zhenhao...sat met up w 02s44 gals n we chatted till 11pm at the checkers cafe...todae w tingx n shanx at thai xpress..the fish tom yum soup was superb!but i felt xtremely bad as shanx din lyk the mango salad...btw ive been eating salad whereever i go!
haha..but dun mind im used to it n me guess my frans too!
haha...next time i shant make/decide were to dine coz we always end up gg to places where i feel is not bad but they wnt enjoy it...n im always feeling xtremely guilty afterdat!
:(
tmr is the start of another term...n the worst thing is that the first dae or i shld sae the first nitex im alreadi super packed...lect ends at 630pm...8pm rehearsal followed by dance at 10pm...wow...guess im gonna slp at 2am again....
the next daes ge is shiong...
fitting on wed!todaes n tmrs meals will b xtremely simple!do i haf a choice? no i dont...act. smtimes im wondering if im enjoying my life? depends act. i realli dunno...i may seem always cheerful n stuf lyk dat...but......
kkie...in the sleepy mood n gg to zzzzin front of the comp!!!haha...to all those reading this entry!happy new year n may all ya
wishes come true n of coz my too!!!!!
haha!
sighh..have a strg feeling that im really falling ill again!since when my immunity has declined so drastically??its bad...its really bad as the year has jus started!sleep deprived n as usual bothered by diet n stuff...tink ive sm health n eating prob....sighh...but i jus cldnt help it...
todae went out with shanx n tingx but bfore that had two tuition...nearly died!hw siannx!!!for the past few daes or shld i sae since fri ive been out to celeb darius' bdae w lin von zhenhao...sat met up w 02s44 gals n we chatted till 11pm at the checkers cafe...todae w tingx n shanx at thai xpress..the fish tom yum soup was superb!but i felt xtremely bad as shanx din lyk the mango salad...btw ive been eating salad whereever i go!
haha..but dun mind im used to it n me guess my frans too!
haha...next time i shant make/decide were to dine coz we always end up gg to places where i feel is not bad but they wnt enjoy it...n im always feeling xtremely guilty afterdat!
:(
tmr is the start of another term...n the worst thing is that the first dae or i shld sae the first nitex im alreadi super packed...lect ends at 630pm...8pm rehearsal followed by dance at 10pm...wow...guess im gonna slp at 2am again....
the next daes ge is shiong...
fitting on wed!todaes n tmrs meals will b xtremely simple!do i haf a choice? no i dont...act. smtimes im wondering if im enjoying my life? depends act. i realli dunno...i may seem always cheerful n stuf lyk dat...but......
kkie...in the sleepy mood n gg to zzzzin front of the comp!!!haha...to all those reading this entry!happy new year n may all ya
wishes come true n of coz my too!!!!!
haha!
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