beauty definition

yea finally was in town after exams last week!waiting for mei to finish hers on mon n my real packed intensive tuition sessions with my kids..still not very confident dat dey r well prepared for theirs which r starting next mon:( hmm..dats the max i can do i guess so agreed to rush bk frm town to gif my boy the last session..tinking on the brighter side of things..that makes it a full mth's pay..haha..at least good enuf for me to spend in taiwan..yah..

great tmrs the day..quite excited as its really coming!cant wait to go 101 n do some decent shopping for my formal clothes..at least some nice trendy short sleeves formal tops for work..wun be spending a lot on food..aint a foodie anw.. the famous fried stuff like the taiwan crispy chicken chops sold at the night markets do not tempt me..the bubble tea too..the most just one or 2 sips..haha...moreover, e sense of smell is off..tink its my sinus dats y i cant smell..wads the point only can taste..no point..but i wlll like to try the smelly doufu n the famous meesuan with mussels?hmm..aint eating the mussels..on the contrary mei n her fran r so enthu bt the food n her fran even sent her the info tt she had collated on none other than FOOD!bestest..haha..me n hs? focus on buying other stuff n eating less..!yups so wun be in sing till the 10th

great to have found a 4-5 days job frm the 14th to the 18th ytd!as exhibition hostress at the sing expo..gd gd...8 hrs so nt too bad..doing with mei oso:) great can recoup half of my expenses man!n den gonna look out for more such stincts in recruit when mes back!gonna haf another one-communicasia n broadcastasia this june..gg for tt too! wrking twds n earn money to buy my watch for wrk!n great daphs gg to jio me for the isetan's sale n gss is coming!gd gd..at least this holiday is rather packed with slack time in between:) so me cn meet up with shan n frans:) yeah..

wads in the name of beauty? beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..i noe n i understand..different pple have diff definition of this word..some r confident even if they r not dat perfect..its the confidence tts attractive..yes i can agree to that..ma always says just let it be..whether u r a good looker or not is destined..no point trying to do this n dat n with her emphasizing on pretty pple hafing a tough life..i can see where shes heading..yah
due to the influx n proliferation of the media n the upsurge of beauty salons, slimming centers, new slimming n beauty products how not to be stressed over not being 'one of them'? its not a sin nor a crime to yearn to be someone better..sighh..jus aint satisfied..frans whu have known me since sec. would have known y..gg onto the 7th yr n the goal is still unattainable..but with the future pay check i will be able to afford it..yah

y this thot all of a sudden..cos of the movie: 200 pounds beauty which i watched w mei ytd..no wonder dey sae koreans r known to embrace plastic surgery..okie this a movie so its fictional but ohh well in real life i believe dere r such incidences where beauty can be bought with money..asking me for my stand? im not against tt...everyone has their own stds of being beautiful n stunning..yea true beauty n inner beauty r impt but bfore anything physical beauty is one of the crucial ones oso..mb the std may differ frm one job to another..e.g. hr,marketing personnels r mostly or shld i sae always gd lookers..not to mention celebrities..the latter is even more stringent! with reference to the movie, those whu aint so well endowed often take up the 'office jobs' okie..of cos dere r exceptions..but usually occupations dat dun rely depend dat much on looks..
wad i like bt the shw is tt though she eventually became a beauty in the end, with the melodious voice n perfect body, she admitted tt shes a fake n realised wad she had lost..kinship n franship..hmm..at least not a true blue bimbotic shw ya? so for dat mes gifing the thumbs up!

hmm..gg to prepare to go parkway to do some last minute shopping, exchange $ help ma run some errands n head twds coffee bean for my salad n drink n set my mind on my self-help book:) yeah..

sheesh..rainy n i seriously hate gg out in wet weather!

做你的公主

做你的公主

或许你没看出来
周围的人都在猜
有种感觉正在 我们之间展开
喜欢你偶尔做怪
不经意流露的 坏
其实体贴实在
孩子气的胸怀

曾经有过的恋爱
仿佛一片空白
直到遇见你
我才 真的存在

Chorus

我只想做你的公主
拥有那平凡的幸福
华丽的珍珠不如眼底的专注
对我深深呵护

我想我是你的公主
终结这多年的追逐
当你抱着我
地球也暂停脚步
我霎那间清楚 你是我的幸福

沉潜太久的孤独
这一刻获得救赎
我忽然好想哭
感激你这一路
陪我笑陪着我辛苦
无悔的付出

has fallen in love with this since i had it last week:0
obviously wad captured my dear attention is the title!haha
listening n looking at the lyrics..one wrd! meaningful! undulging in it now..btw its frm sun ho yao shan

lie

no wonder dey say korean shows r capable of 'churning' tears, no matter how lighthearted the shw is, parts of it will unintentionally perform its well-known 'magic'

completed the final episodes of my girl a minute ago..yah..great show with a great ending which i had expected..its a nice ending which is good..so mb once in a while lies r not tt bad either huh?haha..must admit tt watching the shw was indeed heart wrenching. twds the back it jus gt worst..haha..wad to do u haf a freaky fran here!haha..oh well..:)

tink its the power of wad they call love dat eventually melted everyone's heart..even the grandpa whu was as stubborn as a mule decided to accept their r'ship n hence the ending..even the 'evil' ex-gerfran realised tt she had lost to wad is called love but not yulin--the female lead, hence..yah..even the cousin zhengyu decided to tok the grandpa out n asked him to gif the couple his blessing..cant feel zhengyu's helplessness..scenes shwing tt hes heartbroken, no matter hw hard he tried to protect her n even be her 'spare tyre', she just couldnt see him n reciprocate his undying love..in her eyes was only him..sighh..poor zhengyu..but wad to do cant accept means cant accept even u r with her physically her heart aint w u..its no use wad..yah..

so this marks the end of my days with my girl:) feeling a bit lost..its always this feeling after watching a shw esp one dat has certain impact on me..haha..weirdo right?no wonder my girl was so popular when it was screened in korea.weilin shld watch oso!haha..if we were to watch tgt tink von will die hafing to pass the tissue boxes here n dere!haha..letting this feeling sink n fade away as usual..

meanwhile, shall find other entertainment...go lib to borrow some books to read n facial after tuition tmr:)

hmm..my girl's gone..so wads next?haha shall wait n see

life as usual

din especially felt liberated after our jap papers ytd nite..haha..mb we were right bt slacking too much after 311 paper or shld i jus sae the whole sem had been a real slack one?haha..but thot the paper was alright..though me spotted a mistake when she said:'pens down'..oh well..forget it bah..haha

the 6 of us went cystal jade at jp for dinner..quite a cheap dinner n fortunately shared the noodles else will be feeling super full n with my rough estimate i had jus exceeded by 100kcal..nm eating less today n swim tmr morn


so u see its life as usual though me had graduated..nothing fanciful bt my life jus tt me wun be gg to ntu for classes..wun be tking the same route bk to hall..wun be staying in my little room where me spent nights when i cunt slp well..yah those were the days..a tinge of sadness dawned onto me while i was waiting cum napping ytd afternn for hs' msg..my near empty room with my photo collage n hall stuff taken down n barang packed into bags..sighh..looking on the brighter side me cant ne always staying dere n not graduate right?yah this wad mei told me when i expressed my sense of depression..im a sentimental sort i guess..dats y when me was so stressed up whilst in jcrc in yr 2 n had wanted to move out..me din in the end so my yr 3 jus whizzed past like noone's bix!but i can truly tell myself tt me enjoyed every bit of my yr 3 stay in hall 3! its part of my uni memory..where friendships were forged laughters were heard disappointments were felt..thank u nbs thank u hall 3!

mes up early as usual cos of mei's stupid handphone alarm which kept ringing at 7am!best!no once but countless cos its an every five mins affair!so might as well forget i t n wake up..so mes gg to watch 2 episodes of my girl bfore me go n prep to go out ltr...hmm wondering wad the briefing for our taiwan trip will be later..haha...n dads going to tk leave to send us off next fri..haha

had a squabble the day before..good tt the storm had calmed at least for now:) jiayou!down 3 papers 2 more!n its gonna be a great great trip next fri to thurs..haha..so hs dun nid to be afraid tt u will see 2 black faces!haha

okie so its my girl's time!!:)

to all my pals whu r still schooling: all the best peeps..enjoy ur schooling yrs make use of this period to haf fun slack n mug hard..go fulfill wadever u wan to dun ever let the word 'regret' surface in ya mind..live life to the fullest n without much regrets..though mes entering into the weking wrld a little earlier but tt doesnt mean cnt keep in touch ya? do include me in ya meetup plans hor!ill try to make it down so long as there aint urgent wrk commitments:) donna lead a diff life now..but u peeps will be joining me in this rat race soon!

to all my frans whu r graduating with me: hey peeps!its been a tough 3 yrs ya?great tt we r finally graduates!thanks for the times weve shared in uni..frm nbs hall camps to the mugging,complaining gossiping days!countless fun n laughter!haha..yah ill always remember this short 3 periods!so lets put everything down n enjoy our fill before serious wrk starts between july n sept!haha..n dun forget our 1st mth treat ya?haha..yah kj u starting the latest but we wun forget!!!haha..nice nice good feeling to be a graduate:)!!

freak

chiding for being such an emotional freak
relating to reality really suxs
tear welling moments do exist
touching? yah u bet!

fortunate to an extent tt it din develop dat way
yah..to constantly psycho tt it aint gg to happen
it cant happen
noeing its painful but it will fade
its for everyones good

quote from 'my girl': noeing its hot but refuse to admit it is, noeing its pain but refuse to feel it, noeing its call love but keep denying it

y?its for everyones good

to be hurt or not?choosing the former..choosing to be mum..choosing to forget..topple it with a pill call:'move on' plus some whipped cream call:'friendship' finishing it with a berry call:'kinship'---the result: renewed self

jus finished 3 episodes..next will be 11..tink its gonna be this state this mood till the end of the show..emotionally moved? mb me can jus replace e female lead in the show..oh well so tanned not korean-ish enuf

freak

chiding for being such an emotional freak
relating to reality really suxs
tear welling moments do exits
touching? yah u bet!

fortunate to an extent tt it din develop dat way
yah..to constantly psycho tt it aint gg to happen
it cant happen
noeing its painful but it will fade
its for everyones good

quote from 'my girl': noeing its hot but refuse to admit it is, noeing its pain but refuse to feel it, noeing its call love but keep denying it

y?its for everyones good

to be hurt or not?choosing the former..choosing to be mum..choosing to forget..topple it with a pill call:'move on' plus some whipped cream call:'friendship' finishing it with a berry call:'kinship'---the result: renewed self

jus finished 3 episodes..next will be 11..tink its gonna be this state till the end of the show..emotionally moved? mb me can jus replace e actress in the show..oh well so tanned not korean-ish enuf

my girl

watching a long overdue show rec. by von..too bored with mugging for jap:( at least mes done with the 7 exams papers..hmm..shall slack till after the 7pm shw..tmr shall go thru everything when mes gg out w mei to pw n mug..den its bk home for tuition session again:P stressed!

my girl's nice..its the kinda of bro n sis story again..warning: aint fun to be involved in one..result: at least one party will gt hurt..rationale: frm the start dey aint even related, its jus cos of some matter dat caused them to fake or 'cook up' this relationship so when one stops tinking or reg the other as bro/sis..the situation gts altered..yah..as for this drama..its clear wads the ending is like..similar to all typical shws..there will always be third parties ard..those whu really care but yet theirs r jus unreciprocated..haha..so me can be the director, script writer etc...

noeing how the developments will be like yt wanna continue..for one its cos mes bored w study, two?nothing really substantial for me to do? 3?though predictable n hurtful still wanna noe hw they finally gt tgt...

conclusion: dun let me have the time to slack! DUN!

perfecting imperfections

it was a splendid swim this morn!forget bt the sun..laps after laps..blessed with the cleaned, disinfected water surrounding me:) few peeps, sensed the calmness n simplicity in life..away frm the noises of kids, the naggings frm me, the buzz frm the working crowd..for an hr i was transformed back to my past:)the feeling was indescribable:) mon's gg be another session n im definitely looking fwd

wun be able to go bk to sch next mon n tue cos me kids r hafing exams n me gtta gif them extra sessions at home..hmm..betta msg von ltr:P

tired n feel like napping ya i will since me woke up at 6 today..haha..blame the bio-clock?haha..im used to it..even ygest sis asked:'y wake up so early when u dun nid to study?' haha..she mus haf thot tt mes a weirdo lahs..waking up at the same time as her n mes not preparing for sch..oh well..dis me:)

ytd was at raffles city n me decided on hafing soup spoon instead of the cheaper alternatives at the food court!haha..gd gd..yah me din realise tt it was the last time we could o/s tgt..yah..so she decided tt we should haf sth better!haha..as usual according to my one meal policy me had a clam chowder bread bowl similar to e me ordered when i was w zhiyu less than 2 weeks ago!haha..satisying..mei aint a pantry kinda of person..so left some bread n me ate them up for her..yup n after dat we went gloria jeans to mug..the drinks r ard 60 cants cheaper..as for tast wise..i prefer the espresso chillers the mocha ones taste weird...next time shall stick to the former when mes dere..yah o dats it for the day..haha..the doughnut factory's q was/is super long lahs..nv stopped at all during our 5 hrs 'stinct' dere!zhiyu saes not worth so mes quite skeptical alr..me walked past but they dun look as tempting as the ones sold at taka sq..so mb ill gif it a miss..gd tt me completed 2 jap papers when i was dere..hmm..shall do 2 more ltr after my nap den its tuition tonight..n for the next few days

aint perfect dats y mes always on my toes to perfect those imperfections..physical imperfections r especially obvious when bulges appear, when ur clothes feel tighter, when u start to use ur pimple cream, shades for shielding, when pple tell u dat u r veri xin-fu, when u r in ur costumes..mental imperfections occur when u r super concious, when u r sinking into depression, when u dunnoe hw to ctrl ur life, when u dunno wad the hell u r doing in this wrld..when uve lost ur goals in life..academic imperfections r the number of distinctions uve missed, the renowned schools where u shld haf gone to, the scholarships which u shld haf tried to aim for..interpersonal imperfections?relational imperfections? wad bt all these..dere r so many imperfect things in life..at least in mine..trying to accept as much as i can cos im sensible enuf to look ard n see tt there r poorer souls ard..always haf the urge to pass 10 bucks to the auntie seeling tissue paper outside the mrt station..empathise with her..sigh..when i m 'loaded' k,auntie?

moving home soon..mums correct in chiding me jus now..3 yrs of hall life had morphed me into another person..more independent but one whu noe not how to live with others..i agree..i dun really haf a personal space at home..wadever i say will not b pleasing to her ears. so im always choosing to keep my mouth shut unless necessary..hw long can this last? son? shes always complaining dat sons r better..keep mentioning bt whuever whuever's son..irritated cfmed! cmon lorhs..good cos hes capable enuf to gof his mum at least 6oo to 7oo bucks mthly wad..if he din do u tink his mum will praise him or even show off in front of the relatives? sighh..so it all boils down to money? i rem doing gd essays discussing on the good n ills of money..so it has becm a reality in life

hopefully the situation will be better..with me shutting up n try not to rebute n be so vocal bt my thots..praying hard tt it will work out

haha...cant wait to go taiwan in 2 weeks' time..a diff environment, quite bored with twn alr..dunno wad i can do mans apart frm shopping eating movie ktv-ing etc..ya toking bt ktv-in!where r my khakis??desperate craze to go!haha..oh well shall wait a little little longer:)

18th's over! gone!

yeah!today is finally going to be over!had 311 paper this morn n oh well towards the end, me was like so drained!miss ard 18 marks..poor time management but m quite confident of the rest so praying hard for dat b to appear considering my course wrork:0 the afternn ge paper was jus stunning..wadever she hinted din realli appear!bestest!m quite lucky dat me read up here n dere for me to crap my way thru so mb wun do too badly huh..so its one more n mes off le!

todays wed n yah 18th of april a strategic day is gg to be over in 34 mins time!mes slacking in my room..n its pretty empty now..tmr shld lug more home:) mtg mei tmr to mug for jap..hmm..wanted to eat sth nice but since mei wans cheap food court stuff den i tink its okie bah..ill jus tk the usual yong tau foo which i deem it as healthy..den its off to mug at cafe..undecided which one to go..shall go by instinct tmr!:)good good

todays thurs..n the call nv seem to come..i noe it will be lidis oh well so jus leave it n not tink bt it anymore..
gt a call frm keith yesterday, hes one of the founder of tinybox, a music company located in tg pagar, the school which groomed kelly poon..yah he left me a msg on friendster reg the new intake of students..n called to provide me with the details..pricing n time wise sd gd..it will be the 2nd course which i will be gg thru:) yeah! this time rd its gg to last 1 yr..both basic n advance course:)to improve to correct are my aim this time rd..:) 150 per mth i can still foot it..so it looks like my weekend will be filled with regular ktv sessionS!haha..good tt mei is gg with me oso..so we cn learn tgt...keith sds nice over the phone..mb he cn sing as well too!haha..hes a singing teacher too!beginning to like the name keith..haha..so tinybox will be my next sch after ntu:)so afterall me aint gg to be detached frm sch yah?this time rd its gg to be a sch where i can enjoy my favourite activity..very excited on music recording which is gg to be taught!!woohoo!!(beaming frm ear to ear now!!)

din noe tt kj noes rick..saw him today at src bfore we went in for exams..dunno y but me jus haf a feeling dat hes super zai!the more i see him the more zai i feel he is..haha..admiration setting in?haha..even daph cfmed tt hes good..okie so he mus be of a certain standing..competitor sia...can apply my 5 forces analysis here!.hmm.me shld learn frm him as n when possible:)ricks a nice name too!haha

was struck by a thot jus now..suddenly the word vocal struck me..n me realised tt me tend to notice guys whu r vocal..nt as in those whu like to brag bt how gd dey r day in n day out but those whu r really vocal n open bt their thots n thus make an effort on voicing out their views..not those whu try to attract attention..hmm..me oso dunno hw to describe but me jus now whu r those whu aint turned off! dats y me used to like my vj student councils president!haha..okie nw the victorians whu r reading this will noe this long secret of mine..wadever, so long alr..it aint a secret anymore..n hey dun gt it wrg hor..not max but a yr bfore us!geddit?if not go ask von!haha..so leadership quality is a must to haf in my future bf?or shld i sae gd to haf?haha..mus be able to provide me with directions, make decisions but not a big MCP!hate it when mes being ordered to do things..even my mum nv ask me to do this n dat lorhs..no wonder she always complain dat me nv help out with the household chores!haha..but still i din help..my sis oso wad..so no diff..hmm..shall find new eye candy soon!haha

okie..1200 n 3 mins to 19th april..haha..yawans..

oh yah went for a 15min jog with daph..shld haf ran for a longer period but she din feel well so we walked a 1/4 of the route back :) its off to the pool to tone up on fri n next mon!yes!toning!!

branding me

A good brand name should:

be legally protectable
be easy to pronounce
be easy to remember
be easy to recognize
attract attention
suggest product benefits (e.g.: Easy-Off) or suggest usage
suggest the company or product image
distinguish the product's positioning relative to the competition.

din actually wanna come online but gtta find out bt brand management techniques in case tmr will haf a qns on it..haha..yah so the bv r the characteristics of a good brand:)

wondering if these apply to branding pple?haha..such qns me shall leave till tmr after 7pm!:) haha

okie so mes still acc. to my schedule for the day:) n mes done with 311! finished gg thru all me had to n supposed to..so even if cmi den i guess dats it..tmr shall look thru the more impt parts bfore heading to sch:) cant wait for 311 to be over so me cant revise for 814 for the 5pm paper..den its off to hall to watch my girl!yeah:)!!happy shall slack n sleep early tmr:)

gg to nap again n study 814 for the rest of the day!

im happy..n im really fascinated by how the brain works..tink its common to feel familiar with some of the instances which we come across in life..for me it occurs very frequently..mb its cause of my sleeping habits dat leads me to haf 'extra' time for my brain to wonder? hmm..interesting..

m listening to this sg..not a new sg so it aint the first time im listening its actually one of the sgs for the taiwan idol drama-e zhuo ju zhi wen..zuan shi jie dou zhi dou..its veri nice in terms of lyrics, meaning...catchy chorus..yah the whole whole noes..haha..if the whole wrld noes..it wun be good i guess..unless its a happy incident/event worth noticing/celebrating:)

cant wait to go find yanshan!haha..mb bfore me leave for taiwan k? it will be nice to meet u bfore ur killer week n ur exams:)

call

puff!had an intensive studying session this morn..started at 645 n ended at ard 1045..trying to cramp wadever we had discussed ytd into my tiny brain..haha..not done still gtta complete e implementation topics..hmm..shall continue with those tonight n read thru tmr again..okie s dats it for 311..END OF STORY!
gonna take a nap ater blogging bfore me venture into memorising 814..wad the...long time nv memorise things le..as in academic wise..hate it..haha..oh well..complain now oso no use since the papers r another day away!cant wait!!

hmm..since mum's 'chasing' me out of the hse to mug on this thurs cos she wanna mop the flr..me shall head for a fav. mugging spot n do my jap papers!:) good good!so ask mei alg if shes free:)

mugged at wheelock's Bk on sat..weird place to mug as in ill nv tink of tt place if not for dat motive..thanks mei for gg with me dat day!thanks..gv me the motivation to go!thanks!to say me aint waiting for the call i will be denying..but oh well its an outcome which im expecting..at least with ur presence i spent time trying..tink its cos u r constantly doing likewise as well..thanks anw!todays mon so wait lorhs!hard not to be hopeful but feeling so is inevitable!haha

hmm..gtta cm aross a 'heavenly' place to slack at raffles place ytd!its the TCC at raffles place! went for the 311 discussion with hs, kj joey n iriss..yah shophse of 2 levels..i like the 2nd level!unique experience, sleepy ambience..rather quiet oso..realise the pricing is still alright..at least the cakes r cheaper?haha..n they haf a greater variety of drinks..wah!yanshan!been dere bfore..hmm..lets go dere n slack someday yah?hmmm cant wait to go back n slack!good recommendation cfm!

seems like a long time since ive stepped into kbox..hmm..6 to 7 weeks alr..cravings here!urghh..okie shall wait for mei to be done..2 more for her...so in the mean time shall entertain myself with swims n tuition!wah..the pool my pool!mb cos ive always been swimming since sec..so deres always a sense of calmness in me when im dere..the carefree feeling is good..its a form of ex which me wun feel the perspiration..deriving great satisfaction..haha..still remembered hw i used to make myself memorise lyrics of songs while swimming..haha..keep repeating n pacing myself..weird way right?tink it wrks..n oso din revision while swimming too..of cos its all in e head ya?haha..used to be a memory machine in sec n jc..ive degenerated due to the lack of practice?hahaha..mb?

was at novo on sat..saw a pair of very nice heels..tink i look good in it..even mei says so..tink its still okie..49.9..though ex but gd n pretty..n comfy i hope..tink this brand is cfm better than charles n keith..haha..shall gt at least 2 more for wrk:) yeah..cant wait..tink not gg hk alr..so shall spend on my wrking stuff like wad mei saes..n works gonna start on JULY 5...most prob!:) hoped i did create a reasonably good impression dat day..shant tink so much..braindead anw..okie..napping time..timecheck 12pm

socialising blues

starting to gt worried..yes..hafing serious socialising blues..mum n sis have their points..kpmg is a 'party' company..as an when dey like it dey will go pubbing etc..for them its their 'fun' culture? even when i clarified with em ytd..the senior assoc din deny..n the upcoming welcome party will be held at some club oso..oh mans..acc. to daphs fran..he said tt the partners n managers will drown the gers with drinks..n one of his guyfrans gerfran actually called him to go pick her up as shes gg to be drunk..alas..its true tt i can resist drinking n insist on taking non-alcoholic or those w lower alcoholic content?hmm..vodka lime sds okie but me aint shen...vodka lime will gt drunk too..hey even rum n raisin icecream alr cmi...sigh..caught in bet. yah true gtta protect myself..wad dey sae all make sense..n me has gt common sense too!all the news reports on rape cases n stuff..hw not to gt worried?mb im tinking too much..but in reality these do happen..even daph told me to be careful ytd esp in kpmg..alas! i like to socialising but it definitely comes with a heavy price to pay!

jus cm bk frm a mugging n revision session from parkway today..at least was at coffeebean!n nw im so full after the mudpie, the pita sandwich n my reg vanilla mocha iceblended!full like puking right now..feeling real guilty n SINFUL!but wad to do..craved for quite sometime n me aint quite satisfied w the sandwich which cm in a small portion..so yah went ahead w the mudpie..shall go swim on mon if dats possible bfore me n mei go out to mug..cnt wait to slim down..if a slimming company nids an endorser ill volunteer gladly!haha..fat hope mans!haha..unless me start my own den ill be my own endorser!haha
realised 814 really has a lot to memorise..all the techniques n stuff..wah..was reading thru the past yrs qns jus now..sort of gt a sense of wads happening..so yah jus gg to focus n depend on my photographic memory alr!GOB MUS BLESS ME!n me mus be done by sun for 814!

okie jus printed the exam case study..n thanks mei for letting me use the printer yah..thanksthanks!shall go nap bathe n start at 8+ gtta finish everything by tmr night..so bfore mtg hs kj n joey on sun..me can revise my ge..its gg to be fast n furious!really!

yeah!fri gg meet hs to pay up for e remaining of our trip!gd gd...at least no nid to go alone..quite afraid of gg chinatwn cos alot of old men dere n me dun realli now the way ard people's park..was quite turned off by the massage parlours when me n yanshan went during the CNY period!so thanks hs!!:)

had my jap oral today..haha..it was really super fast lahs..even i was stunned when she said arigatou gozaimashita after asking me like a few qns..the period was rapis however, i think me did make a few mistakes..haha..wadever, its over so forget it!but i like my sensei:) shall gt at least a B+ so tt her hard wrk wun go to waste n of cos a gd grade will do justice to myself as well for being consistent?haha..

quite glad this weeks over, cos dat means im done with 814 pres n 311 pres..felt weird pres alone this morn..dunno y...haha..but hoped me din flop the pres right?since dr chan din pose any mind boggling qns means he understd wad i said!haha..gd gd so it realli pays well to be prepared:) phew!so pres r over!was telling kj n hs dat i thot these were my last presentations...on second thots!IM WRONG!cos for my work ive gtta constantly do presentations to managers, directors, clients..different audience bases..okie..mes hafing jitters..i mean all my life ive onli presented to peers, teachers etc..but now?oh mans!thinking a bit far but its really gg to be coming true! okie im gg to pyscho myself..its part n parcel of my work..i chose this path..i knew it frm the start..me can jus go to tax n audit which have fewer nid to do such 'public' pres...but yt i decided on risk...yes..so i chose it i shldnt regret n by right i shldnt be complaining!but wad to do..this is my blog..ive onli gt here to complain n 'pen' down how im feeling..communication with mei n mum wun help cos dey wun understd..jus like when i told em excitedly bt the socialising ytd..they had their fair share of comments..fair cos wad they sae aint wrg but its oso cos of those comments which caused me to be grappling with fear with regards to the company..

quite happy tt our cesim game gt 8/10..heehee:) yah wanna realli thank kj n hs for their hard wrk analysing the strategies n stuff!!!owe u two a big one for my this gd grade!!thanksthanks!! n mes wuite satisfied with my 10% quiz result..too bad mes so blur to haf missed out the last qns..if me cld haf scored at least a % more!aiyas..guess its alright?n hey prof no nid to write dat big on my paper to tell me tt me missed out the last qns right??haha..but thanks for the full grad for th 5 forces!!haha..first time in my uni life ive gtta a 'gd' as a comment!!haha..felt great!!hmm..jus gtta do well for my exam to secure another b:) n hopefully for 814 can gt a b as well!so me cn maintain my b grade

tink its quite impossible to gt a 2nd upper cos majority bs..sians..dat means my pay will remain at 2.4k..for kp dey r paying 2nd upper 2.6 n 1st class 2.8!wah kaos..wun haf my share this time rd:) oh well me aint always lucky lah huh? hmm..quite glad tt me will haf opp to travel overseas for job assignments..daph said tt for audit it will be at least 2 yrs for them to be sent overseas on a job...realli looking fwd..sds challenging!who ask me to like travelling?haha

quite happy for a moment..quite surprised to see them again..yah the gang again..n i bet hs did realise their presence in the can b after our 311 class oso..haha..hw small can the canteen be when it wasnt even crowded n they had to sit at the table behind ours..tink dey were surprised too..cfmed..okie..since its the last day of sch..its quite a nice little surprise..gtta c my yr 3 sem 3's eye candy:) haha..happy..so here u r reading the blog of a guy crazi fran!haha..but seriously speaking he cfm fits the bill i tink..oh well..hey JOLEEN!EYE CANDY REM!!yah n so me sint gg to see them or him again..haha..no wonder partner always saes dat me cnt b a lesbian cos im always so super duper boy crazy!haha..whey!wads wrg to be boycrazi? cos he has gt the std dats y mah..okie shant go on else it will be nv-ending!haha..cnt wait for exams to b over n gossip bt them with hs!haha..tink ill jus bore hs to death!haha

hmmm..kj saes my entries r always so long..trutrue..but everytime me always feel good after blogging:) realli..cos its a way of putting wads embedded within me here..so if ya peeps feel tt they aint interesting..go ahead n skip paras!haha..dats wad my mei does!haha..

its a way for me to express myself..n destress..yah..so shall owarimasu now!!haha..cnt wait to practise the 7 jap papers..look omoshiroi desu..haha..

nihon ngo nga dai tai suki desu demo he ta desu. sensei, arigatou gozaimasu. good luck to my tomodachi for rai shuu to sa rai shuu no shi ken! mata rai shuu no sui you bi! sayonnara!

socialising

todays the 13th alr!yah n in 5 days me will be almost freed!woohoo!!hmm..shall go mug real hard for 811 after jap's oral today bfore me head back home n concuss!gd cant wait for my vanilla mocha!okie n dat shall serve as a motivation for me to memorise my 811..haha...oh well..gtta revise cos cn only seem to rem parts:( kempate!n shall wrk on the case which will be out today for the entire day tmr n tonight!!sweat!

ytds acceptance party at brewerz was alright i guessed..hmm..6 of us risk assoc in the risk advisory department..so since we were the 'rare' minority, we were allocated a corner of the area..thot it was quite cosy though us gers were complaining tt we had to stand for the entire 2+ hrs on our heels!haha..resisted tking beer cos of todays presentation n mes afraid i wun be sober for jap oral ltr!haha..yah..

out of the 6 i gtta noe 2 as in realli noe noe..haha..another 2 were alright..n i guess dey only recruited 2 guys into the team!haha..one of them is rick..nice name...i guess hes quite zai oso!wah..mes cmi..oh well..had a feel of was kpmg's party life was like ytd..mb cos its the first time hence its wasnt really a good feeling after feeling dizzy after a while..mb due to the noise..nonetheless gtta now a bit more bt wad im in for..at least ive gt my frans w me:) hopefully dey r helpful..haha..gd gd...n the senior assoc was saying dat me dun nid to be in blazer everyday!hmm..shall so dere n observe wad the peeps wear!

i tink im always veri lucky!the risk department is gg to move to a new premise which is gonna be across the road!cool!!new furniture, new chairs wtc..no nid to use old ones!!haha..jus like this hall which mes staying!everything new!!great!haha

tink exam period is a time when peeps really drown themselves in caffeine!!kaoz!went to 2 vending machines n the nescafe were SOLD OUT!so at 732am mes drinking 100 plus to 'perk' me up dun tink it does nvm will be mtg huishan in 25 mins for brekkie n den its off for class..pres..case test review n slack den 5mins oral den mes gg to escape le!

haha...okie betta go prep for sch:)
next weekend will be diff!!

meimei jiayou!we can go haf fun n ktv n we shall go visit the ktv pub!!:) so cool..cant wait ger!all the way den u will be in yr 3 le!

fun sake

decided to just give it a try for fun sake,regardless of the outcome at least ive tried:)

mei said mes AA..hmm..really?but wad did i do?me really 'tone' down alot alr..where gt AA?pls enlighten me someone!haha

gonna sleep..din nap today..so unusual right?cos after jap class at 1230 today, me n von went to CS to print notes, can b for light lunch n den off to Jp to mug..so sad tt coffeebeans closed so had to make do with mcafe..hmm..cheaper but smaller serving..oh well not dat bad i guess..was dere frm 3 to 6..at least me completed my last mindmap for ge!haha..great so now can really conc on studying n memoring the theories n stuff..so sick mus memorise..okie understd if dat sds better?urghh..tmr 311's case is gonna be out n me shall spend half of my free day tmr to do CS, the rest of the day to churn out the framewrks etc for 311..hmm..thurs shall continue oso..gtta revise for oral for fri's jap oral test..haha..jus whack i guess..after this fri its gonna be 311 n 814..nothing else till the 18th den shall be full-fledged jap..tink it wun be tt bad cos mes almst done with it:) good!

looking fwd to kpmg's invitation party on thurs night..sds cool right?hmmm..filled with apprehension though..mtg my bosses colleagues..bestest me forgt the names of my interviewers!:( not a good sigh though..luckily msged daph ytd..else will be overly formal..hmm...great me shall be in my best n comfy outfit..at least its more me!more joleen!hhaa..hmm..not as in best best..jus a formal white sleeveless top with my beige mango skirt!n heels n shoulder bag..heh!at least me will feel comfy in this i feel:) fun fun!

was quite interested to find out hw much me will be able to earn in 10 yrs or shld i sae for me to wrk frm a low level risk associate to a direstor?dats if me stay long enuf n mes dat capable..haha..n shall base on the most conservation cal with perf bonus n rank increment..dat will be ard 12 yrs to earning the first million+..note its earning!!!not saving!!!haha..so if it aint such a conservative cal..mb 10 yrs?haha..

mums funny...she used to tell us tt caucasians wun make good bfs..or at least telling us not to haf angmohs bfs or husbands...i mean nt dat we will gt but jus saeing or warning..cos she said they haf 'high sex drive'..hmm..i dunno if its a myth or fact oh well mes jkus quoting ya!haha..n now cos she heard dat some relative's daughter is married to one, haf migrated n living super well with her angmoh hubby earning 30+k per mth etc, she started to 'hint'?dunno mans...sometimes i tink me mums very cute..contradicting herself mans..so me jus answered..yah dats good...n luckily e conversation ended dere haha

can tell mums really getting worried..dunno but can sense her agitation over this daughter of hers still be single n wonder if shes gg to jus remain so..haha..though she keeps saeing n 'preaching' bt the disadvantages of marriage n starting a family, its clear dat she hopes dat we will be married off well..yah which parent on earth wun right?haha..2 days ago was on the topic up raising up kids..yah was mentioning bt my cousin n hubby whu r both 36 tinking of sending their only son to a private nursery/kindergarten..hmm..mind u hes only at the tender age of 2!n dey r tinking of it alr!yah n it aint cheap ok!the bill is lyk 2k..acc. to mum..but i tink its a little less...mums was complaining dat its too ex n its like wasting money lahs...esp. when theres like the kindergartens run by the PAP...hmmm..i was dere for 3 yrs including nursery..not much of an experience or me cant rem since i was too yg..i guess in the future me wun be sending my kids dere..considering dat me cn afford a better edu for my kid y not!i dun mind spending more by sending him to a private sch..at least deres like proper learning,mb couple with music lesson etc etc..n mum went quiet..the disparity is great..then n now..

i guess as i climb further up..our distance will b drifting further...mentality will be changed..views will differ, conflicts will surface..unhappiness will arise..i noe i noe..im trying to minimise all these n m gtta minimise all these!cos we r a family they r my parents whu haf provided me with so much..im really grateful for wad im now for all the investments in terms of time n money..i thank mum n dad! no matter wads the status im proud to tell everyone dat u r my parents!

working twds it n the motivation is so stg tt its becoming overbearing on me:) yt the responsibility is so great dat me wun be able to share it in the near future..
feel like doing wad i like..hopefully everything will wrk out well:) i really hope!

okie 2308//sleeping time!14 days to graduation n fun!!!

ENVY!

CAI MING YOU? who's he?u may be asking now..feeling bored with my ge dats y came online to send joey the slides for thurs pres..yah so cai ming you is this singer!yesyes!!!this sg which u r NOW listening to!haha..n this song title is wo ke yi..

its really a meaningful sg..ming you is onli 19 n hes so talented..sighh..mes feeling old..haha..this sg is used as the theme sg for corner with love too..remembered listening to it at kbox while felix was trying to song..haha..hmm..tink he has since mastered it alr?shall ask him to sing when we do haf another session..hopefully dere will be one after exams..haha

din realli listen carefully till i read the comments on the site..yah its realli touching n sweet..imagine a guy whu tells u dat he likes u so much tt he wanna watch the stars with u n stuff??haha..sweet!but HOLD ON!!its a fairy tale! boys nowadays aint lidat only happens in show lahs..so yah gers n keep on dreaming for this day for this dialogue n still dream, cos this day will never come true!hhaa

read the sunday times this morn..theres an article written by sumiko tan on envy.yah n i agree with her tt we r envious of others..being envious doesnt bring us happiness, it brings competitiveness n unhappiness to our lives..will nv be satisfies with ourselves..n she correctly pointed out the targets like the hype gg ard these few days reg the ministers' pay rise, the pay of the various CEOs, the queue attracting buyers way before the launch of the high end condos..yah high end condos..still not so bad..todays sunday times reported on the family living in sentosa cove!my god!!!nearly 3m for one plot!!n gt personal boat etc...wanna cry alr..n yah this feeling is ENVY!!

cant wait for after exams..dunno y but mes hafing a crazy idea of starting wrl in june intead..looks like me aint hafing ani prog after my trip to taiwan n waiting for pei to finish her exam so m cn bring her out for the treat..n of cos off to zhiyu's place for a 'cooking' session!haha..but its silly to start only after a mth's break!arghhs..balancing boredom with freedom..which one??start early means hafta be clad in office wear earlier..hmm..not a veri nice thot..betta go find out the KP's dresscode..sian!aiya so troublesome not jus gif me a uniform????!!!!:P

cravings

me n my good fran zhiyu!!yah 9 yrs of franship!!dats relli long my dear:) many more yrs to come ya??cheers!!!



me during 'in the mood for love'!haha..long overdue photos..but oh well still not too late i guess..this event is to celeb valentines day..haha..n hw cm its a photo of my sideview?go ask the hall's publication sec!!!haha..mus be the front cmi lahs!haha..but my hall senior saes they r well tken esp those in the hall's mag..haha..she said they r shi qing hua yi!!hhaa..hw cm i dun tink so??:P



hmm..this is shannon..haha..photo snatched frm hall webbie..n so this event was held 2 mths ago--'in the mood for love'


hmm...lotsa of cravings especially when im studying..haha

shall go pw to mug this coming mon:) the fresh aroma of regular ice-blended mocha..yumyum, the sweet layered blueberry cheesecake,the chocolate of a thousands leaf, the mudpie..the original cheesecake..cool!oh no!mes suppose to do up my CS ppt but mes like hafing mental block:( informed quite last min. n mus send by tmr:( oh no..n its alr 1053pm!my bed time:( shall wake up at 530 to mug jap n complete the slides..but thanks joey for compiling..uve gtta jiayou n grad w us ahs!

guessed its in my nature to wanna be super prepared for everything especially for exams..yah n this is reflected in my tutoring style as well..feeling guilty for planning grad trip in such a way tt it will most prob coincide with their exams..sighh..cant be with them during the 'crisis' week..dats y mes gg to make it up for the cming 3 weeks..n worse still next week's classes will be reduced to one cos of 311 prep n ge exams on the 18th..so dats like fewer time to help them out..however, its comforting tt me had finished the exam syllabus for one of them..gtta jiayou for her bro's...hopefully dey can do better..

gtta change this attitude of mine i guess..i mean it may be good to be prepared n always wanna be prepared..i hate hafing to plan stuff at the last min..cant really stand last minute stuff e.g. a sudden meetup out of nowhere..its my nature to plan i guess..i must noe exactly wad im gg to do or expected to do for the weeks to come etc..jus like ive always arranged mtgs way in advance with my friends, making sure tt they r way informed weeks or days before..yah so this me.. on second thots, in the wrking wrld it will be different..me will hafta adapt to last min requests n wrk demands..really afraid tt me wun be able to cope with such changes..a panicky me will surface..oh man:( cant possibly tell the in-charge to book me beforehand right?haha..ill get hell i guess..so gtta change..give n take is the key i guess..

real tired these few days but m glad tt mes almost done with my 311 notes:) yippi so once the case is out on wed me shall wrk on it full fledge! shall complete my jap revision for next tues' n fri's listening n oral on mon..n tmr n mon shall complete the notes for 814 ..tues to fri will be mugging for 814 i mean memorising..with sat n sun focusing on 814 n 311..n shall do the third rd of revision for 814 n 311 on mon n tues..shall gif myself a break on 18th after 7pm n slack in hall to watch my girl..den its off to peoples park on the 19th to pay off the remainder of our pkg..n shall spend the next few days gifing tuitions n revise jap..n den!!its 25th alr!!!haha..

(decided to msg n isnt regretting..feeling good? mb)

yawns..

feeling so sleepy right now..yet its only 925pm...wanted to go study my jap in prep for next week's listening and oral yet mes like so drained..finished one n a half chap of 311 n yah did the notes..supposed to make a trip to coffeebean this afternn but in the end was so dead tired dat i decided to stay at home n mug instead..yawns..shall go slp after this entry yah..

haf decided to train for the half marathon..zhiyu mentioned dat day so thot y not since me has gt nothing to do after exams..so its gg to be the pool, the beach n orchard!haha..wad else?orchard= shop and slack!haha..wanna go jog at east coast my 8km but to prep for 21km..me shall slowly build up my stamina with 16km nonstop den increase frm dere..okie dat sds far!! me wanna go brush up my blading skills as well..so super exciting!imagine exercising thrice per week!wah! okie coupled with my slimming regime hopefully its gg to wrk even more!yah it gotta wrk..wait till i see those bucks ill definitely go beauty n slimming parlours

since mes gg to slp early soon mes goona wake up early to finish up the chap n mug for jap, gif tuition n continue another 311 chap..sat n sun will be doing up the notes for CS mod, revise jap n finish up 311..exams cming fast n 3 papers will be gone FAST as well..toking to clarence now..haha..mes still an undergrad dude!haha..yah till the 25th of this mth..after dat..hmm..mb u can call me a risk assoc..oh well but me haven gone for my convo so no nid to be so enthus lehs

oh yah!wanna THANK VON, LIN, CLARENCE, DARIUS and EMMA for the DKNY fragrance!din expect really..n the scent is really great dear von!thanks for hafing such gd taste!!hmm..no wonder we r buddies maN!we haf good taste inclu lin!!hahaha..n guys dun puke!haha..realli like the bottle n the apple scent..so sweet smelling..okie dat will make me sweeter..haha..okie..gif u the pass to go puke noW!hhaa:)thanks babes n dudes!!cant wait for clarence n darius to COME BACK!haha..den we shall go ktv!!!n really haf a good catch up!really!!

last fri was great cos me had a great great company--my dearest fran frm my sec 1 n 2 tk class..so so glad to haf kept in touch with u ger!though we aint in the same class n sch for 4 yrs n din really keep in contact in uni jus a few meetups here n there, we r still as close!:) this feeling is great dear:) shall date u to go blade w me oso! n we shall go jog yah!hmm..i mean i will jog but u can run!haha..tok bt blading shall ask hs n kj n mei oso..but me mus be sure tt me aint gg to fall again!with my big blueblack frm last last week's fall..im really scared of hafing them alr..so grateful tt it was better esp when mes a frequent swimmer..so ugly n paiseh!oh yah n cnt wait to go zhiyus hse..u can bake brownies while me shall 'show off' my 'pasta making' skills!haha..hmm idiot proof tts y i noe!haha

was toking bt my pri sch fran-cherilyn this afternn..mum mentioned bt her..cant really rem what led her to it..oh well the main pt is tt we were toking bt how capable her mummy is n hw she will be able to follow her mum's footsteps..admire her when i was yg..so pretty, has a 3 storey terrace, always using the latest gadgets in twn..one unfortunately thing was dat shes brought up single-handedly..nonetheless, cos her mums an exec..guess it made her life much easier n happier?i dunno cos we werent close animore since she went dunman high..met her in jc again n dere!at the age of 18 she gt a yellow sports car if me nv rem wrgly which she drove to sch everyday..talk of the sch mans..n me n sis were the lucky few to be one of her passengers..cool! yes..studies wise shes dere too..i mus admi im jealous..haha n still i guess

mummy saes gers whu r pretty n capable will lead a hard life..i noe whu she meant not onli my frans mum but oso my ma's frans..either divorced or gt dumped by hubby...n so happened tt they r pretty with the former being attractive and capable..told ma tt me wld rather be pretty n capable n she went quiet..guess she din noe wad to sae..she like to ask bt darren..haha..hmm..think she gt the wrg idea..haha..shes afraid i guess..was tellin her all the benefits i will be enjoying as an exec(hopefully) in the future, the material stuff me can gt to own n be able to provide for her as well..she seemed to be accepting my idea..ma ended saeing 'tt's if u r really tt capable!'

yah!its true n mes gg to ensure tt mes gg to reach tt position!nothing till now haven i achieved wad ive wanted..as in academically wise..yah so mes cfm gg to push myself dere! high in the hierarchy the status the corporate ladder! i aint gg to be satisfied with the lower position, to be jus another employee in the company..being in the 'limelight' since sec 1 me aint willing to be a nobody..dats y me contemplated to be a politician, dreamt to be in the entertainment industry etc etc..its all bt fame popularity n stuff..haha..so now the 2 dun seem possible ive gtta another chance to prove dat im able n i will be dat able!

love thurs cos i love to read URBAN tt comes with straits times..reports n articles on fashion trends n styles..cool suggestions..n wads is it like to be a socialite? very rich elegent pretty with a super rich hubby n family backgrd..?are these all?i mean wad r the rest of the criteria?imagine spending 16k on a gown..my god!life as a socialite sds so fun..gtta attend galas n idinners which only U and other big names r invited!gtta dress up like a doll..wear beautiful expensive gowns..put on makeup n haf ur hair all done up by celebrity hairstylists n make up artists like david gan n andy lee..grabbing everyones attention n haf the media oogle n dying to intervv u etc etc..socialites life seem slack..life aint gg to be a bitch animore!

oh well not even an exec now..jus an uni grad gg to start climbling the corp ladder..with a miserable income of 2.4k per mth..not 24k hors! when will i reach tt stage mans?unless...haha..starting to dream again!haha..tired u see..haha..

but mes very sure tt me wun jus stop dere..2.4k aint gg to be jus 2.4k its gg to grow exponentially...gonna enjoy n learn as much..grab wadever opp for me to perform..cos i aint simply satisfied to be jus another joleen i wan to be tt JOLEEN whom everyone noes n wanna now! my fighting spirit is back!not gg to back down cos i noe if i do my dreams my aspirations will crumble..n ma dun worry even if me aint gtting hitch ill be providing u n pa with the best i can!best living environment best food best life which will definitely be tonnes betta than now!n i believe i can!

its time to sleep...time:1016pm

(tmrs his day..wishing u happy birthdsy..yah happy birthday)

awakening

thanks zw!

surprised by the way u handled my problem..realli dun expect ya to publicly 'annouce' n whack him so hard..thanks really!

sorri to haf caused u to lose a fran..hopefully he didnt realli mean it n its jus cos he cant take this sudden betrayal on my part..

no matter wad..its realli good to af such a great pal like u whus dere to ting4 me all the way!!haha

yah n promise u dat u will gt the bestest treat when me gt my first paycheck but dun whack too hard sia!!haha..dun wanna leave on grass for the after dat!haha

thanks a million..other than a big big THANK YOU!!its still a BIG BIG THANK YOU!!!

aim high, work smart, hit max!

im so motivated!!haha..

came back hall early cos ltr deres a 311 quiz..so mes settled in my room:)if not for this, me wld haf gone swimming n be bk tmr lahs!oh well..hopefully wed and fri wun rain else ill reallie 'sweat'!haha..

so so motivated realli..these few days the neighbours r all so excited over the upgrading prog..as for my family we voted 'no'..wads the point?i mean small means small mahs..wads the diff w another utility room?u might as well name it store room lahs!bestest n weve gtta pay so much for it?hmm..at 10+k..not alot actualli..if mes like julin..so capable so smart so pretty n earn 12k per mth!wads 10+k mans!but seriously not worth!

mes gonna aim high wrk smart n hit the max. increment n performance bonus with my stay in kpmg!so so motivated lahs!working hard wun do wrking smart will!n me cant wait for the bucks to be rolling in!with me upgrading to prada, gucci etc..owning gold card den platinum card..travelling ard gg on hols w my family n frans..eatin at higher end rest. cool!n gonna save up to gt a bigger house enuf for my family..with good accessibilty..signing up for facial pkges for ma etc etc..cool!well after another 2 yrs mei will be out too so we shall wrk towards the dream hse!:)mum brought up a gd point ytd..no matter wad weve gtta gt another hse basing on our ability shldnt sell the current flat..makes sense i thot..so we shall rent this out end extra cash for them n MOVE tgt!!:) i cant wait for the day when mes capable enuff to go 'hse searching'!

i wanna be able to provide the best for family!hey look study for 18 yrs to haf come thus far an honours grad with a above ave. job..i aintgg to be satisfied with jus gettin married off early den degenerate with kids ard!no no no way i tell u!last time mb but now focus has changed!marry can..but wait..:P

16 days to my first 2 papers n after tmrs meetup with my dear zhiyu me will spend the next five days mugging at home!haha..n thanks mei for lending me ur blackie top!!gonna dress well for the last lect n since mes gg out so might as well!

goal for the week: complete own notes for 311 chapters, finish studying jap syllabus for next week's listening n oral exams, complete the notes for cs814..so next week me can conc on revising these mods n preps for 2 presentations!n after 18 mes more or less done!cool right..25th will be the last time mes tking a NTU paper..may not be the last paper in my life cos tinking of pursuing masters in hospitality..shall see hw wrk goes..my interest is still in the hospitality n tourism arena..but oh well it will be quite some time ltr till i will be in touch with exams!

can u understand hw im feeling now?excited!!realli!:)

so happy cos meis asking if mes able to go study w her next week..haha..of cos can!!dat will be my revision week!n me shall go mug at coffeebean pw this thurs!!wed thurs fri all activities packed cum mugging!!

im lufing my life now!n my goals my aims r coming true!!:)

simply luf being this joleen!

does it matter?

does it really matter that im attached?issit really important for u to noe tt im attached n hence u will stop n GET ON W UR LIFE?yah i noe it hurts..whu wun feel the hurt when u gt a rejection?but no nid to msg n tell me tt cos i wun back off i wun be moved..wadsoever wun reciprocate now means ill nv will..u simply dun geddit!stop asking if im attached or not..uve asked bfore..i dun owe u an answer, ive certainly no obligations to msg n gif u an ans..n i wun be replying tt msg..ytd's msg was clear n its my last to u..u made me do this..u make u wanna hate u..u made it such dat me wun even wanna keep u as a fran..yes..fran?wondering if u r even jus an acquaintance..i dunno n i dun wanna haf anything to do with this and u!
yes heartless u peeps reading may say..not caring wads ya view/s...even if mes unattached till death..u will still b in that basket!no chance!to be blatant: i will nv like u?din wanna type this in the msg ytd..it will cause a trillion more pain than now!so ive gt this entry to vent it out n get it clear!so it realli doesnt matter whether im attached or not!stop asking me this qns!!!get it clear!!!urghh!!!
dun force me to change my hp no. i tell u!seldom blocked peeps on msn n u r in alr..cutting it off may be betta for u..ya im a heartless soul n frans shld be chiding me now...go ahead for me will not look back for me had nv bothered to..yes i nv consider at all n im sure me wun be considering now or future or yrs down the road!the more qns frm u the more resentment i haf! guess u r smart enuf to comprehend the msg n my choice to not reply urs. dats it n u better jolly well move on i tell u..even if ya cnt ive nothing else i can do..drowning in ya own sorrows while im leading my normal n better life..geddit?me will be hafing lotsa fun with my trips hafing my hols n wrking life..!me wun be affected by ur hurt..so dun be silly..uve been thru tt for 5 yrs aint u tired?even if ya aiint, i am! so wadever msges u ever sent u noe where dey will g0--outbox, deleted without second thots!yes mes this jue!!!u forced me to!
dun qns y u wun be considered..perfectionist sae so means its like this, subjectivity is the answer, go find one whu can see all ur good..for me can onli c ur flaws..yah..dun make me list down y u dun fit the bill dun make me be dat nasty cos i mus admit tt mes at a level worse than being just nasty alr..dun make me gif u my 'checklist' to see hw many pass n fail..dun force me to do things tt me haven nv done bfore

alas..needing a good good nap n continue with my prep for my 10% quiz on mon n its happy time with zhiyu on tues!!!yeah!!!:) so while u r in depression, im in my wonderland..so i sd demonic to u or u still tink im dat angelic?u shld noe for urself..c'mon...no will always be a no..no will nv ever become a yes! GET A LIFE!

once and for all..please..

has been looking fwd to today since tues:) and yeah!!!todays been a great day till 9pm..
as usual met up with hs for 830am's 311 class..the usual brekkie n walk to class..todays class is small lahs..n i fd it amusing when the prof..dunno if hes degree has increased..actually said tt my photo looked like hs'!wah..hellos n whey dun u understd english??i told u im joleen which is equals to im not hs n u mus keep repeating the qns:'r u hs?' hellos!!!!feel like struggling u lahs!!haha..hmm..looks like hs is a compliment sia!so pretty!!haha.. n hey ger!!n my fran yanshan saes dat you r pretty too!!haha..n bestest my mummy saes u look like some actress..haha..hmm..ive pretty frans yeah?!!!n yes!i mean franS with the S!!!!haha..n so the classes ended at 1230..

went to zhiwei's hall n hey it had to rain lahs!!in the end left ntu at ard 230 n reached vivo at ard 4..by the time we were both starving!wad to do din tk dinner ytd night n had a bun for brekkie..haha..btw u shld realli go THAI ACCENT!the reviews were npot exaggerated i feel..good food..we ordered the green curry chicken,beef with basil leaves, otak and seafood glass noodles..nice!!!i love the curry!!!:) n the bill came up to 63 for 2 of us!!ex right but i think its good value for money!!thanks zw!!!so its a certified place for me to bring my mummy dere for mother's day!n mes gg to treat my family to ding tai feng:)haha had our dessert at earl swensons decided to treat myself betta by ordering the chocolate crunch, thanks zw for the dessert treat..nice toking to u n oso thanks for listening to my complains..u r one of those frans whom i can complain to!haha..thanksthanks!!so felt real great!!nce food nice places, good frans!great

mood was down but was lifted a little cos was toking to zhiyu-my good fran frm tk too..yeah good to be mtg u on next tues dear...cant wait to see u babe!n hopefully zhuo hao n u wun mind gg hk with me n yanshan in june:) haha.. cnt wait for tues to go raffles for another rd of good food!!!:) so..its gg to be dieting for the next 3 days

im gg to slim down..gg swimming on wed n fri next week n gonna speed up the process by tking slimming tea which i haven decided on which one!urghh..

yesh!!me n zw have a common goal!to be able to earn tt much dat we will be able to walk into the shop n jus get things that we want!not hafing to consider further n not even to hafta haf the word 'but' when buying stuff...no more 'i feel like buying but...'!!!it will hafta be ' i feel like buying cos i want to n i can afford it!!!' yesh!!dats it!!!go dude we can do it!!!n dun forget me when u r offered a job of 12k per mth or more horSSS!!!!haha

yah..n here comes y my mood was down..he msged to ask if ive rec. the bdae card..wun at home so of cos not..guess tt when things hafta come it will come..was still toking to zw bt him this afternn..sians..told u!im cursed!exam period realli is an idiotic period for me!ive decided to end it..yes i crushed ur hope..that lasted for 5 yrs..yah..i admit dat mes a bitch to haf given u false hopes..i admit dat me shld be more frank n sae:'we cannot, will not be able to be tgt!' mb these will it straight!yah so dat explains the lengthy sms which ive sent..u shld gt it now right?clearer?a witch i am!but ive gtta let u noe this!n im seriously qns ur reason of not gg imperial for ur uni now..but me shant probe further..dunno hw mani times ive said sorry but its now or never..at least please gt it now yah?once and for all pls!i will be realli speechless if u aint gg or refuse or try to act blur bt it..dun mind as a fran but pls dun push further cos it will turn into irritance n i dunno how nasty i can gt..so pls..sorry dat u r gtting this during this exam period..wake up ur idea? u will find the one n i will nv be ur zuan shu tian shi like wad uve mentioned in the card..n now im like gonna hate this song alr!sians...mood was totally affected

at least this aint as bad as last sem's, last last sem or even for the past 4 sems..so me gtta jus tk it easy..for me after this blog..this complain..this ranting..it will be alright but for him..hes gg to gt it tons worse..u haf a bright future realli..nothings wrg on ur part..nothings wrg to like someone but mus noe its not dat if u like means hw hard u try the other party will reciprocate!

yah my frans reading these paras may despise me may chide me for being heartless..yah i am..im not denying..jus leave any comments if ya r displeased..to me i dun believe gan qing shi ge yi pei yang de..nopes..click means click, attraction means attraction, whens deres not even an initial attraction dun tok bt pei-yanging anithing lahs..be practical..both guys n gers r shallow lorhs its jus the extent yah..zw alr mentioned ieven if one is super zai will super good credentials talents if hes cui looking..its cmi still..so it shows sth..

im a perfectionist i told many..im an elitist kj told me..m frans ys n von too r the former so wad can u expect frm us?mb me shld apologise to those guys whom we haf rejected?haha..not trying to sd wanted or desirable but m jus wanting to voice put wad im feeling n thinking..not tt me tink im perfect..i noe no ones perfect n perfect is an subjective issue..but we do haf a choice to decide wads perfect n wads not right?or blatantly phrased, whos able to mk the mark whos not right? to us (guess im correct)till weve fd the 'perfect' one guess we wont be settling down or even not be bothered to consider those below 'the mark'..we r independent gers though family n kids r important, for us they r secondary..wads impt is enjoyment, fulfilment..whether to start a family or not aint the topmost..if not we wun be mentioning bt our bachelorette's club,mansion, remaining single but desirable?yah

so its bedtime n mugging for exams..heartless, yes dats me, cruel, yes i am, evil, yes not denying, wadever u sae im not shaken n not gg to be shaken cos wadever it is its impossible n m glad those previous ones do gt it..

focusing on my final exams, focusing on my tutees exams, focusing on my grad trip n fun with hs mei n jennifer, focusing on fulfilling my mei's dream, focusing on starting work, a new life in july, focusing on my career n savings for next yrs 2 weeks london trip with von, focusing on my near 1k perf increment next june or end yr..focusing on gaining status in the wrking wrld, focusing on fulfilling my daddys dream, focusing on alot alot more, n u see..my focus is not on getting into a rship..when it comes it has to come, if hes mine, he will be mine..no point forcing no point trying to get into one dats not urs n ultimately hurt urself thru a breakup..seriously ive realli gt lots more to do den to tink of these n to deal with rship problems!!!

so its gonna be a good slp, wake up early n mug for my mon's quiz n jap self study lesson tmr!whether he replies doesnt affect me since its clear on my part..

meimei..rem..im keeping my 1st june free jus for u!if anything crops up or u gt pangseh again..uve me!we will go dolphin lagoon n underwater wrld like cos u haf always wanted to..n mes gg to save n not spend n gif u a nice treat yah?me will save more to bring pei along den the 3 of us can haf fun tgt!n haf good food dat dae k?i promise u n ill fulfill it!

yes!so my family comes first, my frans n myself..

THANKS HUISHAN!

yah mes as blur as usual!huishan left me a comment after reading my previous post n my jap cmi till me read 'huishan' as 'kanjian'!haha..n happily msg kj to thank him..wah...gt more paiseh one not?haha..
anw..dey r my close frans so nvm right?haha..jus cnt believe myself!
anw, thanks ger!
n look!!hs even went to photoshop this photo!so pretty right?with the frame n words..its like a neoprint!haha..n the peeps removed at the back..wah..immense amt of effort put in..bestest!she did it till 4am!!:( xin ku ni le ger!!thanksthanks!if ya were to ask me to use photoshop now..me will nt be able to do so alr..

hmm..nice nice pic!thanks again ger!

oh ya jus to add on, thanks edmund, wanyu n charmx for ya msges:)

so my birthday came n went jus lidat..haha..

looking fwd to gg vivocity after jap tmr..its a dunch with zw..haha..thanks dude for taking time off to celeb my bdae despite the cming exams!thanks in advance sia!!haha:) wanna try the thai food frm thai accent..wondering hw it will tast like:) yeah..no need to wait till after exams le..if its great me shall bring ma dere to feast after exams den!:)

quite proud of myself to haf gone for info visualisation class today..cos kj n joey nv attend..hmm..its alrights lah..lecture onli..n cos me gtta go print stuff oso..but as usual my laziness or 'enthusiam' to pon classes has set in n mes tinking of whether to skip tmrs 311..haha..oopps!haha

thanking session 2

yah wanna continue my 'thanking' session:)

thanks von for ya msg n wishes ya:) u mus be hafing a hard time rushing for ya proj n mugging for ur exams in 2 weeks' time..jiayou ger!!:)

thanks mel!thanks for ur msg:) hope ya had a great day today too:)

thanks shan!!!yeah!!thanks yanshan for ya early wkeup msg:) my bestest fran whus always dere for me..im so sorry to have to paiseh u n go taiwan:( i wanna thank u for alot of things dear ger!despite hafing lessons in sch today, u dun mind mtg me for dunch...though it was a short meetup but i felt veri good:) veri at ease n at least its wad i had looked forward to today:) thanks..though usually me will spend it at home me decided not to travel back n forth this year so dats y:) alot of things i wanna tell u..alot alot but me gtta be strg:) realli appreciate ur presence!n not forgetting ur sweet exam goodie bag with the marks n spencer sour gummy:) yummy!ill go q for the doughnut when exams over n pass half to u!!!cant wait!

thanks shunzhao for ya wishes as well..real surprised to rec. urs..thanks dude!!

thanks weinee for msging me ya:)meet up soon ger!

thanks daphne!!DAPHNE!!my ex-roomie my current neighbour, thanks for the litle surprise..this is my second slice of bdae cake..yah n me finished it alr..minus away the cream:) thanks!!so heartwarming!!:)

kangjian oso..haha..if me nv check my blog ill nv haf read ur wishes..n hey me dunno u haf my link lehs..hmm..anw thanks for offering ur help!thanks dude!:)

pampered myself today!really 'pampered'!haha..went coffeebean n had my vanilla ice blended, bot a loreal hydrating eye gel, n best!proudest gift for myself..a chrisyl mini hairclip for 9.8..yesh its ex but im gg to wear it for wrk..cos tink me look more pro with my hair clipped to the back..yah she me decided to jus whack!wanted to gt chomel's but its like 20 for one lahs!!!when im richer mb ill consider..yah so u see the materialistic me?haha...no i believe tt me will be more confident with it..its bt brand, style etc..so yah n shans sae shld gt heels from aldo but aldo sia!!how ex..haha..ill wrk towards dat ger n me will make sure me will get dere..a provider for my family, myself n sisters!

the phrase realli proves itself:' higher the expectation, greater the disappointment' n im believing it truly...

(there r 2 frans whom ive treasure..n treasuring since my tk days..guess its the slip of their mind..its okie..exam period..jiayou gers!meetup soon:0)

blessed

thank you frans for ya wishes ya:) thanks!!

wanna thank my nbs coursemates: huishan,joey,iris,mel,kangjian n kahhon for celeb my bdae w me ytd..aint easy cos its exam period..so realli appreciate ya presence ya!n thanks for the gift oso:) thanks!

wanna thank darius!yeah!darius for wishing me ytd..haha..n hope ull have fun with ya trip ya..n we wan u n clarence n zhenhao to be bk in sing!!!quick finish ur exams n cm bk quick!!!make us wait n wait!!heh!!dun forgt our pressies k??haha

wanna thank zhiwei for ya real earli n realli 'timely'--2222h wish!haha..n its cfm a day early lorhs..anw, thanks for the thot n hopefully the thai food on fri will taste good:)looking fwd:)

wanna thank yongjie for ya 40mins early wish too..haha..wondering y pals r wishing me so early nowadays..haha..thanks 'uncle'!thanks for rem..n thanks for the times uve heard me complain n complain..a great listening n soulmate i feel..realli thanks alot..n im waiting for ya second wish TODAY!!YTD's dun count!ill rem ya!!u owe me!haha

wanna thank daphne for wishing me as well..haha..since mes jus beside ur room dun nid to msg ya..haha..thanks ger!!known u for cming 10 yrs alr!!!dats lik a decade!oh man!haha..n looking fwd to the yrs to cm in kpmg!!:)

wanna thank stanley for ya msg..another vj fran for the 0000hr msg..thanks..other than thanks me dunno wad to sae alr..wish u well..n all the best fran

wanna thank zhiwei again for his 2nd msg!haha..this time rd ill accept n mes appreciative hors!!see me dedicate so much of this entry to u lehs!haha..thanks alot yah u r indeed a great fran worth keeping for life ya!!!:)

wanna thank yingni!!yeah my jc classmate n now nbs schmate!!thanks for the msg n wishes..after 4 yrs u still rem..mes feeling gulity tt me din reciprocate..thanks babe!my triplet!haha

the list shall accumulate since its onli 53mins past 0000h..haha..yah n mes turning in:)looking fwd to mtg shan at menolti tmr for hi-tea!yea!!!:)a last min arrangement..since me will be mugging in twn so might as well meet up right..haha..shan wun mind hors!!haha..:) shall go walk walk n shp bfore mtg u n of cos will situate myself in coffeebean n immerse in the aroma n ambience!!yeah!good life sia!!n shall go shp as well:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF??haha

(yongjie: birthday=mature, more chio, wiser etc...mes onli gg to agree with the 2nd!!haha)

aint suppose to *** aint suppose to **** but when daph mentioned they jus came..oh well..its okie..the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment...y bother when one doesnt care..no matter how, its gg to be dat way..deep breathing helps..keep breathing..aint worth the effort,time,****

shall enjoy this day as its my day n yah..ive great frans with me n my closest bestest fran gonna dine with me:) thanks yanshan!!!:)

no excuse

with the advent of techno theres simply no excuse..
no excuse to say i dunno
no excuse to sae i forget

no nid to promise wads not meant to be, this reflects how much it is..
'lemme be the one to remind u', yah as though dats really gonna be the case..
dunnid much, dunnid ani jus simply show tt remembrance or at least knowledge
choosing so reflects the amount..should i thank u for tt? maybe den doesnt it mk u a saviour? wadever..

not letting me to be affected..for the past sems, me seemed to be cursed..weird pple, unforseeable events, hopefully this time rd nothing of such will happen, heh!look last sem of exams lemme conc in peace lahs!at least if anything is gonna happen let it be a good one..dun involve me in all the crap n unnecessary stuff!

dunno wad to say, aint gg to say..letting it be has been the case..wondering if smu wld be a better choice back den..no pt regretting, no pt wondering, its destined to be this way, to go this way n yah..its gg to be over soon!OVER!

taiwan coming true!

there are 2 things to be happy about today!firstly, went NATAS fair with mei n her 2 frans so in the end we managed to settle on a 7D package there, with a price of onli 926.6 including of insurance, airport taxes, tourguide's tips..heh, wad a bargain right?hmm..at least the 4 of us r happy bt it..secondly, best of all is that huishan is gg with us oso!!!yeah!!!she is my closest fran ive made in ntu n yeah!!we can go for our grad trip tgt!!thanks ger!!! really looking forward to it!!!yeah!!yipppi!!guess we r all veri excited :) haha

hmm..gonna brag a bit bt the itinerary..haha..we r gonna stay in 4/5* hotels thruout and AND AND!!!wads real exciting is tt we r gonna stay in the 5stars hotel where jerry yen aka dao ming si filmed his debut ahow--meteor garden...wah!!!cant imagine me have been dreaming of the sheltered swimming pool, the wen zuan!!!haha..good good n mes gg to enjoy all these with my mei and my good fran!!!yeah!!!n theres another night at another 5*!:) the food? guess its quite good oso..haha..oh yah at least we r travelling on EVA air instead of chinaair, hmm..SQ is simply too expensive alr..haha..oh n we r gg take a train from taipei to hualien..first time on a train..hw issit like i wonder..

cant wait!n so mum is nagging now..n i literally now!!!urghh..okie..surprised to see felix n jeremiah at the air as well..yah..

its been quite long since i had eaten at KFC..hmm..gonna treat it as an exception cos bdae is cming?hmm..shall not take a heavy brekkie n mon gonna swim!!

seemed like a long day..gonna sleep n wake up early to mug..test cming!n next exams cming n off to taiwan!!!:)

hw i wish me haf a more supportive parents or at least dun nag n nag..i can feel tt mes repelling..so irritating!snap like siao..can understd hw it realli feels..no wonder..suddenly mes appreciating my hostel room more!sighh

a word of thanks

work hasnt started in kp n me has gtta noe 2 colleagues! feel good really..one of them is my hallmate, ex-victorian, in jcrc during my term as well..not dat we r super close but at least shes someone i noe..gd thing is dat she interned dere last summer..mostly positive feedback frm her:)
another fran is his fran..phew luckily aint gg to risk as well..thanking god for tt:) i mean realli din wanna wrk in the same company..ya mb mes trying to avoid or shld i sae im afraid..haha..oh well, no lahs wads over must be over..liking the current status:) so happily he intro-ed me to his fran on msn (vice-versa) ytd..guess this is the onli thing he has done for me..yah..or mb those 'few' things if my memory aint failing me:P thanks though
this fran of his is a high flyer, just like him..same sec sch same JC as him..no wonder they r good pals..a law student as well guess dey mus be dble spec tgt..stress..imagine wrking with this kinda of peeps..super stressful:( so this wrld is full of elites! oh man, to think tt me cn be considered as 'cream of the crop'..haha..there r many others whu r much better, they r those whom i term as ' the bubbles/vapour of the crop!' haha..hmm..quite curious to find out whu this colleague is esp after reading his testimonials on friendster..an allrounder dats wad his friends claim..bowler, softbowler, magician, guitarist, eloquent, a jammer, a smartie etc etc..wah!rich pple's kids r like this..haha..no wonder he noes him..of cos lahs..RI RJC kids sia!my god! stress me out of my wits man!n hes dads base in hongkong..wondering wad hes wrking as..n hw cm his dad is featured in the papers? hmm..
quite surprised dat he hadnt plan his grad trip..shocked when he asked if he cld join..so weird lahs..n the new colleague is nice enuff to fill me up w a little info of hk..helpful though..
hopefully with this 'good' start of hafing known 2 frans, i will be able to start wrk with a 'BANG":) no matter how hard me will wrk towards my dream, our shared dreams:)

today's thurs..n 2 more days to NATAS fair..so excited as me n sis r gg to book our first ever trip overseas tgt:)

UP-ing the stress adrenaline

everyone's starting to feel stressed up again..wad to do?its the exam time!yeah..n ive gtta agree dat the engine pple r definitely much worse than us! reading mei's blog as well as zhiyu's blog..even darius' blog makes me feel empahthetic twds em..as in those many lab reports, tuts etc etc..not as if me dun hafta do tuts n churn out project reports..but theirs like an every week's affair so its alot much much terrible den mine!
hope u guys can manage n yesh!survive thru ya?

dun realli like my da bo mu to call us..i noe its rude but sometimes me realli feel like jus telling her dat me mum aint free or in..everytime she will update ,y mum bt the members' life of my paternal side..we aint close to em at all or to put it straight, we dun even wanna b in contact w em..okie its bt filial piety n suvh..mes tired ofhearing those stories repeating again n again especially when my mum is hafing menopuase now!wah bestest!its as if oil has been added to fire lahs..KAOS!non-stopping nagging at my poor dad..non-stop churning of the past..the victims?of cos us lahs..whilst we r all trying hard to mug our brains away in the little small spaces we can find at home..we wanna jump down n die tgt mans..mb dats y me n mei wanna go out n mug n yah..dat will be it in a week's time cos my papers r starting n me shall ask mei along..at least go to our fav haunt to mug dere will be some peace..

yes mes portraying a rather ugly image of mum hafing menopause but dats only when shes aggravated n agitated..othertimes?oh well guess shes fine bahs..i dunno but we r afraid dat dad will blow up one day too..sometimes me thot tt it isnt dat bad an idea to keep in touch with grandma?ive nv called out to her since we moved out of dat hse..ive nv seen her since den..nv haf i seen or recog the rest of the family..nv in touch..for us we onli haf our maternal side uncles n aunties..a small small family tt explains my damn slack CNY visiting routine..haha

one thing to look fwd to this week is todays suki at CCK and fri/sat's NATAS fair to book our package to taiwan with mei n her frans!yeah!den its taiwan in early june!!will cm back n conc on teaching my tutors n prep em for their mid yrs..n hopefully dey will continue thru the june hols!den will haf income mahs..shans interested to go with my hall guys to hk in june..hopefully dey will be gg den might as well jus tagged alg..haha..den me gtta quickly save more to go to hk in june as well!haha..

meimei!work twds our hols k? dun put too much stress n pressure on urself..scary to read ur blog entries..seems like u will be exploding or really kill urself mans..scary..i dunno wad i can do to help u also..jus take care n lets go mug n slog tgt like wad we did for the past sems to prep for exams..after dat its the annual reward of 3 mths break!jiayou ger!!

okie time for a 2 hr mugging session bfore gg to meet yj n daph:)

oh yah!thanks hs for org a bday dinner next mon:) thanks alot for the effort esp when exams r nearing..din expect u all to rem:) so its real heartening..
n mel!thanks for the suggestion..me has nv org a bbq bdae before, thanks for offering kh's condo for a celebration..its the thot that counts..thanksthanks!!

im blessed with great and thotful frans! wanna thank u peeps for being there when i nid u guys:) kudos to all!n i hope i will be the fran u peeps will look for whenever u nid help or a listening ear! ill try my best to be a good fran:)

tatas:)

waraKU'S MY favourite!

haha..all ready to 'DIG IN'!



yumyum..our me n mei's fav: BABY OCTOPUSSies!:)



n here comes the MAINs!woohoo..

have been asking ard for new eateries as mes quite tired of gg to jus those handful which i always patronise..so was quite 'despo' tt day n started searching online for new places..
theres a new authentic thai restaurant at vivovity, reviews are not bad, prices quite reasonable..haha..looking at the pictures jus made me salivate!haha..hmm..shld go there after my exams..hmm..shall bring mum dere since shes a fan of hot spicy food..
another's peranakan food at joo chiat--chilli padi..have been saying tt we will go but till now still haven so its time to gif it a try!
hmm..haven been to minolti at raffles city..haha..okie great!after exams shall go find shan at smu n we can happily 'drop' by for lunch/dinner!idea!
dere another up-market fusion restaurant at rafflescity's basement..reviews were great n of cos prices start from the low 20+...haha..so me still haf a to try out!yeah!happy!:)
oh yah not forgetting pei's treat to suki..tink she has been waiting n as a sis me shall fulfill this promise of mine!
this wed gg suki at cck with daphne and yongjie:) cant wait!baby octopuses n jellyfish, sashimi etc etc..im cming!!!haha
today's the last day denience will be ard in hall so us gers r gg to cook n haf a 'feast'..hmm..dunno hw me can contribute though..haha..time flies man!n its 29 more days to my first 2 papers!yesh!n ive started to load my engine..haha..
quite glad tt me had gt my GE proj drafted out n hopefully kj n joey can asap contribute their part n we r off with it!next will be the presentation of our strategic game..off sia..the stupid game..
woke up early this morn wanting to go swim in the end it poured like noone's business so came back to hall n mugged one chap of 311..yawns..shall nap soon n revise my jap bfore von n charmaine come..when night falls me wun haf the time for myself to do work so betta buck up n make use of these free hours:)
seems like me gtta forego gg taiwan with yanshan this summer if jetstar still refuses to haf promotions for june..will be gg 4 NATAS fair with mei n her frans..so its gg to be choose n book by sat!yeah..no fuss of planning since its gonna be a tour..to tink of it gg on a tour mb a little more ex but its safer(like wad mum is always preaching bt)can visit more places live in better hotels etc etc...mei dun worri though its ard 3 weeks in advance of ur actual bdae..can still celebrate with u if ya pals aint in singapore yet...:P looking forward to taiwan!

happy..

it's been quite enjoyable for the past few days..or shld i sae past week.with some events occuring n happy news here n there:)

happy for mei for her first recorded n uploaded song(me wan too!!teach me)
happy for vonnie over her attachment with EY
happy for daph cos she has found her happiness
happy for peipei for her improved academic results( me will definitely treat u to suki after ur mid-yr ya!!work harder!)
happy for charmaine cos she has decide to face it and hopefully become a stronger person
happy that dads able to attend my convocation in july
happy dat my midterm quizzes are over
happy dat me daph n yj will be gg for suki's buffet next wed bfore the exams!
happy cox me gtta noe more n msned n cared

today's already thurs n i cant believe tt the weekends are here once more!everyweek jus pass like nobody's business!especially this week..mb it's cos me came bk hall onli on tuesday hence the speed..wah!oh well, ive always been looking forward to tmr cos im gg to watch the 'cyborg' show starring rain with mei tmr!yeah!shall go waraku tmr too:) feeling so xinfu!or issit sinful?haha

jetstar hasnt been hafing promotions for june..sigh..hence the trip to taiwan will shan seems 'bleak'..haha..hmm..in that case me shall go with mei in may with her uni frans bahs..felix mentioned tt the hillstreeters may be thinking of gg hk this june!hmm..wondering if me will be able to tag along..haha..shall see how..but its so weird if daph wun be gg den me will be the only ger..hmm..cfm weird..oh well, to think of it aint really important for me if theres no trip to aniwhere..im happy as i am now..hmm..me has my sis wad!jus ask her?haha..shall let her noe tmr over lunch:) yeah gonna wear my new pull n bear denim skirt tmr n my nice top again!so happy to be clad in pretty wear!!!okie, this is vanity or wad dey sae bimbotism?haha

tonight's the last event for this year--hall dinner. cant deny tt it was really duper super fast lahs..jus remembered last year ard the same time i was in jcrc..similar setting, same venue etc etc. this year's much worse cos for choir performance there gg to be like jus 8 of us its like an huh?hall choir?pengs n having the thot that me can slack ard as a final year n 'dissolve' in the midst of the crowd isnt gg to work cos dey need sops!alas!okie since its the last event in hall this year, since im leaving, since me will haf no chance to stand on this hall 3's stage, since im a good n loyal hall 3 choir member, since i was once in jcrc, since i noe my junior..i will be 'nice' to help out with my pathetic voice! :)

its gonna to be my ge proj for this coming weekend!:) all the way mans!

shag

it was a really tiring fri cum sat!

rushed straight back to hall after lunch with von n guobin n his proj grpmate..best..after napping for 2 hrs still felt super tired so slpt again after an hr odd of youtube
the long n eventful night started frm 8pm..with duties or shld i jus admit tt they r sai gang..!haha..alrights la...end of term, end of schooling years..this is the onli way me can 'contribute' to hall for the last time?haha..so shant complain so much!yah
practiacally sat in the roving vehicle'car with the chair of the night cycling committee, huanlong, frm 1130pm to 630am. of cos they were mins when me was out n WALKING STANDING (not jus sitting)..times when me was hafing fun with the hs n lh peeps!last out of hall event tgt..though not mani gers jus me daph n 2 junior gers..it was alrights cos we haf a bunch of our hs guys..crappy souls!yah..so the rest of the time was in the car helping huanlong with the picking up of phonecalls frm the route leaders n calling them for updates while hes driving, planning of the schedule..flexibilitys involved..alas!the worst was tt me aint awake n had to depend on ko-hi!haha..yah caffeine for us..else cfm cnt survive the night..so afterall we reached east coast in the car whilst the garang cyclists 'flew in' in the bikes!haha..nearly gt 'killed' when me told them tt i was tire n my legs were cramped..haha..not cycling but siting!haha...
by the time me gt home, was alr 8pm..after brekkie..it was slping time frm 9 to 4pm!haha..n had my early night at 830!plus all the way to this morn(sun) 530!haha..jus revised my jap for my quiz on tuesday..mes gg nap soon to haf enuf energy for 3hrs of tuition till 3 ltr n yah its jappie revision again!
cant wait for this cmcing fri cos mes gg to watch cyborg starring rain with mei!n mes gg to wear my pull n bear skirt!haha..pretty pretty!
this session is a session of break-ups!cfm!after hearing so many of them in hall..quite sad..oh well..shant be a kaypoh n me shall jus mind my own business..!yawns

the waiting game

wait..dats what we wan others to do..or we unconsciously will wanna do..so y wait?y issit dat weve the tendency to wanna procrastinate? issit cos we aint sure or issit cos we just dun feel like progressing? its a long process, a long time..the result? can be positive or negative or dere wun even be an outcome!
it's a time when ive cm to realise dis no longer applicable..initiative is the wrd..quoting von: deres no pt looking back, aint us..since its the past, its gone, we will look forward n move on!
no point..no more waiting game n me shld wrk like mei n wrk towards the shared dreams no matter hw busy..life's short so jus t end this waiting game for goodness sake!

photo-update

my sweet frilly pokkie top!






sisters in black:)

looking forward

so nice to have gone out with mei today..apart frm gg to sch on monday, tues to the pool, thurs to aunts place n today to ms' kbox n bugis..ive been a 'good' ger n is gg to be one tmr again..on the one hand, me cnt really ask my frans out as dey r busy w tests, me sis w lessons, shan whu has started sch huishan w tuition during weekdays..so jus rest at home n youtube is my entertainment..so mes really glsd dat me gtta go out after gifing tuiton at 1..

sworn tt me will nv go marina sq's kbox for good!lousy sucky service! aiyas n bestest both of us forgt tt we shld go to the one at suntec!alas!haha..oh well..we did enjoy ourselves..drooling over wuzun n da dong in their fei lun hai's mtvs, busy tking shots of ourselves n recording our voices..haha..how to resist when our phones r so multifunctional?haha..i wanna go k soon!haha

thanks mei for enlightening me, wad uve said are true..wishing us all our best n we shldnt gif up on our interests, dreams, desires..yah mes gg to grab any opportunities which come by:) thanks..haha..looks lyk u r always shwing me the way..

looking fwd to our movie outing on the 16th mar..guess dat will really be my last last outing..1 mth to my first 2 papers so hey!mes gg to mug again! n dat means more trips to coffee bean:) my 'mugging' cafe:) had the caesar salad n my fav. mocha n dey were splendid!hmm..salads healthy n filling so dats gg to be on my foodie list for long:) yeah! wondering if me shld bring my ygest sis out for sukis buffet since ive gt the craving for jap food:)haha..shall c hw n depends on my dieting outcome..mes forever under this 'self-torturing' regime so wads new?:P..so tempted to gt the nivea's cellulite cream which in offer so its now 29.9 instead of 36.9...haha..shan will cfm scold me n comment dat i mus be crazi!haha..hmm..jus wanna be slimmer mah:)

todays sat so it means recess' left w a day..gg bk on mon w mei n its gg to be all the way till fri..fris gonna be our hall's night cycling event..thot me wldnt be involved this yr..oh well,its always so unexpected..daph told huanlong to ask me to be the first aider!haha..thanks daph a good idea to keep me involved..haha..whu ask me not know how to bike?so first aider lorhs..gosh..tink ive gtta to be aided instead.not the other way!
so its gg to be an overnight thing..ok so dat means full scale mugging in hall during the week days!

have been watching corner with love starring show luo n barbie tsu..barbie's so elegant looking!her clothes, style, behavior cool!i definitely wanna be lyk her!so pretty some more!haha..show?hmm not as goodlooking as wu zun..but ma saes he is..hmm..so me mum n i have different taste..jus lyk her commenting dat my frans r not bad while me tink dey r jus ok...so mas std aint HIGH!haha..wadever..
theres dis segment whcih was so close to heart..truly reflected wad i felt..wth!mus dey include those?hmm..so wadever experienced had been experienced?yeah dey mus have..n the best was one of the actors' name is his!gt more coincidental not?not dat his is super unique but its not exactly dat common wad!told mei this afternn n she gasped too!oh well..gonna continue with this show while waiting for hanakimi's last epi tmr to be uploaded on mon..den ill start my girl..n en dats it!its back to books

gonna look for a temp job to try kill my 2 mths bfore wrk starts at kpmg..hopefully cn gif tuition oso..yah admitting tt mes a workaholic..really can sit still at home n rot..at least earn a few more hundred bucks for me to spend..haha

meis sae its obvious mes materialistic!wah..wads so evident?dun understand..i mean i dun realli splunge..my stuff r mostly below 30 n me seldom buy tops which r bv 30 depending on the material n design..must admit dat me gt 2 to 3 expensive bottoms but dey din cross the 40 mark..as for shoes..okie..most ex my imported birks=60..dats it mah..not counting the wrking suits which i gt for pa last april lahs..accessories..veri few, a long necklace=36..anithing else?yah toking bt facial?hmm but tt i sacrificed too esp m,y nov n dec hols last yr..terrible terrible..hating the life hafing to live w limits..urghh!so restricted!

haha..next big item?gt a digicam!:) okie so now i noe wad mei means!