when e tough gets going..

still trying to complete my SSAs for the 10 MCQs auditing test tmr..sighh..super exhausted..jus cm bk frm tuition..
haf been reflecting alot these days..so much so tt i hoped tt i hadnt done so..my past my present my future..past wasnt real fantastic but wasnt tt bad..seriously if i were to mention bt my past im usually beaming w pride!my life as a student as a leader as a fran..nice..mb its cox of innocence n ignorant?din noe hw ive managed to struggled thru uni life to have come so far to the present..till now..jus realised tt me have been gifing tuition for the past 2.5 yrs..so long..roughly ard 8 students?i dun see a future for meself..i dunno wad to do?im perplexed by circumstances..i noe wad i definitely dun wan..but aint certain wad i really wan..if its another yr in moe it means alot..it means commitment to students, foregoing the EY offer, another yr in NTU, a yr later to bring money bk home..sigh...it aint jus as easy as ABC..regretted once which is to tk up accountancy..wun wanna commit the same mistake again..ming boggling..cnt jus apply n see how..it aint so simple.hw i wish i can be lyk some of my pals..the 'see how' attitude or wait n see..jus whack..ive whacked n im feeling the pain n trouble..time is all i nid i guess..mummy aint of help mb tokin to sis may be good..but we r all busy:(
sent clarence, our beloved CT khaki off on mon!our OCS OFFICER..his army frans went too so many!me emma darius zhixian were there n if lins ard she will be dere as well..daph was dere..its sad..i stupidly told clar not to go..so stupid ritex?cox it aint possible..he was strg to sae bye to us..so sad..daph said his granny looked sad..din tear cox i noe dey will be back next june!dey r gg dere for studies..haha..dey will be back:)
read darius' n clar's entries..yah clarence me n von will take care n waut for u darius n zhenhao to be back w us!uve gtta tk good care too!!n darius..u mus tk care as well yah!no stress no stress le..go dere no nid to gif bro tuition..yah..we will miss u guys!mb ill be in the teaching league as well?but of cox u peeps r scholars im not..haha..mb next time we can haf a teachers' gathering n celeb teachers' day tgt?haha..sds so fun ritex?wah so many councilors becming teachers n so mani w scholarships!tink VJ will be damn proud of our batch!!haha..
gtg cox meimei need her lappie..sigh..test n more tests!
its a tough period for me..to come to terms w things, w wrk..but ive to cheng!lyk wad ive been doing for the past years..looking fwd to metg shanx, von n gg out w meimei..i wanna splurge..but i noe i cant..deres an extent to things..
mb if i aint joleen i will feel betta?
at least he rems he cared he msged..thanks alot dude:)
dere r things ill nv forgt things i can nv let go but gt to..things which im regretting..things tt will nv change..things tt will last n continue n...n...