no time for myself n family..sighh

im so drained jus so drained off energy..so caught up w lots wrk dat i jus wanna break free frm hall frm sch!gg home is jus so stressful!cox going home means weekends meaning i ve to go gif tuitions..6 sessions in 2 days 9hrs..its hell cfm!but ive gt no choice..

time check:7.55pm
gtta meet for nitex cycling briefing for jcrc at 830pm..i tried to nap for at least 45 mins but i cun..i slpt this afternn alr..but i jus cnt gt to slp though im tired..so thot of blogging. tmr will cfm be worse cox e event will end at 5am n ive to be bk hm quite to slp n tuition will start at 11am n end at 6pm..den hafta complete my proj at night else ill sure die..
feeling veri guilty cox din really contribute alot n worse still im the leader..alas..wad kind of leader is this?im jus shit lahs!dey r in hall 16 now but cun join em cox of the event..was lost in the discussion ytd..feeling so useless..i must finish my parts by sun morn!cfm!

i dunno if ive regretted wad ive chosen to be wad i m now..as in yah today..i may seem as if im shining in most aspects but i tink i din in terms of fulfilling my duties as a good daughter n a sister. devoting n channelling my time in hall makes me less able to be at home..at means tuition means hotel den off ill be bk in hall again..not dat i dislike hall life after staying for 2 yrs..its jus so many things to do..tink i brought it upon myself..whu asked me to be so involved till im in it!i complain alot..i noe..but other than blogging down ive no time to complain to animore no time to do lotsa things..whenever im bk in my room im chionging tuts..doing projs..if nt u will see me ard the hall fulfilling duties and sometimes socialising 'unnecessarily'. wad kind of life is this? if nt u will find me slping in my room and waking up to mug again..den lessons..tink im jus too packed..

i jus feel lyk switching off my phone and pulling my comp netwrk so dat i can be isolated from everyone except myself n family and friends..
jus gt my CCA results..it wld be a pity if i dun stay but the thot of everything for another year is killing me and the price of cox..i can definitely make better use of them!

one good news for the week:
i gt selected for professional attachment in Ernst and Young dis coming may n july.my good fran in ntu melissa gt in too!so as least gt companion!hope vonnie can gt in too!dear von!hope to cya dere k?

sometimes i wonder if ill be happier wrking den studying..i dunno..

im jus someone who walks ard feelingless..i stone too..most of the time i guess.small happenings may perk me up as n when..mtg up wif close frans n toking to my meimei and mum definitely will be consoling..but i realised all dese cn be done onli if i move home..if i move back ill haf a yr to do so..if nt?its a zero chance..no chance of me doing this cox once i enter the wrk force dats it..worse..

blogging heals the soul lyk wad i had mentioned bfore..on the other hand blogging makes pple ponder, wonder...affects the emotions of readers..im sorry if reading mine has inflicted pain in u..has caused unncessary troubles for you, has caused u worries..ill be a responsible blogger..which means ive to filter my thots and wadever i will blog amts to wad i can blog which means to a certain extent i cnt blog some stuff..ive lost my freedom to express my true emotions even w this last mean...

gtg n sit in the lorry/car to watch the peeps bike!i cld jus use the time to slp n do wrk..its jus another 'social gathering' which im responsible for

one more item:A GOING OUT CUM SCHOOL BAG