an eventful day!

yesterday was FUN!

wanna thANK MY NBS FOC BABES N DUDES:

huishan
melissa
joey
kit
edmund
alvin
delvin AND

my SeNIOR CGL:

YONGXIANG

for celebrating w me in SCH!!
we went to our sch's cafe, ALFRESCO..haha..if only we cn go somewhere betta:P hope u peeps din mind the food yeah?and thanks a lot for the NIKE TOTE BAG!!luf it as well!!COX ITS PINK N ITS BIG ENUFF FOR ME TO stuff alot of things!!thanks alot realli!!haha..now suddenly me haf 2 PINK BAGS!thanks realli!!

special thanks to HUISHAN N MELISSA for the $50 MAngo voucher!it was realli unexpected!!u gers realli shudnt haf spent the additional money!!hmm..after exams we shall go shop k??:) AHHH...CANT WAIT

n wanna thank Danny too!thanks for sharing the prezzie though u cun mk it ytd for lunch:) next time treat u when we meet k?ur bdae is cming too:)

went crystal jade with my family at night..felt weird cox i dun haf the habit for dinner..but its alritex once in a while for my family..tink ordered a bit too much but the food was nonetheless great!!hope my family did enjoy it!!tink my 2 sis realli did n dey cun actually indulge themselves in more new-zealand ice-cream!!haha..kudos to em!!

was super weary ytd, did nothing when i finally cm hm aft dinner. slept super early lyk 2310!!wahs!NICE!!wk up to see 9 birthday MESSAGES!!haha..n the earliest was at 2159!wah n his was at 0000h..wah..gt more timely but i was fast fast aslp in ly lala land:)thanks for all whu msged me till now..1121h, 28th MAR

dey r(acc. to time):
1) wanyu
2) stanley
3) kang jian
4) jeremiah
5) yingni!!
6) daphne
7) danny
8) charmaine
9) yongjie
10) melissa!!
11) teck seng
12) weinee!!
13) zhiwei
14) yiting!!!
15) zhixian(surprised!)

as of 2316h...
16) jingxian
17) yanshan
18) edmund
19) felix
20) clarence
21) jonathan
22) ginny

as of 1320h 29th march
23)charmx
24)joyce

and of cox to all my celebrators!!!

thanks dearies!!!

okie..gtta go prep for tmr's presentations!!

feeling happy and felt the warmth:) thanks alot realli!!huggies!!!

(guess wun receive any wishes frm u again..its alritex..cox ive others whu care:)

ThankS 11TH CT coUNCil!!!

heyhey!!

FIRSTLY!!i wanna saY A bIG BIG THANK YOU TO
Vonnie
Lin
clarence
darius
zhenhao
marcus
yiwen AND
Emma!!!

thanks a lot for cming down last fri for the dinner!!hope u peeps enjoy it!it had realli been awhile since we had such a relaxed gathering over dinner!!:) really missed those days! and ya..i love the adidas bag too!!thanks alot!!so PRETTY!!haha
and sorry von n clarence for causing u 2 to run ard to look for it:( i can sae nothing more but thanks!!the most plus another hug k??haha

the movie was not too bad considering that me slept for almost half of it!haha..but 1 thing i cun stand bt it was dat its real noisy lahs!!nearly becm deaf cox of the sound effects mans!n i dun lyk the mask!!so ugly!haha..but the story was good as in at least me gt the pt of the show..still not too bad at least din waste money!sorry was too slpy alr cun help but jus concuss!!n vonnie its alrite to wake me up but yet again so paiseh to jus fall bk to slp again!haha

thanks zhenhao for driving me home and clarence for accompanying bk home:)

this goona be the last to stay out till 4am!!gtting hell frm my mummy..but oh well i truly understand that its becox she cares!yah im 21 and shant and musnt let u worry!!lyk wat ive said all act. will end by 7pm if nt latest 8pm n ill be at home!no more night outings for me:) its alrights lahs..so next time try not to jio me at night or late evening k?else haf limited time to meet:)

im so happy though haf 4 more pres to go!
next weds ge pres is still alritex not so stressful!
im hafing headache over my 20% bix comm final presentation!!haven gtten a superb idea n topic to present on!!gtta settle it by today sia!!
glad that i was dn w a chapter of my mktg!!ya 1 out of 16!!i shall kempate n warm up my mugging engine!!!hope wed will cm quickly so will be left w 2 more pres onli!!urghh..

looking fwd to mon cox gt 2 treats..one in the afternn in sch alfresco with men n huishan(hey melmel!if the rest r free do ask em alg too k?)n my family at night at parkway's crystal jade:)

hmm..decided to forsake one of my tutees cox im super pissed w her for nt doing wad ive asked her to..mb since shes onli p1 she doesnt noe the importance of studying!tink wad made it worse is that her parents cun care much bt her n her sis too!i rather forgo the 130 bucks in exchange for more time to mug and rest then to spend on a kid who always upsets me..sighh..im always gt veri worked up and emotional when i teach younger children..dey dun learn on their own..cant spell..cant read..i pity em but i cnt help much..im not adding value to her n i jus feel so useless for not doing so..im sorrie wensi..
so effectively left w 2 kids the cleverer ones!i mean yah..dey r older n understd wat im teaching:) *beaming*..i shant n isnt capable of being a teacher lahs..haha..todays gonna be the last day of her tuition n im freed!irresponsible u may tink but ill rather that she go find another tutor whu can help her than me!this means that ive more time to study for my cming exams!!mus mk good use of them!!

really cant wait for exams to be over!actually im quite glad dat during this period im home:) though hafta go bk for jcrc internal concensus stuff..i chose not to!cox mon: dinner w family
tue?:my bdae!ellos u tink ill be in hall?no no!!moreover gtta prep fpr weds presentations so no way!!
wed: home too cox mtg vonnie to teach her makeup in town!
thurs will be in hall cox fri has 830 am co. law tut
and den off hall ill be!!!
hahas..felix saes pple enjoy staying in hall cox its in school n its great to relax and stuff and for me its totally the opposite!
yah..always tinking of gg home

oh ya toking bt felix..wanna thank u in advance for agreeing to help wif the deconflict of the internal concensus for gals on tuesday..thanks FELIX!haha..though u dun haf my link but its alrights

alot of peeps do help me alot in hall and in sch:)

wanna thank mel and huishan for being my bestest pals in ntu!!
wanna thank mel for helping me thru this sem!!
wanna thank yj for always helping me to carry things if we happen to go home tgt and esp when mes carrying tons of things and
wanna thank u for listening to my crap!
wanna thank my ntu ktv khakis too!!

hmm..alrights betta go do up the slides for my ge pres!!

imposing my own curfew!

waiting for my hair to dry and oso to pass time so me cn wake her up at 3am..

wah..super tired!!

jus had a 6hrs ktv marathon at clementi's KTV with yj, felix, wy n ls!!haha..quite fun though esp twds the end when all of us jus simply drp dead!all the wae frm 730 to 1am!!hw cn it be not tired ritex!moreover, woke up this morn at 6am to finish my tut for tmrs 830's co. law.

yawns..:(

ktv was alrights though it was long..actually nt too bad lahs..jus dat i cnt mike hog..haha..meimei!i miss k-ing w u!!seriously the magically no. for ktv shld be 4 more than dat?ielse it is really jus sitting dn n listening...nt very worth the $ to pay n sit n listen!dats not k-ing!!n we were saeing that at least the 2 boys were not too bad..of cox felix is zai!choir boy!!yj not too bad lahs..at least can fig out wads hes singing:)

left w 4 pres!finally n ive to complete them asap!n start on my exams!!!alas!freaking out real soon!

gg to mis frm hall except thurs next week cox hafta go for tut on fri!great!!

im imposing a curfew at 7pm for myself..i jus feel so unsafe when im outside when its dark.im paranoid i noe.its really scary esp when i had to mmet a weirdo whu again attempted to ask for my no. on the bus dat dae when i was on my wae home aft shopping w my sis in orchard.ellos tk a look at urself heh!!ask for my no.?im a bitch!!bcming more lyk one sia!!i mean cfm!!but oh pls!!cun be bothered n nearly wanted to jus alight n tk another bus/cab bk home!!get a life and stay clear!!!
i dun gif a damn to strangers!deperados!!!im nt an easy gal whu distributes my no hors!!looks whu u r toking to!!urghh!!

happy dat we had done the ura pres..tink alrights lahs..
tinking of wad lessons to pon alr!!but tink qutie hard cox lyk all pres n mus go!sheesh!!

tmr is the start of my bdae treats..haha..ctc first celeb tgt with emma:)
but the timing has been shifted..ive gtta go off at 10pm cox its simply too unsafe n i dun feel secure to go home a night..scared out of my life mans..hmm..shall leave earli..luckily mels n hs treat r is in the day..phew!!

not that i dun wanna stay in hall..nt dat i dun wan hall peeps to celeb w me..i jus dun wanna be in hall..furthermore..jus fd out dat me as a JCRC cant ret rm n haf to WASTE 200 bucks on the room w/o staying!wad kinda thing is this!!sucks lorhs!waste my money!!!

real slpy now!!

yeah will gt my necklace frm mummy on mum!!heehee..cant wait for my birkies too!

inspired!

jus completed my ge- creative thinking report as well as the writeup for the other ge-urban planning..wondering y in the first place i took up the creative thinking course..nt even creative enuff lorhs..sigh..i jus wanna clear them quick!!haha

feeling great dat i cleared 2 presentations today and ive another one on thurs followed by 2 each for the cming to 2 weeks!faints ive gtta quickly start on my studying for my exams starting on the 18th april..freaking myself again!but the more peaceful life of having a 3 mth break of PA and fun really perk me up yeah!
wanna it to be over soon!!

currently browsing thru this site www.baumhouse.com for a pair of birks..its the in thing now n i wanna own a pair too!haha..me and my frans are gg to order tgt to make up the numbers for free delivery!great..there are so many designs dat im so confused and din noe wad to choose!haha..basically im onli looking at the style as for the colours will be cfm those cheerful bright and attract attention kind!as usual ritex!it is cfm cheaper to gt a pair this way ard 60 to 75 dollars for the slip-ons..though its really cheaper but ive never bot a pair of slippers at such a high price before!ill jus treat it as a gift for myself for my cming bdae..gtting alot of things for myself these days..last thurs i bot a puremilk skirt at 39.9..tmr im gg mango to look out for dat skirt again..or mb i shld but frm mickey industrial ltd instead..needa gt another presentation top!predicting mes gg to be broke real real soon!

cant wait to go ktv with felix, yj,ls and wy this thurs after sch at 630pm!im so so super duper excited to go!jus cnt wait yeah?not as if ive been ktvin w yj and felix but the thot of immersing myself in songs after songs jus make me feel so blessed!im veri happy!everytime when i see pple perform on stage im veri envious..i haf my dream a dream to perform for everyone..to sing for everyone..yah dats a dream..with all the superidol,superstar and school idol competitions gg on..haha..i shall train hard sia!cfm!

hmm..tink i shld slp alr..timecheck 2.15am!haha..tmr no sch n im at home!yeah!gtta finish reading my co law tmr morn and my ura presentation slides bfore gg out tmr!:)

nitex peeps!

freed frm it!

yah i can sae dat im 95% freed frm it!haha..dats good news though..ytd was the last event n FINALLY!woosh!

went shopping w shans ytd n bot a new shirt for presentation and a pmk denim skirt..din wanna gt dat actually but paiseh went in to try on so many..din buy a bit..nvm in nid of skirts oso..

think aft slping feeling much better..tink the exam stress is cming bk again..gtta do so mani things within a weekend..cnt wait for the next 2 weeks to be over den i can jus stay at home n mug dat means missing n poning sch!no choice..haven started at all sia!worried..

trying to org a ktv w yj n felix n some mayfairies den turn out so messy!ughh!time clash n stuff so pek cek!nt really willing to go at nitex though..sians..but wad to do i jio den mus tidy up the mess..:(

haha..good thing is yongxiangs jioin too!remember that senior whu sang veri well?haha..he said ytd dat hes freer aft next fri n jioin to go ktv next next again!yeah!ktv is my ultimate way to destress!:)

after exams im jus gg spend my time slping..

im alritex yeah?thanks for msn-in me ytd..jus the usual breakdown i guess..din reply cox i was alr aslp:)meet up w ya soon...

shanx ting n charmx:if ya r reading..we wun be mtg on 31st mar alr:)
jus meet up after shanx trip in june bahs:)
btw me has rearranged my plans alr..so i guess not much time to meet up real soon..so ill cya after exams in june?
good luck n ill miss u babes!

gg to rush for my 830am lesson nw:) tata

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i dun understand why im so motivated these days:) jus feeling veri inspired..by wad?i dunno..i always have a dream since young..a dream to succeed to be well known..i dunno y..haha..

exams r cming in 4 weeks' time n im still doing my presentations!had one this morn, will haf 3 next week and 4 on the following!alas!thats week 13 n all have to fall on my bdae week!wad the hell!haha...but nvm..lyk wad my senior said:'after all the presentations u r onli left with 50% to mug for exams!' thats true in a sense cox nbs focuses alot on projs n presentations..yah..n i tink im pretty lucky to haf exams on 3 core n dey r all open book!so jus gtta read thru the materials, understd n org the data n dere!im in e exam hall! worried bt my creative ge though..cox im not creative at all!alas..!guess gtta try my best to pass that n next sem onli left to clesr 2!den my last sem of my uni life will be so so slack!haha..

jus completed my slides for mon's marketing presentation!2 more to prepare!n im gg to start on the other after blogging:) hardwrking hors!haha..i tink its coz i gtta finish everythg so i can use my weekends to complete another 2 more pres and 2 tuts!n as usual tuitions!dere goes my weekends!haha...

im veri excited as im typing cox tmr after my ge field trip to jurg island im gg to meet up with yanshan!so happy u noe!i cant wait to meet up with her!we r all so busy!n mtg up is jus so difficult unlike the past!heehee..cant wait to be immersed in prchard rd again!and of cox!in orchard means to shp!gtta buy two formal shirts for pres cox currently onli haf 2..sighh..this course cfm 'sucked' away my hard earn $ sia!PA cming and its gonna be worse!cox hafta buy more formal clothes, shoes, bags..alas!wads these mans!

nvm..shant tink so far!tmr gtting my mineral makeup which i ordered w shanx n a few of her frans frm us..haha..so interesting..n guess wad dey onli cost $21.45. hmm..dey r samples lahs dats y cheaper..haha..
one thing bt tmr is that ive to cm bk to hall still for this sems' final event!final year nitex for the seniors..a nite for the final yr seniors to enjoy, eat, gather feel appreciated..tink me wun be able to haf a feel of this nitex next yr as im mving out..feeling a bit sad here i noe..however, eventually me gtta leave wads..so its alritex..

ive decided to save the $ frm hostel fees for my grad trip which i hope to haf one!ive promised my younger sis that ill be accompanying her on an overseas trip to celebrate her 21dt bdae next june!so i mus fulfill it. she wans to go taiwan so i must tk nt of all the places if i go this july!n i really hope ctc will be gg!im so so lking fwd to it!n the best thing is that dere will be no amt deducted frm my PA's allowance!n jus heard that the govt is gifing out ERS this yr to residents whu r 21 frm april onwrds!woohoo!so IM ELIGIBLE!!this is great news sia!spare cash!oh yah i nearly forgt that i had to go for a portfolio shoot this june too!haha..

my og mates r so sweet dat i do feel guilty..esp. twds melissa..oh no..cox i forgt bt her bdae last yr!4th sept n forgt to wish her too!alas!blur me..last yr on my exact day the three of us went to a cafe in our sch- ALFRESCO for lunch n dey bought me a puremilk skirt. i lyk it a lot as im a skirt person..but the thing is that the skirt is so short that i seldom wear:( though its a pair of culottes i dun usually wear it cox its so short that my mummy cant help but comment..considering the reports on gals being raped by banglahs n such i betta be careful..gtting veri paranoid n will nt wanna go out at night..cox im scared to go hm once night falls..my neighbourhood is cfm unsafe with all those malays loitering ard...so scary!so really wun wanna stay out late realli unless no choice..so if i realli had to..u will see me scampering home as soon as i alighted frm the bus!so frightening..so my day ends at 7pm..n i wanna be at home!mb im jus scaring myself too much but i jus cant deny this fact..mb ive been hanging ard w melissa n shes another gal whus uncomfortable w gg home late!so weird i din haf this problem when i was in jc or a yr ago!

was super impressed by my senior that day after our ktv session at 2am..not onli did he drove us home..he even bothered to acc. me to the lift,waited for the lift with me and saw me into it den he went off to send xianhan n delvin home!so thoughtful!3 claps for u!yongxiang!hmm..i cannt stop but emphasize that im extremely impressed!yah i dunno wad other adjs to describe mans!jus so.. IMPres..haha

going back to the topic again..haha..lking fwd to next fri cox by den i will ONLI haf 4 pres left..haha..m i consoling myself?hahas..
next fri 24th march, me n emma will be mtg the councilors for dinner..yah dinner contradictory ritex..i wld prefer lunch actually but gt lect till 430:( so hw?no choice mahs..haha..
and den cmes my bdae week!haha..den after?exams lahs!sians..
mb cox its the 21st bdae dats y suddenly lyk veri happening..so here goes my prog!

24th fri: treat with councilors at changing appetite, marina sq, 7pm
27th mon: lunch- treat with huishan n mel, alfresco(NTU), 1230pm
dinner- treat with family, crysal jade kitchen, parkway parade, 8pm
*28th* tues: sleep at home and mug and prepare for wed's presentation
29th wed: treat with ***( dunno if i can sae or nt so ive decided to *** ur name:)), sizzler, suntec city, 130pm
31st fri: treat w yanshanx,yiting and charamine (tk n vj), waraku jap restaurant, marina sq, 7pm

haha..rather packed sia..i bad thing!all these treats will definitely mk me fat!yucks!so ill haf to noe wad im gg to do bfore them!:p being a gal is so troublesm yeah?haha

hmm..ill end off with my updated(last amended 17th march) wishlist!haha..

1) nike/adidas sports bra(orange?pink?purple?)
2) working bag(brown/black/cream?(white will gt dirted:()
3) nike/adidas/puma going out cum school bag(bright colours:))
4) mango denim short skirt(not too short though:))
5) denim skirt frm mickey industries ltd:)
6) a pair of Birkenstock's slipper(flap kind)
7) working jacket( blazer lk-alike frm osmose?iora?)
8) a personal portfolio(self-sponsored)
9) vouchers for apparels/sports wear/bags/shoes/shirts frm g2000, URS,Zara,mickey industries?
10)digicam!haha..(forgt bt this!saving up for this!)

thanks MUMMY!

i wanna thank my MUMMY!yah my REAL MUMMY!(haha..haf two other fake mums in sch so mus dble specify!)mummy bot me a 21st bdae silver necklace!haha..SURPRISE SURPRISE!haha..me mus admit dat im nt an accessories person..the fuss and everything ..wear em n den mus remove!so troublesm!however, me mus mk it a point to wear it cox its frm my mum!its a necklace w a pendant in the shape of a key!haha.. n with a small 21 on it!pretty!:)

ytd went to my 3rd 21st bade party of the year..dis time rd is my og mate's!shes gorgeous mans..with the tube dress and makeup!haha..saw chris again( the ex ctc who went to tj aft 3 mths..still cnt fig out wads his chinese name!haha)..went w mel, delvin, alvin, xiaohan and our beloved and super-onx senior yongxiang!haha..gg frm sch to loyang aloha was jus so far and crazi lahs!luckily yongxiang drove us dere with a 1.5hr stopover at eastpt for him to meet his fran den we set out to loyang at ard 7pm in his mini van..!quite fun though..his van is quite cool sia!not that kind driven by uncles!trust me!haha..
as usual parties r still parties..entertained ourselves and had fun i guess..i mean hafing been to three wad more can u expect?its the usual buffet den sit ard and maken..tok and den cake cutting..hangard smmore den try to mk our wae home..its gttting a bit dry i feel..
fortunately mes not hafing one else tink ill be bored to death bfore my guests r!

read a few blogs bfore deciding to blog now..tink its my hectic schedule dat disallowed me to meet up n participate in the many gatherings my pals had organised..keep hafin the feeling that im drifting apart frm u peeps..mb dats y im nt included in the group..mb dats y im forgtten sometimes or all the time..mb im tinking to much but i cant help it cox i cnt deny dat im nt affected after reading that entry..mb im putting too much into franships dat are jus nt appreciated..i dunno..its jus so disappointing yeah?tinking for frans all the while has caused me to becm a bit exhausted overtime..sometimes i do hope some of the efforts r reciprocated..mb there were instances..mb when dere were but i din realised..sighh..nvm i shant make a mountain out of a molehill..its undeniably saddening..dats wad i can say bt my current feeling as im typing:)

went ktv after joey's party ytd!again it was yongxiang whu drove us all the way frm aloha to katong shpping complex for a 2 hrs sessions starting frm 12am:)finally gtta sing..only me xiaohan yx n delvin went..it was short but enjoyable i can say given the short session..not too bad at least it satisfied a quarter of my craving?or mb half?nearly fell aslp while singing sia!n xh nv sing at all!aiyos she went to listen to us sing!oh no..in the end the 3 of us paid on her behalf!mb next time if we haf a chance to go sing k with u clarence we pay for urs too!
was really impressed w yx's singing!hes was frm RI n VJ choir n though hes so aimoh-ish hes also conversant in mandarin!mus realli listen to him when he sings!oh mans..heart melts sia!realli nice!we sang duets!he harmonised well too!senior!u r my idol!haha..delvin wasnt bad too his rendition of jay n lee hon wasnt bad either..xh din wanna sing so dat means the 4 to 5 duets me sang all of them!i lyk bei feng chui guo de xia tian my cox was hafing sorethroat so din sing well:)yx n delvin!thanks for the compliment!u two sang well too!haha..its seems dat im eaily impressed by guys whu can sing well and r talented culturally!!cfmed..haha
my love for singing has been nurtured since young i guess.my parents and family r all music freaks..counting the nos. of hokkien cds and mb a few madarin ones bot by my parents will jus mk u wanna puke..nt mentioning me n my younger sis..n my youngest sis is currently in choir!tink shes enjoying it!n i hope thru choir it will mk her more daring n wanna perform more!
tink my confidence picked up aft joining choir in hall 3..its of cox a diff feeling when u sing in a choir and when ktv-in..but tink its more or less a confidence booster in a sense..never thot me can perform on stage..never thot of even acting in hall's production for 2 consecutive yrs..though nt the leading roles im more than satisfied yeah?i lyk the makeover as in the makeup..it will be better if they arent so thick!haha..so happy dat im gg to gt my mineral mkup set which ive ordered frm UK with shans!n cant wait to see u on thurs dear!!
i jus simply cant pen down my current feelings as in mb im jus bk to my old self as in less problems(or issit im jus cnt be bothered animore) mb in this way i can focus more on studies.dats good!i dun mind though..
exams r cming n its a period of immense n intense stress again 5 more weeks to them n 7 more to my freedom!bfore all these ive to conquer all my projects in these 2 weeks!all will end in week 13 n nw we r starting the 11th week!till nw ive comppleted one!one miserable but tedious one!yah...
im seeking inner peace so i cn jus concentrate..problems relating to hall, pple frans can wait..my results cnt be compromised!my aim:AABB for core n hope to gt 2Bs for GE:)
im more or less lking fwd to 23rd/24th, 27th, 29th n 31st of this mth..i dunno if dey will be fun..hopefully..hope it wun be a chore for my frans..n on dat day itself im gg sleep my day away as im so slp deprived!haha!
hoping to go ktv again soon!bfore my exams n bfore all the exam tensions build up..

finally! u got wad i mean:)

finally he gt wad i mean..finally he gt it thru..finally he woke up frm his dreams..
i feel glad for u..yah..we can jus be frans..so treasure this franship yeah?

dunno y i can be so calm as to ok to him for the past half hr at least..mb its cox im sick..so gt no energy to feel worried or anythg...i wanna thank u for bringing this piece of news for me..thanks alot..though ive let u noe for the past yrs i hope this franship will be better off for u:)

go into uni n noe more gals..u will find betta ones whu will reciprocate ur love..im jus nt the one:)

thanks again!

let a lot of peeps down..rejected em too..nt ready is wad i can sae..nt suitable is another reason..jus tink it will be impossible..im nt dat kind whu can gif my heart to anione..jus not so..i dun wish to hurt u if i tink we will end up parting..wads the point? betta be frans den nothing ritex?

im picky?yah i am..mb i tink too highly of myself which i hate to admit..really..joleen's a bitch!cfm!
firstly its bt the height..next its bt the looks..yah im shallow!(hate to admit this too) den its the feeling..till now no one has given me the ease uve provided..yah..trying hard to be less critical..yah..TRYING is the wrd..ill compromise but doubt much..

ive cm to realise that being frans is much easier..hate pple w motives..hate pple whu try so hard to please u jus to make u lyk em..im sorrie..jus CMI!dun try to pls me or mk me happy by asking me if i wan supper if i wan dinner if i wanna go eat this or that..ellos!wrg tactics lahs..lyk wad my freshies wanying n weijuan said dat dae:)jus so wrg!
but no matter wad method..once u r on my franship ladder u r on it!dun nid to try too hard yeah..?frans is a betta option for u..rem: dun wanna hurt u all..but it seems as if u all r hurt when the ans is no..no and no..ive nothing to say other den im sorry..dats insufficient to mend the damage..but i really dun mean it as in wad more can i sae? say: i cant guarantee anythg..we cn be tgt but its at ur own risk? oh mans!dats ultimate bitch mans!joleen's nt lyk this!im not..so u all gtta understand yeah?

now my focus is to gt thru the period n prepare for exams!clear my prof attachment settle my remaining hall camp stuff n duties when e new acad term starts..den out of hall:)

compiled wishlist:
1) nike/adidas sports bra
2) working bag
3) leather wallet
4) nike/adidas/puma going out cum school bag
5) zara denim short skirt
6) denim jacket
7) a personal portfolio
8) (dun mind) vouchers for apparels/sports wear/bags/shoes/shirts frm g2000?

*mummy is gtting a necklace for me!yeah!thanks mum!!*

no time for myself n family..sighh

im so drained jus so drained off energy..so caught up w lots wrk dat i jus wanna break free frm hall frm sch!gg home is jus so stressful!cox going home means weekends meaning i ve to go gif tuitions..6 sessions in 2 days 9hrs..its hell cfm!but ive gt no choice..

time check:7.55pm
gtta meet for nitex cycling briefing for jcrc at 830pm..i tried to nap for at least 45 mins but i cun..i slpt this afternn alr..but i jus cnt gt to slp though im tired..so thot of blogging. tmr will cfm be worse cox e event will end at 5am n ive to be bk hm quite to slp n tuition will start at 11am n end at 6pm..den hafta complete my proj at night else ill sure die..
feeling veri guilty cox din really contribute alot n worse still im the leader..alas..wad kind of leader is this?im jus shit lahs!dey r in hall 16 now but cun join em cox of the event..was lost in the discussion ytd..feeling so useless..i must finish my parts by sun morn!cfm!

i dunno if ive regretted wad ive chosen to be wad i m now..as in yah today..i may seem as if im shining in most aspects but i tink i din in terms of fulfilling my duties as a good daughter n a sister. devoting n channelling my time in hall makes me less able to be at home..at means tuition means hotel den off ill be bk in hall again..not dat i dislike hall life after staying for 2 yrs..its jus so many things to do..tink i brought it upon myself..whu asked me to be so involved till im in it!i complain alot..i noe..but other than blogging down ive no time to complain to animore no time to do lotsa things..whenever im bk in my room im chionging tuts..doing projs..if nt u will see me ard the hall fulfilling duties and sometimes socialising 'unnecessarily'. wad kind of life is this? if nt u will find me slping in my room and waking up to mug again..den lessons..tink im jus too packed..

i jus feel lyk switching off my phone and pulling my comp netwrk so dat i can be isolated from everyone except myself n family and friends..
jus gt my CCA results..it wld be a pity if i dun stay but the thot of everything for another year is killing me and the price of cox..i can definitely make better use of them!

one good news for the week:
i gt selected for professional attachment in Ernst and Young dis coming may n july.my good fran in ntu melissa gt in too!so as least gt companion!hope vonnie can gt in too!dear von!hope to cya dere k?

sometimes i wonder if ill be happier wrking den studying..i dunno..

im jus someone who walks ard feelingless..i stone too..most of the time i guess.small happenings may perk me up as n when..mtg up wif close frans n toking to my meimei and mum definitely will be consoling..but i realised all dese cn be done onli if i move home..if i move back ill haf a yr to do so..if nt?its a zero chance..no chance of me doing this cox once i enter the wrk force dats it..worse..

blogging heals the soul lyk wad i had mentioned bfore..on the other hand blogging makes pple ponder, wonder...affects the emotions of readers..im sorry if reading mine has inflicted pain in u..has caused unncessary troubles for you, has caused u worries..ill be a responsible blogger..which means ive to filter my thots and wadever i will blog amts to wad i can blog which means to a certain extent i cnt blog some stuff..ive lost my freedom to express my true emotions even w this last mean...

gtg n sit in the lorry/car to watch the peeps bike!i cld jus use the time to slp n do wrk..its jus another 'social gathering' which im responsible for

one more item:A GOING OUT CUM SCHOOL BAG