beauty definition

yea finally was in town after exams last week!waiting for mei to finish hers on mon n my real packed intensive tuition sessions with my kids..still not very confident dat dey r well prepared for theirs which r starting next mon:( hmm..dats the max i can do i guess so agreed to rush bk frm town to gif my boy the last session..tinking on the brighter side of things..that makes it a full mth's pay..haha..at least good enuf for me to spend in taiwan..yah..

great tmrs the day..quite excited as its really coming!cant wait to go 101 n do some decent shopping for my formal clothes..at least some nice trendy short sleeves formal tops for work..wun be spending a lot on food..aint a foodie anw.. the famous fried stuff like the taiwan crispy chicken chops sold at the night markets do not tempt me..the bubble tea too..the most just one or 2 sips..haha...moreover, e sense of smell is off..tink its my sinus dats y i cant smell..wads the point only can taste..no point..but i wlll like to try the smelly doufu n the famous meesuan with mussels?hmm..aint eating the mussels..on the contrary mei n her fran r so enthu bt the food n her fran even sent her the info tt she had collated on none other than FOOD!bestest..haha..me n hs? focus on buying other stuff n eating less..!yups so wun be in sing till the 10th

great to have found a 4-5 days job frm the 14th to the 18th ytd!as exhibition hostress at the sing expo..gd gd...8 hrs so nt too bad..doing with mei oso:) great can recoup half of my expenses man!n den gonna look out for more such stincts in recruit when mes back!gonna haf another one-communicasia n broadcastasia this june..gg for tt too! wrking twds n earn money to buy my watch for wrk!n great daphs gg to jio me for the isetan's sale n gss is coming!gd gd..at least this holiday is rather packed with slack time in between:) so me cn meet up with shan n frans:) yeah..

wads in the name of beauty? beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..i noe n i understand..different pple have diff definition of this word..some r confident even if they r not dat perfect..its the confidence tts attractive..yes i can agree to that..ma always says just let it be..whether u r a good looker or not is destined..no point trying to do this n dat n with her emphasizing on pretty pple hafing a tough life..i can see where shes heading..yah
due to the influx n proliferation of the media n the upsurge of beauty salons, slimming centers, new slimming n beauty products how not to be stressed over not being 'one of them'? its not a sin nor a crime to yearn to be someone better..sighh..jus aint satisfied..frans whu have known me since sec. would have known y..gg onto the 7th yr n the goal is still unattainable..but with the future pay check i will be able to afford it..yah

y this thot all of a sudden..cos of the movie: 200 pounds beauty which i watched w mei ytd..no wonder dey sae koreans r known to embrace plastic surgery..okie this a movie so its fictional but ohh well in real life i believe dere r such incidences where beauty can be bought with money..asking me for my stand? im not against tt...everyone has their own stds of being beautiful n stunning..yea true beauty n inner beauty r impt but bfore anything physical beauty is one of the crucial ones oso..mb the std may differ frm one job to another..e.g. hr,marketing personnels r mostly or shld i sae always gd lookers..not to mention celebrities..the latter is even more stringent! with reference to the movie, those whu aint so well endowed often take up the 'office jobs' okie..of cos dere r exceptions..but usually occupations dat dun rely depend dat much on looks..
wad i like bt the shw is tt though she eventually became a beauty in the end, with the melodious voice n perfect body, she admitted tt shes a fake n realised wad she had lost..kinship n franship..hmm..at least not a true blue bimbotic shw ya? so for dat mes gifing the thumbs up!

hmm..gg to prepare to go parkway to do some last minute shopping, exchange $ help ma run some errands n head twds coffee bean for my salad n drink n set my mind on my self-help book:) yeah..

sheesh..rainy n i seriously hate gg out in wet weather!

做你的公主

做你的公主

或许你没看出来
周围的人都在猜
有种感觉正在 我们之间展开
喜欢你偶尔做怪
不经意流露的 坏
其实体贴实在
孩子气的胸怀

曾经有过的恋爱
仿佛一片空白
直到遇见你
我才 真的存在

Chorus

我只想做你的公主
拥有那平凡的幸福
华丽的珍珠不如眼底的专注
对我深深呵护

我想我是你的公主
终结这多年的追逐
当你抱着我
地球也暂停脚步
我霎那间清楚 你是我的幸福

沉潜太久的孤独
这一刻获得救赎
我忽然好想哭
感激你这一路
陪我笑陪着我辛苦
无悔的付出

has fallen in love with this since i had it last week:0
obviously wad captured my dear attention is the title!haha
listening n looking at the lyrics..one wrd! meaningful! undulging in it now..btw its frm sun ho yao shan

lie

no wonder dey say korean shows r capable of 'churning' tears, no matter how lighthearted the shw is, parts of it will unintentionally perform its well-known 'magic'

completed the final episodes of my girl a minute ago..yah..great show with a great ending which i had expected..its a nice ending which is good..so mb once in a while lies r not tt bad either huh?haha..must admit tt watching the shw was indeed heart wrenching. twds the back it jus gt worst..haha..wad to do u haf a freaky fran here!haha..oh well..:)

tink its the power of wad they call love dat eventually melted everyone's heart..even the grandpa whu was as stubborn as a mule decided to accept their r'ship n hence the ending..even the 'evil' ex-gerfran realised tt she had lost to wad is called love but not yulin--the female lead, hence..yah..even the cousin zhengyu decided to tok the grandpa out n asked him to gif the couple his blessing..cant feel zhengyu's helplessness..scenes shwing tt hes heartbroken, no matter hw hard he tried to protect her n even be her 'spare tyre', she just couldnt see him n reciprocate his undying love..in her eyes was only him..sighh..poor zhengyu..but wad to do cant accept means cant accept even u r with her physically her heart aint w u..its no use wad..yah..

so this marks the end of my days with my girl:) feeling a bit lost..its always this feeling after watching a shw esp one dat has certain impact on me..haha..weirdo right?no wonder my girl was so popular when it was screened in korea.weilin shld watch oso!haha..if we were to watch tgt tink von will die hafing to pass the tissue boxes here n dere!haha..letting this feeling sink n fade away as usual..

meanwhile, shall find other entertainment...go lib to borrow some books to read n facial after tuition tmr:)

hmm..my girl's gone..so wads next?haha shall wait n see

life as usual

din especially felt liberated after our jap papers ytd nite..haha..mb we were right bt slacking too much after 311 paper or shld i jus sae the whole sem had been a real slack one?haha..but thot the paper was alright..though me spotted a mistake when she said:'pens down'..oh well..forget it bah..haha

the 6 of us went cystal jade at jp for dinner..quite a cheap dinner n fortunately shared the noodles else will be feeling super full n with my rough estimate i had jus exceeded by 100kcal..nm eating less today n swim tmr morn


so u see its life as usual though me had graduated..nothing fanciful bt my life jus tt me wun be gg to ntu for classes..wun be tking the same route bk to hall..wun be staying in my little room where me spent nights when i cunt slp well..yah those were the days..a tinge of sadness dawned onto me while i was waiting cum napping ytd afternn for hs' msg..my near empty room with my photo collage n hall stuff taken down n barang packed into bags..sighh..looking on the brighter side me cant ne always staying dere n not graduate right?yah this wad mei told me when i expressed my sense of depression..im a sentimental sort i guess..dats y when me was so stressed up whilst in jcrc in yr 2 n had wanted to move out..me din in the end so my yr 3 jus whizzed past like noone's bix!but i can truly tell myself tt me enjoyed every bit of my yr 3 stay in hall 3! its part of my uni memory..where friendships were forged laughters were heard disappointments were felt..thank u nbs thank u hall 3!

mes up early as usual cos of mei's stupid handphone alarm which kept ringing at 7am!best!no once but countless cos its an every five mins affair!so might as well forget i t n wake up..so mes gg to watch 2 episodes of my girl bfore me go n prep to go out ltr...hmm wondering wad the briefing for our taiwan trip will be later..haha...n dads going to tk leave to send us off next fri..haha

had a squabble the day before..good tt the storm had calmed at least for now:) jiayou!down 3 papers 2 more!n its gonna be a great great trip next fri to thurs..haha..so hs dun nid to be afraid tt u will see 2 black faces!haha

okie so its my girl's time!!:)

to all my pals whu r still schooling: all the best peeps..enjoy ur schooling yrs make use of this period to haf fun slack n mug hard..go fulfill wadever u wan to dun ever let the word 'regret' surface in ya mind..live life to the fullest n without much regrets..though mes entering into the weking wrld a little earlier but tt doesnt mean cnt keep in touch ya? do include me in ya meetup plans hor!ill try to make it down so long as there aint urgent wrk commitments:) donna lead a diff life now..but u peeps will be joining me in this rat race soon!

to all my frans whu r graduating with me: hey peeps!its been a tough 3 yrs ya?great tt we r finally graduates!thanks for the times weve shared in uni..frm nbs hall camps to the mugging,complaining gossiping days!countless fun n laughter!haha..yah ill always remember this short 3 periods!so lets put everything down n enjoy our fill before serious wrk starts between july n sept!haha..n dun forget our 1st mth treat ya?haha..yah kj u starting the latest but we wun forget!!!haha..nice nice good feeling to be a graduate:)!!

freak

chiding for being such an emotional freak
relating to reality really suxs
tear welling moments do exist
touching? yah u bet!

fortunate to an extent tt it din develop dat way
yah..to constantly psycho tt it aint gg to happen
it cant happen
noeing its painful but it will fade
its for everyones good

quote from 'my girl': noeing its hot but refuse to admit it is, noeing its pain but refuse to feel it, noeing its call love but keep denying it

y?its for everyones good

to be hurt or not?choosing the former..choosing to be mum..choosing to forget..topple it with a pill call:'move on' plus some whipped cream call:'friendship' finishing it with a berry call:'kinship'---the result: renewed self

jus finished 3 episodes..next will be 11..tink its gonna be this state this mood till the end of the show..emotionally moved? mb me can jus replace e female lead in the show..oh well so tanned not korean-ish enuf

freak

chiding for being such an emotional freak
relating to reality really suxs
tear welling moments do exits
touching? yah u bet!

fortunate to an extent tt it din develop dat way
yah..to constantly psycho tt it aint gg to happen
it cant happen
noeing its painful but it will fade
its for everyones good

quote from 'my girl': noeing its hot but refuse to admit it is, noeing its pain but refuse to feel it, noeing its call love but keep denying it

y?its for everyones good

to be hurt or not?choosing the former..choosing to be mum..choosing to forget..topple it with a pill call:'move on' plus some whipped cream call:'friendship' finishing it with a berry call:'kinship'---the result: renewed self

jus finished 3 episodes..next will be 11..tink its gonna be this state till the end of the show..emotionally moved? mb me can jus replace e actress in the show..oh well so tanned not korean-ish enuf

my girl

watching a long overdue show rec. by von..too bored with mugging for jap:( at least mes done with the 7 exams papers..hmm..shall slack till after the 7pm shw..tmr shall go thru everything when mes gg out w mei to pw n mug..den its bk home for tuition session again:P stressed!

my girl's nice..its the kinda of bro n sis story again..warning: aint fun to be involved in one..result: at least one party will gt hurt..rationale: frm the start dey aint even related, its jus cos of some matter dat caused them to fake or 'cook up' this relationship so when one stops tinking or reg the other as bro/sis..the situation gts altered..yah..as for this drama..its clear wads the ending is like..similar to all typical shws..there will always be third parties ard..those whu really care but yet theirs r jus unreciprocated..haha..so me can be the director, script writer etc...

noeing how the developments will be like yt wanna continue..for one its cos mes bored w study, two?nothing really substantial for me to do? 3?though predictable n hurtful still wanna noe hw they finally gt tgt...

conclusion: dun let me have the time to slack! DUN!

perfecting imperfections

it was a splendid swim this morn!forget bt the sun..laps after laps..blessed with the cleaned, disinfected water surrounding me:) few peeps, sensed the calmness n simplicity in life..away frm the noises of kids, the naggings frm me, the buzz frm the working crowd..for an hr i was transformed back to my past:)the feeling was indescribable:) mon's gg be another session n im definitely looking fwd

wun be able to go bk to sch next mon n tue cos me kids r hafing exams n me gtta gif them extra sessions at home..hmm..betta msg von ltr:P

tired n feel like napping ya i will since me woke up at 6 today..haha..blame the bio-clock?haha..im used to it..even ygest sis asked:'y wake up so early when u dun nid to study?' haha..she mus haf thot tt mes a weirdo lahs..waking up at the same time as her n mes not preparing for sch..oh well..dis me:)

ytd was at raffles city n me decided on hafing soup spoon instead of the cheaper alternatives at the food court!haha..gd gd..yah me din realise tt it was the last time we could o/s tgt..yah..so she decided tt we should haf sth better!haha..as usual according to my one meal policy me had a clam chowder bread bowl similar to e me ordered when i was w zhiyu less than 2 weeks ago!haha..satisying..mei aint a pantry kinda of person..so left some bread n me ate them up for her..yup n after dat we went gloria jeans to mug..the drinks r ard 60 cants cheaper..as for tast wise..i prefer the espresso chillers the mocha ones taste weird...next time shall stick to the former when mes dere..yah o dats it for the day..haha..the doughnut factory's q was/is super long lahs..nv stopped at all during our 5 hrs 'stinct' dere!zhiyu saes not worth so mes quite skeptical alr..me walked past but they dun look as tempting as the ones sold at taka sq..so mb ill gif it a miss..gd tt me completed 2 jap papers when i was dere..hmm..shall do 2 more ltr after my nap den its tuition tonight..n for the next few days

aint perfect dats y mes always on my toes to perfect those imperfections..physical imperfections r especially obvious when bulges appear, when ur clothes feel tighter, when u start to use ur pimple cream, shades for shielding, when pple tell u dat u r veri xin-fu, when u r in ur costumes..mental imperfections occur when u r super concious, when u r sinking into depression, when u dunnoe hw to ctrl ur life, when u dunno wad the hell u r doing in this wrld..when uve lost ur goals in life..academic imperfections r the number of distinctions uve missed, the renowned schools where u shld haf gone to, the scholarships which u shld haf tried to aim for..interpersonal imperfections?relational imperfections? wad bt all these..dere r so many imperfect things in life..at least in mine..trying to accept as much as i can cos im sensible enuf to look ard n see tt there r poorer souls ard..always haf the urge to pass 10 bucks to the auntie seeling tissue paper outside the mrt station..empathise with her..sigh..when i m 'loaded' k,auntie?

moving home soon..mums correct in chiding me jus now..3 yrs of hall life had morphed me into another person..more independent but one whu noe not how to live with others..i agree..i dun really haf a personal space at home..wadever i say will not b pleasing to her ears. so im always choosing to keep my mouth shut unless necessary..hw long can this last? son? shes always complaining dat sons r better..keep mentioning bt whuever whuever's son..irritated cfmed! cmon lorhs..good cos hes capable enuf to gof his mum at least 6oo to 7oo bucks mthly wad..if he din do u tink his mum will praise him or even show off in front of the relatives? sighh..so it all boils down to money? i rem doing gd essays discussing on the good n ills of money..so it has becm a reality in life

hopefully the situation will be better..with me shutting up n try not to rebute n be so vocal bt my thots..praying hard tt it will work out

haha...cant wait to go taiwan in 2 weeks' time..a diff environment, quite bored with twn alr..dunno wad i can do mans apart frm shopping eating movie ktv-ing etc..ya toking bt ktv-in!where r my khakis??desperate craze to go!haha..oh well shall wait a little little longer:)

18th's over! gone!

yeah!today is finally going to be over!had 311 paper this morn n oh well towards the end, me was like so drained!miss ard 18 marks..poor time management but m quite confident of the rest so praying hard for dat b to appear considering my course wrork:0 the afternn ge paper was jus stunning..wadever she hinted din realli appear!bestest!m quite lucky dat me read up here n dere for me to crap my way thru so mb wun do too badly huh..so its one more n mes off le!

todays wed n yah 18th of april a strategic day is gg to be over in 34 mins time!mes slacking in my room..n its pretty empty now..tmr shld lug more home:) mtg mei tmr to mug for jap..hmm..wanted to eat sth nice but since mei wans cheap food court stuff den i tink its okie bah..ill jus tk the usual yong tau foo which i deem it as healthy..den its off to mug at cafe..undecided which one to go..shall go by instinct tmr!:)good good

todays thurs..n the call nv seem to come..i noe it will be lidis oh well so jus leave it n not tink bt it anymore..
gt a call frm keith yesterday, hes one of the founder of tinybox, a music company located in tg pagar, the school which groomed kelly poon..yah he left me a msg on friendster reg the new intake of students..n called to provide me with the details..pricing n time wise sd gd..it will be the 2nd course which i will be gg thru:) yeah! this time rd its gg to last 1 yr..both basic n advance course:)to improve to correct are my aim this time rd..:) 150 per mth i can still foot it..so it looks like my weekend will be filled with regular ktv sessionS!haha..good tt mei is gg with me oso..so we cn learn tgt...keith sds nice over the phone..mb he cn sing as well too!haha..hes a singing teacher too!beginning to like the name keith..haha..so tinybox will be my next sch after ntu:)so afterall me aint gg to be detached frm sch yah?this time rd its gg to be a sch where i can enjoy my favourite activity..very excited on music recording which is gg to be taught!!woohoo!!(beaming frm ear to ear now!!)

din noe tt kj noes rick..saw him today at src bfore we went in for exams..dunno y but me jus haf a feeling dat hes super zai!the more i see him the more zai i feel he is..haha..admiration setting in?haha..even daph cfmed tt hes good..okie so he mus be of a certain standing..competitor sia...can apply my 5 forces analysis here!.hmm.me shld learn frm him as n when possible:)ricks a nice name too!haha

was struck by a thot jus now..suddenly the word vocal struck me..n me realised tt me tend to notice guys whu r vocal..nt as in those whu like to brag bt how gd dey r day in n day out but those whu r really vocal n open bt their thots n thus make an effort on voicing out their views..not those whu try to attract attention..hmm..me oso dunno hw to describe but me jus now whu r those whu aint turned off! dats y me used to like my vj student councils president!haha..okie nw the victorians whu r reading this will noe this long secret of mine..wadever, so long alr..it aint a secret anymore..n hey dun gt it wrg hor..not max but a yr bfore us!geddit?if not go ask von!haha..so leadership quality is a must to haf in my future bf?or shld i sae gd to haf?haha..mus be able to provide me with directions, make decisions but not a big MCP!hate it when mes being ordered to do things..even my mum nv ask me to do this n dat lorhs..no wonder she always complain dat me nv help out with the household chores!haha..but still i din help..my sis oso wad..so no diff..hmm..shall find new eye candy soon!haha

okie..1200 n 3 mins to 19th april..haha..yawans..

oh yah went for a 15min jog with daph..shld haf ran for a longer period but she din feel well so we walked a 1/4 of the route back :) its off to the pool to tone up on fri n next mon!yes!toning!!