mb it aint passion..else y wavered?

facing a delemma..guess everyone is..

sighh..all the temptations n such..hw not too

everything is finally over!exams n interviews..todays sat n i was up since 8+..wanna go bk to slp again..yawns

waiting for the reply frm kpmg..some of my frans alr gt the offer on the spot..if me nv imply wrgly me shld be accepted too..haha..oh well i applied for risk whilst deirs are assurance n tax so mb its different?

gt the offers frm Deloitte n TOuche as well as PWC..but those r for audit..aint taking them up though its so so tempting cox its PWC!!!if its a positive frm KP den im really wavered..risk management..fraud detecting..internal auditing? sds fun n exciting..but ive realli gtta find out more frm seniors or even the manager if im really accepted..suddenly i feel lyk im more for this..alas?y lidat?thot ive settled for MOE..

im proud of myself..a big ego i have..my aim for the interviews: to ace n shw wad ive gt n see hw far i can go..mb its a wrg choice..in the end gtta decide gt tempted..life's full of temptation..n its bad..mb if im nt so welll educated mb if mes limited to jus a few choices me will be betta?confident n felt good after the interviews..thot i jus crapped the sessions away..each lasting at least 40mins..i dunno..jus gt veri driven n excited when i narrate bt my life..my achievements..hope me din bore them to death..haha..the partner frm pwc even told me tt he went for a jog before my interview..told me tt his wife was teaching in tk n quitted in 1999..told me his daughter is in tk..his current n past residence etc etc..dats a cool lot!interviewer frm DT? ended up telling her hw frightened we were in lee kin wais lecture seminars n the tensed up moments dueing my class presentation..we had a gd laugh indeed..haha..KPMG's a little less casual but ti was comfortable enuf i guess..
so much so much for me to digest within this short period.one after another..
was telling my sis e importance of studying n gt involved in sch in activities dun care wad jus gt ur lazy bum up n DO STHG!!im jus an average student..mb cos of e additionals dat y ive gt wad ive gtten..thanking n owed this to my alma mateur..TKGS!my confidence my character etc etc..the fighting spirit n stuff..
dun tink im good..seriously i dun tink im..kj was telling me dat me cn portray my self well..the bosses like this kinda of employees..my sis told me im more suited to be in the corporate wrld cox of my personality..i aint sure full of doubts bt myself..im confused by my abilities..i dunno..self-doubting is destroying but overconfident kills n its hated..at least by myself
will be realli drawn to kp if i gt the offer..kp is highly perf based..bonus is dependent on perf n OT??haha..wad to do?intervv qns: wads ur view bt OT?haha..oh man wad cn i sae?of cox its alright lahs..haha..kp promises partnership in 8 to 12 yrs' time!!dats like hw cool..with my personality n if i really choose risk my goal: 10 yrs!!yes..ill gif myself ten yrs..at least the post of a risk director..well well it will be a bonus if im a partner..haha..its all tok n no action till now..but ive gtta realise it.
called my cousin whus a high flyer assistant director at PUB..a zai guy..his wife is as capable as him..at 33 he has alr achieved this much..me wan too!!tt means all the thought of hafing a more relaxed life n enjoyment which im seeking will be gone..again he told me dat i may be more suited to the corporate world..suggest dat
i shld try joining the rat race..he told me to condider 3 components: money(practicality), job nature(interests), environment( people)..yah..my focus is on the last 2..risks diff frm audit as least frm my pt of view..people?dey 'look' okie i guess..whu doesnt but i believe im adaptable to pple..shldnt be an obstacle for me..mes open n i dun mind all types of peeps will diff personalities..haha though may complain here n dere but whu doesnt complain?money?lg term its good..hoping me can gt onto the fast track prog call the HIPO..with all the promotions n stuff..money in the lg term looks good..
i wanna be over the rest..liking the feeling of power, acknowledgement n the ability to spend..yes being materialistic here..down the road veri soon ill be able to gt a bigger hse for my family..me n mei r always veri impressed by the condos n the penthses alg parkway..pretty..sighh..its all bt social status..i dunno i wanna be able to walk into posh shps..clad in elegant clothes n allow my parents to eat well and live well..its time alr..my dads 50 today in 10 yrs time hes alr 60..no no..mb 10 yrs is a little too lg..ive gtta tink far!!so it seems dat risk aint dat bad afterall..it all depends on the outcome of the interview..else im with MOE..
before it cmes me shant tink too much..gtta do up wad ive gtta do now:)n enjoy the free time while it lasts..cnt wait for the 13th to go blading w mei..cool n ktv..gonna protect my voice..so its 3 sessions of ktv for the next 2 weeks..wah..haha
had facial ytd..now my face is smooth!!!haha..gt rid of those black heads n dead skin..scrubbed off the dirt..my sis' comment: jie u gt no makeup on..eeks!!!haha..n bestest me saw my sec sch fran n mes so cui!!!aiyos..cnt believe feel lyk digging a hole n jump in!haha..its a lg term investment..the next session will be on the 18th n ill go again before sch reopens dats ard once per month:) gonna tk up an additional tutee so ill haf 3!!high maintenance?haha..wad to do?no lahs jus feel good to haf extra cash ard since next sem is more slack..guess its gods will..he has it all planned out for me..deres no the other half for me so me cn jus focus on wad i wan n wad im doing..thank you god for this..n i truly believe its for my own good
was reading meimei's blog..yah u r right..we shld make plans w/o the other half..its our life..whu noes wads gonna happen if hes gone..if hes to come into the pic hes dere to complement it to share the ups n downs..i agree..truly agree!
so broke liaos..haha..mus gif tuition..haha..next sem is gonna b a great sem i guess..but im forever overloading myself..with additional commitments..vons tking frence n i jus realised deres no korean..haha..told lin the wrg info alr n shans tinking of tking jap!!!haha...me dun mind but dun understd y the OPA's schedule is for this sem!!ellos we r reg for next sem ahs!!me gtta clear 4 aus..wanna mk it a 2 dats week but with the GEs mb hafta haf a 3 days..dun mind a mon to wed week!!haha..den will haf a damn long weekend for me to gif tuition n haf fun..
meanwhile..this the updated schedule for myself..

4th: swim n celeb vonnies bdae!!
5th: sch to reg for subj n meet yanshan to go vivocity
6th: swim n DT's reception dinner at hilton
7th: celeb yanshans bdae
8th: CHoir camp
9th: tentative ktv session w yj
10th: out w meimeis to gt dads prezzie
11th: celeb dads bdae
13th: blading n ktv w meimeis
16th: celeb pengpengs bdae
18th: facial
19th: hall caroling?
23rd: rioja's post exam n xmas celeb steamboat at our beloved cgl's hse

hmm..shld haf more dinners b stuff ard this period i guess..haha..wah its really time to recoup all dat ive spent this hols..n ive gtta be fast!!!

when too mani becms a chore

received my moe letter 2 weeks ago n im supposed to go for a briefing this cming tues for a briefing n to hand in the contract...

ytd was out studying w mei..gt too calls frm deloitte n kpmg for intervv n my fran told me tt ive gt shortlisted for pwcs as well!pengs..wads more?an ey's contract in my cupboard!

thot im settled for nie..gt a bit wavered ytd n i mean now..supposed to be aslp but decided to blog cox gt no one to grumble to!sians..mei mugging for tmrs exam..
hw not to b wavered when uve gt a potential job w pwc waitng for u!!not tt ill cfm geddit but if i realli wan it ill mk sure ill ace the intervv!!cfm!!sighh..
feels great getting shortlisted by all esp. pwc but wads the pt if ive chosen nie?

yah the pay the reputation the ego of a great company!!compared to teaching?
but i can cfm in the long run ill enjoy the latters life more!!

so its NIE NIE NIE!!!!!

shant be wavered but ill still go for the intervvs lahs..haha..as a challenge?see if im gd enuf to gt into pwc..another challenge for myself?

maybe..so i shall sae bye to the lg run high pay job!! welcum me to the life of a teacher!!jus realise im may be an elitist..dun realli wanna teach acctg cox usually special n express stream schs dun offer tt..shall go ask if i cn select schs basing on the eng subject..hopefully can:P but i tink chances r low!

following my heart following my instinct n dey choice is rather obvious..another year in ntu..dats it..yupps..dats all!

getting excited once again

yah after tmr's paper ive a paper left which is on wed! n im not done w revising dat yt..gosh!!!:( wadever im done with revising w tmr's done..phew.nt dat im armed w 100% knowledge n confidence of dealing w all qns..but ive tried my best alr..wadever cmes up tmr me will jus haf to try hard n apply..tink im still okie apart frm not noeing hw to reconcile stuff like the Minority interests shit..the rest lyk passing journal entries r alright..having done the past yrs' papers..possibility of reconciling is rather low..praying hard

hey mei read ur blog..wah pengs hw cm u tiinking of such things so weird..anw nothing wrg with keeping touch w a fran right..its okie wads..so lg as hes not a desporado or sm baddie den i guess its still ok..haha..hopefully not lyk the one whu always try to initiate a conver on msn..wah can gt a bit irritated esp when im busy..:P

hmm..was browsing thru the blogs n realise tt clarence's blog has the most number of pics!haha..photo galore!!cn compete w lin alr!haha..tinking wad phone me shld gt..either samsung z400 a slider phone or the sony erricsons pick phone tink its 610i..cant decide but lotsa peeps hafing the pink one alr!so tink me shld jus gt the slider one..gonna spend a bit on decal for protection else it will gt scratched again!yah..mus quickly settle right after exams!haha..so exciting

yahyah..getting so excited over my schedule after the stupid paper next wed..so here it goes:

1st dec: acc. sis to sch to gt TB, lunch at jack's pl. w mei n ma
2-3rd: tuition..gg out to shp? look out for dads pres?
4th: bdae celeb w von!!
5th: outing w shans to vivo!
6th: choir camp in hall
7th: celeb dearest shan's bdae with tingx n charms!!
11th: celeb daddys bdae!
13th: outing w mei!!blading ktv!
16th: celeb little nephews bdae!!
19th: TTS n hall's xmas party

hmm..so far its lyk dis..pending activities:
ktv/east coast park outing w yj n co.
meeting w weinee
vj class gahering
xmas dinner w shan, von hs n lh
new year meetups?

haha..so mani so mani!!great!
n ill top everything up w swims!!haha

hmmm..shan ahs meanwhile tink of ur prezzie k?tell us tell us!!haha

oh ya von!ive planned ur bdae outing as below..but im still tinking of wad we cn do in the morn..haha

2 to 5: ktv!
dinner at the balcony heerens/french restaurant at taka!!opp. mos!mongolian buffet at park mall(all sds quite ex hor) haha
afterdat either a movie or go admire the xmas lightings!
actually tinking if its too late u cn cm visit my hall..but its lyk a bit far hor?haha
morn we we cn go shp?or u haf betta suggestions?

it's coming n going fast!

suppose to be deep into my sleep!hmm..shld quickly complete this entry and concuss!

finally signed up or 2 upcoming contest..gg w sis..jus to enjoy n gif ourselves wadever opportunities dats available!haha..

went out to mug today..well had a super sinful drink at pac coffee parkway..haha..jus ordered mocha brownie w/o thinking cox me din realli haf time to consider wad to drink!haha..

nice!saw a lot of caucasian..n taitais i guess..at least its more conducive than yoshinoya..shld go mos one of these days since it looked as if its newly renovated..hmmm:)

nearly bot another pretty top jus now but was carrying lotsa stuff so had to gif dat up!sighh..nvm..shall go shp after exams..plenty of time!haha..hmm..hafta go find time to go facial!gt a 100 bucks mary chia voucher..n me jus bot meself a new wallet shp wallet!heh..gonna wash my GUESS wallet frm shan tingx n charmxx..so sad a bit dirty alr so mus wash..

hmm..thurs the start of my first paper..hope it cn jus cm n go den me cn start on my 206!!!if nt its cfm death for me!!sians

nvm its gg to be over soon!yupps all the way mans!

yawns..

mani tmrs

todays betta..

teary ytd..

thanks mei for the msg..changed my blog add n onli restricting to my closest frans..no letting the rest noe..cfm esp when most posts r sch/hall related..too personal..so onli my realli close pals n mei can read..yeah..

hmmm..was comtemplating if me shld join sfter thurs quiz to celeb kanjians bdae cox wanna mug den i thot cm bk oso too tired to mug..might as well enjoy for a while..treat it as a destress activity yah?den its my first paper next thurs..n shld start practising the papers n start revising for the consolidation on fri!:) gg suntec's chongqing quite ex..29.8 nety oh well thot gg krushinbo but in end end cancelled..mb when lins bk we cn go dere??go for the lunch?cheaper..since von n lin both lyk so we shld go!!heehee..

tmr shall go out n mug else ill be slpy in the afternn n nt be efficient again..haha..

i wanna gt a princessy dress..shld try getting frm isetan at wisma..went w von dat dae n dere were so mani:0!!!pretty pretty!!!

ive gtta treasure wadever i haf n wadever aint mine me wun force too..well..it will tk sm time again to gt out..silly to haf fallen in unknowingly..yah when realisation becmes too late

Treasuring

feeling sick n jus had my medicine..slpt late at 2 though me knew me shldnt be..gtta slp more to recover fast..gtta noe bt it there n den..at least im privileged to noe bfore the rest..yah..mb..thanking u for tt..realli

woke up at 6.30 this morn..mes tired but noe me wun be able to fall bk..told sis..she went quiet..she noes wad im tinking..i noe she noes..she din sae..she noes..i noe she noes..mei i noe u noe..thanks for keeping quiet at tt moment..din tk med after bf cox simply thot ill try nt to rely on panadol but gv in cox i can feel the heat rising in me..simply lazy to see doc..self medicating again?

finished 3 chaps of 304 at one go since me cnt go..cnt conc..read thru sentences after setences n still at tt sentence/phrase..alas..forcing myself to conc n focus so in the end managed..affected..y? i noe y..roughly noe..

treasuring the franship, treasuring the trust..thanks for the faith tt me wun sae..taken aback for a while..oh well..dats it..full stop..wishing u well
yah still gd frans:)

ma noes i told her hw i felt..it runs in the family i tink..same as mei she onli kept quiet..she noes hw i feel but jus din sae much at least ahe noes..n i jus wanna share w ma..

hafing a clearer vision of my life..meimei...i admire u!!we will wrk tgt k??our goal our life our dreams..cnt wait for exams to be over so we cn go out enjoy activities tgt!hafing plans here n dere alr:)which is good?at least my lifes occupied n my mind too..yeah its good

mus focus for the next 3 weeks..everything mus be off my mind..completely n nothing else..when it hurts jus slp on it..fortunately this isnt as bad as a yr n a half ago?
now its jus time for studies..anything else can wait!!!

lufing myself more n more..protecting myself to an extent tt its uncontrollable..it all lies in the wrd 'stupidity'

DOWN finally

finally ill..i knew ill fall ill someday..jus haf this veri bad feeling
:( n yah these 2 days hafen been good..mb its exams stress..cun slp well oso..always waking up at 5+ to mug..will always wake up in fright..sighh..this bad..no wonder lack of slp n my eyebags r gtting worse:(

no choice this is the period..its the same for everyone..

oh yah today is LINNIE's 21st!!n me can openly blog down wad we did for her!!hhaha..hey lin hope u realli lyk the gift frm us yeah??all the way frm mango taka to korea via freight!!haha..hmm..me n vonnie oso feel lyk gtting but too ex..haha..:) y not u gt us one frm korea..haha..joking ger!hmm..21 alr!finally babe!!welcum on board!hope u will enjoy urself today!i noe u will!!

was reading mei's blog..yah i agree w her on certain issues..shes strger than me..strger than i thot..gd!shes gtta clearer goals n vision than me..yah our penthse dream!!lets wrk twds it!!if nie aint my place ive to decide if its kpmg or ey..den i shall wrk twds the 2million..though me cnt possibly be a partner..hopefully deres a miracle tt sth is gg to happen

2 mores cming up..im gg w mei!intense practices n selections!but gtta sign up first..yeas!i mus recover fast so my voice w be bk..no heaty stuff again!but i dun mind sacrificing for my interests my dream n life!!

wanna concuss alr..but toking to him..its been a long time since he initiated..thanks for the concern n the reminder..sending him the sgs but its so slow!urghh..dun care he mus learn else hes gonna geddit frm me when w k the next time rd..haha..oops!jus told me he gt attached..yah
ya dun seem to care or choose nt too..so oblivious?den y do i always hafta care?

KTV ROCKS!

cool!!!im so so happy!!
had two sessions of KTV on 2 consecutive dayS!

finally our last presentation for the sem was over ytd!!haha..we r cfm the best team lahs!nv had so much fun wrking tgt bfore..haha..as in its jus quite amusing..e 5 of us gtta noe one another jus this sem to be exact 3 mths ago..n we behaved as if we havw known for years..dey r so approachable n i guess we r of the same frequency bahs..hhaa..most importantly tink kenneths the one whu gel-ed us tgt?haha..hes so funny..brotherly?or mb fatherly?haha..tink hes a veri funny n energetic fellow..

so us gers jus dashed into the toilet n gt changed out into our gg out clothes our pres was over..sians tink prof is bias against us..okie lorhs..but we dun care lahs..kenneths brought so mani things even his wireless keyboard!haha...his crumpler is super huge!!haha..immediately after class we dashed out of sch!!haha..we went crystal jade for lunch cos he wanna eat xiao long bao..so we went n the la mian was lyk so much n in the end guess other den kennie n yingying..de rest of us jus gv up!n he ate lyk 7 xiao long baos lahs!!!crazi sia..so filling!he wanted to treat us but in the end we jus declined the offer..hw nice!!haha..we r close but nt close to tt extent i guess..haha..n we were all given names lah..hes kennie..yiing yng's yingying,lijing's jingjing, debbie's deb deb n mine? jo jo or he will sometime call me joleen meimei..so funnie lahs..tink its this kinda of informality!
so went kbox at clementi!haha..n bestest!!we r all ktv freaks!!!tink all r regulars so r sang relatively well!!!haha:):) good good! thot hes zai but in the ebd he told us he goes ktv to jus listen!best lahs!!but we forced him to sing..in the ens as a SHE fan!all the sgs he sang were SHE's!!!haha..pengs..we were all lauging lyk crazi..bestest feat ytd!he sang one night in beijing w the falsetto n did a duet himself..the theme sg frm dunno hw long ago from shuang tian zhi zun!haha...deb video taped it!!so we shall post on youtube n bribe him!!!haha..sg for 4 hrs n we refilled 15 bowls of tidbits!!haha..mus gt our money worth!!
conclusion?????!!!! we had tremendous fun!!!n its realli FUN!!haha..

this morn woke up earli to finish 2 chaps of 304 bfore proceeding to kbox at parkway w mei!!heehee..cool!!exposed to so mani new new sgs these 2 days n mes gg to master them all!!!duets n solos!! veri veri nice duets mus learn n make sure im super zai so tt me can force felix to sing next time!!!haha:) bet he doesnt noe!!dun care den its my time to suan him le!!!
realli luf singing w mei cos we cn sing lyk crazi!!shes always the one introducing the lastest n hippest sgs to me!!!heh!!n we always gv each other comments on hw we sded n ways to improve!nice!!lufing singing yuan dian n ah mei's zhen shi w u ger!!heehee...we shall go more more often after ur exams yeah?looking fwd!!mmm..okie as for now im looking fwd to a session w vonie on the 4th dec!!heh!!cant wait!i wanna go hark's cafe!!live on stage ktv!!best!cool!!okie tt ive to wait for yx?haha..den ktv's w my hall's freshies..hmm..tink dec is a singing season for me!!all these sesions n caroling camps n caroling seasons..ive been looking fwd to dec since uni cox me gtta go carol w pals in shpping centers n hotels!so cool but of cox will gt sick of the carols by the end of the month!!haha..
hmmm..so hint hint!!me nid honey water!!!haha!!!

immersing ourselves in our dreams..preparing ourselves for them..e feelings r back!im glad to be gg thru these w u, mei!!!thanks!!!:):) jus haf fun yeah?

as for now..its exams first!!!

whee!

jus had a long morning of project!skipped 206 again n poor kenneth was dere alone..hes our super leader mans!!haha..of cos hes the MAN!!planned everything alr..goodgood!the rest of us r jus slackers..cant wait for thurs to be over n can jus conc on mugging,,tink wad kept us gg is the grp's crankiness n of cox how slack how slack!haha..we enjoyed one another's company i guess!n bestest!!tink after our pres on thurs we r gg KTV!!!haha..y? to celeb!!haha..so cool right?n we all lyk to K!!!woohoo..haha..n fri mes gg w sis in the morning!wah stress relievers bfore exams!cant wait cant wait!todays debbies' 22nd bdae..n kenneths so sweet to go help buy card n cake n went to gt an empty tut room to celeb for her..simple!jus sing song n crapped!hmm..guess tt's hw we bond tgt?haha..oh well we had fun though..kenneths so thotful!cant stand!!haha..mb hes mu ji no. 2?haha..*winks*

in the midst of the crowd when i was gg bk to hall!guess wat!!i saw charmaine!!!my PARTNER!!haha..so long nv see u alr!!!so glad to see u heh!!:):) so sad din gt to tok much..hmm..but u still look e same yeah?haha..thanks for telling me ive lost wt!haha..me nid the assurance!:)shall catch up soon yeah?

back in my little cosy room:)

jus realised when mes filling up the app forms dat daddy's approaching his 50th!dats lyk how fast!!oh mans!!the big 5!!urghh..me n mei is planning sth!shall bring pa to eat good food..chinese rest i guess den tinking of wad to buy..

was quite stunned ytd when i heard wad ma said while ranting at pei..shocked mans!she actually said tt eating at hawker centers is low class!!wah!!was practically shutting myself frm her naggings as well but when she said tt me jus woke up apparently!!wah best..since when she gt dis kinda mentality?hmmm..hawker=low class?wah..cant believe cant believe still..wah..mb too angry w my sis alr..dats y..

doctor doctor

stopped revision for 306..pengs..crossing my fingers for tmr's test..haven filled up any of the app forms..shall do it tmr after the sickenig test..hmm..great gg to my fav cafe to mug for 304 aft sch tmr!!!goodgood..so depressed tt me have lost my sense of smell n taste:( sighh..

was uplaoding pics onto friendster n happened to re- read the testimonials..
so here's one..

My dearest mei,
Never believed in the sister brother
thing.. thought it was very cheena.. but..
you are my first ever and most beloved
adopted sister.
Thanks for all the times you make
breakfast for me... the messages you
send me.. the herbal drinks you make
me swallow when i have sore throat =)
All the good luck messages, the
reminders and concern you have
showed me in uni. Eh guys, trust me,
this girl will make ur fairytale gf, but
she's extremelly picky so try hard =)

its slping time!off to sch tmr again:P sians

overdose..overdozed

overdose of 306..its 306 day in day out but dun realli seem to master em completely..als..bestest?closed book quiz..pengs:( jus checked results for 206..phew at least okie lahs..but can definitely do better!!:p gtta buck up:)
waiting for mon for veri long..den she told me she din noe its this mon!best lorhs..hating to tok to her..tell her stuff..she jus din pay attention..always hafta repeat myself like crazy!urghh..im not a tape recorder mans!keep repeating?exams cming..no more ktv..after 306's quiz shall study for 304's exam!!banking in all my time n energy into my studies..gtta buck up!
ktv's my life..gtta wait..yah no choice..
stressed up..not well..betta go see doc soon..sians..waiting money..1000cal per day..hmm..so afr so good..headache..its tking effect..panadol, sorethroat pills, flu tablets, vitamin pills..hmm..any more medication?lemme tk more?haha..
gonna slp n wake up earli for 306 again..sians..but no choice!
so mon shall go n mug at my fav cafe after test n den shp for a pair of low heels:) dis wad i call destressing via shopping..yah shpping
decided to continue keeping my room in hall..vons cming over so she cn stay w me for a few days when shes here!cool!den we cn go find lin in nus when we r free!!heehee..den we cn 'gather' again!so nice!another reason..afraid of the nagging..third..mving out is a chore..4th: fun?hmm..mb? 5th: underlying reason..so the 'hedging instrument' shall depend on this hedged item!yah hedged item:P
gg crazi cox of wrk..
sis managed a position of 9/110 in her express stream..8th in class..shes in the first class..best class in her sch..w all the stress which weve given her she g t this result..can foresee further pressure on her..its gonna increase nv decrease..we r setting her goals for her.issit correct?or r we doing it wrgly? vons right..weve nv in their sch..weve nv been so rebellious bfore..weve nv been in a neighbourhood sch before..weve always been at the top..we wun noe wads the feeling of being below..wun understd their feeling..we r afraid our kids,if ever we have, wun be able to make it to the top like us..wad if they lag behind?gosh?hw hw?we dunno..sighh..so much stress..no wonder its reported tt singaporeans r not happy peeps at all..hw to when we r faced w so many responsibilties?
kj was telling me n hs tt ministers earn much lesser than partners of EY..wah best lahs..senior partners can earn $2m per year whereas junior partners can earn 250k per year..dats alot alot of money but gtta slog lyk shit..ltr becm shit hw?haha..
its betta to do things which uve passion for..its a lg term thing..not jus for the $..$ can buy alot of material things..can help to destress..can mk pple happy..but $ cant buy love, precious time, interest
dats y dere r artists/artistes out dere whu r able to forsake $ for interests...

difficult choice..lost..life juncture..

short but nice

met up w zuzu for the 3rd time for e 3rd consecutive week!haha..but seems lyk we haven met up for a lg time..hahaha..today meetup was a short one..both of us were tired..haha..poor von had sch for the entire day n had to invigilate her juniors..aiyos..den had to lug her stuff:P
haha..cnt believe we r always so good!!haha..we r the best of pals mans!telepathic!n aiyas!we r jus so zai!!always manage to choose the right thing n at the right time..last week chances upon a taiwan snack shp near bugis n today went cineleisure n ate at a little eatery..jappie fd..wanna go for korean at the basement of le meridian but we were jus so exhausted..hmm me dunno y so tired oso..sians..muged the whole day..n since exams r cming!im prepared for my mugging days whereby ill jus mug n do nothing!!no life sia!!no choice!mugging days=mugging daze!!
cnt wait for mon to come dat means 306 quiz will be over n me cn happily go meet meimei for ktv!its been at least 7 wks seince we last k-ed tgt!haha..shall train up again!try out my new sgs!!haha..n one month's time me will be gg w von!!mb when lins bk!we will go again lin!well of cox during hols ill jus go lyk crazy!!i wana go harks cafe!!hmm..shall ask yx alg!haha
meanwhile gtta mug hard..so far most or less haf some plans for hols alr!
0) after xmas celeb!
1) celeb vons bdae
2)celeb shans bdae
3) celeb zhiyus bdae
4) celeb pengs bdae
5) jc class gathering
6) shans tings charms xmas celeb
7) xmas celeb w von
8) xmas w zhiyu
9)blading sessions w meimei, hs,kj?
10) ktv sessions
11) caroling camp
12) caroling sessions

relaxing at home?vexed

supposed to be at aunties place now..decided not too cox if i were to go..ill jud die for my quiz next mon!betta not..finished reading the chapters but gtta practised n gt organised n my 206 report..wah..supposed to start my 304..but 306 is bugging me!!
cant breathe..cant taste, cant smell..wadever i eat is tasteless..tink shld see a doc soon:( pengs..sorethroat n cough too..best!jus let me fall sick?but exams cming!
not as good as it seems..not as perfect as it mus be..a perfectionist?yah mb..n dere goes my nv ending quest to achieve the veri veri best..its tough..taken a toll on myself but no choice..ive no choice
slping cures..shld sleep more, mug more..less of it..dats the life ive

the 21st century independent women!!

YES!!me n vonnie agreed tt we r the 21st century INDEPENDENT woman!!yes!we r CFM!!

mugged a bit den went to meet von at cityhall!!best!!went for bodyshop sale at suntecs convention hall n guess wad we spent again..irresistable mans!!von bot makeup bershes purple mascara n a super unique lipgloss named prism!haha..pretty name ritex?as for me?haha..jus cnt resist the purple mascara as well n bot another set of SHIMMERY GLITTERY SHINY EYE COLOUR!!wahhahaa..cool mans!!okie great mes gg to put em on!!!dun care mus use!!!im so happy w my buy!n oh ya a bottle of cuticle oil as well..so after our satisfactory buy..we trotted to smu to von's locker to leave my comp n stuff den made our way to cathay cineplex to watch Departed the eng version of wu jian dao..not too bad cox me din watch the chinese trilogy.e shw was so lg dat we had no choice but to leave halfway to the toilet!haha..good good onli 6.6 for the tixs for a 2.5HRS SHW!im gg to start using my mini debit card frm NOW on!!hmm..i mean during my xmas spending n stuff!heehee..but mus mk sure gt money first!!haha
proud to sae tt we walked alot ytd!woohoo..gd exercise!after movie walked to bras basah wanted to intro von to ms clarity but den waited for 40mins still gt no seats so went to the stretch of shops at ICON n guess wad we fd a nice taiwan little shp!nice bubble tea n iced crushed mango..the fd isnt ex quite nice given tt mw cnt smell/taste well:( sighh..but we had our fill so headed to bugis which was supposed to be the highlight cox von nids to gt a pretty dress for her bdae party on the 10th nov!!heh..me wun be dere but nvm mines special..hey ger ahs!!quickly choose k?great planning my schedule after my exams alr!cool!!so 4th dec will be crossed out to celeb vonnies bdae!!yeah!!!:)
it was so funnie ytd..was toking bt guys whom we consider r ultimate BASTARDS esp when dey gt attached right after a breakup!yah!she was telling me bt her fran whu gt tgt w a ger cox she comforted him after he broke up w his ex!wah best!!can forgt so fast one mehs?yah we cm to a consensus tt they r BASTARDS cfm!!n yah we were toking bt gers doing likewise oso!but din bother to tink of a classification for this kinda of gers..but both will be condemned bahs..haha..so ger n guy the same!rd 1:on par..den we saeing gers in ntu nbs haf a higher depreciation rate cox of the shorter dep life compared to SMU babes!yah n im left w 16.5% to be depreciated!haha..den we jus simply burst out laughing mans!!so funnie lahs..n if im gg NIE den ive gtta agjust to reflect my fair value n uselife to 4yrs dat is a prospective adj!!haha..best rights?haha..but WE dun care if its 4 yrs 3 yrs or hw many % lahs..if it cmes it cmes..if notgt on w/o lahs!!21st century liaos..guys or no guys its the same lahs!no wonder me n von r so alike..so telepathic dat explains our closeness!haha..n if lin were w us!!cfm!!another of us!!m i right lin????help u ans ya?yah we r right!!haha
so we had our fun over dinner!:)
cn feel the stress alr but its inevitable..after this sem will be fine will be better alr..great!von applied for an exchange to ntu next sem!!cant wait to see u in ntu ger!!we shall tk the same ge n me shal shw u ard n most prob keeping my rm so u cn cm n stay over dearie!!:) we will haf fun n me shall intro u to my khakis in hall..e.g. my friendly neighbours dey will be glad to mahjong w ya!u can join us for our fun n activities..den the few hunks in hall!!hey lets go bio guys mans!!haha..n my og mates..shw u whus darren n felix..n if u dun mind mb jeremiah zhao//my grandfather guanjun, mother qianyi..haha..cool right?me bet u r all ready to dive over alr!!cant wait!but of cox mus quickly start mugging for my exams n urs too..

suddenly me jus realised my nephew will be turing 2 on the 15th dec!!woohoo!!cool!!so dat makes it 5 bdaes!!heh!

though its tough, its a challenge..not onli applicable to me..its exp. by everyone so gtta hang on!yes!hanging on hard..

GOD noes

din noe tt my belief in GOD has been so strg..hes the father of all mankind..hes plans for everyone..he guides us in our life..he has his plans for me n i noe

its hard to realli explain why im starting to believe this..ive forsaken him cox of conflicts in the family..my familys a taoist family..yah..feeling as if im a traitor now..so guilty. mb im attributing all my failings..my problems..troubles to fate..to destiny cox of my incapability in achieving/solving em..mb

was BIG 4 netwrking night ytd in sch..the auditors were so agreesive..y?cox dey nid us..dey r despo for pple..PWC portrayed a gd image but dey aint as approachable i feel..the largest n most pop!wad to do?wanted to miA asap after the pres..in the end no one did so n me hanged ard w kj hs joey so we mingled n managed to tok to a few peeps..one of deloittes' manager kpmg's joseph n partner frm risk management..pwc's tax n oh well was toking to my gst partner!!best he still remembered my name!so paiseh me forgt his lorhs..luckily gt nametag so big somemore!!haha..yah hes kaieng n the super duper elegant n pretty tax partner hhmmm..her name is...sheesh:(all were eagerly promoting their wrk their firms..its their passion?r dey realli realli enjoying??shant doubt their sincerity etc. me hope im lyk em..tok w pride bt wad dey r doing..its hard wrk i mus sae..everyone starts frm scratch when we grad..no ones superior to another..so dat explains the equal platform?
thot i was a little wavered over my nie decision after hearing n learning more bt big 4..as i 'limped' back to hall..me had the little time to think thru again..the ccompetitiveness, the hecticness the long nv-ending hrs..the agreesiveness jus seem so alien to me..well..ive been 'competing' for my past 14 yrs as a student..tink ill die jus to carry on..its not an easy wrld outside alot of backstabbing bad mouthing..etc..its jus complicated..tink ill go crazy dere..oh well if tt's the plan for me ive to accept it n tk up this challenge which ive to overcome..mb ill becm a betta person?
nv thot bt gg into risk or advisory services..bt after toking to joseph n the partner..its lyk hey!!!deres sth out there still!!so this n opening for me?a sign?i wun noe till ltr..but if its really this!den i mus sae im realli blessed cox dun nid to go thru the entire tedious process!gtta noe the partner so its more or less cfm direct into kpmg's!dats if im gg to kpmg..another choice?ey?
hmm..shant tink too much..gg to enjoy my dae w vonnie ltr!shpping movie n fun!!woohoo..betta finished my readings now!!haha..den its play time bfore i start my weekend mugging hard for my quizzes!!!aiyos!!
von!!!so excited!!

feeling at ease when i see the little flower..so sweet..mb its cox its pink n mb its cox its frm ya

jus for ZHIYU!!!

hey ger!!as promised this entry is for u!!me knew ya bdaes on the 29th NOV!!!heH!dun angry k?we will celeb WILDY when u r bk in mid DEC n we can also celeb XMAS tgt babe!!!aint u excited?as im typing ive sth in mind alr!!!:):):)mes gtting excited!!hoping tt u r doing fine in shanghai!all the travelling to mongolia ..u noe wad?im afraid me cnt relate to u when u share ur experiences w me ltr on:( so sad!but i wanna listen ger!!!listen to u describe while i imagine as usual!!t all ears..wish im lyk u travelled to US..china etc..seen so mani things..me felt so small..reclused on this little island:( so sad..wait for u to be bk ger!!n do tk care of ur health yeah?missing U!!!:)

btw gt this frm ur blog..tink it means alot to me as well..so dun mind mes gg to copy n paste it in mine too!!!haha..alot of things to tell u dear ..but when u r bk k?now u haf a lot to share w me oso!!so here it goes...

When there was me and you..

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

moodless

was in a rather good n relaxed mood minutes ago till my mum the 'nagging machine' started again!yes!yet again..ISt target: daddy 2nd target: me, reason relating to contributions me hafta gif when i grad again 3rd target: my sis, reason for trying to stand up for me. poor ger..thanks for trying to speak up for me but in the end ganna scolded as well:( poor thing!next time jus keep quiet lyk me n jus ren!!
mb ive made the right decision to keep my room in hall..at least me can haf some peace..yes some peace..contemplating to continue next sem given my situation mb even if i gt into NIE?i dunno..jus so tired of hearing everything again n again..repeatedly..everytime im home every weekend..thot supposed to be the opposite?supposed to show more concern? vexed..

exams cming..stressed so stressed..betta start..else cfm die!fortunately dere r tests cming up so at least can force me to study now!!yah!NOW!
its off to Mac with huishan n mug again!miss mugging w u!!haha

tmrs gonna wake up early to read 304 text..den back to sch den off to MOE den back to hall again..all the travelling..sighh..but nvm

looking fwd to fri cox gg out w von!hey babe!jus read ya latest entry!heehee..yah shpping w u is so fun ya?a bit ge xi if we cn haf lunch me can intro u to miss clarity near ur sch!!haha..gd place rec by yanshan:) nvm next time yeah? ill promise to org an outing w u to celeb ur bdae!n we will wait for u weilin!!LIN U SEE THIS??WE WILL WAIT FOR U TO COME BACK!!4TH JAN!!yeS!!celeb w U!though it will be ard 5 weeks late!hey to tink of it u will be bk soon ger!looking fwd!heh ger on a spending spree ahs?wah..so jealous cnt wait to go on my taiwan trip w shanx n meimei next june..woohoo..grad will hafta be postphoned cox gg to wait for von so we can visit darius n clarence in LONDON!wah!!dat will be in UK!!okie dat means save save save!!my NIE pay if im in!if not den hmm..die lors! heehee good den can go visit london bridge, UCL and hmm..wads darius' uni ahs?ooopss!cant wait..we will b 22/23?alas!cant believe!dun wanna believe

slpyhead's turning in..zzzzzz

ohh..fd out whus he alr..so sweet..yah thanks!nice little 'surprise':)

secret..admirer?

these pics r frm mel's blog! us at waraku!!:):):)


2nd post for today..slpy my eyes r veri dry:( tink its cos of the stupid haze:( sians!so warm outside:( so now im seated comfortably on my chair enjoying the aircon n yah gg to pia my 206 proj n pres tonight!!urghh..jus so feel lyk concussing but gtta wait for my hair to dry:P

was telling mel bt danny's engine fraN..getting a bit weird n mes gg to be on guard..in my defensive gear!haha..hopefully he doesnt try to whine to be abt how sad he is!scary:(

was greeted by a little but nice surprise this morn cox deres a mini stalk of pink rose stuck to the door..my meighbours haf them as well:) so nice to see sth so sweet earli in the morn..thot its frm the hall's welfare com to wish us good luck for exams or sth..so din bother
when me was bk deniece screamed across n happily told me tt its frm 'my bf'..hmmm..first thing first!me dun even haf a BF!not even close to anione to start ani rumours!2nd: third yr alr whu will care bt the lao zao bo?freshies first wads!so cannot be..asked daph she refused to tell me oso!haha..best lorhs!hey this is called fran?den she said hes a good catch..haha..ellos!ger ah if dat helps..wadever..but mes interested to find out whu!!jus tell me whu!!!haha..n mummy was lyk dun shout so loudly jux cox u haf a bf lehs!wah!stunned!dunno wads happening mans!haha..i wanna noe whu!!!haha

today's lunch was alritex..as funny as ever..as crappy as ever..its bt progression..i can see..doing well n perform is the priority..a pity tt its aint really wad ya wan..so sad..forcing urself?mb frm my viewpt..its hard but it aint formidable for u..wishing u well.
kill me for eating the meat mans..jus kill me!but thanks..jus saeing thanks
(heyhey pls dun reveal whus whu yeah?thanks..jus needing a little space, a little privacy..a little understanding..stay hush hush k:)thanks peeps)

thy limit is my limit

back in hall on a lazy monday mon..dreading the day's lessons at 1030 ltr..wanted to cm bk ytd but jus cant bear to drag myself back to sch..so in the end stayed at home gave tuition..first time gifing 2 tuitions at home!!bestbest!!haha..good money no transport costs at all..den finished up 306 chapter 7 n prep for todays auditing class!so this week starts again..sighh..gtta focus on the coming 2 tests n 2 presentation..boo:(

had a fulfilling weekend last fri n sat!!tok bt sat first!!

me n my dearest sweetest n telepathic zuzu--von went to the super hyped-up n highly publicised VIVO CITY!!yeah!!was telling her tt we can be counted as one of the many early birds to visit the MEGA shopping paradise!haha..cfm!!so big jus so big..all the stores some cn be fd in orchard..lyk dah!!r jus crazily humongous!wah..ranging frm forever 21 topshop espirit n to the me-cant-afford GAP!woohoo!jus so marvellous sia!haha..as a shopaholic cox me was super duper thrilled..plus the crowd was lyk wow..real surprised tt they were so many pple tt we were stuck at the mrt gantry!pengs n our dearest von gt so so excited tt she took out her cameo n started snapping pics of the 'SCENE'..haha..me fd out the STOMP add alr ger!!
yah we were so pleased w our buyings tt day!went to the mega espirit shp n cox von was gtting a lipstick for her aunt so we hanged ard the red earth counter..haha..wah..n then whu noes!!we spent 72 ++ on makeup!!haha..zuzu bought a sweet pink blusher n the lipstick whilst me still hafing my eye colour craze bot an orange n green eye shadow plus a pretty glitter powder!heehee..spent lyk at least an hr trying on and stuff..so pleased yea?we cfm had fun..after tt headed to twn cox von din managed to gt a wallet for her frans 21st..so in the end were at taka n she bot an ELLE blue wallet!not bad..the lady was super friendly..haha..gt 20% disct somemore..gd buy ya? walked ard n von finally bot the oriental slipper frm URS!gd gd wear this fri yeah?
great!we r mtg up to go bugis this fri..1st it will be movie at cathay cineplex den bugis!haha..gd gd..hopefully we cn find ya dress yea?n me shal gt mine so when we meeet to celeb ur bdae after exams we will be all clad in pretty princessy dresses!yahyah..n our beautiful makeup k?haha..so we mus find a fine rest. to be served!haha..so excited!!ger im so looking fwd!!!:):)
there r 3 veri important bdaes cming up suppose to be 4 but lin aint ard!!so outstding ive von's shan's and charmaine's!n my fav. festival!CHRISTMAS!!caroling n of cox xmas meetups n dinners!woohoo..hmm..saving up for a lot of things..of cox gifts lahs!first yr gifing xmas prezzies..so exciting!!
noeing my limits..sm things its tough to ctrl but i guess its alright..doesnt mean anything jus means care n happiness..tink its alritex:)yah its alritex:)

fri: our OG+CGL yongxiang+iris+kangjian+edmund went place waraku tgt to celeb huishans bdae!!heehee..me suggested the place!cfm!!cox its my FAV jap restaurant in town!the sashimi is quite cheap after asking iris jus now!great!i shall order the next time!heehee great idea iris!find a day we cn jio a few more peeps to go for kuishin bowl's buffet!!woohoo..i like jap!i like korean's as well!!hee
after dat we went KTV at chinatwn!mel n xiaohan went too!both of them nv sing:( fun fun!yah mel now ya noe y i was saeing yxs good!haha..sang till ard 2+ den yx drove us home in his SUV..such a big family car! comfy:)good for large grp outings:) surprisingly he remembered the way w/o me guiding him..wah impressed by his mega memory!haha//a veri gentlemanly senior indeed even offered to walk me to the lift by tt time it was alr 3 plus..these r the many little things to impress a ger sia!at least for me!haha..oopps!well was so tired after tt n jus concussed!final verdict: FUN(minus away the stupid 206 quiz which dampened my mood a bit:()

suppose to be aslp at 1045pm ytd in the end cox my sis n mum were watching pirnncess hrs esp the last 2 discs me jus cldnt bear to miss!!so stayed up till 1240am?so sorrie tt me din go online..yah
so touching so touching..sighh..it ended well or shld i sae expected..emotionally touched by wad the prince did..hey meimei..dun pretend u din cry okie?haha..caught u!!everytime laugh at me n mei..ytd u did too lorhs!!haha..best!wonder the no. of sheets of tissue we used..haha..so paiseh so old alr still lidat but wad to do?so touching so sweet so lovely!but in reality none of this will happen!whu in wrld will be so lucky to be picked to be a crown princess jus lidat!moreover, this is spore sia!where gt this kinda of things..unless its britain, japan, korea?
i mus realli commend on the outfits of the princess!best!she was nv dressed in the same dress/clothes twice!n dey were jus so so prrrrerrrrrtttyyyy!!!!!!!!!wah!!so jealous sia!n shes so sweet!!!

hmm..betta go read up on my case for 206 pres on thurs den the day will start again!sian dun feel lyk gg for 306 lect but its mon!once a week..treasure the short time..yah treasuring bfore its gone:)

korean korean korean!!

its been a few days' since ive last updated cox im totally engrossed in GOONG!PRINCESS HOURS!woohoo!!haha
of cox apart frm tt busy w tmr's 206 quiz n todays 306 killer pres..phew finally the most dreaded pres for this sem is OVER!!haha..stumbled cox was too seh till the end..aiyos where gt peep present for half hr one?cant conc animore mans..oh well its OVER!!n im glad cfm!!

tmrs quiz..sian..not totally prepared n me skipped 2 sems for auditing!pengs..but well its still within my targetted 2 sems per sem of skipping!haha

im in luf w goong..same as other idol drama..but this is in korean!haha..gt eng sub..still its quite alritex..i like the modern clothes worn by the actresses..so pretty esp by the princess!so princessy!!shes so pretty!n shes onli 22 in reality..wah..so nice to be able to act yea?but i can vouch tt acting is not joke all the stress bt memorising n stuff esp when u haf to rehearse n co-ord w ur partners..its nice when u watch but the amt of hard wrk n effort is immenwse!!really.. so sad me wun be acting next yr cox next yrs hall's production aint gg ti be a drama..nonetheless me was veri glad tt me had the experience of gg on stage n danced acted sang bfore..though 2 yrs aint long but im veri proud of myself for doing so..n thankful to my pals whu supported me for the past 2 SPs perf!!esp my council frans whu went for 2 consec yrs!!thanks alot dudes n babies!!

was quite entertained in the afternn as i was chatting to this freshie online..hes thomas..act. shldnt sae hes a freshie cos he aint frm NBS n he crashed into our OG last yr..so ya..anw he was so entertaining..bothered to play alg..haha..addressed me as princess joleen..haha..no one has played alg so well bfore..hmm..okie gt a few lahs..but he was the most gungho!!haha..i knew he wld ask whus my prince n stuff..yeah..cos he asked bfore..sian..so told him no prince lahs..so funnie..
cant understd y pple always haf e impression tt im attached..pengs..dun lehs..so stressful sia..den dey will start asking bt this n tt..like wad r my criteria etc..aiyos spare me can?hahs
looking fwd to tmr n sat!yeah!!aft celeb. shans bdae gg KTV yeah!!thanks danny for booking the rm!!i wanna sing bei feng chui guo de xia tian w yx!!heehee..he cn harmonise well!!!goodgood!!heehee
den its vivocity on sat w my dearest n sweetest zuzu!!!yeah!!so sun shall stay home n mug for next weeks stuff..okok..betta go nap awhile den wake up to try the quiz qnsn revise..concussed!!

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