din actually wanna come online
its cox me wanna blog..cnt figure some stuff.blogging wun help much, at least its a way to offload wads in my mind
HYPOCRISY
its a wrld of hypocrisy. be it deliberate or not, i m not cut of to be living in this kinda wrld.
jus when i was bt to change my impression of her. she shwed her dark side again..its realli so sickening!yah..blame it all on me..'jus an intern' i guess..i dun give a damn man!
i cnt understd y its so difficult to jus smile n not ignore pple..even a simple wrd lyk 'hello' or 'bye' do not even cost anything!its free!cmon lahs..lyk wad ive mentioned..no EQ no PR skills den y call urself a manager?are we all living behind our own masks?i guess we all do..i dun deny cox i mus agree that i do some time as well. however, i swear dat its lyk less than 5% in my life.
making use of me to wrk when senior was busy..bother to check on me when u nid stuf urgently..trying to sd nice when u nid me..im jus trying to be respectful thus me BOTHERED to smile at u sae bye to u..u tink ill do dat if u werent e mentor? cmon!im not so thick-skin k? noeing roughly wad kinda person u r..me wun be bothered to exert that little negligible energy on u..alas!will this 5 days pass quickly pls!n dats not the end!me hafta wear this mask to gt my report done bfore im done with her!
REPENTANT?
im stressed?but y? cun be!cox no sch, no exams, jus wrk everyday..n im STRESSED?or m i jus simply tired?
its been so long since ive been real rude to my mum..she nagged at the nitty gritties..this time rd over some droplets of water which she accused ive flinged onto the floor!wad the!i cun stand it!i screamed back at her..i cun control!my threshold is usually high..jus let her nag n whether it goes in its another matter.dats one reason y hall is a better place. yet i will miss home.issit cox of her hafing menopuase?or issit me?hafing PMS?i dunno..i noe i was rude.i jus dun wanna sae sorry.being in a rather traditional family its not common to do so..i hate being accused n esp when i feel its jus so ridiculous!wads up w a few droplets of water?alas!its an outburst which wasnt deliberate i guess
melancholy
am i drifting into melancholy? hate to haf this feeling..reaching this stage in life really suxs!deciding my career choice?wondering wads up w everything..suddenly realising the urge that ive to contribute to my family to support my family so dat dad wun be the sole breadwinner.if i were to sae im stressed..my daddy is cfm worse xinfinity!yrs of hard wrk..ive seen him aged alot..i saw his grey hair dat dae..i feel bad. im always proud to let pple noe that im paying for my own hostel fees..my own stuff..i do draw little allowance frm my daddy's salary..dats y mes more or less financially independant.dats one thing but i aint good enuff. deres so much more that ive gtta do.mb this is y i cant wait to earn big bucks!i dunno hw?i hate wrking for pple..i hate the rigid org. structure..i hate it when ive to accept sth cox ive no choice or cox 'i dun mind cox im used to it' this is not wad i wan in life! this wrld is not perfect im aint perfect either..i cnt gt the best of both world.n i noe.
love
watched the channel u shw again..so sweet to haf someone trying hard to fulfill the promise which he had made when he was a kid.the ger acted well..i hate her for trying to break the 'prince' and 'princess' up..the scheming behind it and stuff. luckily the 'prince' is well aware of her ploy..having 2 guys to fight over u..wads the feeling? me tink it will realli be a tough decision to make esp when one is ur childhood prince n another ur childhood playmate whu has been secretly in love w u. tell me hw she shld choose?both r good lookers, one is damn rich n accomplised. e other acted as the support..quietly helping her, a violin genius. tell me hw the story shld end?
i tink she shld live happily ever after w her prince cox prince r meant for princess.yet me noe the other will be devastated..the other haf wasted his time on u..my fran once told me that the guy wun be tinking this way cox she lufs u n tink its worth it. i dunno hw true. if the princess aint gg to be w the prince den it wun be a perfect story alr..well i do expect the former to be the ending.
in life its not so simple i guess.since when will someone b so 'lucky' to haf 2 boys gg gaga over u? fighting over u?guess u wun be happy either.hafing to make a decision which will hurt the other party. mb u wun even wanna k a decision!
its a cliche story but ill still catch it.
my mood is down today.hopfully it will gt better tmr..gg to meet yanshan at 11 for mango sale..hafing a feeling dat its gg be a retail therapy again!haf been buying things every week..wasting money?yah maybe..its retail therapy..tmr still haf to gif tuition..haha..at least some inflow to compensate for my outflow.
shall slp now
timecheck:1059pm
Friday, June 23, 2006
Thursday, June 22, 2006
love is not simply jus MCQ
my lappie is gifing me problems!hopefully me cn finiah this entry bfore any tricks occur again!sighh
'love is not simply jus MCQ'
'i will use my life to protect u forever'
these r the two phrases which ive picked up frm the channel u shw this evening..a taiwanese shw i guess..there were childhood frans n de guy promised the gal dat he will be her prince william forever..how sweet!
in real life nothing lyk this will happen..n i really MEAN NO ONE!dats y watching such dramas is jus so lame..for pple lyk me whu r so free yeah?so wad?i tink dey r so romantic..nvm im a dreamer..full of imagination..so u noe wads up w my nick?princess?yah its an imagination..noeing i cnt be a princess..never!
ill gt a makeover dis cming hall's dnd!yah dat means i mus scrimp n save for jus dat night..dat few hrs!but its all in the name of FUN!yah..a nice hairdo a cool mkup a beautiful dress and ill tk loads of photos!haha..feels lyk prom!its gonna feel so real since im in my fianl yr..uni no prom so dnd will be the substitute
my mum is so weird..was telling her that my senior manager is veri nice n she immediately asked if its a HE/SHE!OLD/YOUNG!haha..mummy..oh my!wad r u tinking bt?its a HE!hes in his early 30s n nice..n dats all!oh pls..mummy u n ur funny thots!its nt the first time shes asking hw yg or old..my mummy ahs..
i always feel blessed cox i believe im surrounded by many nice n helpful pple..definition of nice?i dunno..ive a high threshold for alot of things..or shld i sae ive a high tolerance level..if i sae i dun lyk u den most likely u r a gonner!dats it!i seldom hate a person..i dun..its better to haf another fran den an additional foe..im easily satislfied..easily pleased and contented ger mb dats y i feel rather depressed when me dun gt appreciated or sth. i dunno..i live by this motto: u gt treated the wae u treat others
was reading a fran's blog. such a co-incidence..the latest one was bt love as well..haha..he blogged bt gers behaving similarly as guys..esp when it cmes to luf..being sweet to their ex n their future steads..doing the sm n saing the sm sweet things to their past n future beaus..haha..i agree n me dun deny dat ive frans whu r lyk this..hes one i guess
as for me?me can haf frans whu r lyk this but this is their private life ive no rights to interfere n mes nt so nosey to want to be involved..its a personal preference to haf multi-bfs/gfs?sometimes i believe its jus fate..yah tricked n fooled by fate
i choose not to follow the crowd..i noe wad i want..my vision is clean..my mind is conscious..i noe wads right wads wrong..i noe wad cn work out n wad cant..i dun wanna waste time n waste others time..i dunno if these attitudes r correct but again i choose to live by these
guess its becox i hate to be led by the nose be it at wrk, in sch or wadsoever..being a leader for close to 7 yrs..i cnt help but wanna go against everything im uncomfortable with..of cox me noe my limits..
mb these had caused hurt to some..wad i can see is 'sorry'
lyk ive mentioned dun ask me y i noe..i jus tink its impossible n pls dun try to mk me hurt u deeper by repeating myself..im picky?ive stoned?im cold?wad ever u sae..
nv in love..only crashes..dunno wads this four letter wrd is about..guess its a candy in disguise..basing on hw u choose to chew this candy can turn into a caramel chocolate..it can result into a dark chocolate or even jus a white chocolate
my 'prince' will gt all my attention i guess..my care my concern..tink its bt gifing my best putting in my heart my soul..likened to my attitude in other arenas me noe my sturbborness, my determination may not gt me anywhere
waiting is the word for now..chances n opportunities
hating my sensual self
'love is not simply jus MCQ'
'i will use my life to protect u forever'
these r the two phrases which ive picked up frm the channel u shw this evening..a taiwanese shw i guess..there were childhood frans n de guy promised the gal dat he will be her prince william forever..how sweet!
in real life nothing lyk this will happen..n i really MEAN NO ONE!dats y watching such dramas is jus so lame..for pple lyk me whu r so free yeah?so wad?i tink dey r so romantic..nvm im a dreamer..full of imagination..so u noe wads up w my nick?princess?yah its an imagination..noeing i cnt be a princess..never!
ill gt a makeover dis cming hall's dnd!yah dat means i mus scrimp n save for jus dat night..dat few hrs!but its all in the name of FUN!yah..a nice hairdo a cool mkup a beautiful dress and ill tk loads of photos!haha..feels lyk prom!its gonna feel so real since im in my fianl yr..uni no prom so dnd will be the substitute
my mum is so weird..was telling her that my senior manager is veri nice n she immediately asked if its a HE/SHE!OLD/YOUNG!haha..mummy..oh my!wad r u tinking bt?its a HE!hes in his early 30s n nice..n dats all!oh pls..mummy u n ur funny thots!its nt the first time shes asking hw yg or old..my mummy ahs..
i always feel blessed cox i believe im surrounded by many nice n helpful pple..definition of nice?i dunno..ive a high threshold for alot of things..or shld i sae ive a high tolerance level..if i sae i dun lyk u den most likely u r a gonner!dats it!i seldom hate a person..i dun..its better to haf another fran den an additional foe..im easily satislfied..easily pleased and contented ger mb dats y i feel rather depressed when me dun gt appreciated or sth. i dunno..i live by this motto: u gt treated the wae u treat others
was reading a fran's blog. such a co-incidence..the latest one was bt love as well..haha..he blogged bt gers behaving similarly as guys..esp when it cmes to luf..being sweet to their ex n their future steads..doing the sm n saing the sm sweet things to their past n future beaus..haha..i agree n me dun deny dat ive frans whu r lyk this..hes one i guess
as for me?me can haf frans whu r lyk this but this is their private life ive no rights to interfere n mes nt so nosey to want to be involved..its a personal preference to haf multi-bfs/gfs?sometimes i believe its jus fate..yah tricked n fooled by fate
i choose not to follow the crowd..i noe wad i want..my vision is clean..my mind is conscious..i noe wads right wads wrong..i noe wad cn work out n wad cant..i dun wanna waste time n waste others time..i dunno if these attitudes r correct but again i choose to live by these
guess its becox i hate to be led by the nose be it at wrk, in sch or wadsoever..being a leader for close to 7 yrs..i cnt help but wanna go against everything im uncomfortable with..of cox me noe my limits..
mb these had caused hurt to some..wad i can see is 'sorry'
lyk ive mentioned dun ask me y i noe..i jus tink its impossible n pls dun try to mk me hurt u deeper by repeating myself..im picky?ive stoned?im cold?wad ever u sae..
nv in love..only crashes..dunno wads this four letter wrd is about..guess its a candy in disguise..basing on hw u choose to chew this candy can turn into a caramel chocolate..it can result into a dark chocolate or even jus a white chocolate
my 'prince' will gt all my attention i guess..my care my concern..tink its bt gifing my best putting in my heart my soul..likened to my attitude in other arenas me noe my sturbborness, my determination may not gt me anywhere
waiting is the word for now..chances n opportunities
hating my sensual self
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
StoRies
everyone lives and when we live, we spin our own stories
stories which reflect happiness, pleasing, memorable moments that we yearn to keep
stories which involve anger
stories which are repetitive and
stories which are painful, which hurt..we wish we can forget
weaving my story daily..every single moment..every single second..
every step i take it's part of my story
every passed second equates to one second less in my life
one less entry in my life
thy story is inspirational
im touched
nv expect the ending which seems to be nv ending
living hell i guess
looking back is nice
looking back brings memories
looking back is sweet
looking back brings pain
it is this pain that mkes us wanna suffer
suffer quietly n wlllingly
this pain which we refuse to admit to regret
reality rules the past
wads past cant be relived
wads past cant be w us animore
wads done cnt be undone
living in wads done, living in memories wards off reality
however, reality still reigns
choosing to turn back against this past is difficult
its tedious
it seems impossible
wanna let the past go but the past doesnt wanna us go
does it mean when its gone..its really gone?
gone with the wind?
its a choice remember!
its a difficult choice
we r the scripwriters
we r our playwrights
we r one another story writers
most importantly, u r my novel writer
my novel writer who crafted the bulk of my story
my novel writer who impacted me the most
my novel writer who took me so far
my novel writer who formed my smiles, my cries, my hate, my love
my novel writer who becomes jus another normal companion
the novel writer who gradually fades away from being my novel writer
not wishing u to be part of my novel writer again
u hafta go craft someone's story..
u contribution to my story had ceased and shld ceased
i thank u sincerely for being a contributor
i thank u for those moments
i THANK YOU TRUly
if ya r reading fran, this entry is urs
gtta noe a little better
hafing a habit to worry for frans
hoping everyday is a new dae for all of us
my frans u hafta be happy
my frans rem, stories once written r hard to erase
every step we tk, every thing we do etches our story
my story, ur story, our story
stories which reflect happiness, pleasing, memorable moments that we yearn to keep
stories which involve anger
stories which are repetitive and
stories which are painful, which hurt..we wish we can forget
weaving my story daily..every single moment..every single second..
every step i take it's part of my story
every passed second equates to one second less in my life
one less entry in my life
thy story is inspirational
im touched
nv expect the ending which seems to be nv ending
living hell i guess
looking back is nice
looking back brings memories
looking back is sweet
looking back brings pain
it is this pain that mkes us wanna suffer
suffer quietly n wlllingly
this pain which we refuse to admit to regret
reality rules the past
wads past cant be relived
wads past cant be w us animore
wads done cnt be undone
living in wads done, living in memories wards off reality
however, reality still reigns
choosing to turn back against this past is difficult
its tedious
it seems impossible
wanna let the past go but the past doesnt wanna us go
does it mean when its gone..its really gone?
gone with the wind?
its a choice remember!
its a difficult choice
we r the scripwriters
we r our playwrights
we r one another story writers
most importantly, u r my novel writer
my novel writer who crafted the bulk of my story
my novel writer who impacted me the most
my novel writer who took me so far
my novel writer who formed my smiles, my cries, my hate, my love
my novel writer who becomes jus another normal companion
the novel writer who gradually fades away from being my novel writer
not wishing u to be part of my novel writer again
u hafta go craft someone's story..
u contribution to my story had ceased and shld ceased
i thank u sincerely for being a contributor
i thank u for those moments
i THANK YOU TRUly
if ya r reading fran, this entry is urs
gtta noe a little better
hafing a habit to worry for frans
hoping everyday is a new dae for all of us
my frans u hafta be happy
my frans rem, stories once written r hard to erase
every step we tk, every thing we do etches our story
my story, ur story, our story
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
appalled..but thank you!
i was taken aback ytd..not when he said dat he walked to SAO frm hall to help me pay the hostel application fees. i was embarrassed.tinking dat he had lesson dat dae..he din go in the end..not cox of paying of cox its cox he usually skip classes..mb dats y he gtta retake 3 modules again..heh! uve gt the potential!n uve gtta believe it!
i wanna thank you!realli!!din noe u din drive dat dae..im veri grateful!
ytd we went to this chinese restaurant n paid 20 bucks for a buffet style chinese dinner..haha..as usual..there were more guys(12) den gals..haha..the hall guys r definitely a closer buch of peeps!watch dem haf fun realli feels good..mb dat will be the reason y i will miss hall life..it was great seeing the peeps..haha..celebrated denieces and chuan teck..
spent alot of money dese daes tking cab home..spent 8 bucks last sat tking cab home frm tings bdae..ytd oso..a little lesser..2.8 frm paya lebar mrt to my hse..im scared to walk home aln ..n it was only 1030pm..no lahs ill rather save less n trust my life to a cabby..last week too..cab n cab n cab..luckily dis week nt mtg anione..phew!onli zhiyu on sat when me wun be home after dark!
tink eventually taiwan trip may nt be realised..since no updates till now..its alritex i tink..i can use the $ to go for my photoshhot..fd one at millenia walk..looks pro!wah!but i wanna go slimming center oso!tinking of slimming santuary which is near my house..but dunno hw much..sighh..
its cming in a few mths..me n meimei have made a pact to train hard.. n me can expect to go k every other week!wah!i like it!ill rather shp less n entertain myself more!realli!!
sm times its getting a little lonely..cant always hang out with my frans cox of our differing lifestyles..sighh..now busy with PA..13 more days n dats it!fianlly!wanna slack..wanna blade..wanna swim..wanna slim down..aiyas me wanna do so many things!how how?
ya cming bk?i welcum u..welcuming qianyi!my hall mummy!haha..we've gtta spot all the good looking hall freshies yeah?haha..mummy..gt urself a daddy!haha..no one wanna be my daddy..haha..heh!guys out dere!my mummy aint bad okie!!jus a little loud!
next sem..im yr 3 alr..haha..still remembered mr yap my vj physics and CTC tutor saeing this: yr 1, u r a fresh flower which will attract lotsa bees. Yr 2: a fully bloomed flower, still attracting bees, yr 3(final yr): a dying flower, bees r starting to leave..haha..yah im gg to be yr 3!does it mean i belong to the 3rd category?haha..dying?
hmm..if i were to ans. my own question..haha..of cox not!definitely not dying!!bees leaving?ahha..i dun care!i wan BUTTERFLIES!haha..butterflies r so pretty..so beautiful!!even if dere aint any wadsoever flies..i dun care!a flower can still survive..of cox it gtta be a fake flower!haha..im crapping again..
i wanna thank you!realli!!din noe u din drive dat dae..im veri grateful!
ytd we went to this chinese restaurant n paid 20 bucks for a buffet style chinese dinner..haha..as usual..there were more guys(12) den gals..haha..the hall guys r definitely a closer buch of peeps!watch dem haf fun realli feels good..mb dat will be the reason y i will miss hall life..it was great seeing the peeps..haha..celebrated denieces and chuan teck..
spent alot of money dese daes tking cab home..spent 8 bucks last sat tking cab home frm tings bdae..ytd oso..a little lesser..2.8 frm paya lebar mrt to my hse..im scared to walk home aln ..n it was only 1030pm..no lahs ill rather save less n trust my life to a cabby..last week too..cab n cab n cab..luckily dis week nt mtg anione..phew!onli zhiyu on sat when me wun be home after dark!
tink eventually taiwan trip may nt be realised..since no updates till now..its alritex i tink..i can use the $ to go for my photoshhot..fd one at millenia walk..looks pro!wah!but i wanna go slimming center oso!tinking of slimming santuary which is near my house..but dunno hw much..sighh..
its cming in a few mths..me n meimei have made a pact to train hard.. n me can expect to go k every other week!wah!i like it!ill rather shp less n entertain myself more!realli!!
sm times its getting a little lonely..cant always hang out with my frans cox of our differing lifestyles..sighh..now busy with PA..13 more days n dats it!fianlly!wanna slack..wanna blade..wanna swim..wanna slim down..aiyas me wanna do so many things!how how?
ya cming bk?i welcum u..welcuming qianyi!my hall mummy!haha..we've gtta spot all the good looking hall freshies yeah?haha..mummy..gt urself a daddy!haha..no one wanna be my daddy..haha..heh!guys out dere!my mummy aint bad okie!!jus a little loud!
next sem..im yr 3 alr..haha..still remembered mr yap my vj physics and CTC tutor saeing this: yr 1, u r a fresh flower which will attract lotsa bees. Yr 2: a fully bloomed flower, still attracting bees, yr 3(final yr): a dying flower, bees r starting to leave..haha..yah im gg to be yr 3!does it mean i belong to the 3rd category?haha..dying?
hmm..if i were to ans. my own question..haha..of cox not!definitely not dying!!bees leaving?ahha..i dun care!i wan BUTTERFLIES!haha..butterflies r so pretty..so beautiful!!even if dere aint any wadsoever flies..i dun care!a flower can still survive..of cox it gtta be a fake flower!haha..im crapping again..
Sunday, June 11, 2006
tingx party!!
ytd went to our beloved, pretty, sweety, deary TINGX's 21st Birthday PARTY!
haha..was at her sis' condo at river valley road..Nathan ville!haha..me n shanx had a little prob finding though
ytd woke up at 7am gave tuition den met up with ys in twn to finish up our TUTORIALs!!--the 2 pieces of artwork!!!haha..finished the skeleton at home n pasted the pics n designs at the taka's coffeebean..gt chased away after spending lyk 3hrs dere..quite paiseh leh..den afterdat went to gt the prezzies n went to heerens spinelli to finish up wadever we had to!haha..so funnie lahs..we were rushing for time..dats y we were late tingx!haha..even thot charmx wld reach earlier than us!luckily nver!!!!
it drizzled a little n tingx our beloved host was hurrying us to makan!ahaha..the food was thai frm SIAM kitchen..the salad was good and the beehoon!haha..saw jacelyn, sugui n yinbing wif her bf..haha..so long nv see one another alr but we still cld click n crap as usual!dats good!!we managed to entertain ourselves whilst our tingx was busy entertaining her frans..haha..
tings!u best lorhs nv entertain us!haha..jus joking lahs..so shou alr..tink u r so sick of us alr!haha..but we enjoyed ourselves though!angry lehs.wanteed to ask dew dey all to help throw u into the water!!haha..joking joking!!heehee
the tiramusi cake was great!was alr melting lyk dunno wad when we were cutting n distributing..so the looks of it was rather unglam..haha..its lyk melted...hmm..better not describe ani further!
hey ger ah!hope u realli lyk the prezzie yeah?me n shanx do the 2 tutorials till we wanna pengx haha..esp cutting the stars..was hoping we have the stencil sia!haha..but the end products?were FABULOUS of cox!!heh!frm us lehs..of cox of the highest quality lorhs!!!haha..
quite fun doing though..but wun be doing one in the near future yeah
tmr is gg to be exciting cox gg to meet up with my hall seniors n hall peeps..its gonna be loads of pple!heehee..
n tues mb sending charmx off n celebrating her bdae befor heading to the office..sianz!its yet another week!but im looking fwd to next sat alr!cox gg to meet zhiyu!!!!haha..n its the 6th week!aft dis then 2 more weeks!!!haha..lalala..
okok..gtta go prep for tuition at 2 alr..haha
lastly, wanna wish charmx n tingx:HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DEARIES!!STAY SWEET,PRETTY AND HAPPY yeah?HUGGXS!!well next will be yanshan alr!!!haha
haha..was at her sis' condo at river valley road..Nathan ville!haha..me n shanx had a little prob finding though
ytd woke up at 7am gave tuition den met up with ys in twn to finish up our TUTORIALs!!--the 2 pieces of artwork!!!haha..finished the skeleton at home n pasted the pics n designs at the taka's coffeebean..gt chased away after spending lyk 3hrs dere..quite paiseh leh..den afterdat went to gt the prezzies n went to heerens spinelli to finish up wadever we had to!haha..so funnie lahs..we were rushing for time..dats y we were late tingx!haha..even thot charmx wld reach earlier than us!luckily nver!!!!
it drizzled a little n tingx our beloved host was hurrying us to makan!ahaha..the food was thai frm SIAM kitchen..the salad was good and the beehoon!haha..saw jacelyn, sugui n yinbing wif her bf..haha..so long nv see one another alr but we still cld click n crap as usual!dats good!!we managed to entertain ourselves whilst our tingx was busy entertaining her frans..haha..
tings!u best lorhs nv entertain us!haha..jus joking lahs..so shou alr..tink u r so sick of us alr!haha..but we enjoyed ourselves though!angry lehs.wanteed to ask dew dey all to help throw u into the water!!haha..joking joking!!heehee
the tiramusi cake was great!was alr melting lyk dunno wad when we were cutting n distributing..so the looks of it was rather unglam..haha..its lyk melted...hmm..better not describe ani further!
hey ger ah!hope u realli lyk the prezzie yeah?me n shanx do the 2 tutorials till we wanna pengx haha..esp cutting the stars..was hoping we have the stencil sia!haha..but the end products?were FABULOUS of cox!!heh!frm us lehs..of cox of the highest quality lorhs!!!haha..
quite fun doing though..but wun be doing one in the near future yeah
tmr is gg to be exciting cox gg to meet up with my hall seniors n hall peeps..its gonna be loads of pple!heehee..
n tues mb sending charmx off n celebrating her bdae befor heading to the office..sianz!its yet another week!but im looking fwd to next sat alr!cox gg to meet zhiyu!!!!haha..n its the 6th week!aft dis then 2 more weeks!!!haha..lalala..
okok..gtta go prep for tuition at 2 alr..haha
lastly, wanna wish charmx n tingx:HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DEARIES!!STAY SWEET,PRETTY AND HAPPY yeah?HUGGXS!!well next will be yanshan alr!!!haha
Friday, June 09, 2006
fees!!urghh!
re-read the stupid email from office of finance..n jus when i thot ive cleared all my DEBTS..i realised i still owed them $ for school fees!urgghh..wad fuelled my anger even further is the email stating dat ive to pay $320 of hostel acceptance fees n have to stay for a minimum of 2 mths cox bfore dat i wun gt my refund!!
this is super shitty lahs..damn!!all my saving up plans r gone!!shoosh!i wnna move out oso cannt!!wah the hell mans!!n i cant view my results cox me still owe them money!!alas!if only me cn jus drp by sch n pay all that they want!!all at once!!im super duper zuper PISSED!so pISSED dat i can jus spill out FIRE!i jus cant stp cursing lahs!!yucks!!
but whus to blame?of cox its myself lahs..whu ask me nt to pay on time?too bad..i dun pity myself..hw to pay so much at one go?its lyk hell lahs!as if im printing money!i jus hope that i could turn bk the time n chosen nt to stay in hall..nt to be in JCRC..den deres no nid for me to incur so much..so much of my time...my money!!damn wasteful!!urghh..ive to pay everything on my own..with my miserable amt of tuition fees..n once its used to pay for hostel im broke!!nw? asking me to pay 390 for may n june hols when im nt even staying..im alr bu gan yuan!n u dare send me another mail asking me to pay acceptance fee of 320?hey!go to hell mans!i dun haf money lahs!!!urghh!jus feel lyk jus cancelling sia!!!i cant stp staying after a mth which i planned to..ive gtten stay for 2 mths at least
do i really haf no choice?can i dun stay for even a mth?i dunno the answer..im really vexed!sighh..
dat dae when we went shpping, felix said im conflicting myself..its true that i will miss the pple..on the other hand im tired i wanna go home..yah i jus laughed it off..i did..im afraid of loneliness..the initial fun which i had when i entered in yr 1 was no longer dere..im afraid of loneliness in hall..alone in the single room..it aint stuffy cox of the aircon..the wind..but the feeling of being inside is driving me crazy..i cant breathe..i dunno y..mb its psychological..mb its all in the mind..i really aint sure..its bad..my wrld seems to be crumbling down again..its nt even the start of sch n im feeling this way..this is really bad..
ive been thinking alot recently..but i dun gt it..y is life so unfair..no one is perfect..dats y ive imperfections too..but i aint satisfied..i wanna be the perfect one..i noe i cant..I CAN'T..its impossible i noe..BUT I JUS TINK ITS POSSIBLE!
im stubborn!veri n i mus tell u!the important wrd is VERY!
as i grow older i realised im gtting more n more depressed bt my life n the outlook of it...i jus seem to be comfortable wif wad i haf..i cant stay put on sth..im nt as happy or happy-go-lucky as wad i used to be..i simply cant!ive become a stranger to myself..sometimes i dun even noe whus joleen? seeming good on the outside..but u wun noe wad im tinking internally..nt in the negative wae i mean..as ones emotion will affect/infect others..i choose to affect my friends positively..wun want to ruin their days..
detesting myself for everything..hating myself for being bitchy..despising myself for being incapable..disliking myself for the failures..remorseful for being lousy..regretful over my choice..
is dere a wae to redeem myself?i feel as if im jus a nobody..a busybody..
im tired!exhausted!sleepy!i dun wanna tink..i dun wanna wrk!i refuse to face the reality..i hate being mean..simply cant stand this ger called Joleen..falling into depression for no good reason!yah no reason at all! i nid to see a psychiatrist i feel..haha..a physician wun help!
its nice to tok to u online..u still remembered the east coast hawker?haha..nt gifing u my blog add..cox u simply cant read..sorry for that..portraying a blissful ger..u noe nothing..wad u see is a shell carefully crafted n wrapped..its superficial at least to myself..hafing our own life is good!wishing u well though..dun ask me th things uve asked before..dun ask me y i dun gif the guys a chance..dun tell me nt to choose this n that..ur advices i do read..i gt it but before u mention..im well aware!well aware!unless u lemme go, unless u choose to let go..unless u tell me so..u can regard as wad uve regarded since 2 yrs ago?yah n dat was 2 yrs ago!dats fast..i will respond similarly too
heard a shocking news bt my sis' fran turning into a les..or is she a bi? i dunno..me nv ask..its jus so weird to hear this news when i was trying to rush off to wrk..for a while, i was made to think..r singles at this age always stray ,always choose the alternative?
yah i guess so
this is super shitty lahs..damn!!all my saving up plans r gone!!shoosh!i wnna move out oso cannt!!wah the hell mans!!n i cant view my results cox me still owe them money!!alas!if only me cn jus drp by sch n pay all that they want!!all at once!!im super duper zuper PISSED!so pISSED dat i can jus spill out FIRE!i jus cant stp cursing lahs!!yucks!!
but whus to blame?of cox its myself lahs..whu ask me nt to pay on time?too bad..i dun pity myself..hw to pay so much at one go?its lyk hell lahs!as if im printing money!i jus hope that i could turn bk the time n chosen nt to stay in hall..nt to be in JCRC..den deres no nid for me to incur so much..so much of my time...my money!!damn wasteful!!urghh..ive to pay everything on my own..with my miserable amt of tuition fees..n once its used to pay for hostel im broke!!nw? asking me to pay 390 for may n june hols when im nt even staying..im alr bu gan yuan!n u dare send me another mail asking me to pay acceptance fee of 320?hey!go to hell mans!i dun haf money lahs!!!urghh!jus feel lyk jus cancelling sia!!!i cant stp staying after a mth which i planned to..ive gtten stay for 2 mths at least
do i really haf no choice?can i dun stay for even a mth?i dunno the answer..im really vexed!sighh..
dat dae when we went shpping, felix said im conflicting myself..its true that i will miss the pple..on the other hand im tired i wanna go home..yah i jus laughed it off..i did..im afraid of loneliness..the initial fun which i had when i entered in yr 1 was no longer dere..im afraid of loneliness in hall..alone in the single room..it aint stuffy cox of the aircon..the wind..but the feeling of being inside is driving me crazy..i cant breathe..i dunno y..mb its psychological..mb its all in the mind..i really aint sure..its bad..my wrld seems to be crumbling down again..its nt even the start of sch n im feeling this way..this is really bad..
ive been thinking alot recently..but i dun gt it..y is life so unfair..no one is perfect..dats y ive imperfections too..but i aint satisfied..i wanna be the perfect one..i noe i cant..I CAN'T..its impossible i noe..BUT I JUS TINK ITS POSSIBLE!
im stubborn!veri n i mus tell u!the important wrd is VERY!
as i grow older i realised im gtting more n more depressed bt my life n the outlook of it...i jus seem to be comfortable wif wad i haf..i cant stay put on sth..im nt as happy or happy-go-lucky as wad i used to be..i simply cant!ive become a stranger to myself..sometimes i dun even noe whus joleen? seeming good on the outside..but u wun noe wad im tinking internally..nt in the negative wae i mean..as ones emotion will affect/infect others..i choose to affect my friends positively..wun want to ruin their days..
detesting myself for everything..hating myself for being bitchy..despising myself for being incapable..disliking myself for the failures..remorseful for being lousy..regretful over my choice..
is dere a wae to redeem myself?i feel as if im jus a nobody..a busybody..
im tired!exhausted!sleepy!i dun wanna tink..i dun wanna wrk!i refuse to face the reality..i hate being mean..simply cant stand this ger called Joleen..falling into depression for no good reason!yah no reason at all! i nid to see a psychiatrist i feel..haha..a physician wun help!
its nice to tok to u online..u still remembered the east coast hawker?haha..nt gifing u my blog add..cox u simply cant read..sorry for that..portraying a blissful ger..u noe nothing..wad u see is a shell carefully crafted n wrapped..its superficial at least to myself..hafing our own life is good!wishing u well though..dun ask me th things uve asked before..dun ask me y i dun gif the guys a chance..dun tell me nt to choose this n that..ur advices i do read..i gt it but before u mention..im well aware!well aware!unless u lemme go, unless u choose to let go..unless u tell me so..u can regard as wad uve regarded since 2 yrs ago?yah n dat was 2 yrs ago!dats fast..i will respond similarly too
heard a shocking news bt my sis' fran turning into a les..or is she a bi? i dunno..me nv ask..its jus so weird to hear this news when i was trying to rush off to wrk..for a while, i was made to think..r singles at this age always stray ,always choose the alternative?
yah i guess so
Saturday, June 03, 2006
cramped!
was actually in quite a good mood minutes ago..urghh..had a bicker w sis!sians..cant stand me?ellos!who cant std who ahs?urghh!
wadever!!!
was out since early afternn..was suppose to go for tuition at bedok but in the end he cancelled!haha..great!so i slept later n went out with sis to marina sq and spent the afternn at millenia walk..saw kelly poon n ho yao sun..haha..the sd system was lousy today..cant really hear wad they were singing..aiyas was there to pick up the prizws for gtting into the semis..was suppose to gt birkies and meet shan in orchard but in the end din cox not meeting shans so dun really wanna go to jus gt our birkies..haha..next thurs?shld be lahs..
these few days were spent at cityhall, marina sq area!wah its the 3rd day i was dere!thurs went waraku with shans tingx n charms..fri went shopping with felix followed by mtg up with weinee at changing appetite, marina sq n today with sis to shop!wah..seems lyk dere r a lot of things to do ritex?haha..mb..
ytd bought a top for 12.5 from ebase!haha..my fav colour again!pink diagonal strips with yellow!woohoo..today gt a yellow top from giodano..haha..but so cheap 10 onli!haha..cant spend alot!else will be broke at the beginning of the month!haha..
hey u see i aint a spendthrift k? n accompanied u to fox men hors n levis..still sae its cox of 'joleen's aura' that caused u to spend so much:( thanks lorhh..n whens KTV?haha..felt good ytd shopping n choosing guy's clothes cox seldom shop for guy's stuff..hey!c'mon lorhs ive gt good taste can?if not u wldnt haf bot the green polo tee n the red tee which ive selected!haha..n ill make sure u gt an orange one if deres a chance!dun wear jus blue, black n white k?take the brighter colours!example, the red, the orange the yellow!n i noe ill haf to kill u n mb even myself to ask u to wear pink!haha..so mb not pink at the moment!haha..n i dun care if ya lyk/dun lyk pink..i noe i luf PINK n no one is gonna stop me frm lyking the colour!even u!!looking forward to ladyhill n hillstreet's gathering!haha..fun i guess..
tinking of getting a skirt from m'phosis but 4o bucks!shud i gt?i feel lyk gtting so dat me cn be clad in it for tings bday dis sat!haa..mb its an excuse jus for me to buy it!!how how?:( tink colour is very important!the correct colour gifs luf, reflect the mood u r in, the personality etc. so from the choice of clothes u will gt to noe yeah?
as for me..if ya were to tk a peep into my cabinet..of cox its obvious that theres PINK!haha..no only PINK but SHOCKING PINK!!orange, yellow, purple, red are my colours!feeling great when im in the correct colours!haha..
tmr's gg to meet up with mel in town..haha..cant buy but jus to walk around after gifing tuition..me shant wear heels anymore..feet cramp!n its wrk on mon again!sians..its the 5th week n after which 3 more to go!!woohoo!!
wadever!!!
was out since early afternn..was suppose to go for tuition at bedok but in the end he cancelled!haha..great!so i slept later n went out with sis to marina sq and spent the afternn at millenia walk..saw kelly poon n ho yao sun..haha..the sd system was lousy today..cant really hear wad they were singing..aiyas was there to pick up the prizws for gtting into the semis..was suppose to gt birkies and meet shan in orchard but in the end din cox not meeting shans so dun really wanna go to jus gt our birkies..haha..next thurs?shld be lahs..
these few days were spent at cityhall, marina sq area!wah its the 3rd day i was dere!thurs went waraku with shans tingx n charms..fri went shopping with felix followed by mtg up with weinee at changing appetite, marina sq n today with sis to shop!wah..seems lyk dere r a lot of things to do ritex?haha..mb..
ytd bought a top for 12.5 from ebase!haha..my fav colour again!pink diagonal strips with yellow!woohoo..today gt a yellow top from giodano..haha..but so cheap 10 onli!haha..cant spend alot!else will be broke at the beginning of the month!haha..
hey u see i aint a spendthrift k? n accompanied u to fox men hors n levis..still sae its cox of 'joleen's aura' that caused u to spend so much:( thanks lorhh..n whens KTV?haha..felt good ytd shopping n choosing guy's clothes cox seldom shop for guy's stuff..hey!c'mon lorhs ive gt good taste can?if not u wldnt haf bot the green polo tee n the red tee which ive selected!haha..n ill make sure u gt an orange one if deres a chance!dun wear jus blue, black n white k?take the brighter colours!example, the red, the orange the yellow!n i noe ill haf to kill u n mb even myself to ask u to wear pink!haha..so mb not pink at the moment!haha..n i dun care if ya lyk/dun lyk pink..i noe i luf PINK n no one is gonna stop me frm lyking the colour!even u!!looking forward to ladyhill n hillstreet's gathering!haha..fun i guess..
tinking of getting a skirt from m'phosis but 4o bucks!shud i gt?i feel lyk gtting so dat me cn be clad in it for tings bday dis sat!haa..mb its an excuse jus for me to buy it!!how how?:( tink colour is very important!the correct colour gifs luf, reflect the mood u r in, the personality etc. so from the choice of clothes u will gt to noe yeah?
as for me..if ya were to tk a peep into my cabinet..of cox its obvious that theres PINK!haha..no only PINK but SHOCKING PINK!!orange, yellow, purple, red are my colours!feeling great when im in the correct colours!haha..
tmr's gg to meet up with mel in town..haha..cant buy but jus to walk around after gifing tuition..me shant wear heels anymore..feet cramp!n its wrk on mon again!sians..its the 5th week n after which 3 more to go!!woohoo!!
Friday, June 02, 2006
G.U.E.S.S!!guess? GUess!!
wah!!this is realli the first branded wallet which i have!!thanks dearies!!thanks for the GUESS wallet!!din expect u all to realli buy a GUESS one!thanksthanks!heehee..luf it loads!but me a bit se bu de to use cox afraid that it will gt dirtied:(
hope u peeps lyk the desserts at hiagen diaz!heehee..n hws WARAKU shanx?not bad ritex?i luf the atmosphere!heh!!thanks for celebrating my 21st bdae with me today babes!!heehee..next sat's will be our dearest tingx den followed by charmaine's!!wowwe r all turning 21!!haha..n shanx we will remember ur prezzie k?no probs!within 5 mths we promise to help u find a super rich, super cool boy yeah?haha..
oh ya before i forget!thanks yiting for the handmade card ger!so cool!ill sure hang it in my hostel!n thanks shans n charms for the sweet msges..well of cox nt forgtting our artistic tings!heehee..really glad to haf u all as my pals!n thanks for ur support all alg yeah?heh..we mus keep in touch hor till the future..till forever!n pls do tell us wad ya wan for ya bdae babes!!
tmr gg to meet up with weinee at marina sq again but she cn onli meet me at 630pm..nvm ill go shp aln or mb ask mel alg?haha..feel lyk stking more skirts for next sem!moreover so many sales gg on!contempting on gtting a tube of the celebrity body cream..sighh..dunno whether will work or not..desperate..slimming center too ex..cant afford at the moment..so gtta depend on these..shakehead..desperate to diet..:( afraid to tk cambridge diet/extrim/tummy trim..wadever...i wanna be rich n go marie france bodyline!!or bottomslim or anything lahs..
hopefully next thurs ktv with the interns will be successful..haha..n me shant be eating heaty stuff alr!else hw to sing yeah?
yawns..haha..time to bed dudes!nitex:)
hope u peeps lyk the desserts at hiagen diaz!heehee..n hws WARAKU shanx?not bad ritex?i luf the atmosphere!heh!!thanks for celebrating my 21st bdae with me today babes!!heehee..next sat's will be our dearest tingx den followed by charmaine's!!wowwe r all turning 21!!haha..n shanx we will remember ur prezzie k?no probs!within 5 mths we promise to help u find a super rich, super cool boy yeah?haha..
oh ya before i forget!thanks yiting for the handmade card ger!so cool!ill sure hang it in my hostel!n thanks shans n charms for the sweet msges..well of cox nt forgtting our artistic tings!heehee..really glad to haf u all as my pals!n thanks for ur support all alg yeah?heh..we mus keep in touch hor till the future..till forever!n pls do tell us wad ya wan for ya bdae babes!!
tmr gg to meet up with weinee at marina sq again but she cn onli meet me at 630pm..nvm ill go shp aln or mb ask mel alg?haha..feel lyk stking more skirts for next sem!moreover so many sales gg on!contempting on gtting a tube of the celebrity body cream..sighh..dunno whether will work or not..desperate..slimming center too ex..cant afford at the moment..so gtta depend on these..shakehead..desperate to diet..:( afraid to tk cambridge diet/extrim/tummy trim..wadever...i wanna be rich n go marie france bodyline!!or bottomslim or anything lahs..
hopefully next thurs ktv with the interns will be successful..haha..n me shant be eating heaty stuff alr!else hw to sing yeah?
yawns..haha..time to bed dudes!nitex:)
Monday, May 29, 2006
am i the BITCH or YOU?
urghh!!!cant stand it!!it jus simply doesnt pay to be nice!
so wad shes more senior?hey c'mon lorhs..im keeping my cool jus cox ur age..n i agree that u gtta write my pa report..if not for this..hellos!!get this clear: i want nothing to do w u mans!!jus 4 more weeks n im off! haf experience?haf $?haf IQ?so wad?U HAF GT NO EQ!dunno wads call EQ yeah?oh pls!!get a life! uve gtta gt this clear!i din step on ur toes!n dunt u noe hw to jus sae a simple thanks?i shant waste my energy on u..i shall tolerate w ur nonsense!go away lahs!!!urghh!!
last sat was rather cool!went to fionas 21st party..quite disappointing to see only the few of us..nonetheless overall it was alritex..haha..jon is still the same!come on dude stop being so cheeky yeah?ur ger will get jealous sia!haha..nick is as pretty,kevin as blur n zhao as stoned!haha..ivan as quiet,shaun as funny..gt suan by me!haha..its was great to see my jc pals!fiona the bdae ger was beautiful!her party was super unique lahs..till now ive yt to see someones party w 2 balloony men, an entertainer n a photographer!n toking bt the photographer!we were assaulted badly..be it we were eating ot toking or jus trying to stone he wld be dere n click his camo away!urghh..n me was so unlucky to be picked to play a super RA game lahs..so paiseh..but poor nick he gt a worser role!haha..oopss.in the end though we lost but still gt prize!haha..gt a manicure set n a makeup set!wah nw ive all the makeup!!haha
toking bt makeup..i feel awful when i dun doll up myself..die!jus feel dat me lyk sickly w/o colours on me..weird..
next bdae on the list?haha..tink shld be mine bahs..thats acc. to shanx tingx n charms..this thurs gg to my fav. jappie restaurant at marina sq-waraku for dinner!haha..yeah!!n thurs is my sis bdae too!haha..celeb my belated bdae on my sis actual bdae!haha..funny yeah?next will be our beloved tingting's!me n shans have volunteered to help alr!!haha..wad shld i wear?my mini skirt?haha..oh ya let us stay over lehs ger?haha..shanx dun forgt our cartel's breakfast!haha..
this weekend feels abit empty..yah cox deres no nid to rush for competition anymore..nt depressed cox ive gt the chances to perform for the public..n i mean really the public..nt jus the hall pple n frans..its the shopping crowd the passers-by..im pleased to haf caught ur attention..thanks eveyone for listening to us?though din gt into finals but we r alr satisfied w e semis cox its the first competition..i live w no regrets..all alg ive yearn to perform n i thot ive made used of the short 8 mins i haf on those 2 chances!the attention, the quietness, the cheers, the applause, the comments..i thank u pple for all! though its the end for this competition its actually the firststep into the future..i treasure those moments..the moments which i can proudly tell my kids in the future dat hey!mummy gt into semis in a competition bfore!i luf wad im doing..n i believe even if i cant go far ..its something which i enjoy n pursue..believing is powerful..ive done wad others may not even dare to do..ive conquered myself, the stagefright n i yearn for more of those moments again..however, i gtta wrk harder..dat means kbox more often!haha..
was toking to clarence ytd bt guys being so amusing..yah i shld jus ignore n ellos boy..hw to find a bf fast?haha..its fate lehs..haha..
dun quite able to comprehend guys..ytd was weird..my sis was saeing that it was so obvious that he was trying to be over friendly..haha..oh mans..n friendster is another one!a model n a mixed blood..haha..interesting sia..but..im wary!apprehensive..haha..thanks yah..but no thanks!
went shppinh n gt myself an op skirt!heehee..yeah new skirt but ive alr worn it!!more to come!haha..a new top!so happy so happy..peachy PINK!!damn bright lahs..aahha..mkes my dae yeah?n my espirit slipper!woohoo!haha..i nid cash to shop!!
wah!!GSS!GSS!i like!!!MUACKS!!haha
so wad shes more senior?hey c'mon lorhs..im keeping my cool jus cox ur age..n i agree that u gtta write my pa report..if not for this..hellos!!get this clear: i want nothing to do w u mans!!jus 4 more weeks n im off! haf experience?haf $?haf IQ?so wad?U HAF GT NO EQ!dunno wads call EQ yeah?oh pls!!get a life! uve gtta gt this clear!i din step on ur toes!n dunt u noe hw to jus sae a simple thanks?i shant waste my energy on u..i shall tolerate w ur nonsense!go away lahs!!!urghh!!
last sat was rather cool!went to fionas 21st party..quite disappointing to see only the few of us..nonetheless overall it was alritex..haha..jon is still the same!come on dude stop being so cheeky yeah?ur ger will get jealous sia!haha..nick is as pretty,kevin as blur n zhao as stoned!haha..ivan as quiet,shaun as funny..gt suan by me!haha..its was great to see my jc pals!fiona the bdae ger was beautiful!her party was super unique lahs..till now ive yt to see someones party w 2 balloony men, an entertainer n a photographer!n toking bt the photographer!we were assaulted badly..be it we were eating ot toking or jus trying to stone he wld be dere n click his camo away!urghh..n me was so unlucky to be picked to play a super RA game lahs..so paiseh..but poor nick he gt a worser role!haha..oopss.in the end though we lost but still gt prize!haha..gt a manicure set n a makeup set!wah nw ive all the makeup!!haha
toking bt makeup..i feel awful when i dun doll up myself..die!jus feel dat me lyk sickly w/o colours on me..weird..
next bdae on the list?haha..tink shld be mine bahs..thats acc. to shanx tingx n charms..this thurs gg to my fav. jappie restaurant at marina sq-waraku for dinner!haha..yeah!!n thurs is my sis bdae too!haha..celeb my belated bdae on my sis actual bdae!haha..funny yeah?next will be our beloved tingting's!me n shans have volunteered to help alr!!haha..wad shld i wear?my mini skirt?haha..oh ya let us stay over lehs ger?haha..shanx dun forgt our cartel's breakfast!haha..
this weekend feels abit empty..yah cox deres no nid to rush for competition anymore..nt depressed cox ive gt the chances to perform for the public..n i mean really the public..nt jus the hall pple n frans..its the shopping crowd the passers-by..im pleased to haf caught ur attention..thanks eveyone for listening to us?though din gt into finals but we r alr satisfied w e semis cox its the first competition..i live w no regrets..all alg ive yearn to perform n i thot ive made used of the short 8 mins i haf on those 2 chances!the attention, the quietness, the cheers, the applause, the comments..i thank u pple for all! though its the end for this competition its actually the firststep into the future..i treasure those moments..the moments which i can proudly tell my kids in the future dat hey!mummy gt into semis in a competition bfore!i luf wad im doing..n i believe even if i cant go far ..its something which i enjoy n pursue..believing is powerful..ive done wad others may not even dare to do..ive conquered myself, the stagefright n i yearn for more of those moments again..however, i gtta wrk harder..dat means kbox more often!haha..
was toking to clarence ytd bt guys being so amusing..yah i shld jus ignore n ellos boy..hw to find a bf fast?haha..its fate lehs..haha..
dun quite able to comprehend guys..ytd was weird..my sis was saeing that it was so obvious that he was trying to be over friendly..haha..oh mans..n friendster is another one!a model n a mixed blood..haha..interesting sia..but..im wary!apprehensive..haha..thanks yah..but no thanks!
went shppinh n gt myself an op skirt!heehee..yeah new skirt but ive alr worn it!!more to come!haha..a new top!so happy so happy..peachy PINK!!damn bright lahs..aahha..mkes my dae yeah?n my espirit slipper!woohoo!haha..i nid cash to shop!!
wah!!GSS!GSS!i like!!!MUACKS!!haha
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
so fast..yet so slow?
tmr's thurs again!!n its gg to be weekends again!!!haha..
this weekend will be the last for one of my tutees, so dat means me will haf 1 left for the 1 mth hols!at least gt more time for myself!!yeah!time flies yah..im gg to be into the 4th week into my PA n 4 more to the end!!!haha.next will be taiwan n camps!
suppose to haf dinner with kh, mel n xinwei today but gt cancelled last min..haha..haf been gg out..watched da vinci code w shanx n tings ytd..tink its nt dat bad lahs..gt frightened by a few scenes when silas appeared out of nowhere!haha..scardy cat huh?haha..ps was packed!din really enjoyed the popcorn though:( next up will be pirates of carribean!!i wanna watch!!
din haf much time to practise for sun n i guess mes gifing myself too much stress yeah?the sg dun feel ritex mb im tinking too much..hmm..jus be natural n i guess e best is to wrk on my breathing..hmm..hope everything goes well n fight on to the end!!thats my ultimate goal for myself!to be determined n its a challenge for myself n a test of where i can go..setting more tests for myself..yah more!
tmr n fri are gg to slack!no nid to go office but jus attend ey's semiar on GST at raffles city's swissotel!haha..yeah!good good!
next week's thurs n fri are occupied too. thurs: my belated bdae celebration at my favourite WARAKU RESTAURANT at marina sq!den fri. mtg with weinee to celeb her bdae!haha..still tinking of where we shld go..:)
ytd was toking to a nbs fran n nw a fellow PA fran in EY..hes weird lah..kept laughing at the fact that i wasnt attached before!dun be so mean lehs..dun ask y i aint at all..those jus aint the right feelings..dats all i can sae..or mb dey r jus normal frans..nothing more than 'just' frans..really..okie..lyk wad jiaqi said: high expectation/s..yahyah..i agree n ya do stop harpping on this topic alr k?so malu when we were in the train n he was toking bt it in his deep low voice!haha..but im proud of my single status!!serious!!so carefree!!haha
okok..tmr gg to meet up with council frans!cya peeps..!settlers cafe!!yay!!no place..wah..cfm gg broke yeah?haha
this weekend will be the last for one of my tutees, so dat means me will haf 1 left for the 1 mth hols!at least gt more time for myself!!yeah!time flies yah..im gg to be into the 4th week into my PA n 4 more to the end!!!haha.next will be taiwan n camps!
suppose to haf dinner with kh, mel n xinwei today but gt cancelled last min..haha..haf been gg out..watched da vinci code w shanx n tings ytd..tink its nt dat bad lahs..gt frightened by a few scenes when silas appeared out of nowhere!haha..scardy cat huh?haha..ps was packed!din really enjoyed the popcorn though:( next up will be pirates of carribean!!i wanna watch!!
din haf much time to practise for sun n i guess mes gifing myself too much stress yeah?the sg dun feel ritex mb im tinking too much..hmm..jus be natural n i guess e best is to wrk on my breathing..hmm..hope everything goes well n fight on to the end!!thats my ultimate goal for myself!to be determined n its a challenge for myself n a test of where i can go..setting more tests for myself..yah more!
tmr n fri are gg to slack!no nid to go office but jus attend ey's semiar on GST at raffles city's swissotel!haha..yeah!good good!
next week's thurs n fri are occupied too. thurs: my belated bdae celebration at my favourite WARAKU RESTAURANT at marina sq!den fri. mtg with weinee to celeb her bdae!haha..still tinking of where we shld go..:)
ytd was toking to a nbs fran n nw a fellow PA fran in EY..hes weird lah..kept laughing at the fact that i wasnt attached before!dun be so mean lehs..dun ask y i aint at all..those jus aint the right feelings..dats all i can sae..or mb dey r jus normal frans..nothing more than 'just' frans..really..okie..lyk wad jiaqi said: high expectation/s..yahyah..i agree n ya do stop harpping on this topic alr k?so malu when we were in the train n he was toking bt it in his deep low voice!haha..but im proud of my single status!!serious!!so carefree!!haha
okok..tmr gg to meet up with council frans!cya peeps..!settlers cafe!!yay!!no place..wah..cfm gg broke yeah?haha
Sunday, May 21, 2006
im happy..
im glad dat my tutees did realtively well for their exams..phew!at least all werent in vain!haha..
the next week is gonna be exciting!so many events n mtgs n activities going on. sun is gg to be crucial..im praying hard..i musnt let mummy down!i musnt le myself down either!its our dream..if luck aint gg to be on our side..ive gt to face it..but we will try yea?meimei, we will try yeah?:)
tmr gtta wrk again!but only for 3 days!yeah!!!!so happy..
mb thru channelling my energy away..its this satisfaction which im gettin..im busy but i dun mind cox mes pursuing smthg which i luf..its a passion which aint gg to die dwn so soon..not so soon!
alrites 1145pm n its really time to concuss!wrk tmr:( sians but nvm! the week will pass soon n im excited over it!yes!i am!!really:)
the next week is gonna be exciting!so many events n mtgs n activities going on. sun is gg to be crucial..im praying hard..i musnt let mummy down!i musnt le myself down either!its our dream..if luck aint gg to be on our side..ive gt to face it..but we will try yea?meimei, we will try yeah?:)
tmr gtta wrk again!but only for 3 days!yeah!!!!so happy..
mb thru channelling my energy away..its this satisfaction which im gettin..im busy but i dun mind cox mes pursuing smthg which i luf..its a passion which aint gg to die dwn so soon..not so soon!
alrites 1145pm n its really time to concuss!wrk tmr:( sians but nvm! the week will pass soon n im excited over it!yes!i am!!really:)
Saturday, May 20, 2006
the 2nd step and its not ending!
we've conquered the 2nd step today and it's jus not going to simply end here!it's our dream..a common hope..n we've both worked hard for my this..its indeed a splendid feeling to be able to get into the semis!wanna thank yanshan,yiting,my sister's pals for being there to support us!!thanks babes and jethro?the dude?haha..despite the heat and the hrs u pals stayed for the release of the result!appreciate u guys!realli!!
me n tings took pic with e special guest-sugi frm jue dui SUPERSTAR!haha..shan was so paiseh to tk w him yeah?in the end shans becm our photographer..sugi is quite friendly..i dare not look at him closeup..so paiseh..haha..but hes nt bad lahs shans..jus dat he had makeup on..for a guy its weird..but hes an artiste!hes so funny stood a little dist frm me in the photo..haha..extremely eager to see the pic tings!!send ME!!thanks dearie!!haha
next rd will be dis sat..n its time again to decide on the next song..haha..n this is always the toughest for us!firstly, limited VCD, next gtta get a sg that suits both of us..haha..its RD 3!
saying im nonchalant bt it will be deceiving myself..we took the first step and now we r in to our 3rd step!its an experience!i guess i jus luf attention..the stage..luf to see the expressions..im HAPPY:) we r wrking hard and hopefully 3rd june will be the big day for me n sis! guess this will be the most memorable gife for my sis as her bdae falls on june 1st!haha..meimei we mus wrk hard okie? believing is a powerful tool!n ive chosen to channel this belief into wad we r enjoying today..it may not be great..it may be seen as tiny as compared..but im banking on our youth..our interest..the opportunities! theres one more!!shld we go?i m considering..
jus when everyone is planning for the 'NEAR' future be it studying or working..im dreaming..im in my lala land..in my disneyland..in my dreamland!yah..it has never ceased!im in my foreign land..
next week is gg to be super xciting!mon work..tues will be mtg shans n tings for da vinci..wed lunch treat frm my directors..thurs n fri attending GST convention at raffles city instead of wrking in office!haha..sat is gonna b the bestest!morn tuition,after competition, nitex fionas bdae party!haha..gg to go there all dolled up..oopps!no choice!n sun its back to tuition again!
jus when i wanna share my joy n excitment with u, u aint in the mood..afraid to msg ya n bothering ya as well..u haf ur problems too..really hope u will see ur light soon..dun ever think of slping forever..we r still young!we cnt..love may ultimately nt be the only thing we live for..we haf our family too..dey cnt be overlooked..weve gt to realise this yeah?
dunnoe y ya haf such conflicting thots..so weird gtting confused by wad ive been reading..u r lucky to haf ya family n ur gal with u..god will be w u n u will cm to realise it really soon..
its slping time!!!haha
me n tings took pic with e special guest-sugi frm jue dui SUPERSTAR!haha..shan was so paiseh to tk w him yeah?in the end shans becm our photographer..sugi is quite friendly..i dare not look at him closeup..so paiseh..haha..but hes nt bad lahs shans..jus dat he had makeup on..for a guy its weird..but hes an artiste!hes so funny stood a little dist frm me in the photo..haha..extremely eager to see the pic tings!!send ME!!thanks dearie!!haha
next rd will be dis sat..n its time again to decide on the next song..haha..n this is always the toughest for us!firstly, limited VCD, next gtta get a sg that suits both of us..haha..its RD 3!
saying im nonchalant bt it will be deceiving myself..we took the first step and now we r in to our 3rd step!its an experience!i guess i jus luf attention..the stage..luf to see the expressions..im HAPPY:) we r wrking hard and hopefully 3rd june will be the big day for me n sis! guess this will be the most memorable gife for my sis as her bdae falls on june 1st!haha..meimei we mus wrk hard okie? believing is a powerful tool!n ive chosen to channel this belief into wad we r enjoying today..it may not be great..it may be seen as tiny as compared..but im banking on our youth..our interest..the opportunities! theres one more!!shld we go?i m considering..
jus when everyone is planning for the 'NEAR' future be it studying or working..im dreaming..im in my lala land..in my disneyland..in my dreamland!yah..it has never ceased!im in my foreign land..
next week is gg to be super xciting!mon work..tues will be mtg shans n tings for da vinci..wed lunch treat frm my directors..thurs n fri attending GST convention at raffles city instead of wrking in office!haha..sat is gonna b the bestest!morn tuition,after competition, nitex fionas bdae party!haha..gg to go there all dolled up..oopps!no choice!n sun its back to tuition again!
jus when i wanna share my joy n excitment with u, u aint in the mood..afraid to msg ya n bothering ya as well..u haf ur problems too..really hope u will see ur light soon..dun ever think of slping forever..we r still young!we cnt..love may ultimately nt be the only thing we live for..we haf our family too..dey cnt be overlooked..weve gt to realise this yeah?
dunnoe y ya haf such conflicting thots..so weird gtting confused by wad ive been reading..u r lucky to haf ya family n ur gal with u..god will be w u n u will cm to realise it really soon..
its slping time!!!haha
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
jus so touched!
I AM SERIOUSLY SO SO TOUCHED!!haha
I AM SIMPLY SO ELATED!!:)
ytd me was super pissed n my mood was so so low..it was because me had many missed calls while i was having my internship training!urghh..both from hall office which demanded me to settle my hall application bill by ytd n another events company!freaky!jus simply wanted to switched off the stupid phone lahs!!!irritated..
i din of cox..jus wanna complain..
was so bothered that me cun go bk to sch to settle the bill cox of attachment n by the time mes bk in sch its alr lyk 8pm!whu will be ard?msged almost those peeps whom i could seek help frm..excluding those on pa as me..haha..those whu always helped me thru r on pa as well..so cant..sheesh..was so desperate alr dat me even msged my sis to help!haha..at the back of my mind i knew she cant but jus wanna try my luck..in the end thot of my cult sec!haha..hes lyk forever in hall..sighh..no luck either..whu the hell will be in hall during the hols!nontheless he was kind enuf to ask me to try gtting the engine guys n he told me darrens tking a module!!n i did seek help frm darren!was jus trying my luck since i was super despo alr!i was really so relieved that he actually agreed to help!!haha..was i plain lucky or wad!i cnt imagine!!shld had msged jianming earlier dey!haha..
i was halfhearted n nearly wanted to call hall office to jus cancel my application if me really cant find someone whus able to lend me a hand..really i dun mind jus withdrawing n of cos me do noe the consequences which i will have to bear.yah im aware!its not so easy to jus help me pay the bill at the office but to gt em to print the letter, go to the students affair center which is relatively far n den gtting a sticker n back to hall office again!so tedious!if im not on the way me will not be willing to help too!dats y im really surprised dat darren actually din mind!yah..i hope he did haf lesson in sch today n he did haf his car with him or else ill feel really bad about it n SAO is how far if one is to walk frm hall to that place!!inaccessible!no matter wad!i really really really really * infinity wanna thank him!!!
THANK YOU DARREN!!!haha
finally one 'trouble' is settled..now handling two things at one go..ones work and the other me shant say..jus hoping for the best:) mel u cant sae okie?heehee..
ive mentioned this bfore i guessed..im easily impressed n this time rd its not only so but utterly shocked..haha..cant believe that theres still nice pple ard at least helpful pple!!wow!!!haha..kkie shall stop blabbering bt this alr since its settled alr!!haha
todays first day at gst department.. the perm staff r friendly..guess its jus a start..apprehesive of how it will really be lyk..seriously speaking mes not really liking wad im doing!im not..not liking the clothes ive to be in considering wad i usually wear..not enjoying the kinda work im involved in..ive yet to really touch on the actual stuff shall me shall make some reservations bfore me will comment any further!
mes falling alsp n its only 938pm!shall wake up early tmr to read thru wad i haf for wrk..braindead now:(
(heh!din really noe wad actually happened to you recently..so sorry that mes gtta be on pa n cnt help ya much..if ya really nid a listening ear mes ard yea?though me may be ignorant of alot of things tink i can still manage..rem? smiley is always ard n she wanna see u smile n not be upset:)
I AM SIMPLY SO ELATED!!:)
ytd me was super pissed n my mood was so so low..it was because me had many missed calls while i was having my internship training!urghh..both from hall office which demanded me to settle my hall application bill by ytd n another events company!freaky!jus simply wanted to switched off the stupid phone lahs!!!irritated..
i din of cox..jus wanna complain..
was so bothered that me cun go bk to sch to settle the bill cox of attachment n by the time mes bk in sch its alr lyk 8pm!whu will be ard?msged almost those peeps whom i could seek help frm..excluding those on pa as me..haha..those whu always helped me thru r on pa as well..so cant..sheesh..was so desperate alr dat me even msged my sis to help!haha..at the back of my mind i knew she cant but jus wanna try my luck..in the end thot of my cult sec!haha..hes lyk forever in hall..sighh..no luck either..whu the hell will be in hall during the hols!nontheless he was kind enuf to ask me to try gtting the engine guys n he told me darrens tking a module!!n i did seek help frm darren!was jus trying my luck since i was super despo alr!i was really so relieved that he actually agreed to help!!haha..was i plain lucky or wad!i cnt imagine!!shld had msged jianming earlier dey!haha..
i was halfhearted n nearly wanted to call hall office to jus cancel my application if me really cant find someone whus able to lend me a hand..really i dun mind jus withdrawing n of cos me do noe the consequences which i will have to bear.yah im aware!its not so easy to jus help me pay the bill at the office but to gt em to print the letter, go to the students affair center which is relatively far n den gtting a sticker n back to hall office again!so tedious!if im not on the way me will not be willing to help too!dats y im really surprised dat darren actually din mind!yah..i hope he did haf lesson in sch today n he did haf his car with him or else ill feel really bad about it n SAO is how far if one is to walk frm hall to that place!!inaccessible!no matter wad!i really really really really * infinity wanna thank him!!!
THANK YOU DARREN!!!haha
finally one 'trouble' is settled..now handling two things at one go..ones work and the other me shant say..jus hoping for the best:) mel u cant sae okie?heehee..
ive mentioned this bfore i guessed..im easily impressed n this time rd its not only so but utterly shocked..haha..cant believe that theres still nice pple ard at least helpful pple!!wow!!!haha..kkie shall stop blabbering bt this alr since its settled alr!!haha
todays first day at gst department.. the perm staff r friendly..guess its jus a start..apprehesive of how it will really be lyk..seriously speaking mes not really liking wad im doing!im not..not liking the clothes ive to be in considering wad i usually wear..not enjoying the kinda work im involved in..ive yet to really touch on the actual stuff shall me shall make some reservations bfore me will comment any further!
mes falling alsp n its only 938pm!shall wake up early tmr to read thru wad i haf for wrk..braindead now:(
(heh!din really noe wad actually happened to you recently..so sorry that mes gtta be on pa n cnt help ya much..if ya really nid a listening ear mes ard yea?though me may be ignorant of alot of things tink i can still manage..rem? smiley is always ard n she wanna see u smile n not be upset:)
Friday, May 12, 2006
first day at keppel tower cont'd
lemme carry on with my entry which i had left off this morning..
i cun bring myself to slp on wed night. it was a surprise as weve hafen msned for so long for at least a few mths..mths?i guess so..i was happy.the warmth is back..its so nice to haf a brother who asks bt u, whu cares for ur future..whus dere to listen to ur problems..shld i sae im partly blessed?i dunno..im not letting myself fall into dat again, not allowing myself to be inflicted again..i cant. yah hes my brother.appreciating those concerns.no i dun wish that we will be in the same company in the yrs to come, im so sorry to haf to sae this.in fact i cant bring myself to sae this to u..im sorry.so self defence i tink this is the best for me.ive learnt to be self-fish..its not innate in me but ive gt no choice..HURT is the last wrd im willing to accept in my vocab. ive turned colder twds a lot of things, a number of pple. this seriously is wad i hate to do.theres no way i can turn back the clock n stop these frm happening. i cant. noeing that u care is enough for now.(do u really care?) even if ya dun, ya arent to be blamed. u haf no responsibility to do so, y mus u? i do rem wad ya said, the outings etc. i thank u for these memories, sweet den but turned bitter now they are jus buried deeply but nv deep enuff to be forgtten.hated u den, mb this 'hatred' had evolved to 'numbness' yah im indifferent alr..almost so pls dun confuse me anymore n i cant be shaken. at the bottom of my heart, i wish u well..denying one may sae but ive come thus far, ive to be in denial, this is it. its heartache even till now..its embarrassing that ive to admit n i detest myself for this.
life has to go on..my life revolves rd wrk n gifing tuition.i dun mind not gg out.i dun mind hafing no life.i yearn to stay at home. sleep my hours away..relaxing via watching tv flipping thru papers, even gt nagged at by my mum..yah i seriously dun mind animore. i guess vonnie has described pretty accurately bt the crisis which was reflected in her blog.used to love to meet up with pals used to love org mtgs. nowadays im waiting for peeps to date me instead..no initiatives no energy to plan for meet ups. some times waiting for confirmations which nv came. im too lazy either to msg n confirm with em. i tried spending a day waiting for the gathering but it nv cm even on the day itself. a few days ago, was waiting for another confirmation but in the end me still msged to confirm. mb if ive known the mtg aint gg to tk place i could ve arranged another mtg. i din n spent my vesak day slping n slacking instead. yet again, im alritex wif this. shld i sae im jus plainly lazy? or haf i gtten tired of everything? mb im lacking e courage to do so for reasons which i shant mention n im still considering my last resort. cost is an issue n i jus cnt refrain myself frm wanting to try them. i wun noe if it will be effective till i tried it. i wun noe.
so much had been said, that much i had done, nothing more i could do, wishing its not the end
dreading the cming weeks of work:(
i cun bring myself to slp on wed night. it was a surprise as weve hafen msned for so long for at least a few mths..mths?i guess so..i was happy.the warmth is back..its so nice to haf a brother who asks bt u, whu cares for ur future..whus dere to listen to ur problems..shld i sae im partly blessed?i dunno..im not letting myself fall into dat again, not allowing myself to be inflicted again..i cant. yah hes my brother.appreciating those concerns.no i dun wish that we will be in the same company in the yrs to come, im so sorry to haf to sae this.in fact i cant bring myself to sae this to u..im sorry.so self defence i tink this is the best for me.ive learnt to be self-fish..its not innate in me but ive gt no choice..HURT is the last wrd im willing to accept in my vocab. ive turned colder twds a lot of things, a number of pple. this seriously is wad i hate to do.theres no way i can turn back the clock n stop these frm happening. i cant. noeing that u care is enough for now.(do u really care?) even if ya dun, ya arent to be blamed. u haf no responsibility to do so, y mus u? i do rem wad ya said, the outings etc. i thank u for these memories, sweet den but turned bitter now they are jus buried deeply but nv deep enuff to be forgtten.hated u den, mb this 'hatred' had evolved to 'numbness' yah im indifferent alr..almost so pls dun confuse me anymore n i cant be shaken. at the bottom of my heart, i wish u well..denying one may sae but ive come thus far, ive to be in denial, this is it. its heartache even till now..its embarrassing that ive to admit n i detest myself for this.
life has to go on..my life revolves rd wrk n gifing tuition.i dun mind not gg out.i dun mind hafing no life.i yearn to stay at home. sleep my hours away..relaxing via watching tv flipping thru papers, even gt nagged at by my mum..yah i seriously dun mind animore. i guess vonnie has described pretty accurately bt the crisis which was reflected in her blog.used to love to meet up with pals used to love org mtgs. nowadays im waiting for peeps to date me instead..no initiatives no energy to plan for meet ups. some times waiting for confirmations which nv came. im too lazy either to msg n confirm with em. i tried spending a day waiting for the gathering but it nv cm even on the day itself. a few days ago, was waiting for another confirmation but in the end me still msged to confirm. mb if ive known the mtg aint gg to tk place i could ve arranged another mtg. i din n spent my vesak day slping n slacking instead. yet again, im alritex wif this. shld i sae im jus plainly lazy? or haf i gtten tired of everything? mb im lacking e courage to do so for reasons which i shant mention n im still considering my last resort. cost is an issue n i jus cnt refrain myself frm wanting to try them. i wun noe if it will be effective till i tried it. i wun noe.
so much had been said, that much i had done, nothing more i could do, wishing its not the end
dreading the cming weeks of work:(
first day at keppel tower
yesterday was the first day we tax interns were at keppel tower located near tg pagar MRT..in order to create a 'good' impression me wore my long sleeves as usual but ended up perspiring like mad when i finally reached the train station!DAMN!!urghh!wad made me worse was that the train was so so packed that there wasnt aeven an inch for me to step into the carriage!(kah hon, me noe wad u will be thinking!!yahyah..haha)that caused me to be late n all of us had to speed walk lyk mad to keppel!
ey's office at keppel twr is much pleasant lking or shld i sae furnished compared to the ocean's bldg..overall not too bad..n we gt treated to lunch at one of the restaurants at craig rd by the partner!wah we din gt this treatment when we were at the audit department..but afterdat, the 'bomb'came..tax computation..sigh..wondering hw different GST works..i chose GsT over corporate TAx cox me wanna try new things since ive done personal income tax at IRAs, studied corp tax so me always yearning to be different chose GST instead. there r only me n another SMU guy in GSt..at least i aint alone yah?haha..shall see how when mon starts..mon will be another day of trging den its really dwn to work..in the meantime me shall enjoy this lg week end n do my tax computation!haha..
ytd wanted to go kbox w sis n her frans in the end it turned out to be so ex cox its public hols day eve!wah the...in the end went to watch poisedon!!haha..the shw started at 720pm n we decided to watch n bought tixs at 730pm by the time we went in after collecting my popcorn we were alr late n the shw started..haha..but luck was on our side!haha..minutes into the shw sth cropped up n they restarted the shw frm the beginning!!haha..if we werent lucky den wads this called?haha..it was sth lyk perfect storm n i wanted to resurrect that moments when i watched it henceafter reading the reviews n the movie followups in the papers decided that me mus watch POISEDON!haha..next will be da vinco code!i wanna go to the lidos theatre!!i lyk the popcorn there betta!!haha
okie..running late..shall continue with dis post again
ey's office at keppel twr is much pleasant lking or shld i sae furnished compared to the ocean's bldg..overall not too bad..n we gt treated to lunch at one of the restaurants at craig rd by the partner!wah we din gt this treatment when we were at the audit department..but afterdat, the 'bomb'came..tax computation..sigh..wondering hw different GST works..i chose GsT over corporate TAx cox me wanna try new things since ive done personal income tax at IRAs, studied corp tax so me always yearning to be different chose GST instead. there r only me n another SMU guy in GSt..at least i aint alone yah?haha..shall see how when mon starts..mon will be another day of trging den its really dwn to work..in the meantime me shall enjoy this lg week end n do my tax computation!haha..
ytd wanted to go kbox w sis n her frans in the end it turned out to be so ex cox its public hols day eve!wah the...in the end went to watch poisedon!!haha..the shw started at 720pm n we decided to watch n bought tixs at 730pm by the time we went in after collecting my popcorn we were alr late n the shw started..haha..but luck was on our side!haha..minutes into the shw sth cropped up n they restarted the shw frm the beginning!!haha..if we werent lucky den wads this called?haha..it was sth lyk perfect storm n i wanted to resurrect that moments when i watched it henceafter reading the reviews n the movie followups in the papers decided that me mus watch POISEDON!haha..next will be da vinco code!i wanna go to the lidos theatre!!i lyk the popcorn there betta!!haha
okie..running late..shall continue with dis post again
Sunday, May 07, 2006
THANK YOU WEILIN
hey weilin!!this entry is FOR YOU!!!
thanks alot for inviting us to ya house dear!!though me was late but it was so sweet of u guys to save food for me:) haha..simply touched yea? n DEY were DELICIOUS babe!!!thanks alot!!
n the entertainment!!!the settlers' board game!!cool!its been a lg lg time since me had sat down to play board games!!haha..hmm..truthfully me was watching more den playing..anyhow!i was sure dat we all enjoyed ourselves jus now didnt we?im so happy to haf met up with u all today!!really!looking forwrd to more gatherings yea?
tinking of gg to the korean rest linnie brought us de other time..the korean rest at chinatown!!we mus go again k?bfore u leave k?yummy korean dishes!!!
tmrs first day of PA..SIAN!i wanna play still!haha
oh yah..thanks clarence for accompanying me to TM jus now..thanks alot!
toking to vonnie on MSN..haha..getting elated over a gal's topic!haha..tink it cld be a little more exaggerated if we were to tok face to face yeah?haha.
hope to cya u all soon!
heys deres a new rest at marina sq..sm level as zara n mango!i wanna try!haha.. n dere r gg to be 2 nice movies to be screened real soon--poseidon n da vinci code!i wanna watch!!!whus free?haha
thanks alot for inviting us to ya house dear!!though me was late but it was so sweet of u guys to save food for me:) haha..simply touched yea? n DEY were DELICIOUS babe!!!thanks alot!!
n the entertainment!!!the settlers' board game!!cool!its been a lg lg time since me had sat down to play board games!!haha..hmm..truthfully me was watching more den playing..anyhow!i was sure dat we all enjoyed ourselves jus now didnt we?im so happy to haf met up with u all today!!really!looking forwrd to more gatherings yea?
tinking of gg to the korean rest linnie brought us de other time..the korean rest at chinatown!!we mus go again k?bfore u leave k?yummy korean dishes!!!
tmrs first day of PA..SIAN!i wanna play still!haha
oh yah..thanks clarence for accompanying me to TM jus now..thanks alot!
toking to vonnie on MSN..haha..getting elated over a gal's topic!haha..tink it cld be a little more exaggerated if we were to tok face to face yeah?haha.
hope to cya u all soon!
heys deres a new rest at marina sq..sm level as zara n mango!i wanna try!haha.. n dere r gg to be 2 nice movies to be screened real soon--poseidon n da vinci code!i wanna watch!!!whus free?haha
Friday, May 05, 2006
no more PA shopping PLEASe!
oH NO!it slipped my mind dat im supposed to got pantyhose(stockings)today as well!!aLAs!!wanted to proclaim dat im finally done with the PA shopping but den!!S***!!urghh..cant stand shopping for clothes which i dun like to wear, cant stand gg into those formal wear shops!ill rather spend my $ on my denim skirts!my pretty slippers r jus keep em in the bank!!jus dun lyk to wear lg sleeves..knee length skirts, carry leather bag n painful heels!put on makeup dat makes me look so so fake!!sighh..cant stop complaining how??urghh...
bought myself an off-white handbag for PA jus now..me mel joey alvin n delvin went to town this afternn to shop for PA stuff!at least the guys bought stuff frm G2000 n me n joey gt our bags n joey her clothes!mel? din managed to gt her shirt cox its way to big!was so tired after that..haha..hmm..mb its only me..dey still can go catch a movie whilst mel went for foc main comm dinner!me? a piece of dead meat!!wanna fall asleep alr!im so glad im at home now..concussing soon!timecheck: 1041pm:)
yesterday went KBOX at marina Square..dunno y jus feeling super excited though ive been with them for at least 4 to 5 times?so weird!haha..n yah!i jus realised dat yj n felix r always so punctual..the other times when we were gg from sch dey were also early or at least on time!made me so paiseh!yahyah..as usual i was late!oopps!!ytd was no exception! was at bugis bfore dat n thot i was rather early..hmm..to state the truth..was bt 3 mins off 6pm:P haha..(a bit late only wads)was at cityhall's ctrl n scanned through the crowd..thot dey werent there yet but whu noes dey were standing at the escalators!!!AHHH!!so im the last again!!sighh...ive never seen guys so punctual before!!really never!!so so on time dat im so embarrassed for being late 100% of the time which we've arranged to meet!tink its cox my other guy frans r mostly late n weve to end up waiting for them..so eventually ive grown to assume that all will be late..hmm..ill try my very best n be ON TIME the next round we meet yeah? today also!!mel alvin n delvin were so early..ill definitely make an effort to be on time next time i meet my NTU pals!!stress sia:P haha...
hmm..ytd's KTV was only 3 hrs..haha..mb its bcox of the late timing that i nearly fall aslp twds the end of the session..n it was only 9+pm! yawns..but i did enjoy myself though..din sing much i guess! n next thurs night mes gg wif my sis!!its ladies night so no nid to pay cover charge!yeah..so its wrk den KTV!wah!!n im FEELING GOOD cox one of my freshies gt a PArtyWorld Voucher!free for 4hrs n 10bucks off or sth lidaT!!wow!!!haha..thanks KEVIN!!haha..he said he wun need em n gifing to me!haha..free KTV AT PARTYWRLD!!for a KTV freak lyk me..its jus like WWWWAAAAAHHHH!!!!*beaming with joy*!!:) will organise a session with em again!!mb after our PA bahs or one of the holidays!:)
i dunno if i shuld blog this..mb ive given too many peeps this link that ive realised that dere r stuff which i cant really blog them down..hahs..n dere mb peeps whom i dun noe but r reading all these..nvm..blogging is nv a private thing!CFM!!
2 more days to PA n im gg to spend them by gifing TUITION!haha..yah no choice..its exam period for them so yah..
bought myself an off-white handbag for PA jus now..me mel joey alvin n delvin went to town this afternn to shop for PA stuff!at least the guys bought stuff frm G2000 n me n joey gt our bags n joey her clothes!mel? din managed to gt her shirt cox its way to big!was so tired after that..haha..hmm..mb its only me..dey still can go catch a movie whilst mel went for foc main comm dinner!me? a piece of dead meat!!wanna fall asleep alr!im so glad im at home now..concussing soon!timecheck: 1041pm:)
yesterday went KBOX at marina Square..dunno y jus feeling super excited though ive been with them for at least 4 to 5 times?so weird!haha..n yah!i jus realised dat yj n felix r always so punctual..the other times when we were gg from sch dey were also early or at least on time!made me so paiseh!yahyah..as usual i was late!oopps!!ytd was no exception! was at bugis bfore dat n thot i was rather early..hmm..to state the truth..was bt 3 mins off 6pm:P haha..(a bit late only wads)was at cityhall's ctrl n scanned through the crowd..thot dey werent there yet but whu noes dey were standing at the escalators!!!AHHH!!so im the last again!!sighh...ive never seen guys so punctual before!!really never!!so so on time dat im so embarrassed for being late 100% of the time which we've arranged to meet!tink its cox my other guy frans r mostly late n weve to end up waiting for them..so eventually ive grown to assume that all will be late..hmm..ill try my very best n be ON TIME the next round we meet yeah? today also!!mel alvin n delvin were so early..ill definitely make an effort to be on time next time i meet my NTU pals!!stress sia:P haha...
hmm..ytd's KTV was only 3 hrs..haha..mb its bcox of the late timing that i nearly fall aslp twds the end of the session..n it was only 9+pm! yawns..but i did enjoy myself though..din sing much i guess! n next thurs night mes gg wif my sis!!its ladies night so no nid to pay cover charge!yeah..so its wrk den KTV!wah!!n im FEELING GOOD cox one of my freshies gt a PArtyWorld Voucher!free for 4hrs n 10bucks off or sth lidaT!!wow!!!haha..thanks KEVIN!!haha..he said he wun need em n gifing to me!haha..free KTV AT PARTYWRLD!!for a KTV freak lyk me..its jus like WWWWAAAAAHHHH!!!!*beaming with joy*!!:) will organise a session with em again!!mb after our PA bahs or one of the holidays!:)
i dunno if i shuld blog this..mb ive given too many peeps this link that ive realised that dere r stuff which i cant really blog them down..hahs..n dere mb peeps whom i dun noe but r reading all these..nvm..blogging is nv a private thing!CFM!!
2 more days to PA n im gg to spend them by gifing TUITION!haha..yah no choice..its exam period for them so yah..
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
its really not the end..
im unsure of how i should be feeling now!
tink im elated?or shld i be feeling ultra blessed? tink i was lucky..nearly lose this chance:p nearly failed..but now phew!we will definitely work hard ritex? meimei we mus jiayou!
tmr will be spent either blading at 8am or ktv at 11am! n no matter wad!tmrs gg kbox with felix yongjie n winnie at suntec at 7pm!!sighh..its at night again...gtta compromise:( ill take a cab home after dat..i can imagine myself holding back my fear in the cab taking the lift n into my house..im warned not to be bk late at night..n jus cox i realli wanna go ktv with them that im placing this bet on myself..this is the last..no more! im wondering if i can keep this promise..dunno if deres ctc gathering tmr afternn..
yeah its ktv tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!cant wait to meet them at 6pm!!!!!woohoo!!!!
tink im elated?or shld i be feeling ultra blessed? tink i was lucky..nearly lose this chance:p nearly failed..but now phew!we will definitely work hard ritex? meimei we mus jiayou!
tmr will be spent either blading at 8am or ktv at 11am! n no matter wad!tmrs gg kbox with felix yongjie n winnie at suntec at 7pm!!sighh..its at night again...gtta compromise:( ill take a cab home after dat..i can imagine myself holding back my fear in the cab taking the lift n into my house..im warned not to be bk late at night..n jus cox i realli wanna go ktv with them that im placing this bet on myself..this is the last..no more! im wondering if i can keep this promise..dunno if deres ctc gathering tmr afternn..
yeah its ktv tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!cant wait to meet them at 6pm!!!!!woohoo!!!!
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
jewel in the palace
planned to devote part of this entry to 'jewel in the palace'!
ive jus finished most of the episodes..cox still missed by a few..gtta finish em tmr afternn since mes gg to slack at home!!:):)
toking bt jewel...her spirit is definitely so admirable!dere r parts where its filled with sorrow, some with happiness, some with hatred, some filled with sweetness::) changjin's determination, perserverence, innocence, her willingless to sacrifice her life etc really set me thinking! compared to her im nothing!she lyk my idol!tink its a veri successful serial..it made me wanna weep with her, feel with her, hate with her, share her happiness with her..wow!emotional?yah tink maybe:P i lyk the ending..i lyk the ending cox changjin ended up marrying the guy she loves, one whu stood by her whenever she needed someone, someone whu truly understds want she needs, someone whu truly loves her, someone whus willing to sacrifice his top official post jus to start afresh with her..how sweet!
sometimes i do dream..dream of the special someone:P haha..toking bt dreams..was reading darius' blog bt dreams!hey darius, sometimes dreaming is good sia..but dun dream too much yeah?mus gt enuff rest!haha..
(oh no!feel lyk rewatching jewel again!haha)
yeah felix jioing ktv again!hopefully its gg to be this week!thurs?fri?
thurs morn gonna blade!dats if she recovers frm her flu!poor gal fell sick before her last paper which is tmr..sighh..my youngest sis oso..so unfortunate..me musnt fall ill ahs..gtta go slog 24/7 for the next 8 weeks!for PA for $ for my future..it can be considered my stepping stone for now..of cox me hope i can gt sth better!sth which i enjoy doing..sth which is closer to my dream..
im a dreamer..im too imaginative..sometimes its a disadvantage..it can be impractical..but everyone has his dreams..its a fairytale its when u wun gt hurt..its beautiful..even if its a bad one its temporary its fictitious..fallin into lala land..
he asked hws me n him..ive nv thot bt this qns for a lg time..suddenly i dunno hw to ans..yeah..hes busy i guess..hes so far yet those memories simply jus surfaced again..i din wan to..im sorry..its hard to thoroughly forget..im halfway dere..i wun forget..i choose to treasure wad i had..yah to treasure..sighh..i tink its part n parcel of growing up:P no choice lifes hard..im not as fortunate as changjin i guess..n in reality that kinda man wun appear..cfm dun haf!!haha
ive jus finished most of the episodes..cox still missed by a few..gtta finish em tmr afternn since mes gg to slack at home!!:):)
toking bt jewel...her spirit is definitely so admirable!dere r parts where its filled with sorrow, some with happiness, some with hatred, some filled with sweetness::) changjin's determination, perserverence, innocence, her willingless to sacrifice her life etc really set me thinking! compared to her im nothing!she lyk my idol!tink its a veri successful serial..it made me wanna weep with her, feel with her, hate with her, share her happiness with her..wow!emotional?yah tink maybe:P i lyk the ending..i lyk the ending cox changjin ended up marrying the guy she loves, one whu stood by her whenever she needed someone, someone whu truly understds want she needs, someone whu truly loves her, someone whus willing to sacrifice his top official post jus to start afresh with her..how sweet!
sometimes i do dream..dream of the special someone:P haha..toking bt dreams..was reading darius' blog bt dreams!hey darius, sometimes dreaming is good sia..but dun dream too much yeah?mus gt enuff rest!haha..
(oh no!feel lyk rewatching jewel again!haha)
yeah felix jioing ktv again!hopefully its gg to be this week!thurs?fri?
thurs morn gonna blade!dats if she recovers frm her flu!poor gal fell sick before her last paper which is tmr..sighh..my youngest sis oso..so unfortunate..me musnt fall ill ahs..gtta go slog 24/7 for the next 8 weeks!for PA for $ for my future..it can be considered my stepping stone for now..of cox me hope i can gt sth better!sth which i enjoy doing..sth which is closer to my dream..
im a dreamer..im too imaginative..sometimes its a disadvantage..it can be impractical..but everyone has his dreams..its a fairytale its when u wun gt hurt..its beautiful..even if its a bad one its temporary its fictitious..fallin into lala land..
he asked hws me n him..ive nv thot bt this qns for a lg time..suddenly i dunno hw to ans..yeah..hes busy i guess..hes so far yet those memories simply jus surfaced again..i din wan to..im sorry..its hard to thoroughly forget..im halfway dere..i wun forget..i choose to treasure wad i had..yah to treasure..sighh..i tink its part n parcel of growing up:P no choice lifes hard..im not as fortunate as changjin i guess..n in reality that kinda man wun appear..cfm dun haf!!haha
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