lie

no wonder dey say korean shows r capable of 'churning' tears, no matter how lighthearted the shw is, parts of it will unintentionally perform its well-known 'magic'

completed the final episodes of my girl a minute ago..yah..great show with a great ending which i had expected..its a nice ending which is good..so mb once in a while lies r not tt bad either huh?haha..must admit tt watching the shw was indeed heart wrenching. twds the back it jus gt worst..haha..wad to do u haf a freaky fran here!haha..oh well..:)

tink its the power of wad they call love dat eventually melted everyone's heart..even the grandpa whu was as stubborn as a mule decided to accept their r'ship n hence the ending..even the 'evil' ex-gerfran realised tt she had lost to wad is called love but not yulin--the female lead, hence..yah..even the cousin zhengyu decided to tok the grandpa out n asked him to gif the couple his blessing..cant feel zhengyu's helplessness..scenes shwing tt hes heartbroken, no matter hw hard he tried to protect her n even be her 'spare tyre', she just couldnt see him n reciprocate his undying love..in her eyes was only him..sighh..poor zhengyu..but wad to do cant accept means cant accept even u r with her physically her heart aint w u..its no use wad..yah..

so this marks the end of my days with my girl:) feeling a bit lost..its always this feeling after watching a shw esp one dat has certain impact on me..haha..weirdo right?no wonder my girl was so popular when it was screened in korea.weilin shld watch oso!haha..if we were to watch tgt tink von will die hafing to pass the tissue boxes here n dere!haha..letting this feeling sink n fade away as usual..

meanwhile, shall find other entertainment...go lib to borrow some books to read n facial after tuition tmr:)

hmm..my girl's gone..so wads next?haha shall wait n see

life as usual

din especially felt liberated after our jap papers ytd nite..haha..mb we were right bt slacking too much after 311 paper or shld i jus sae the whole sem had been a real slack one?haha..but thot the paper was alright..though me spotted a mistake when she said:'pens down'..oh well..forget it bah..haha

the 6 of us went cystal jade at jp for dinner..quite a cheap dinner n fortunately shared the noodles else will be feeling super full n with my rough estimate i had jus exceeded by 100kcal..nm eating less today n swim tmr morn


so u see its life as usual though me had graduated..nothing fanciful bt my life jus tt me wun be gg to ntu for classes..wun be tking the same route bk to hall..wun be staying in my little room where me spent nights when i cunt slp well..yah those were the days..a tinge of sadness dawned onto me while i was waiting cum napping ytd afternn for hs' msg..my near empty room with my photo collage n hall stuff taken down n barang packed into bags..sighh..looking on the brighter side me cant ne always staying dere n not graduate right?yah this wad mei told me when i expressed my sense of depression..im a sentimental sort i guess..dats y when me was so stressed up whilst in jcrc in yr 2 n had wanted to move out..me din in the end so my yr 3 jus whizzed past like noone's bix!but i can truly tell myself tt me enjoyed every bit of my yr 3 stay in hall 3! its part of my uni memory..where friendships were forged laughters were heard disappointments were felt..thank u nbs thank u hall 3!

mes up early as usual cos of mei's stupid handphone alarm which kept ringing at 7am!best!no once but countless cos its an every five mins affair!so might as well forget i t n wake up..so mes gg to watch 2 episodes of my girl bfore me go n prep to go out ltr...hmm wondering wad the briefing for our taiwan trip will be later..haha...n dads going to tk leave to send us off next fri..haha

had a squabble the day before..good tt the storm had calmed at least for now:) jiayou!down 3 papers 2 more!n its gonna be a great great trip next fri to thurs..haha..so hs dun nid to be afraid tt u will see 2 black faces!haha

okie so its my girl's time!!:)

to all my pals whu r still schooling: all the best peeps..enjoy ur schooling yrs make use of this period to haf fun slack n mug hard..go fulfill wadever u wan to dun ever let the word 'regret' surface in ya mind..live life to the fullest n without much regrets..though mes entering into the weking wrld a little earlier but tt doesnt mean cnt keep in touch ya? do include me in ya meetup plans hor!ill try to make it down so long as there aint urgent wrk commitments:) donna lead a diff life now..but u peeps will be joining me in this rat race soon!

to all my frans whu r graduating with me: hey peeps!its been a tough 3 yrs ya?great tt we r finally graduates!thanks for the times weve shared in uni..frm nbs hall camps to the mugging,complaining gossiping days!countless fun n laughter!haha..yah ill always remember this short 3 periods!so lets put everything down n enjoy our fill before serious wrk starts between july n sept!haha..n dun forget our 1st mth treat ya?haha..yah kj u starting the latest but we wun forget!!!haha..nice nice good feeling to be a graduate:)!!

freak

chiding for being such an emotional freak
relating to reality really suxs
tear welling moments do exist
touching? yah u bet!

fortunate to an extent tt it din develop dat way
yah..to constantly psycho tt it aint gg to happen
it cant happen
noeing its painful but it will fade
its for everyones good

quote from 'my girl': noeing its hot but refuse to admit it is, noeing its pain but refuse to feel it, noeing its call love but keep denying it

y?its for everyones good

to be hurt or not?choosing the former..choosing to be mum..choosing to forget..topple it with a pill call:'move on' plus some whipped cream call:'friendship' finishing it with a berry call:'kinship'---the result: renewed self

jus finished 3 episodes..next will be 11..tink its gonna be this state this mood till the end of the show..emotionally moved? mb me can jus replace e female lead in the show..oh well so tanned not korean-ish enuf

freak

chiding for being such an emotional freak
relating to reality really suxs
tear welling moments do exits
touching? yah u bet!

fortunate to an extent tt it din develop dat way
yah..to constantly psycho tt it aint gg to happen
it cant happen
noeing its painful but it will fade
its for everyones good

quote from 'my girl': noeing its hot but refuse to admit it is, noeing its pain but refuse to feel it, noeing its call love but keep denying it

y?its for everyones good

to be hurt or not?choosing the former..choosing to be mum..choosing to forget..topple it with a pill call:'move on' plus some whipped cream call:'friendship' finishing it with a berry call:'kinship'---the result: renewed self

jus finished 3 episodes..next will be 11..tink its gonna be this state till the end of the show..emotionally moved? mb me can jus replace e actress in the show..oh well so tanned not korean-ish enuf

my girl

watching a long overdue show rec. by von..too bored with mugging for jap:( at least mes done with the 7 exams papers..hmm..shall slack till after the 7pm shw..tmr shall go thru everything when mes gg out w mei to pw n mug..den its bk home for tuition session again:P stressed!

my girl's nice..its the kinda of bro n sis story again..warning: aint fun to be involved in one..result: at least one party will gt hurt..rationale: frm the start dey aint even related, its jus cos of some matter dat caused them to fake or 'cook up' this relationship so when one stops tinking or reg the other as bro/sis..the situation gts altered..yah..as for this drama..its clear wads the ending is like..similar to all typical shws..there will always be third parties ard..those whu really care but yet theirs r jus unreciprocated..haha..so me can be the director, script writer etc...

noeing how the developments will be like yt wanna continue..for one its cos mes bored w study, two?nothing really substantial for me to do? 3?though predictable n hurtful still wanna noe hw they finally gt tgt...

conclusion: dun let me have the time to slack! DUN!

perfecting imperfections

it was a splendid swim this morn!forget bt the sun..laps after laps..blessed with the cleaned, disinfected water surrounding me:) few peeps, sensed the calmness n simplicity in life..away frm the noises of kids, the naggings frm me, the buzz frm the working crowd..for an hr i was transformed back to my past:)the feeling was indescribable:) mon's gg be another session n im definitely looking fwd

wun be able to go bk to sch next mon n tue cos me kids r hafing exams n me gtta gif them extra sessions at home..hmm..betta msg von ltr:P

tired n feel like napping ya i will since me woke up at 6 today..haha..blame the bio-clock?haha..im used to it..even ygest sis asked:'y wake up so early when u dun nid to study?' haha..she mus haf thot tt mes a weirdo lahs..waking up at the same time as her n mes not preparing for sch..oh well..dis me:)

ytd was at raffles city n me decided on hafing soup spoon instead of the cheaper alternatives at the food court!haha..gd gd..yah me din realise tt it was the last time we could o/s tgt..yah..so she decided tt we should haf sth better!haha..as usual according to my one meal policy me had a clam chowder bread bowl similar to e me ordered when i was w zhiyu less than 2 weeks ago!haha..satisying..mei aint a pantry kinda of person..so left some bread n me ate them up for her..yup n after dat we went gloria jeans to mug..the drinks r ard 60 cants cheaper..as for tast wise..i prefer the espresso chillers the mocha ones taste weird...next time shall stick to the former when mes dere..yah o dats it for the day..haha..the doughnut factory's q was/is super long lahs..nv stopped at all during our 5 hrs 'stinct' dere!zhiyu saes not worth so mes quite skeptical alr..me walked past but they dun look as tempting as the ones sold at taka sq..so mb ill gif it a miss..gd tt me completed 2 jap papers when i was dere..hmm..shall do 2 more ltr after my nap den its tuition tonight..n for the next few days

aint perfect dats y mes always on my toes to perfect those imperfections..physical imperfections r especially obvious when bulges appear, when ur clothes feel tighter, when u start to use ur pimple cream, shades for shielding, when pple tell u dat u r veri xin-fu, when u r in ur costumes..mental imperfections occur when u r super concious, when u r sinking into depression, when u dunnoe hw to ctrl ur life, when u dunno wad the hell u r doing in this wrld..when uve lost ur goals in life..academic imperfections r the number of distinctions uve missed, the renowned schools where u shld haf gone to, the scholarships which u shld haf tried to aim for..interpersonal imperfections?relational imperfections? wad bt all these..dere r so many imperfect things in life..at least in mine..trying to accept as much as i can cos im sensible enuf to look ard n see tt there r poorer souls ard..always haf the urge to pass 10 bucks to the auntie seeling tissue paper outside the mrt station..empathise with her..sigh..when i m 'loaded' k,auntie?

moving home soon..mums correct in chiding me jus now..3 yrs of hall life had morphed me into another person..more independent but one whu noe not how to live with others..i agree..i dun really haf a personal space at home..wadever i say will not b pleasing to her ears. so im always choosing to keep my mouth shut unless necessary..hw long can this last? son? shes always complaining dat sons r better..keep mentioning bt whuever whuever's son..irritated cfmed! cmon lorhs..good cos hes capable enuf to gof his mum at least 6oo to 7oo bucks mthly wad..if he din do u tink his mum will praise him or even show off in front of the relatives? sighh..so it all boils down to money? i rem doing gd essays discussing on the good n ills of money..so it has becm a reality in life

hopefully the situation will be better..with me shutting up n try not to rebute n be so vocal bt my thots..praying hard tt it will work out

haha...cant wait to go taiwan in 2 weeks' time..a diff environment, quite bored with twn alr..dunno wad i can do mans apart frm shopping eating movie ktv-ing etc..ya toking bt ktv-in!where r my khakis??desperate craze to go!haha..oh well shall wait a little little longer:)

18th's over! gone!

yeah!today is finally going to be over!had 311 paper this morn n oh well towards the end, me was like so drained!miss ard 18 marks..poor time management but m quite confident of the rest so praying hard for dat b to appear considering my course wrork:0 the afternn ge paper was jus stunning..wadever she hinted din realli appear!bestest!m quite lucky dat me read up here n dere for me to crap my way thru so mb wun do too badly huh..so its one more n mes off le!

todays wed n yah 18th of april a strategic day is gg to be over in 34 mins time!mes slacking in my room..n its pretty empty now..tmr shld lug more home:) mtg mei tmr to mug for jap..hmm..wanted to eat sth nice but since mei wans cheap food court stuff den i tink its okie bah..ill jus tk the usual yong tau foo which i deem it as healthy..den its off to mug at cafe..undecided which one to go..shall go by instinct tmr!:)good good

todays thurs..n the call nv seem to come..i noe it will be lidis oh well so jus leave it n not tink bt it anymore..
gt a call frm keith yesterday, hes one of the founder of tinybox, a music company located in tg pagar, the school which groomed kelly poon..yah he left me a msg on friendster reg the new intake of students..n called to provide me with the details..pricing n time wise sd gd..it will be the 2nd course which i will be gg thru:) yeah! this time rd its gg to last 1 yr..both basic n advance course:)to improve to correct are my aim this time rd..:) 150 per mth i can still foot it..so it looks like my weekend will be filled with regular ktv sessionS!haha..good tt mei is gg with me oso..so we cn learn tgt...keith sds nice over the phone..mb he cn sing as well too!haha..hes a singing teacher too!beginning to like the name keith..haha..so tinybox will be my next sch after ntu:)so afterall me aint gg to be detached frm sch yah?this time rd its gg to be a sch where i can enjoy my favourite activity..very excited on music recording which is gg to be taught!!woohoo!!(beaming frm ear to ear now!!)

din noe tt kj noes rick..saw him today at src bfore we went in for exams..dunno y but me jus haf a feeling dat hes super zai!the more i see him the more zai i feel he is..haha..admiration setting in?haha..even daph cfmed tt hes good..okie so he mus be of a certain standing..competitor sia...can apply my 5 forces analysis here!.hmm.me shld learn frm him as n when possible:)ricks a nice name too!haha

was struck by a thot jus now..suddenly the word vocal struck me..n me realised tt me tend to notice guys whu r vocal..nt as in those whu like to brag bt how gd dey r day in n day out but those whu r really vocal n open bt their thots n thus make an effort on voicing out their views..not those whu try to attract attention..hmm..me oso dunno hw to describe but me jus now whu r those whu aint turned off! dats y me used to like my vj student councils president!haha..okie nw the victorians whu r reading this will noe this long secret of mine..wadever, so long alr..it aint a secret anymore..n hey dun gt it wrg hor..not max but a yr bfore us!geddit?if not go ask von!haha..so leadership quality is a must to haf in my future bf?or shld i sae gd to haf?haha..mus be able to provide me with directions, make decisions but not a big MCP!hate it when mes being ordered to do things..even my mum nv ask me to do this n dat lorhs..no wonder she always complain dat me nv help out with the household chores!haha..but still i din help..my sis oso wad..so no diff..hmm..shall find new eye candy soon!haha

okie..1200 n 3 mins to 19th april..haha..yawans..

oh yah went for a 15min jog with daph..shld haf ran for a longer period but she din feel well so we walked a 1/4 of the route back :) its off to the pool to tone up on fri n next mon!yes!toning!!

branding me

A good brand name should:

be legally protectable
be easy to pronounce
be easy to remember
be easy to recognize
attract attention
suggest product benefits (e.g.: Easy-Off) or suggest usage
suggest the company or product image
distinguish the product's positioning relative to the competition.

din actually wanna come online but gtta find out bt brand management techniques in case tmr will haf a qns on it..haha..yah so the bv r the characteristics of a good brand:)

wondering if these apply to branding pple?haha..such qns me shall leave till tmr after 7pm!:) haha

okie so mes still acc. to my schedule for the day:) n mes done with 311! finished gg thru all me had to n supposed to..so even if cmi den i guess dats it..tmr shall look thru the more impt parts bfore heading to sch:) cant wait for 311 to be over so me cant revise for 814 for the 5pm paper..den its off to hall to watch my girl!yeah:)!!happy shall slack n sleep early tmr:)

gg to nap again n study 814 for the rest of the day!

im happy..n im really fascinated by how the brain works..tink its common to feel familiar with some of the instances which we come across in life..for me it occurs very frequently..mb its cause of my sleeping habits dat leads me to haf 'extra' time for my brain to wonder? hmm..interesting..

m listening to this sg..not a new sg so it aint the first time im listening its actually one of the sgs for the taiwan idol drama-e zhuo ju zhi wen..zuan shi jie dou zhi dou..its veri nice in terms of lyrics, meaning...catchy chorus..yah the whole whole noes..haha..if the whole wrld noes..it wun be good i guess..unless its a happy incident/event worth noticing/celebrating:)

cant wait to go find yanshan!haha..mb bfore me leave for taiwan k? it will be nice to meet u bfore ur killer week n ur exams:)

call

puff!had an intensive studying session this morn..started at 645 n ended at ard 1045..trying to cramp wadever we had discussed ytd into my tiny brain..haha..not done still gtta complete e implementation topics..hmm..shall continue with those tonight n read thru tmr again..okie s dats it for 311..END OF STORY!
gonna take a nap ater blogging bfore me venture into memorising 814..wad the...long time nv memorise things le..as in academic wise..hate it..haha..oh well..complain now oso no use since the papers r another day away!cant wait!!

hmm..since mum's 'chasing' me out of the hse to mug on this thurs cos she wanna mop the flr..me shall head for a fav. mugging spot n do my jap papers!:) good good!so ask mei alg if shes free:)

mugged at wheelock's Bk on sat..weird place to mug as in ill nv tink of tt place if not for dat motive..thanks mei for gg with me dat day!thanks..gv me the motivation to go!thanks!to say me aint waiting for the call i will be denying..but oh well its an outcome which im expecting..at least with ur presence i spent time trying..tink its cos u r constantly doing likewise as well..thanks anw!todays mon so wait lorhs!hard not to be hopeful but feeling so is inevitable!haha

hmm..gtta cm aross a 'heavenly' place to slack at raffles place ytd!its the TCC at raffles place! went for the 311 discussion with hs, kj joey n iriss..yah shophse of 2 levels..i like the 2nd level!unique experience, sleepy ambience..rather quiet oso..realise the pricing is still alright..at least the cakes r cheaper?haha..n they haf a greater variety of drinks..wah!yanshan!been dere bfore..hmm..lets go dere n slack someday yah?hmmm cant wait to go back n slack!good recommendation cfm!

seems like a long time since ive stepped into kbox..hmm..6 to 7 weeks alr..cravings here!urghh..okie shall wait for mei to be done..2 more for her...so in the mean time shall entertain myself with swims n tuition!wah..the pool my pool!mb cos ive always been swimming since sec..so deres always a sense of calmness in me when im dere..the carefree feeling is good..its a form of ex which me wun feel the perspiration..deriving great satisfaction..haha..still remembered hw i used to make myself memorise lyrics of songs while swimming..haha..keep repeating n pacing myself..weird way right?tink it wrks..n oso din revision while swimming too..of cos its all in e head ya?haha..used to be a memory machine in sec n jc..ive degenerated due to the lack of practice?hahaha..mb?

was at novo on sat..saw a pair of very nice heels..tink i look good in it..even mei says so..tink its still okie..49.9..though ex but gd n pretty..n comfy i hope..tink this brand is cfm better than charles n keith..haha..shall gt at least 2 more for wrk:) yeah..cant wait..tink not gg hk alr..so shall spend on my wrking stuff like wad mei saes..n works gonna start on JULY 5...most prob!:) hoped i did create a reasonably good impression dat day..shant tink so much..braindead anw..okie..napping time..timecheck 12pm

socialising blues

starting to gt worried..yes..hafing serious socialising blues..mum n sis have their points..kpmg is a 'party' company..as an when dey like it dey will go pubbing etc..for them its their 'fun' culture? even when i clarified with em ytd..the senior assoc din deny..n the upcoming welcome party will be held at some club oso..oh mans..acc. to daphs fran..he said tt the partners n managers will drown the gers with drinks..n one of his guyfrans gerfran actually called him to go pick her up as shes gg to be drunk..alas..its true tt i can resist drinking n insist on taking non-alcoholic or those w lower alcoholic content?hmm..vodka lime sds okie but me aint shen...vodka lime will gt drunk too..hey even rum n raisin icecream alr cmi...sigh..caught in bet. yah true gtta protect myself..wad dey sae all make sense..n me has gt common sense too!all the news reports on rape cases n stuff..hw not to gt worried?mb im tinking too much..but in reality these do happen..even daph told me to be careful ytd esp in kpmg..alas! i like to socialising but it definitely comes with a heavy price to pay!

jus cm bk frm a mugging n revision session from parkway today..at least was at coffeebean!n nw im so full after the mudpie, the pita sandwich n my reg vanilla mocha iceblended!full like puking right now..feeling real guilty n SINFUL!but wad to do..craved for quite sometime n me aint quite satisfied w the sandwich which cm in a small portion..so yah went ahead w the mudpie..shall go swim on mon if dats possible bfore me n mei go out to mug..cnt wait to slim down..if a slimming company nids an endorser ill volunteer gladly!haha..fat hope mans!haha..unless me start my own den ill be my own endorser!haha
realised 814 really has a lot to memorise..all the techniques n stuff..wah..was reading thru the past yrs qns jus now..sort of gt a sense of wads happening..so yah jus gg to focus n depend on my photographic memory alr!GOB MUS BLESS ME!n me mus be done by sun for 814!

okie jus printed the exam case study..n thanks mei for letting me use the printer yah..thanksthanks!shall go nap bathe n start at 8+ gtta finish everything by tmr night..so bfore mtg hs kj n joey on sun..me can revise my ge..its gg to be fast n furious!really!

yeah!fri gg meet hs to pay up for e remaining of our trip!gd gd...at least no nid to go alone..quite afraid of gg chinatwn cos alot of old men dere n me dun realli now the way ard people's park..was quite turned off by the massage parlours when me n yanshan went during the CNY period!so thanks hs!!:)

had my jap oral today..haha..it was really super fast lahs..even i was stunned when she said arigatou gozaimashita after asking me like a few qns..the period was rapis however, i think me did make a few mistakes..haha..wadever, its over so forget it!but i like my sensei:) shall gt at least a B+ so tt her hard wrk wun go to waste n of cos a gd grade will do justice to myself as well for being consistent?haha..

quite glad this weeks over, cos dat means im done with 814 pres n 311 pres..felt weird pres alone this morn..dunno y...haha..but hoped me din flop the pres right?since dr chan din pose any mind boggling qns means he understd wad i said!haha..gd gd so it realli pays well to be prepared:) phew!so pres r over!was telling kj n hs dat i thot these were my last presentations...on second thots!IM WRONG!cos for my work ive gtta constantly do presentations to managers, directors, clients..different audience bases..okie..mes hafing jitters..i mean all my life ive onli presented to peers, teachers etc..but now?oh mans!thinking a bit far but its really gg to be coming true! okie im gg to pyscho myself..its part n parcel of my work..i chose this path..i knew it frm the start..me can jus go to tax n audit which have fewer nid to do such 'public' pres...but yt i decided on risk...yes..so i chose it i shldnt regret n by right i shldnt be complaining!but wad to do..this is my blog..ive onli gt here to complain n 'pen' down how im feeling..communication with mei n mum wun help cos dey wun understd..jus like when i told em excitedly bt the socialising ytd..they had their fair share of comments..fair cos wad they sae aint wrg but its oso cos of those comments which caused me to be grappling with fear with regards to the company..

quite happy tt our cesim game gt 8/10..heehee:) yah wanna realli thank kj n hs for their hard wrk analysing the strategies n stuff!!!owe u two a big one for my this gd grade!!thanksthanks!! n mes wuite satisfied with my 10% quiz result..too bad mes so blur to haf missed out the last qns..if me cld haf scored at least a % more!aiyas..guess its alright?n hey prof no nid to write dat big on my paper to tell me tt me missed out the last qns right??haha..but thanks for the full grad for th 5 forces!!haha..first time in my uni life ive gtta a 'gd' as a comment!!haha..felt great!!hmm..jus gtta do well for my exam to secure another b:) n hopefully for 814 can gt a b as well!so me cn maintain my b grade

tink its quite impossible to gt a 2nd upper cos majority bs..sians..dat means my pay will remain at 2.4k..for kp dey r paying 2nd upper 2.6 n 1st class 2.8!wah kaos..wun haf my share this time rd:) oh well me aint always lucky lah huh? hmm..quite glad tt me will haf opp to travel overseas for job assignments..daph said tt for audit it will be at least 2 yrs for them to be sent overseas on a job...realli looking fwd..sds challenging!who ask me to like travelling?haha

quite happy for a moment..quite surprised to see them again..yah the gang again..n i bet hs did realise their presence in the can b after our 311 class oso..haha..hw small can the canteen be when it wasnt even crowded n they had to sit at the table behind ours..tink dey were surprised too..cfmed..okie..since its the last day of sch..its quite a nice little surprise..gtta c my yr 3 sem 3's eye candy:) haha..happy..so here u r reading the blog of a guy crazi fran!haha..but seriously speaking he cfm fits the bill i tink..oh well..hey JOLEEN!EYE CANDY REM!!yah n so me sint gg to see them or him again..haha..no wonder partner always saes dat me cnt b a lesbian cos im always so super duper boy crazy!haha..whey!wads wrg to be boycrazi? cos he has gt the std dats y mah..okie shant go on else it will be nv-ending!haha..cnt wait for exams to b over n gossip bt them with hs!haha..tink ill jus bore hs to death!haha

hmmm..kj saes my entries r always so long..trutrue..but everytime me always feel good after blogging:) realli..cos its a way of putting wads embedded within me here..so if ya peeps feel tt they aint interesting..go ahead n skip paras!haha..dats wad my mei does!haha..

its a way for me to express myself..n destress..yah..so shall owarimasu now!!haha..cnt wait to practise the 7 jap papers..look omoshiroi desu..haha..

nihon ngo nga dai tai suki desu demo he ta desu. sensei, arigatou gozaimasu. good luck to my tomodachi for rai shuu to sa rai shuu no shi ken! mata rai shuu no sui you bi! sayonnara!

socialising

todays the 13th alr!yah n in 5 days me will be almost freed!woohoo!!hmm..shall go mug real hard for 811 after jap's oral today bfore me head back home n concuss!gd cant wait for my vanilla mocha!okie n dat shall serve as a motivation for me to memorise my 811..haha...oh well..gtta revise cos cn only seem to rem parts:( kempate!n shall wrk on the case which will be out today for the entire day tmr n tonight!!sweat!

ytds acceptance party at brewerz was alright i guessed..hmm..6 of us risk assoc in the risk advisory department..so since we were the 'rare' minority, we were allocated a corner of the area..thot it was quite cosy though us gers were complaining tt we had to stand for the entire 2+ hrs on our heels!haha..resisted tking beer cos of todays presentation n mes afraid i wun be sober for jap oral ltr!haha..yah..

out of the 6 i gtta noe 2 as in realli noe noe..haha..another 2 were alright..n i guess dey only recruited 2 guys into the team!haha..one of them is rick..nice name...i guess hes quite zai oso!wah..mes cmi..oh well..had a feel of was kpmg's party life was like ytd..mb cos its the first time hence its wasnt really a good feeling after feeling dizzy after a while..mb due to the noise..nonetheless gtta now a bit more bt wad im in for..at least ive gt my frans w me:) hopefully dey r helpful..haha..gd gd...n the senior assoc was saying dat me dun nid to be in blazer everyday!hmm..shall so dere n observe wad the peeps wear!

i tink im always veri lucky!the risk department is gg to move to a new premise which is gonna be across the road!cool!!new furniture, new chairs wtc..no nid to use old ones!!haha..jus like this hall which mes staying!everything new!!great!haha

tink exam period is a time when peeps really drown themselves in caffeine!!kaoz!went to 2 vending machines n the nescafe were SOLD OUT!so at 732am mes drinking 100 plus to 'perk' me up dun tink it does nvm will be mtg huishan in 25 mins for brekkie n den its off for class..pres..case test review n slack den 5mins oral den mes gg to escape le!

haha...okie betta go prep for sch:)
next weekend will be diff!!

meimei jiayou!we can go haf fun n ktv n we shall go visit the ktv pub!!:) so cool..cant wait ger!all the way den u will be in yr 3 le!

fun sake

decided to just give it a try for fun sake,regardless of the outcome at least ive tried:)

mei said mes AA..hmm..really?but wad did i do?me really 'tone' down alot alr..where gt AA?pls enlighten me someone!haha

gonna sleep..din nap today..so unusual right?cos after jap class at 1230 today, me n von went to CS to print notes, can b for light lunch n den off to Jp to mug..so sad tt coffeebeans closed so had to make do with mcafe..hmm..cheaper but smaller serving..oh well not dat bad i guess..was dere frm 3 to 6..at least me completed my last mindmap for ge!haha..great so now can really conc on studying n memoring the theories n stuff..so sick mus memorise..okie understd if dat sds better?urghh..tmr 311's case is gonna be out n me shall spend half of my free day tmr to do CS, the rest of the day to churn out the framewrks etc for 311..hmm..thurs shall continue oso..gtta revise for oral for fri's jap oral test..haha..jus whack i guess..after this fri its gonna be 311 n 814..nothing else till the 18th den shall be full-fledged jap..tink it wun be tt bad cos mes almst done with it:) good!

looking fwd to kpmg's invitation party on thurs night..sds cool right?hmmm..filled with apprehension though..mtg my bosses colleagues..bestest me forgt the names of my interviewers!:( not a good sigh though..luckily msged daph ytd..else will be overly formal..hmm...great me shall be in my best n comfy outfit..at least its more me!more joleen!hhaa..hmm..not as in best best..jus a formal white sleeveless top with my beige mango skirt!n heels n shoulder bag..heh!at least me will feel comfy in this i feel:) fun fun!

was quite interested to find out hw much me will be able to earn in 10 yrs or shld i sae for me to wrk frm a low level risk associate to a direstor?dats if me stay long enuf n mes dat capable..haha..n shall base on the most conservation cal with perf bonus n rank increment..dat will be ard 12 yrs to earning the first million+..note its earning!!!not saving!!!haha..so if it aint such a conservative cal..mb 10 yrs?haha..

mums funny...she used to tell us tt caucasians wun make good bfs..or at least telling us not to haf angmohs bfs or husbands...i mean nt dat we will gt but jus saeing or warning..cos she said they haf 'high sex drive'..hmm..i dunno if its a myth or fact oh well mes jkus quoting ya!haha..n now cos she heard dat some relative's daughter is married to one, haf migrated n living super well with her angmoh hubby earning 30+k per mth etc, she started to 'hint'?dunno mans...sometimes i tink me mums very cute..contradicting herself mans..so me jus answered..yah dats good...n luckily e conversation ended dere haha

can tell mums really getting worried..dunno but can sense her agitation over this daughter of hers still be single n wonder if shes gg to jus remain so..haha..though she keeps saeing n 'preaching' bt the disadvantages of marriage n starting a family, its clear dat she hopes dat we will be married off well..yah which parent on earth wun right?haha..2 days ago was on the topic up raising up kids..yah was mentioning bt my cousin n hubby whu r both 36 tinking of sending their only son to a private nursery/kindergarten..hmm..mind u hes only at the tender age of 2!n dey r tinking of it alr!yah n it aint cheap ok!the bill is lyk 2k..acc. to mum..but i tink its a little less...mums was complaining dat its too ex n its like wasting money lahs...esp. when theres like the kindergartens run by the PAP...hmmm..i was dere for 3 yrs including nursery..not much of an experience or me cant rem since i was too yg..i guess in the future me wun be sending my kids dere..considering dat me cn afford a better edu for my kid y not!i dun mind spending more by sending him to a private sch..at least deres like proper learning,mb couple with music lesson etc etc..n mum went quiet..the disparity is great..then n now..

i guess as i climb further up..our distance will b drifting further...mentality will be changed..views will differ, conflicts will surface..unhappiness will arise..i noe i noe..im trying to minimise all these n m gtta minimise all these!cos we r a family they r my parents whu haf provided me with so much..im really grateful for wad im now for all the investments in terms of time n money..i thank mum n dad! no matter wads the status im proud to tell everyone dat u r my parents!

working twds it n the motivation is so stg tt its becoming overbearing on me:) yt the responsibility is so great dat me wun be able to share it in the near future..
feel like doing wad i like..hopefully everything will wrk out well:) i really hope!

okie 2308//sleeping time!14 days to graduation n fun!!!

ENVY!

CAI MING YOU? who's he?u may be asking now..feeling bored with my ge dats y came online to send joey the slides for thurs pres..yah so cai ming you is this singer!yesyes!!!this sg which u r NOW listening to!haha..n this song title is wo ke yi..

its really a meaningful sg..ming you is onli 19 n hes so talented..sighh..mes feeling old..haha..this sg is used as the theme sg for corner with love too..remembered listening to it at kbox while felix was trying to song..haha..hmm..tink he has since mastered it alr?shall ask him to sing when we do haf another session..hopefully dere will be one after exams..haha

din realli listen carefully till i read the comments on the site..yah its realli touching n sweet..imagine a guy whu tells u dat he likes u so much tt he wanna watch the stars with u n stuff??haha..sweet!but HOLD ON!!its a fairy tale! boys nowadays aint lidat only happens in show lahs..so yah gers n keep on dreaming for this day for this dialogue n still dream, cos this day will never come true!hhaa

read the sunday times this morn..theres an article written by sumiko tan on envy.yah n i agree with her tt we r envious of others..being envious doesnt bring us happiness, it brings competitiveness n unhappiness to our lives..will nv be satisfies with ourselves..n she correctly pointed out the targets like the hype gg ard these few days reg the ministers' pay rise, the pay of the various CEOs, the queue attracting buyers way before the launch of the high end condos..yah high end condos..still not so bad..todays sunday times reported on the family living in sentosa cove!my god!!!nearly 3m for one plot!!n gt personal boat etc...wanna cry alr..n yah this feeling is ENVY!!

cant wait for after exams..dunno y but mes hafing a crazy idea of starting wrl in june intead..looks like me aint hafing ani prog after my trip to taiwan n waiting for pei to finish her exam so m cn bring her out for the treat..n of cos off to zhiyu's place for a 'cooking' session!haha..but its silly to start only after a mth's break!arghhs..balancing boredom with freedom..which one??start early means hafta be clad in office wear earlier..hmm..not a veri nice thot..betta go find out the KP's dresscode..sian!aiya so troublesome not jus gif me a uniform????!!!!:P

cravings

me n my good fran zhiyu!!yah 9 yrs of franship!!dats relli long my dear:) many more yrs to come ya??cheers!!!



me during 'in the mood for love'!haha..long overdue photos..but oh well still not too late i guess..this event is to celeb valentines day..haha..n hw cm its a photo of my sideview?go ask the hall's publication sec!!!haha..mus be the front cmi lahs!haha..but my hall senior saes they r well tken esp those in the hall's mag..haha..she said they r shi qing hua yi!!hhaa..hw cm i dun tink so??:P



hmm..this is shannon..haha..photo snatched frm hall webbie..n so this event was held 2 mths ago--'in the mood for love'


hmm...lotsa of cravings especially when im studying..haha

shall go pw to mug this coming mon:) the fresh aroma of regular ice-blended mocha..yumyum, the sweet layered blueberry cheesecake,the chocolate of a thousands leaf, the mudpie..the original cheesecake..cool!oh no!mes suppose to do up my CS ppt but mes like hafing mental block:( informed quite last min. n mus send by tmr:( oh no..n its alr 1053pm!my bed time:( shall wake up at 530 to mug jap n complete the slides..but thanks joey for compiling..uve gtta jiayou n grad w us ahs!

guessed its in my nature to wanna be super prepared for everything especially for exams..yah n this is reflected in my tutoring style as well..feeling guilty for planning grad trip in such a way tt it will most prob coincide with their exams..sighh..cant be with them during the 'crisis' week..dats y mes gg to make it up for the cming 3 weeks..n worse still next week's classes will be reduced to one cos of 311 prep n ge exams on the 18th..so dats like fewer time to help them out..however, its comforting tt me had finished the exam syllabus for one of them..gtta jiayou for her bro's...hopefully dey can do better..

gtta change this attitude of mine i guess..i mean it may be good to be prepared n always wanna be prepared..i hate hafing to plan stuff at the last min..cant really stand last minute stuff e.g. a sudden meetup out of nowhere..its my nature to plan i guess..i must noe exactly wad im gg to do or expected to do for the weeks to come etc..jus like ive always arranged mtgs way in advance with my friends, making sure tt they r way informed weeks or days before..yah so this me.. on second thots, in the wrking wrld it will be different..me will hafta adapt to last min requests n wrk demands..really afraid tt me wun be able to cope with such changes..a panicky me will surface..oh man:( cant possibly tell the in-charge to book me beforehand right?haha..ill get hell i guess..so gtta change..give n take is the key i guess..

real tired these few days but m glad tt mes almost done with my 311 notes:) yippi so once the case is out on wed me shall wrk on it full fledge! shall complete my jap revision for next tues' n fri's listening n oral on mon..n tmr n mon shall complete the notes for 814 ..tues to fri will be mugging for 814 i mean memorising..with sat n sun focusing on 814 n 311..n shall do the third rd of revision for 814 n 311 on mon n tues..shall gif myself a break on 18th after 7pm n slack in hall to watch my girl..den its off to peoples park on the 19th to pay off the remainder of our pkg..n shall spend the next few days gifing tuitions n revise jap..n den!!its 25th alr!!!haha..

(decided to msg n isnt regretting..feeling good? mb)

yawns..

feeling so sleepy right now..yet its only 925pm...wanted to go study my jap in prep for next week's listening and oral yet mes like so drained..finished one n a half chap of 311 n yah did the notes..supposed to make a trip to coffeebean this afternn but in the end was so dead tired dat i decided to stay at home n mug instead..yawns..shall go slp after this entry yah..

haf decided to train for the half marathon..zhiyu mentioned dat day so thot y not since me has gt nothing to do after exams..so its gg to be the pool, the beach n orchard!haha..wad else?orchard= shop and slack!haha..wanna go jog at east coast my 8km but to prep for 21km..me shall slowly build up my stamina with 16km nonstop den increase frm dere..okie dat sds far!! me wanna go brush up my blading skills as well..so super exciting!imagine exercising thrice per week!wah! okie coupled with my slimming regime hopefully its gg to wrk even more!yah it gotta wrk..wait till i see those bucks ill definitely go beauty n slimming parlours

since mes gg to slp early soon mes goona wake up early to finish up the chap n mug for jap, gif tuition n continue another 311 chap..sat n sun will be doing up the notes for CS mod, revise jap n finish up 311..exams cming fast n 3 papers will be gone FAST as well..toking to clarence now..haha..mes still an undergrad dude!haha..yah till the 25th of this mth..after dat..hmm..mb u can call me a risk assoc..oh well but me haven gone for my convo so no nid to be so enthus lehs

oh yah!wanna THANK VON, LIN, CLARENCE, DARIUS and EMMA for the DKNY fragrance!din expect really..n the scent is really great dear von!thanks for hafing such gd taste!!hmm..no wonder we r buddies maN!we haf good taste inclu lin!!hahaha..n guys dun puke!haha..realli like the bottle n the apple scent..so sweet smelling..okie dat will make me sweeter..haha..okie..gif u the pass to go puke noW!hhaa:)thanks babes n dudes!!cant wait for clarence n darius to COME BACK!haha..den we shall go ktv!!!n really haf a good catch up!really!!

last fri was great cos me had a great great company--my dearest fran frm my sec 1 n 2 tk class..so so glad to haf kept in touch with u ger!though we aint in the same class n sch for 4 yrs n din really keep in contact in uni jus a few meetups here n there, we r still as close!:) this feeling is great dear:) shall date u to go blade w me oso! n we shall go jog yah!hmm..i mean i will jog but u can run!haha..tok bt blading shall ask hs n kj n mei oso..but me mus be sure tt me aint gg to fall again!with my big blueblack frm last last week's fall..im really scared of hafing them alr..so grateful tt it was better esp when mes a frequent swimmer..so ugly n paiseh!oh yah n cnt wait to go zhiyus hse..u can bake brownies while me shall 'show off' my 'pasta making' skills!haha..hmm idiot proof tts y i noe!haha

was toking bt my pri sch fran-cherilyn this afternn..mum mentioned bt her..cant really rem what led her to it..oh well the main pt is tt we were toking bt how capable her mummy is n hw she will be able to follow her mum's footsteps..admire her when i was yg..so pretty, has a 3 storey terrace, always using the latest gadgets in twn..one unfortunately thing was dat shes brought up single-handedly..nonetheless, cos her mums an exec..guess it made her life much easier n happier?i dunno cos we werent close animore since she went dunman high..met her in jc again n dere!at the age of 18 she gt a yellow sports car if me nv rem wrgly which she drove to sch everyday..talk of the sch mans..n me n sis were the lucky few to be one of her passengers..cool! yes..studies wise shes dere too..i mus admi im jealous..haha n still i guess

mummy saes gers whu r pretty n capable will lead a hard life..i noe whu she meant not onli my frans mum but oso my ma's frans..either divorced or gt dumped by hubby...n so happened tt they r pretty with the former being attractive and capable..told ma tt me wld rather be pretty n capable n she went quiet..guess she din noe wad to sae..she like to ask bt darren..haha..hmm..think she gt the wrg idea..haha..shes afraid i guess..was tellin her all the benefits i will be enjoying as an exec(hopefully) in the future, the material stuff me can gt to own n be able to provide for her as well..she seemed to be accepting my idea..ma ended saeing 'tt's if u r really tt capable!'

yah!its true n mes gg to ensure tt mes gg to reach tt position!nothing till now haven i achieved wad ive wanted..as in academically wise..yah so mes cfm gg to push myself dere! high in the hierarchy the status the corporate ladder! i aint gg to be satisfied with the lower position, to be jus another employee in the company..being in the 'limelight' since sec 1 me aint willing to be a nobody..dats y me contemplated to be a politician, dreamt to be in the entertainment industry etc etc..its all bt fame popularity n stuff..haha..so now the 2 dun seem possible ive gtta another chance to prove dat im able n i will be dat able!

love thurs cos i love to read URBAN tt comes with straits times..reports n articles on fashion trends n styles..cool suggestions..n wads is it like to be a socialite? very rich elegent pretty with a super rich hubby n family backgrd..?are these all?i mean wad r the rest of the criteria?imagine spending 16k on a gown..my god!life as a socialite sds so fun..gtta attend galas n idinners which only U and other big names r invited!gtta dress up like a doll..wear beautiful expensive gowns..put on makeup n haf ur hair all done up by celebrity hairstylists n make up artists like david gan n andy lee..grabbing everyones attention n haf the media oogle n dying to intervv u etc etc..socialites life seem slack..life aint gg to be a bitch animore!

oh well not even an exec now..jus an uni grad gg to start climbling the corp ladder..with a miserable income of 2.4k per mth..not 24k hors! when will i reach tt stage mans?unless...haha..starting to dream again!haha..tired u see..haha..

but mes very sure tt me wun jus stop dere..2.4k aint gg to be jus 2.4k its gg to grow exponentially...gonna enjoy n learn as much..grab wadever opp for me to perform..cos i aint simply satisfied to be jus another joleen i wan to be tt JOLEEN whom everyone noes n wanna now! my fighting spirit is back!not gg to back down cos i noe if i do my dreams my aspirations will crumble..n ma dun worry even if me aint gtting hitch ill be providing u n pa with the best i can!best living environment best food best life which will definitely be tonnes betta than now!n i believe i can!

its time to sleep...time:1016pm

(tmrs his day..wishing u happy birthdsy..yah happy birthday)

awakening

thanks zw!

surprised by the way u handled my problem..realli dun expect ya to publicly 'annouce' n whack him so hard..thanks really!

sorri to haf caused u to lose a fran..hopefully he didnt realli mean it n its jus cos he cant take this sudden betrayal on my part..

no matter wad..its realli good to af such a great pal like u whus dere to ting4 me all the way!!haha

yah n promise u dat u will gt the bestest treat when me gt my first paycheck but dun whack too hard sia!!haha..dun wanna leave on grass for the after dat!haha

thanks a million..other than a big big THANK YOU!!its still a BIG BIG THANK YOU!!!

aim high, work smart, hit max!

im so motivated!!haha..

came back hall early cos ltr deres a 311 quiz..so mes settled in my room:)if not for this, me wld haf gone swimming n be bk tmr lahs!oh well..hopefully wed and fri wun rain else ill reallie 'sweat'!haha..

so so motivated realli..these few days the neighbours r all so excited over the upgrading prog..as for my family we voted 'no'..wads the point?i mean small means small mahs..wads the diff w another utility room?u might as well name it store room lahs!bestest n weve gtta pay so much for it?hmm..at 10+k..not alot actualli..if mes like julin..so capable so smart so pretty n earn 12k per mth!wads 10+k mans!but seriously not worth!

mes gonna aim high wrk smart n hit the max. increment n performance bonus with my stay in kpmg!so so motivated lahs!working hard wun do wrking smart will!n me cant wait for the bucks to be rolling in!with me upgrading to prada, gucci etc..owning gold card den platinum card..travelling ard gg on hols w my family n frans..eatin at higher end rest. cool!n gonna save up to gt a bigger house enuf for my family..with good accessibilty..signing up for facial pkges for ma etc etc..cool!well after another 2 yrs mei will be out too so we shall wrk towards the dream hse!:)mum brought up a gd point ytd..no matter wad weve gtta gt another hse basing on our ability shldnt sell the current flat..makes sense i thot..so we shall rent this out end extra cash for them n MOVE tgt!!:) i cant wait for the day when mes capable enuff to go 'hse searching'!

i wanna be able to provide the best for family!hey look study for 18 yrs to haf come thus far an honours grad with a above ave. job..i aintgg to be satisfied with jus gettin married off early den degenerate with kids ard!no no no way i tell u!last time mb but now focus has changed!marry can..but wait..:P

16 days to my first 2 papers n after tmrs meetup with my dear zhiyu me will spend the next five days mugging at home!haha..n thanks mei for lending me ur blackie top!!gonna dress well for the last lect n since mes gg out so might as well!

goal for the week: complete own notes for 311 chapters, finish studying jap syllabus for next week's listening n oral exams, complete the notes for cs814..so next week me can conc on revising these mods n preps for 2 presentations!n after 18 mes more or less done!cool right..25th will be the last time mes tking a NTU paper..may not be the last paper in my life cos tinking of pursuing masters in hospitality..shall see hw wrk goes..my interest is still in the hospitality n tourism arena..but oh well it will be quite some time ltr till i will be in touch with exams!

can u understand hw im feeling now?excited!!realli!:)

so happy cos meis asking if mes able to go study w her next week..haha..of cos can!!dat will be my revision week!n me shall go mug at coffeebean pw this thurs!!wed thurs fri all activities packed cum mugging!!

im lufing my life now!n my goals my aims r coming true!!:)

simply luf being this joleen!