workaholic?

woohoo..its onli 913am on a sun mon n im alr onlinE!haha..was 'supposed' to log on ytd nitex but was too engrossed with jewel in the palace!haha..jus cnt stop my finger frm pressing the 'next' button after finishing an episode!haha..n ended up glued to the screen for 4.5hrs!haha..eyes hurt sia!gonna finish it by wed?haha

tmrs may 1st!!yah its may alr..oh dear!!nearly half the yr is gone..bleah:P a week more of slacking..im gonna pack my stuff..the notes , the papers the books..headache!!cant wait for my sis to end her exams on wed!den its gonna be blading on thurs morn!!yippee!!half a yr alr..hoping me cn still make it!!den fri haf og outing..still hafta gt a handbag n stockings!sigh..den sat n sun?tuitions lorhs..

toking bt handbag n stuff me n mel went orchard to shp for our pa stuff..was so lucky to haf bought 2 skirts n a blazer frm iora at a disct!dey cost 107 onli!!happie!bought a pair of covered POINTED heels frm charles n keith at 37 n me n me sis had to collect it at suntec:p haha..the best was at metro paragon!spent 145 on 10 loreal products!its lyk hell lahs nv bought so much or shld i sae spent so much on my face bfore!thanks mel for waiting for me yeah?heehee..thanks alot ger!!as i was saeing it was jus wah..from the veri basic facial foam to the full makeup!tink my mkup skills can be enhanced!haha..

mb its cox of influence which has led me to tink dat proper skincare is really important!no more facial foam n dats it..alot of work has to be done to protect the skin especially the face!yah!the face!its a weld where the face is considered everything...yah i guess its all bt the face..i mean its the first thing pple will notice when dey tok to u or see u ritex..its the first impression!but well of cox going deeper..personality attitude manners IQ n EQ count much more!!

gonna WORK for 2 months till 30th june in EY for PA n its makeup everyday!of cox except sat n sun lahs!haha..apart frm this mon to fri 830-530 wrk..tink my sat n sun will be spent on giving tuitions yah so dat means me basically will be super packed for these cming 8 weeks!jus accepted a job offer to gif tuition at dao nan pri sch during weekends again!haha..25 bucks for 1hr n 20mins!!haha..its gonna start on the 22nd july sat..so ct peeps!hopefully our taiwan trip will b during the weekdays:)

so packed so packed!luckily not staying in hall after 4 weeks den cn conc on schooling during the week n wrking during the weekends!wah!my life jus revolves rd wrking!tink gtta gif up one tutee n most prob will be the china boy at bedok..sighh..feeling a bit bad yeah..but shall see how yeah?saving up for lotsa things..taiwan trip w mei next year..grad trip to mb hongkong next yr(no $ to go further..haha)n oso mb to slimming centre?haha..shall see yeah?haha..

im forever dissatisfied with myself w wad i haf with everything..to sae that im a high achiever?i dun tink so..to consider myself as jus an average?im unwilling to..alot of dreams a lot of hopes, a lot of aspirations but yet so little time..suddenly im feeling that ive not enuff time to accomplished wad i wan..veri soon we will be hitting 30,den 40 next will be elderly!!!!oh no!!im going to be so so old!!since young ive been fearful of growing old..yah im afraid..ill rather die young..mb 60?no no..i cant imagine..im scared n the fear is gripping me again!

mb i will b better off mugging so me wun haf this sort of time to tink n relect n frighten myself w the unnecessary..haha..

ltr will be quite exciting i tink..im telling myself to jus go with a calm mind n treat it as a normal n usual affair..a time for me n me sis to enjoy n reminisce those times we had n most importantly to haf fun!haha..den ill be bk for my jewel again!!den tuition at night again!!

haha..its not the end yet as ive gtta prepare my tutees for their exams which can be considered as mine too!!!

hey ctc gang hope to meet up soon yeah?n yanshan too!

it's the first step...

wah!!!
finally im 1.5 days away frm my freedom!!
haha..cant wait..

gg to aunt's hse after thurs paper to visit my little nephew!!!xuanpeng!!haha..so cute
fri is gg be a shpping spree with mel for our pa stuff...blazar suit, bag, shoes, makeup,shirts..wahs gonna cost me a bomb mans!!two bombs?or 3?haha..mes gg cranky!!

currently watching jewel of the palace n im halfway thru the vcds i tink..haha..cant wait to devour them all after thurs..

my PA will be starting soon..sighh..at least me wnt be rotting at home!!dats good:)
3 mths no classes n no nid to mug n do tuts..lalala...:)

next will be camps alr..camps? not so involve dis cming year i guess..jus dere to look for potential eye candies so dat my year 3 days will pass faster?haha..eye candies in nbs bahs..hall unless im super lucky!!haha..wah morphing into a desporado!!haha..no lahs:P

its my first step or shld i sae its our first step?i wish i hope im trying..its the first step to reach the stars or even the moon..i mean my moon!hopefully with faith we can conquer..with faith we can succeed..with faith n hard work..its about hafing faith n skill n luck..hungry for it..never been so hungry bfore!!

counting down to 27th may 1200hr

amused?

yah im jus simply amused..

its been ages since ive received any msges on my friendster. to me, my friendster acct. is jus for shw..today gtta cm online cox me was super tired of studying after numerous days of intense studying with my day starting at 6+am n ending at 11+pm/12am:( of cox napped a little here n there..

came online cox me gtta print my exams paper oso:( alas..sians..esp. when im not done with my revisionS!!tell me hw to be done when im onli able to atart full fledge last week?oh mans..haven started revision for my last paper..which is risk!tink im taking a risk n MUST start tmr else im risking of da-paoing:( no mans!!

my aim: 6Bs for this sem!!

gtting back to my main point..yah as usual checked mail n everything..
was a bit curious when i received 2 friendster notices- one is a new fran request the other? a msg...

yah a msg..a msg frm dunno whu mans!!his name is demian as shown..
im jus so amused, amazed, puzzled by this..i mean comeone can jus view ya profile online n jus try to 'hook' u up? okie..put it in a better way: try to get to know you..i tink its jus so absurd!!yah this is a high tech wrld..a wrld of connectivity etc. it happened last yr bfore i tink..me jus ignored..
as for this? was disgusted dat he typed almost a few length of stuff introducing himself to me..his height n weight..his hobbies, his occupation...

HELLOs!!
i dun remember posting anything asking for an arranged marriage or im not yet a member of SDU! so funny..was reading n thot it was jus so ridiculous!
someone whus 30, from nus biz-ad, wrking in the admin services...da da da..
jus so unbelievable...

first it was in a jap eatery in town
next it was a beng on the steet
a nus, bball guy in the neighbourhood
guys in campuses
poly, army guy at somerset
weirdo on the bus
now?
even online?

wah?freaks sia!can spare me a little?

not gonna respond to his msg..n please dun lemme meet these peeps alr can?

freaking myself to the extreme alr!!
not only cox of my incomplete revisions, my exams, other personal feelings, even this kinda stuff?aiyos!ive better stuff to do mans!!
lately, been exposed to alot of news on children being raped by their own fathers, strangers..women/girls being raped or violated..raped by banglah..even theres a rumour saying dat a gal went jogging alone at night got raped by a banglah wrking in school!alas!wads more?peeping in hall 8! the more i read the more afraid i am!
these made me more determined to NOT stay out when night falls!unless im with my parents..:(

paranoid..living in this kinda of environment is cfm making me go crazy..
even in the day im lyk very wary sia..so wary that i jus feel lyk cooping myself at home..not even wanna step out..yah not even..

the kids, the boys, the guys, the men r jus gtting too despo!
u guys out dere mus be trying hard to defend urselves?
im not directing this to my frans..its a general comment, an observation which iv made..dun ask me how i cant to it..at the same time no point denying also...

my fear for guys is growing..jus feeling so insecure..tink its becox of the reports, the experiences, the encounters, they are all cming back to haunt me!
im retreating into my safety hole..my lifeline..at least i wun gt hurt physically or mentally or emotionally..

its time for bed n its 1238am..38mins past my scheduled slping hrs:)

mb i shld change n call myself cinderalla instead!haha..

tmrs will be another day of intensive mugging!!

jiayou everyone!!
n thanks alot for msging..ya gtta jiayou too!!
rest well and i believe u can do it again!!

goodnight n may god bless all of us:)

STUDY SPREE??!!

was taking some online personlaity tests for the past few minutes..haha..the more i complete they more i gt hooked onto em:P
haha..gt the links frm yiting!wanted to post some of the results here but den dere were some int. errors..so hmm..mb next time?

finally on my mugging regime whereby dere isnt any need to prepare for any more presentations!i swear that this sem is cfm torturous!so many pres till i was so uptight w my last few!alas!!now its finally over n done with n me shant bother bt em anymore!!its time to conc on muggging my texts n notes!!

first paper 18th and the last?27th!
phew!wanna blade, swim, shop, sleep, ktv!!!n more KTV!!

actually haf a no. of stuf to blog but den my mind is telling me to go concuss now!sighh..

nvm jus a short reflection..was on the train ytd..mb its becox of wat i saw which sparked off my current feeling bt this..
i cant sae much, i cnt be direct, jus dunno how to put it blatantly...
but i noe im less cynical, less critical, not all at turned off..instead its making me curious abt how things wrk in life..its somehw different i guess..
ive learnt to accept..dey r my frans and very good ones..i dun wanna lose them jus cox others think otherwise..

timecheck: its 1230am..gtta slp n wake up in 5 hrs' time:P

yawns:)

love transcends all boundaries..yah i mean ALL BOUNDARIES!!

tell me how not to be stressed?

finally left w 2 presentaions to go for next mon!

jus finished with the slides for 205 and the main slides for 112! ahhs!

wanna freak out alr!

next mon gg be the last full day in school!at least i choose to take it this way!n wad a way to end my last dae in sch:( with a written test that ive yet to study!a mktg proj presentation and another presentation in the afternn!!
im definitely looking fwd to the end of mon so i can haf a peaceful time to rush n studying at full fledge for my exams!till now im onli done with 3 chapters of mktg!wad the crap!!my life is screwed!

as i typing this entry, im discussing two presentations with my group mates!!mans!tmr haf 2 tuitions to go now its 12:24 am!!im supposed to be in bed alr!!mus slp soon sia!!

was at the brink of tears again jus now..oh mans!but no!i din cry..thot it was useless and this hell period will be over in 25 more days!but wads the point cos im not even prepared for my papers!! apart frm the urban planning ge.. the rest lyk screwed sia!i dunno wad im doing!!i guess aft the last 2 presentations my life will be better

my body is giving way, my mind too..i dunno..haf been having flu for the past 2 weeks or at least one..kept gg ard with a box of tissues..i also dunno hw..dun wanna see doctor..so stressful to do so mani things..depressed over the unnecessary, worry over the least? or maybe not?i dunno im veri vexed!maybe its jus this period!sighh..

hafing constant migraine which i dunno why and how?veri drained n exhausted..i mus focus dats all i can say...
i guess ive gtta bear with these!all will be over!n i shall pray hard to god that i will be blessed!
pressurized to perform, to do well, to maintain my grades..at least all Bs!

not a good daughter, a substandard sister, not up to standard fran, a poor leader, a lousy person..

maybe lyk wad dey sae..im nothing but jus a bimbo..an airhead..a bitch?

so whus joleen?an empty shell whus jus dere to mug, to chiong projs n presentations..aimless..a worry freak...screwed up n stressed up!!