feeling....

yawnx...

in hall nw....its gg to b e start of another wk....sianx...next wk is CNY alreadi...den SP perf!
cant wait for 1 wk break to come!!!needa a real gd rest!

actualli its gg hm to MUG!!!YESH!!!! im gg to be A super MUGGER after dat!!!!

sleepy...yawnx!!!!

dUn foRce mE to HatE yOu, pLeaSe!

todae...or shld i sae yesterdae was super shag!

ge in the morn...luckily jus presentaion...n gt feedback frm the rest....nt too bad!but next time betta dun haf emotion overdose..

had full dress rehearsal...fun but super tiring..in n out!me betta make sure me hair is nt spoilt frm all the curling n stuf...the makeup...gosh!
very pro but its diff me...aiyo!they sae veri pretty...haha....gor saed i lked veri different...but is it a +ve/-ve comment?haha...

tmr still gt dance...gg hm n cming bk again at nitex....aiyo..go hm n mug a sub first...suddenly dun feel lyk gg for comm ball...kkie..me slping le....gtta go hm earli tmr!!!!

aIyO!!!

aiyo!

jus realised dat that ive nt ben blogging for the past 6 daes!

aiyo..din keep track of my feelings n thoughts...

btw, tis week is finally here....a feeling of apprehension, excitment, exhaustion....wadever ya name it i tink ill haf the feeling...
haha, last wk....it was so last min dat we had to perform in front of the hall....DIS week?even worse!this time rd....we haf t operform in opur sch's nanyand auditorium as an advertisment!!!it was so last min but luckily we had some feel of it last wk:) heng ah,,,but den todae n tmr will b realli, extremely....very packed....tut till 1230...ge prac sing till ard 2pm...pub meeting at 3pm....lect at 430...preparation for dance at 630..perf at 740....catwalk after dat+ sp rehearsal till dunno wad time....

tmr? lesson till 3+ aerobics at 630...full dress rehearsal till ??????haha...so busy but exciting to see myself in a new outfit n fresh look?

wed shall mug in hall n thurs?gg for clarences comm ball...luckily managed to borrow a dress daniel yam's dress frm grae...phew!after dat shall go hm....aiyo!tink ill make a tripp hm on wed afternn after my ecns tut....sianx....yawnx woke up at 6 dis morn....to do acc2 tut...

haha...on sat went to do garung guni for nbs foc camp...gor paired up wif me...dunno y jus cant bring myself to haf a heart to heart tok wif him...haha...tink dis y we r onli gor n mei...hope i din bore ya to death gor!!!pleasant surprise to see ya!!!!haha...

todae mus squeeze into the orange tiger dress again n im nt eating lunch n dinner!
haha....me sick?mayb...jus dun feel lyk eating....

real sianx but fri gg chinatwn wif mei...den chiong again...mus study 3 chaps of it!!!!!!aiyo!test cmin:(

i dID iT!!!

hmm...its the first time im sitting infront of the comp n slacking..drinking my soya drink!(finished 1 litre carton le! haha...on a liq diet...)

haha...jus cm bk from our hall's courtyard 2--basically its a series of skits by the hall's drama :)
was rather surprised that we had to do an ad for our special production..we had to dance our bitchy dance!!!

i freaked out on sun but i did it man!!!!haha...gt a bit of mistakes but dey sae cnt really see...i jus realised dat thruout the whole main cast onli me n my TWIN--Cindy are year ones!toking bt cindy!im veri to her....coz of her i gt into choir...i gt to n oe her mayfairians...gt to noe a lot of nice seniors:)coz of her...i gt to try modeling on 1st feb..haha...im even closer to her den daph....haha...sp rocks!!!we rock!!!!n we will n shall continue to rock!!!!haha

toking bt the dance jus nw....haha din manage to cm in when music coz dey were too noisy but i pulled it thru!haha...i can do it n m gg to b more daring when i dance...my beloved frans!!!!zuzu!!!if ya wanna check out another side of joleen...cm to my performance!!!! (ACTUALLY U GUYS DUN HAF A CHOICE!!!!DO YOU?)with my constant pushing of tixs n stuf...haha

but if u guys dun support me...who will:(

next wk is another hectic wk....mon...catwalk rehearsal...tue ge, aerobics, sp full dress rehearsal...as in w makeup n everything...wed gtta help qianyi sell tixs...thurs clarences ball...gosh!!kkie...i betta mug mug n mug n finish tut by sun morn....yes!!!hey sun gt rehearsal again...haha..kkie...ill read sm tb n slp sn!!!!

bUSy wEEk aHEAd...

haha...as im typing this entry im lyk jus half awake..but wat cn u expect frm someone who jus had 4hrs of slp?
rehearsal ended lyk 1230 yesterdae!n worse still me was trying to do acc tut till 3am...urghh...jus managed to complete it!!!YES!!woke up at 730 to do it....urghh....ltr gonna kip let excercise....haha...dun care!

tonitex gonna b hell againx..but FUN i guess:) if i din still in hall n is the inactive n off hall kin...i wun b doing all dese...hafta go somerset for another fitting for the modeling on 1st feb!first time im gg for all dese...nv modelled bfore dats y hafta try...hm...coz nt eating for the dae...haha..den hafta rush bk for social subcomm meeting...n tmr's is court yard n we have to dance the dance as an advertisment...im still nt too familiar...gosh!dun wanna malu leh!!!!kkie!!!!mus do well n b fang n b bitchy!!!!!!yes!!!bitchy!!!!

rehearsing yesterdae:) n was super surprised to see gor!haha...realli...depressed to sae dat my feelings have been rekindled!oh no!!!i jus cant!JOLEEN!u r mad,a lunatic...simply cRAZI!
yahyah...hes my gor...realli!!!
haha...saw mingfeng his roomie oso...haha...shuaishuai:)haha...added me in his msn..was rather surprised!haha...he bought tau hua n passed me one...so SWEET..haha..hmm...SO NICE...:)

next thurs is clarence's comm ball...looking for a gown frantically...hw hw...no gown...dun wanna wear too informal...wanna lk pretty pretty though he said no need to b too elaborated but i tink shld b presentable....act. dun realli wanna go..but do my buddy a favour lah....haha...

hope will survive todae..tmrs ge at 9am...gosh...eyelids r closing le....yawnx...gg for lesson nw:( sianx

spirits Boosted!!

todaes dance is much much easier...phew but still mus work harder to b perfect...!!!
me quite worried for me own dance!!!!but todaes betta den yesterdaes:P

joleen can do betta!!!haha...

hes so comical n had a new hairstyle...haha..

die...always haf a veri relaxed feeling when i see *** its jus lyk so natural...feels the same when me receive the msges....me is such a failure...

toking to him nw:) haha..but stopped....sighh..

real busy w musical nw!!!frans u guys mus cm okie!!!!! cnfirmed 2 tixs liaox...liying n her beloved danny!!!thxs! of coz, shanx tingx charmx mus oso go!!!von lin darius clarence oso..weinee...zhiyu....huishan...melissa....xiaohan....ngayee ginny....rioja mates!haha

no time to tink bt these...but v-dae cming...will be stoning in rm/go jp n eat lor...haha

lOSt mY tEMPer fINAlly

din actually wanna blog todae...i mean yesterdae since its bt 2am 10th liaox:P

had a rehearsal jus nw...acting part still satisfactory but i mus buck up on the dance part...cnt seem to rem sm actions...:(

sighh...lost my temper at james yesterdae but luckily meijiao's enthusiam to learn sort of balanced my feelings....hope that little wnt create trouble for me again!!!

urghh...lotsa stuff to do tmr...mus wake up earli to finish tut so slping nw:)

tink shall end here:) nitex everyone!!!!!

hOME sWEEt hOme tMR!!!!

act. wanted to blog yesterdae but as wat u cn see i onli managed e title...sianx
sleep super earli yesterdae lyk ard 1030pm n woke up late at 930am...but still tired:( so ended up slping again at 1130am to 1pm after reading a few pages of biz law text:) haha...went for lect n cm bk to continue the chap...so routine....urghhh!

haha...finally finished the first dance n we were polishing the dance movements...cnt imagine dancing in the gowns n the 2++ high inches heels!!!me so clumsy!urghh!!!!

am not satisfied w my performance:( dun seem to rem where the leg is suppose to be:( sighh...todae my partner charmaine isnt here so hafta dance w 'the air'....im stressed to do betta...my dance!i mean our song!mus be more bitchy!daring!!!the stage belongs to me!!!no one cn act rosie but me!!!!these r the stuff which i needa tell myself constantly...i mus do it n i can do it!!!!

thot wll have a lg wkend to pia my tut but mus cm bk for rehearsals on sun...sighhh...I MUS DO MY BEST N NO MISTAKES on sun!

act. me n daph wanted to go run nw!!!i mean nw!!!but tired so its gonna b tmr morn instead:)
yesh!!!!good good!!!to lose wt fats watever!!!i jus needa lose em all so dat i cn fit nicely into the gowns which i tried yesterdae!!!chose 2 silver gowns:one is a tube kinda gn e other is a super high collared one...nt bad i tink!
haha...therefore to look betta mus lose wt!haha...signed up for aerobics classes!gd!with daph!
haha...act. instead of the tube i wanted a corset look alike one....so pretty...haha...but pple using it for rom...so cnt:( a little disappointed but nv mind lah...haha

the best thing was!!!!!we saw thomas ong!!!!yes!!!thomas ong...wang tian cai...the mediacorp wang tian cai!!!i act. tok to him!!!!cnt believe it!we were in his shp(we believed to b co-owned) den he suddenly....we jus froze!!!really froze!!!haha

so shuai!!!!gosh!!!act. i saw him upfront at the scent shp...that time i toked to him oso!!!haha...i remed he asked if ive lavender oil...haha...oh my god!he simply so friendly!no air!!!but one thing he smokes...n i HATE people who smokes!jus dun smoke in front of me!!!!sighh...in uni lotsa pple smoke...wads up w em i oso dunno....

kkie...let me consolidate my thots bfore i ko.....1) needa finish tut n readings 2) needa realli diet n lose wt--- veg+fruits+milk+cheese+prunes+little carbo...3) exercise!aerobics...run...swim...

too busy to tink of it act. but deres no progress watsoever...seems to take note of my feelings,nics n stuff...can sense sth-get me attention...watever...no time+study+results....

this sem's aim!!!!

AAAB!!!!!!JOLEEN HENG!!!!! U CAN N U MUST DO IT!!!!!!!ALL THE WAY!!!!!!

tAlKed To tHomAs OnG!!!!!

iN sCHool

in hall nw...had biz law lect....gg for sp's rehearsal n dance...gonna slp real late tonitex...sighh...:(

read tingx n von's blog....

super sleepy...yawnx...

will update when haf new stuff....

oh yah...i rejected an invitation to his comm ball....act. i feel lyk gg but its him...i dun wan...i jus dun feel lyk...nw he msged to me n asked bt sun's...i realli dun wan to lead him on...haven reply...hw?but ive gt tuition...n hall's stuff...hw?

m i being mean???

no...i dun tink so....or at least i tink im nt?

iTs 3rD jAn!!!

i shall make this entry short n sweet!

sighh..have a strg feeling that im really falling ill again!since when my immunity has declined so drastically??its bad...its really bad as the year has jus started!sleep deprived n as usual bothered by diet n stuff...tink ive sm health n eating prob....sighh...but i jus cldnt help it...

todae went out with shanx n tingx but bfore that had two tuition...nearly died!hw siannx!!!for the past few daes or shld i sae since fri ive been out to celeb darius' bdae w lin von zhenhao...sat met up w 02s44 gals n we chatted till 11pm at the checkers cafe...todae w tingx n shanx at thai xpress..the fish tom yum soup was superb!but i felt xtremely bad as shanx din lyk the mango salad...btw ive been eating salad whereever i go!
haha..but dun mind im used to it n me guess my frans too!
haha...next time i shant make/decide were to dine coz we always end up gg to places where i feel is not bad but they wnt enjoy it...n im always feeling xtremely guilty afterdat!
:(

tmr is the start of another term...n the worst thing is that the first dae or i shld sae the first nitex im alreadi super packed...lect ends at 630pm...8pm rehearsal followed by dance at 10pm...wow...guess im gonna slp at 2am again....

the next daes ge is shiong...

fitting on wed!todaes n tmrs meals will b xtremely simple!do i haf a choice? no i dont...act. smtimes im wondering if im enjoying my life? depends act. i realli dunno...i may seem always cheerful n stuf lyk dat...but......

kkie...in the sleepy mood n gg to zzzzin front of the comp!!!haha...to all those reading this entry!happy new year n may all ya
wishes come true n of coz my too!!!!!

haha!