dreams DO come true..n im believing

beauty definition

2007-05-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

yea finally was in town after exams last week!waiting for mei to finish hers on mon n my real packed intensive tuition sessions with my kids..still not very confident dat dey r well prepared for theirs which r starting next mon:( hmm..dats the max i can do i guess so agreed to rush bk frm town to gif my boy the last session..tinking on the brighter side of things..that makes it a full mth's pay..haha..at least good enuf for me to spend in taiwan..yah..

great tmrs the day..quite excited as its really coming!cant wait to go 101 n do some decent shopping for my formal clothes..at least some nice trendy short sleeves formal tops for work..wun be spending a lot on food..aint a foodie anw.. the famous fried stuff like the taiwan crispy chicken chops sold at the night markets do not tempt me..the bubble tea too..the most just one or 2 sips..haha...moreover, e sense of smell is off..tink its my sinus dats y i cant smell..wads the point only can taste..no point..but i wlll like to try the smelly doufu n the famous meesuan with mussels?hmm..aint eating the mussels..on the contrary mei n her fran r so enthu bt the food n her fran even sent her the info tt she had collated on none other than FOOD!bestest..haha..me n hs? focus on buying other stuff n eating less..!yups so wun be in sing till the 10th

great to have found a 4-5 days job frm the 14th to the 18th ytd!as exhibition hostress at the sing expo..gd gd...8 hrs so nt too bad..doing with mei oso:) great can recoup half of my expenses man!n den gonna look out for more such stincts in recruit when mes back!gonna haf another one-communicasia n broadcastasia this june..gg for tt too! wrking twds n earn money to buy my watch for wrk!n great daphs gg to jio me for the isetan's sale n gss is coming!gd gd..at least this holiday is rather packed with slack time in between:) so me cn meet up with shan n frans:) yeah..

wads in the name of beauty? beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder..i noe n i understand..different pple have diff definition of this word..some r confident even if they r not dat perfect..its the confidence tts attractive..yes i can agree to that..ma always says just let it be..whether u r a good looker or not is destined..no point trying to do this n dat n with her emphasizing on pretty pple hafing a tough life..i can see where shes heading..yah
due to the influx n proliferation of the media n the upsurge of beauty salons, slimming centers, new slimming n beauty products how not to be stressed over not being 'one of them'? its not a sin nor a crime to yearn to be someone better..sighh..jus aint satisfied..frans whu have known me since sec. would have known y..gg onto the 7th yr n the goal is still unattainable..but with the future pay check i will be able to afford it..yah

y this thot all of a sudden..cos of the movie: 200 pounds beauty which i watched w mei ytd..no wonder dey sae koreans r known to embrace plastic surgery..okie this a movie so its fictional but ohh well in real life i believe dere r such incidences where beauty can be bought with money..asking me for my stand? im not against tt...everyone has their own stds of being beautiful n stunning..yea true beauty n inner beauty r impt but bfore anything physical beauty is one of the crucial ones oso..mb the std may differ frm one job to another..e.g. hr,marketing personnels r mostly or shld i sae always gd lookers..not to mention celebrities..the latter is even more stringent! with reference to the movie, those whu aint so well endowed often take up the 'office jobs' okie..of cos dere r exceptions..but usually occupations dat dun rely depend dat much on looks..
wad i like bt the shw is tt though she eventually became a beauty in the end, with the melodious voice n perfect body, she admitted tt shes a fake n realised wad she had lost..kinship n franship..hmm..at least not a true blue bimbotic shw ya? so for dat mes gifing the thumbs up!

hmm..gg to prepare to go parkway to do some last minute shopping, exchange $ help ma run some errands n head twds coffee bean for my salad n drink n set my mind on my self-help book:) yeah..

sheesh..rainy n i seriously hate gg out in wet weather!

做你的公主

2007-05-03T11:32:00.000+08:00

做你的公主

或许你没看出来
周围的人都在猜
有种感觉正在我们之间展开
喜欢你偶尔做怪
不经意流露的坏
其实体贴实在
孩子气的胸怀

曾经有过的恋爱
仿佛一片空白
直到遇见你
我才真的存在

Chorus

我只想做你的公主
拥有那平凡的幸福
华丽的珍珠不如眼底的专注
对我深深呵护

我想我是你的公主
终结这多年的追逐
当你抱着我
地球也暂停脚步
我霎那间清楚你是我的幸福

沉潜太久的孤独
这一刻获得救赎
我忽然好想哭
感激你这一路
陪我笑陪着我辛苦
无悔的付出

has fallen in love with this since i had it last week:0
obviously wad captured my dear attention is the title!haha
listening n looking at the lyrics..one wrd! meaningful! undulging in it now..btw its frm sun ho yao shan

lie

2007-04-27T15:25:00.000+08:00

no wonder dey say korean shows r capable of 'churning' tears, no matter how lighthearted the shw is, parts of it will unintentionally perform its well-known 'magic'

completed the final episodes of my girl a minute ago..yah..great show with a great ending which i had expected..its a nice ending which is good..so mb once in a while lies r not tt bad either huh?haha..must admit tt watching the shw was indeed heart wrenching. twds the back it jus gt worst..haha..wad to do u haf a freaky fran here!haha..oh well..:)

tink its the power of wad they call love dat eventually melted everyone's heart..even the grandpa whu was as stubborn as a mule decided to accept their r'ship n hence the ending..even the 'evil' ex-gerfran realised tt she had lost to wad is called love but not yulin--the female lead, hence..yah..even the cousin zhengyu decided to tok the grandpa out n asked him to gif the couple his blessing..cant feel zhengyu's helplessness..scenes shwing tt hes heartbroken, no matter hw hard he tried to protect her n even be her 'spare tyre', she just couldnt see him n reciprocate his undying love..in her eyes was only him..sighh..poor zhengyu..but wad to do cant accept means cant accept even u r with her physically her heart aint w u..its no use wad..yah..

so this marks the end of my days with my girl:) feeling a bit lost..its always this feeling after watching a shw esp one dat has certain impact on me..haha..weirdo right?no wonder my girl was so popular when it was screened in korea.weilin shld watch oso!haha..if we were to watch tgt tink von will die hafing to pass the tissue boxes here n dere!haha..letting this feeling sink n fade away as usual..

meanwhile, shall find other entertainment...go lib to borrow some books to read n facial after tuition tmr:)

hmm..my girl's gone..so wads next?haha shall wait n see

life as usual

2007-04-26T09:44:00.000+08:00

din especially felt liberated after our jap papers ytd nite..haha..mb we were right bt slacking too much after 311 paper or shld i jus sae the whole sem had been a real slack one?haha..but thot the paper was alright..though me spotted a mistake when she said:'pens down'..oh well..forget it bah..haha

the 6 of us went cystal jade at jp for dinner..quite a cheap dinner n fortunately shared the noodles else will be feeling super full n with my rough estimate i had jus exceeded by 100kcal..nm eating less today n swim tmr morn

so u see its life as usual though me had graduated..nothing fanciful bt my life jus tt me wun be gg to ntu for classes..wun be tking the same route bk to hall..wun be staying in my little room where me spent nights when i cunt slp well..yah those were the days..a tinge of sadness dawned onto me while i was waiting cum napping ytd afternn for hs' msg..my near empty room with my photo collage n hall stuff taken down n barang packed into bags..sighh..looking on the brighter side me cant ne always staying dere n not graduate right?yah this wad mei told me when i expressed my sense of depression..im a sentimental sort i guess..dats y when me was so stressed up whilst in jcrc in yr 2 n had wanted to move out..me din in the end so my yr 3 jus whizzed past like noone's bix!but i can truly tell myself tt me enjoyed every bit of my yr 3 stay in hall 3! its part of my uni memory..where friendships were forged laughters were heard disappointments were felt..thank u nbs thank u hall 3!

mes up early as usual cos of mei's stupid handphone alarm which kept ringing at 7am!best!no once but countless cos its an every five mins affair!so might as well forget i t n wake up..so mes gg to watch 2 episodes of my girl bfore me go n prep to go out ltr...hmm wondering wad the briefing for our taiwan trip will be later..haha...n dads going to tk leave to send us off next fri..haha

had a squabble the day before..good tt the storm had calmed at least for now:) jiayou!down 3 papers 2 more!n its gonna be a great great trip next fri to thurs..haha..so hs dun nid to be afraid tt u will see 2 black faces!haha

okie so its my girl's time!!:)

to all my pals whu r still schooling: all the best peeps..enjoy ur schooling yrs make use of this period to haf fun slack n mug hard..go fulfill wadever u wan to dun ever let the word 'regret' surface in ya mind..live life to the fullest n without much regrets..though mes entering into the weking wrld a little earlier but tt doesnt mean cnt keep in touch ya? do include me in ya meetup plans hor!ill try to make it down so long as there aint urgent wrk commitments:) donna lead a diff life now..but u peeps will be joining me in this rat race soon!

to all my frans whu r graduating with me: hey peeps!its been a tough 3 yrs ya?great tt we r finally graduates!thanks for the times weve shared in uni..frm nbs hall camps to the mugging,complaining gossiping days!countless fun n laughter!haha..yah ill always remember this short 3 periods!so lets put everything down n enjoy our fill before serious wrk starts between july n sept!haha..n dun forget our 1st mth treat ya?haha..yah kj u starting the latest but we wun forget!!!haha..nice nice good feeling to be a graduate:)!!

freak

2007-04-24T16:15:00.001+08:00

chiding for being such an emotional freak
relating to reality really suxs
tear welling moments do exist
touching? yah u bet!

fortunate to an extent tt it din develop dat way
yah..to constantly psycho tt it aint gg to happen
it cant happen
noeing its painful but it will fade
its for everyones good

quote from 'my girl': noeing its hot but refuse to admit it is, noeing its pain but refuse to feel it, noeing its call love but keep denying it

y?its for everyones good

to be hurt or not?choosing the former..choosing to be mum..choosing to forget..topple it with a pill call:'move on' plus some whipped cream call:'friendship' finishing it with a berry call:'kinship'---the result: renewed self

jus finished 3 episodes..next will be 11..tink its gonna be this state this mood till the end of the show..emotionally moved? mb me can jus replace e female lead in the show..oh well so tanned not korean-ish enuf

freak

2007-04-24T16:15:00.000+08:00

chiding for being such an emotional freak
relating to reality really suxs
tear welling moments do exits
touching? yah u bet!

fortunate to an extent tt it din develop dat way
yah..to constantly psycho tt it aint gg to happen
it cant happen
noeing its painful but it will fade
its for everyones good

quote from 'my girl': noeing its hot but refuse to admit it is, noeing its pain but refuse to feel it, noeing its call love but keep denying it

y?its for everyones good

to be hurt or not?choosing the former..choosing to be mum..choosing to forget..topple it with a pill call:'move on' plus some whipped cream call:'friendship' finishing it with a berry call:'kinship'---the result: renewed self

jus finished 3 episodes..next will be 11..tink its gonna be this state till the end of the show..emotionally moved? mb me can jus replace e actress in the show..oh well so tanned not korean-ish enuf

my girl

2007-04-22T17:17:00.000+08:00

watching a long overdue show rec. by von..too bored with mugging for jap:( at least mes done with the 7 exams papers..hmm..shall slack till after the 7pm shw..tmr shall go thru everything when mes gg out w mei to pw n mug..den its bk home for tuition session again:P stressed!

my girl's nice..its the kinda of bro n sis story again..warning: aint fun to be involved in one..result: at least one party will gt hurt..rationale: frm the start dey aint even related, its jus cos of some matter dat caused them to fake or 'cook up' this relationship so when one stops tinking or reg the other as bro/sis..the situation gts altered..yah..as for this drama..its clear wads the ending is like..similar to all typical shws..there will always be third parties ard..those whu really care but yet theirs r jus unreciprocated..haha..so me can be the director, script writer etc...

noeing how the developments will be like yt wanna continue..for one its cos mes bored w study, two?nothing really substantial for me to do? 3?though predictable n hurtful still wanna noe hw they finally gt tgt...

conclusion: dun let me have the time to slack! DUN!

perfecting imperfections

2007-04-20T11:49:00.000+08:00

it was a splendid swim this morn!forget bt the sun..laps after laps..blessed with the cleaned, disinfected water surrounding me:) few peeps, sensed the calmness n simplicity in life..away frm the noises of kids, the naggings frm me, the buzz frm the working crowd..for an hr i was transformed back to my past:)the feeling was indescribable:) mon's gg be another session n im definitely looking fwd

wun be able to go bk to sch next mon n tue cos me kids r hafing exams n me gtta gif them extra sessions at home..hmm..betta msg von ltr:P

tired n feel like napping ya i will since me woke up at 6 today..haha..blame the bio-clock?haha..im used to it..even ygest sis asked:'y wake up so early when u dun nid to study?' haha..she mus haf thot tt mes a weirdo lahs..waking up at the same time as her n mes not preparing for sch..oh well..dis me:)

ytd was at raffles city n me decided on hafing soup spoon instead of the cheaper alternatives at the food court!haha..gd gd..yah me din realise tt it was the last time we could o/s tgt..yah..so she decided tt we should haf sth better!haha..as usual according to my one meal policy me had a clam chowder bread bowl similar to e me ordered when i was w zhiyu less than 2 weeks ago!haha..satisying..mei aint a pantry kinda of person..so left some bread n me ate them up for her..yup n after dat we went gloria jeans to mug..the drinks r ard 60 cants cheaper..as for tast wise..i prefer the espresso chillers the mocha ones taste weird...next time shall stick to the former when mes dere..yah o dats it for the day..haha..the doughnut factory's q was/is super long lahs..nv stopped at all during our 5 hrs 'stinct' dere!zhiyu saes not worth so mes quite skeptical alr..me walked past but they dun look as tempting as the ones sold at taka sq..so mb ill gif it a miss..gd tt me completed 2 jap papers when i was dere..hmm..shall do 2 more ltr after my nap den its tuition tonight..n for the next few days

aint perfect dats y mes always on my toes to perfect those imperfections..physical imperfections r especially obvious when bulges appear, when ur clothes feel tighter, when u start to use ur pimple cream, shades for shielding, when pple tell u dat u r veri xin-fu, when u r in ur costumes..mental imperfections occur when u r super concious, when u r sinking into depression, when u dunnoe hw to ctrl ur life, when u dunno wad the hell u r doing in this wrld..when uve lost ur goals in life..academic imperfections r the number of distinctions uve missed, the renowned schools where u shld haf gone to, the scholarships which u shld haf tried to aim for..interpersonal imperfections?relational imperfections? wad bt all these..dere r so many imperfect things in life..at least in mine..trying to accept as much as i can cos im sensible enuf to look ard n see tt there r poorer souls ard..always haf the urge to pass 10 bucks to the auntie seeling tissue paper outside the mrt station..empathise with her..sigh..when i m 'loaded' k,auntie?

moving home soon..mums correct in chiding me jus now..3 yrs of hall life had morphed me into another person..more independent but one whu noe not how to live with others..i agree..i dun really haf a personal space at home..wadever i say will not b pleasing to her ears. so im always choosing to keep my mouth shut unless necessary..hw long can this last? son? shes always complaining dat sons r better..keep mentioning bt whuever whuever's son..irritated cfmed! cmon lorhs..good cos hes capable enuf to gof his mum at least 6oo to 7oo bucks mthly wad..if he din do u tink his mum will praise him or even show off in front of the relatives? sighh..so it all boils down to money? i rem doing gd essays discussing on the good n ills of money..so it has becm a reality in life

hopefully the situation will be better..with me shutting up n try not to rebute n be so vocal bt my thots..praying hard tt it will work out

haha...cant wait to go taiwan in 2 weeks' time..a diff environment, quite bored with twn alr..dunno wad i can do mans apart frm shopping eating movie ktv-ing etc..ya toking bt ktv-in!where r my khakis??desperate craze to go!haha..oh well shall wait a little little longer:)

18th's over! gone!

2007-04-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

yeah!today is finally going to be over!had 311 paper this morn n oh well towards the end, me was like so drained!miss ard 18 marks..poor time management but m quite confident of the rest so praying hard for dat b to appear considering my course wrork:0 the afternn ge paper was jus stunning..wadever she hinted din realli appear!bestest!m quite lucky dat me read up here n dere for me to crap my way thru so mb wun do too badly huh..so its one more n mes off le!

todays wed n yah 18th of april a strategic day is gg to be over in 34 mins time!mes slacking in my room..n its pretty empty now..tmr shld lug more home:) mtg mei tmr to mug for jap..hmm..wanted to eat sth nice but since mei wans cheap food court stuff den i tink its okie bah..ill jus tk the usual yong tau foo which i deem it as healthy..den its off to mug at cafe..undecided which one to go..shall go by instinct tmr!:)good good

todays thurs..n the call nv seem to come..i noe it will be lidis oh well so jus leave it n not tink bt it anymore..
gt a call frm keith yesterday, hes one of the founder of tinybox, a music company located in tg pagar, the school which groomed kelly poon..yah he left me a msg on friendster reg the new intake of students..n called to provide me with the details..pricing n time wise sd gd..it will be the 2nd course which i will be gg thru:) yeah! this time rd its gg to last 1 yr..both basic n advance course:)to improve to correct are my aim this time rd..:) 150 per mth i can still foot it..so it looks like my weekend will be filled with regular ktv sessionS!haha..good tt mei is gg with me oso..so we cn learn tgt...keith sds nice over the phone..mb he cn sing as well too!haha..hes a singing teacher too!beginning to like the name keith..haha..so tinybox will be my next sch after ntu:)so afterall me aint gg to be detached frm sch yah?this time rd its gg to be a sch where i can enjoy my favourite activity..very excited on music recording which is gg to be taught!!woohoo!!(beaming frm ear to ear now!!)

din noe tt kj noes rick..saw him today at src bfore we went in for exams..dunno y but me jus haf a feeling dat hes super zai!the more i see him the more zai i feel he is..haha..admiration setting in?haha..even daph cfmed tt hes good..okie so he mus be of a certain standing..competitor sia...can apply my 5 forces analysis here!.hmm.me shld learn frm him as n when possible:)ricks a nice name too!haha

was struck by a thot jus now..suddenly the word vocal struck me..n me realised tt me tend to notice guys whu r vocal..nt as in those whu like to brag bt how gd dey r day in n day out but those whu r really vocal n open bt their thots n thus make an effort on voicing out their views..not those whu try to attract attention..hmm..me oso dunno hw to describe but me jus now whu r those whu aint turned off! dats y me used to like my vj student councils president!haha..okie nw the victorians whu r reading this will noe this long secret of mine..wadever, so long alr..it aint a secret anymore..n hey dun gt it wrg hor..not max but a yr bfore us!geddit?if not go ask von!haha..so leadership quality is a must to haf in my future bf?or shld i sae gd to haf?haha..mus be able to provide me with directions, make decisions but not a big MCP!hate it when mes being ordered to do things..even my mum nv ask me to do this n dat lorhs..no wonder she always complain dat me nv help out with the household chores!haha..but still i din help..my sis oso wad..so no diff..hmm..shall find new eye candy soon!haha

okie..1200 n 3 mins to 19th april..haha..yawans..

oh yah went for a 15min jog with daph..shld haf ran for a longer period but she din feel well so we walked a 1/4 of the route back :) its off to the pool to tone up on fri n next mon!yes!toning!!

branding me

2007-04-17T12:04:00.000+08:00

A good brand name should:

be legally protectable
be easy to pronounce
be easy to remember
be easy to recognize
attract attention
suggest product benefits (e.g.: Easy-Off) or suggest usage
suggest the company or product image
distinguish the product's positioning relative to the competition.

din actually wanna come online but gtta find out bt brand management techniques in case tmr will haf a qns on it..haha..yah so the bv r the characteristics of a good brand:)

wondering if these apply to branding pple?haha..such qns me shall leave till tmr after 7pm!:) haha

okie so mes still acc. to my schedule for the day:) n mes done with 311! finished gg thru all me had to n supposed to..so even if cmi den i guess dats it..tmr shall look thru the more impt parts bfore heading to sch:) cant wait for 311 to be over so me cant revise for 814 for the 5pm paper..den its off to hall to watch my girl!yeah:)!!happy shall slack n sleep early tmr:)

gg to nap again n study 814 for the rest of the day!

im happy..n im really fascinated by how the brain works..tink its common to feel familiar with some of the instances which we come across in life..for me it occurs very frequently..mb its cause of my sleeping habits dat leads me to haf 'extra' time for my brain to wonder? hmm..interesting..

m listening to this sg..not a new sg so it aint the first time im listening its actually one of the sgs for the taiwan idol drama-e zhuo ju zhi wen..zuan shi jie dou zhi dou..its veri nice in terms of lyrics, meaning...catchy chorus..yah the whole whole noes..haha..if the whole wrld noes..it wun be good i guess..unless its a happy incident/event worth noticing/celebrating:)

cant wait to go find yanshan!haha..mb bfore me leave for taiwan k? it will be nice to meet u bfore ur killer week n ur exams:)

call

2007-04-16T11:26:00.000+08:00

puff!had an intensive studying session this morn..started at 645 n ended at ard 1045..trying to cramp wadever we had discussed ytd into my tiny brain..haha..not done still gtta complete e implementation topics..hmm..shall continue with those tonight n read thru tmr again..okie s dats it for 311..END OF STORY!
gonna take a nap ater blogging bfore me venture into memorising 814..wad the...long time nv memorise things le..as in academic wise..hate it..haha..oh well..complain now oso no use since the papers r another day away!cant wait!!

hmm..since mum's 'chasing' me out of the hse to mug on this thurs cos she wanna mop the flr..me shall head for a fav. mugging spot n do my jap papers!:) good good!so ask mei alg if shes free:)

mugged at wheelock's Bk on sat..weird place to mug as in ill nv tink of tt place if not for dat motive..thanks mei for gg with me dat day!thanks..gv me the motivation to go!thanks!to say me aint waiting for the call i will be denying..but oh well its an outcome which im expecting..at least with ur presence i spent time trying..tink its cos u r constantly doing likewise as well..thanks anw!todays mon so wait lorhs!hard not to be hopeful but feeling so is inevitable!haha

hmm..gtta cm aross a 'heavenly' place to slack at raffles place ytd!its the TCC at raffles place! went for the 311 discussion with hs, kj joey n iriss..yah shophse of 2 levels..i like the 2nd level!unique experience, sleepy ambience..rather quiet oso..realise the pricing is still alright..at least the cakes r cheaper?haha..n they haf a greater variety of drinks..wah!yanshan!been dere bfore..hmm..lets go dere n slack someday yah?hmmm cant wait to go back n slack!good recommendation cfm!

seems like a long time since ive stepped into kbox..hmm..6 to 7 weeks alr..cravings here!urghh..okie shall wait for mei to be done..2 more for her...so in the mean time shall entertain myself with swims n tuition!wah..the pool my pool!mb cos ive always been swimming since sec..so deres always a sense of calmness in me when im dere..the carefree feeling is good..its a form of ex which me wun feel the perspiration..deriving great satisfaction..haha..still remembered hw i used to make myself memorise lyrics of songs while swimming..haha..keep repeating n pacing myself..weird way right?tink it wrks..n oso din revision while swimming too..of cos its all in e head ya?haha..used to be a memory machine in sec n jc..ive degenerated due to the lack of practice?hahaha..mb?

was at novo on sat..saw a pair of very nice heels..tink i look good in it..even mei says so..tink its still okie..49.9..though ex but gd n pretty..n comfy i hope..tink this brand is cfm better than charles n keith..haha..shall gt at least 2 more for wrk:) yeah..cant wait..tink not gg hk alr..so shall spend on my wrking stuff like wad mei saes..n works gonna start on JULY 5...most prob!:) hoped i did create a reasonably good impression dat day..shant tink so much..braindead anw..okie..napping time..timecheck 12pm

socialising blues

2007-04-13T18:10:00.001+08:00

starting to gt worried..yes..hafing serious socialising blues..mum n sis have their points..kpmg is a 'party' company..as an when dey like it dey will go pubbing etc..for them its their 'fun' culture? even when i clarified with em ytd..the senior assoc din deny..n the upcoming welcome party will be held at some club oso..oh mans..acc. to daphs fran..he said tt the partners n managers will drown the gers with drinks..n one of his guyfrans gerfran actually called him to go pick her up as shes gg to be drunk..alas..its true tt i can resist drinking n insist on taking non-alcoholic or those w lower alcoholic content?hmm..vodka lime sds okie but me aint shen...vodka lime will gt drunk too..hey even rum n raisin icecream alr cmi...sigh..caught in bet. yah true gtta protect myself..wad dey sae all make sense..n me has gt common sense too!all the news reports on rape cases n stuff..hw not to gt worried?mb im tinking too much..but in reality these do happen..even daph told me to be careful ytd esp in kpmg..alas! i like to socialising but it definitely comes with a heavy price to pay!

jus cm bk frm a mugging n revision session from parkway today..at least was at coffeebean!n nw im so full after the mudpie, the pita sandwich n my reg vanilla mocha iceblended!full like puking right now..feeling real guilty n SINFUL!but wad to do..craved for quite sometime n me aint quite satisfied w the sandwich which cm in a small portion..so yah went ahead w the mudpie..shall go swim on mon if dats possible bfore me n mei go out to mug..cnt wait to slim down..if a slimming company nids an endorser ill volunteer gladly!haha..fat hope mans!haha..unless me start my own den ill be my own endorser!haha
realised 814 really has a lot to memorise..all the techniques n stuff..wah..was reading thru the past yrs qns jus now..sort of gt a sense of wads happening..so yah jus gg to focus n depend on my photographic memory alr!GOB MUS BLESS ME!n me mus be done by sun for 814!

okie jus printed the exam case study..n thanks mei for letting me use the printer yah..thanksthanks!shall go nap bathe n start at 8+ gtta finish everything by tmr night..so bfore mtg hs kj n joey on sun..me can revise my ge..its gg to be fast n furious!really!

yeah!fri gg meet hs to pay up for e remaining of our trip!gd gd...at least no nid to go alone..quite afraid of gg chinatwn cos alot of old men dere n me dun realli now the way ard people's park..was quite turned off by the massage parlours when me n yanshan went during the CNY period!so thanks hs!!:)

had my jap oral today..haha..it was really super fast lahs..even i was stunned when she said arigatou gozaimashita after asking me like a few qns..the period was rapis however, i think me did make a few mistakes..haha..wadever, its over so forget it!but i like my sensei:) shall gt at least a B+ so tt her hard wrk wun go to waste n of cos a gd grade will do justice to myself as well for being consistent?haha..

quite glad this weeks over, cos dat means im done with 814 pres n 311 pres..felt weird pres alone this morn..dunno y...haha..but hoped me din flop the pres right?since dr chan din pose any mind boggling qns means he understd wad i said!haha..gd gd so it realli pays well to be prepared:) phew!so pres r over!was telling kj n hs dat i thot these were my last presentations...on second thots!IM WRONG!cos for my work ive gtta constantly do presentations to managers, directors, clients..different audience bases..okie..mes hafing jitters..i mean all my life ive onli presented to peers, teachers etc..but now?oh mans!thinking a bit far but its really gg to be coming true! okie im gg to pyscho myself..its part n parcel of my work..i chose this path..i knew it frm the start..me can jus go to tax n audit which have fewer nid to do such 'public' pres...but yt i decided on risk...yes..so i chose it i shldnt regret n by right i shldnt be complaining!but wad to do..this is my blog..ive onli gt here to complain n 'pen' down how im feeling..communication with mei n mum wun help cos dey wun understd..jus like when i told em excitedly bt the socialising ytd..they had their fair share of comments..fair cos wad they sae aint wrg but its oso cos of those comments which caused me to be grappling with fear with regards to the company..

quite happy tt our cesim game gt 8/10..heehee:) yah wanna realli thank kj n hs for their hard wrk analysing the strategies n stuff!!!owe u two a big one for my this gd grade!!thanksthanks!! n mes wuite satisfied with my 10% quiz result..too bad mes so blur to haf missed out the last qns..if me cld haf scored at least a % more!aiyas..guess its alright?n hey prof no nid to write dat big on my paper to tell me tt me missed out the last qns right??haha..but thanks for the full grad for th 5 forces!!haha..first time in my uni life ive gtta a 'gd' as a comment!!haha..felt great!!hmm..jus gtta do well for my exam to secure another b:) n hopefully for 814 can gt a b as well!so me cn maintain my b grade

tink its quite impossible to gt a 2nd upper cos majority bs..sians..dat means my pay will remain at 2.4k..for kp dey r paying 2nd upper 2.6 n 1st class 2.8!wah kaos..wun haf my share this time rd:) oh well me aint always lucky lah huh? hmm..quite glad tt me will haf opp to travel overseas for job assignments..daph said tt for audit it will be at least 2 yrs for them to be sent overseas on a job...realli looking fwd..sds challenging!who ask me to like travelling?haha

quite happy for a moment..quite surprised to see them again..yah the gang again..n i bet hs did realise their presence in the can b after our 311 class oso..haha..hw small can the canteen be when it wasnt even crowded n they had to sit at the table behind ours..tink dey were surprised too..cfmed..okie..since its the last day of sch..its quite a nice little surprise..gtta c my yr 3 sem 3's eye candy:) haha..happy..so here u r reading the blog of a guy crazi fran!haha..but seriously speaking he cfm fits the bill i tink..oh well..hey JOLEEN!EYE CANDY REM!!yah n so me sint gg to see them or him again..haha..no wonder partner always saes dat me cnt b a lesbian cos im always so super duper boy crazy!haha..whey!wads wrg to be boycrazi? cos he has gt the std dats y mah..okie shant go on else it will be nv-ending!haha..cnt wait for exams to b over n gossip bt them with hs!haha..tink ill jus bore hs to death!haha

hmmm..kj saes my entries r always so long..trutrue..but everytime me always feel good after blogging:) realli..cos its a way of putting wads embedded within me here..so if ya peeps feel tt they aint interesting..go ahead n skip paras!haha..dats wad my mei does!haha..

its a way for me to express myself..n destress..yah..so shall owarimasu now!!haha..cnt wait to practise the 7 jap papers..look omoshiroi desu..haha..

nihon ngo nga dai tai suki desu demo he ta desu. sensei, arigatou gozaimasu. good luck to my tomodachi for rai shuu to sa rai shuu no shi ken! mata rai shuu no sui you bi! sayonnara!

socialising

2007-04-13T07:20:00.000+08:00

todays the 13th alr!yah n in 5 days me will be almost freed!woohoo!!hmm..shall go mug real hard for 811 after jap's oral today bfore me head back home n concuss!gd cant wait for my vanilla mocha!okie n dat shall serve as a motivation for me to memorise my 811..haha...oh well..gtta revise cos cn only seem to rem parts:( kempate!n shall wrk on the case which will be out today for the entire day tmr n tonight!!sweat!

ytds acceptance party at brewerz was alright i guessed..hmm..6 of us risk assoc in the risk advisory department..so since we were the 'rare' minority, we were allocated a corner of the area..thot it was quite cosy though us gers were complaining tt we had to stand for the entire 2+ hrs on our heels!haha..resisted tking beer cos of todays presentation n mes afraid i wun be sober for jap oral ltr!haha..yah..

out of the 6 i gtta noe 2 as in realli noe noe..haha..another 2 were alright..n i guess dey only recruited 2 guys into the team!haha..one of them is rick..nice name...i guess hes quite zai oso!wah..mes cmi..oh well..had a feel of was kpmg's party life was like ytd..mb cos its the first time hence its wasnt really a good feeling after feeling dizzy after a while..mb due to the noise..nonetheless gtta now a bit more bt wad im in for..at least ive gt my frans w me:) hopefully dey r helpful..haha..gd gd...n the senior assoc was saying dat me dun nid to be in blazer everyday!hmm..shall so dere n observe wad the peeps wear!

i tink im always veri lucky!the risk department is gg to move to a new premise which is gonna be across the road!cool!!new furniture, new chairs wtc..no nid to use old ones!!haha..jus like this hall which mes staying!everything new!!great!haha

tink exam period is a time when peeps really drown themselves in caffeine!!kaoz!went to 2 vending machines n the nescafe were SOLD OUT!so at 732am mes drinking 100 plus to 'perk' me up dun tink it does nvm will be mtg huishan in 25 mins for brekkie n den its off for class..pres..case test review n slack den 5mins oral den mes gg to escape le!

haha...okie betta go prep for sch:)
next weekend will be diff!!

meimei jiayou!we can go haf fun n ktv n we shall go visit the ktv pub!!:) so cool..cant wait ger!all the way den u will be in yr 3 le!

fun sake

2007-04-10T21:28:00.000+08:00

decided to just give it a try for fun sake,regardless of the outcome at least ive tried:)

mei said mes AA..hmm..really?but wad did i do?me really 'tone' down alot alr..where gt AA?pls enlighten me someone!haha

gonna sleep..din nap today..so unusual right?cos after jap class at 1230 today, me n von went to CS to print notes, can b for light lunch n den off to Jp to mug..so sad tt coffeebeans closed so had to make do with mcafe..hmm..cheaper but smaller serving..oh well not dat bad i guess..was dere frm 3 to 6..at least me completed my last mindmap for ge!haha..great so now can really conc on studying n memoring the theories n stuff..so sick mus memorise..okie understd if dat sds better?urghh..tmr 311's case is gonna be out n me shall spend half of my free day tmr to do CS, the rest of the day to churn out the framewrks etc for 311..hmm..thurs shall continue oso..gtta revise for oral for fri's jap oral test..haha..jus whack i guess..after this fri its gonna be 311 n 814..nothing else till the 18th den shall be full-fledged jap..tink it wun be tt bad cos mes almst done with it:) good!

looking fwd to kpmg's invitation party on thurs night..sds cool right?hmmm..filled with apprehension though..mtg my bosses colleagues..bestest me forgt the names of my interviewers!:( not a good sigh though..luckily msged daph ytd..else will be overly formal..hmm...great me shall be in my best n comfy outfit..at least its more me!more joleen!hhaa..hmm..not as in best best..jus a formal white sleeveless top with my beige mango skirt!n heels n shoulder bag..heh!at least me will feel comfy in this i feel:) fun fun!

was quite interested to find out hw much me will be able to earn in 10 yrs or shld i sae for me to wrk frm a low level risk associate to a direstor?dats if me stay long enuf n mes dat capable..haha..n shall base on the most conservation cal with perf bonus n rank increment..dat will be ard 12 yrs to earning the first million+..note its earning!!!not saving!!!haha..so if it aint such a conservative cal..mb 10 yrs?haha..

mums funny...she used to tell us tt caucasians wun make good bfs..or at least telling us not to haf angmohs bfs or husbands...i mean nt dat we will gt but jus saeing or warning..cos she said they haf 'high sex drive'..hmm..i dunno if its a myth or fact oh well mes jkus quoting ya!haha..n now cos she heard dat some relative's daughter is married to one, haf migrated n living super well with her angmoh hubby earning 30+k per mth etc, she started to 'hint'?dunno mans...sometimes i tink me mums very cute..contradicting herself mans..so me jus answered..yah dats good...n luckily e conversation ended dere haha

can tell mums really getting worried..dunno but can sense her agitation over this daughter of hers still be single n wonder if shes gg to jus remain so..haha..though she keeps saeing n 'preaching' bt the disadvantages of marriage n starting a family, its clear dat she hopes dat we will be married off well..yah which parent on earth wun right?haha..2 days ago was on the topic up raising up kids..yah was mentioning bt my cousin n hubby whu r both 36 tinking of sending their only son to a private nursery/kindergarten..hmm..mind u hes only at the tender age of 2!n dey r tinking of it alr!yah n it aint cheap ok!the bill is lyk 2k..acc. to mum..but i tink its a little less...mums was complaining dat its too ex n its like wasting money lahs...esp. when theres like the kindergartens run by the PAP...hmmm..i was dere for 3 yrs including nursery..not much of an experience or me cant rem since i was too yg..i guess in the future me wun be sending my kids dere..considering dat me cn afford a better edu for my kid y not!i dun mind spending more by sending him to a private sch..at least deres like proper learning,mb couple with music lesson etc etc..n mum went quiet..the disparity is great..then n now..

i guess as i climb further up..our distance will b drifting further...mentality will be changed..views will differ, conflicts will surface..unhappiness will arise..i noe i noe..im trying to minimise all these n m gtta minimise all these!cos we r a family they r my parents whu haf provided me with so much..im really grateful for wad im now for all the investments in terms of time n money..i thank mum n dad! no matter wads the status im proud to tell everyone dat u r my parents!

working twds it n the motivation is so stg tt its becoming overbearing on me:) yt the responsibility is so great dat me wun be able to share it in the near future..
feel like doing wad i like..hopefully everything will wrk out well:) i really hope!

okie 2308//sleeping time!14 days to graduation n fun!!!

ENVY!

2007-04-08T17:23:00.000+08:00

CAI MING YOU? who's he?u may be asking now..feeling bored with my ge dats y came online to send joey the slides for thurs pres..yah so cai ming you is this singer!yesyes!!!this sg which u r NOW listening to!haha..n this song title is wo ke yi..

its really a meaningful sg..ming you is onli 19 n hes so talented..sighh..mes feeling old..haha..this sg is used as the theme sg for corner with love too..remembered listening to it at kbox while felix was trying to song..haha..hmm..tink he has since mastered it alr?shall ask him to sing when we do haf another session..hopefully dere will be one after exams..haha

din realli listen carefully till i read the comments on the site..yah its realli touching n sweet..imagine a guy whu tells u dat he likes u so much tt he wanna watch the stars with u n stuff??haha..sweet!but HOLD ON!!its a fairy tale! boys nowadays aint lidat only happens in show lahs..so yah gers n keep on dreaming for this day for this dialogue n still dream, cos this day will never come true!hhaa

read the sunday times this morn..theres an article written by sumiko tan on envy.yah n i agree with her tt we r envious of others..being envious doesnt bring us happiness, it brings competitiveness n unhappiness to our lives..will nv be satisfies with ourselves..n she correctly pointed out the targets like the hype gg ard these few days reg the ministers' pay rise, the pay of the various CEOs, the queue attracting buyers way before the launch of the high end condos..yah high end condos..still not so bad..todays sunday times reported on the family living in sentosa cove!my god!!!nearly 3m for one plot!!n gt personal boat etc...wanna cry alr..n yah this feeling is ENVY!!

cant wait for after exams..dunno y but mes hafing a crazy idea of starting wrl in june intead..looks like me aint hafing ani prog after my trip to taiwan n waiting for pei to finish her exam so m cn bring her out for the treat..n of cos off to zhiyu's place for a 'cooking' session!haha..but its silly to start only after a mth's break!arghhs..balancing boredom with freedom..which one??start early means hafta be clad in office wear earlier..hmm..not a veri nice thot..betta go find out the KP's dresscode..sian!aiya so troublesome not jus gif me a uniform????!!!!:P

cravings

2007-04-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

me n my good fran zhiyu!!yah 9 yrs of franship!!dats relli long my dear:) many more yrs to come ya??cheers!!!

me during 'in the mood for love'!haha..long overdue photos..but oh well still not too late i guess..this event is to celeb valentines day..haha..n hw cm its a photo of my sideview?go ask the hall's publication sec!!!haha..mus be the front cmi lahs!haha..but my hall senior saes they r well tken esp those in the hall's mag..haha..she said they r shi qing hua yi!!hhaa..hw cm i dun tink so??:P

hmm..this is shannon..haha..photo snatched frm hall webbie..n so this event was held 2 mths ago--'in the mood for love'

hmm...lotsa of cravings especially when im studying..haha

shall go pw to mug this coming mon:) the fresh aroma of regular ice-blended mocha..yumyum, the sweet layered blueberry cheesecake,the chocolate of a thousands leaf, the mudpie..the original cheesecake..cool!oh no!mes suppose to do up my CS ppt but mes like hafing mental block:( informed quite last min. n mus send by tmr:( oh no..n its alr 1053pm!my bed time:( shall wake up at 530 to mug jap n complete the slides..but thanks joey for compiling..uve gtta jiayou n grad w us ahs!

guessed its in my nature to wanna be super prepared for everything especially for exams..yah n this is reflected in my tutoring style as well..feeling guilty for planning grad trip in such a way tt it will most prob coincide with their exams..sighh..cant be with them during the 'crisis' week..dats y mes gg to make it up for the cming 3 weeks..n worse still next week's classes will be reduced to one cos of 311 prep n ge exams on the 18th..so dats like fewer time to help them out..however, its comforting tt me had finished the exam syllabus for one of them..gtta jiayou for her bro's...hopefully dey can do better..

gtta change this attitude of mine i guess..i mean it may be good to be prepared n always wanna be prepared..i hate hafing to plan stuff at the last min..cant really stand last minute stuff e.g. a sudden meetup out of nowhere..its my nature to plan i guess..i must noe exactly wad im gg to do or expected to do for the weeks to come etc..jus like ive always arranged mtgs way in advance with my friends, making sure tt they r way informed weeks or days before..yah so this me.. on second thots, in the wrking wrld it will be different..me will hafta adapt to last min requests n wrk demands..really afraid tt me wun be able to cope with such changes..a panicky me will surface..oh man:( cant possibly tell the in-charge to book me beforehand right?haha..ill get hell i guess..so gtta change..give n take is the key i guess..

real tired these few days but m glad tt mes almost done with my 311 notes:) yippi so once the case is out on wed me shall wrk on it full fledge! shall complete my jap revision for next tues' n fri's listening n oral on mon..n tmr n mon shall complete the notes for 814 ..tues to fri will be mugging for 814 i mean memorising..with sat n sun focusing on 814 n 311..n shall do the third rd of revision for 814 n 311 on mon n tues..shall gif myself a break on 18th after 7pm n slack in hall to watch my girl..den its off to peoples park on the 19th to pay off the remainder of our pkg..n shall spend the next few days gifing tuitions n revise jap..n den!!its 25th alr!!!haha..

(decided to msg n isnt regretting..feeling good? mb)

yawns..

2007-04-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

feeling so sleepy right now..yet its only 925pm...wanted to go study my jap in prep for next week's listening and oral yet mes like so drained..finished one n a half chap of 311 n yah did the notes..supposed to make a trip to coffeebean this afternn but in the end was so dead tired dat i decided to stay at home n mug instead..yawns..shall go slp after this entry yah..

haf decided to train for the half marathon..zhiyu mentioned dat day so thot y not since me has gt nothing to do after exams..so its gg to be the pool, the beach n orchard!haha..wad else?orchard= shop and slack!haha..wanna go jog at east coast my 8km but to prep for 21km..me shall slowly build up my stamina with 16km nonstop den increase frm dere..okie dat sds far!! me wanna go brush up my blading skills as well..so super exciting!imagine exercising thrice per week!wah! okie coupled with my slimming regime hopefully its gg to wrk even more!yah it gotta wrk..wait till i see those bucks ill definitely go beauty n slimming parlours

since mes gg to slp early soon mes goona wake up early to finish up the chap n mug for jap, gif tuition n continue another 311 chap..sat n sun will be doing up the notes for CS mod, revise jap n finish up 311..exams cming fast n 3 papers will be gone FAST as well..toking to clarence now..haha..mes still an undergrad dude!haha..yah till the 25th of this mth..after dat..hmm..mb u can call me a risk assoc..oh well but me haven gone for my convo so no nid to be so enthus lehs

oh yah!wanna THANK VON, LIN, CLARENCE, DARIUS and EMMA for the DKNY fragrance!din expect really..n the scent is really great dear von!thanks for hafing such gd taste!!hmm..no wonder we r buddies maN!we haf good taste inclu lin!!hahaha..n guys dun puke!haha..realli like the bottle n the apple scent..so sweet smelling..okie dat will make me sweeter..haha..okie..gif u the pass to go puke noW!hhaa:)thanks babes n dudes!!cant wait for clarence n darius to COME BACK!haha..den we shall go ktv!!!n really haf a good catch up!really!!

last fri was great cos me had a great great company--my dearest fran frm my sec 1 n 2 tk class..so so glad to haf kept in touch with u ger!though we aint in the same class n sch for 4 yrs n din really keep in contact in uni jus a few meetups here n there, we r still as close!:) this feeling is great dear:) shall date u to go blade w me oso! n we shall go jog yah!hmm..i mean i will jog but u can run!haha..tok bt blading shall ask hs n kj n mei oso..but me mus be sure tt me aint gg to fall again!with my big blueblack frm last last week's fall..im really scared of hafing them alr..so grateful tt it was better esp when mes a frequent swimmer..so ugly n paiseh!oh yah n cnt wait to go zhiyus hse..u can bake brownies while me shall 'show off' my 'pasta making' skills!haha..hmm idiot proof tts y i noe!haha

was toking bt my pri sch fran-cherilyn this afternn..mum mentioned bt her..cant really rem what led her to it..oh well the main pt is tt we were toking bt how capable her mummy is n hw she will be able to follow her mum's footsteps..admire her when i was yg..so pretty, has a 3 storey terrace, always using the latest gadgets in twn..one unfortunately thing was dat shes brought up single-handedly..nonetheless, cos her mums an exec..guess it made her life much easier n happier?i dunno cos we werent close animore since she went dunman high..met her in jc again n dere!at the age of 18 she gt a yellow sports car if me nv rem wrgly which she drove to sch everyday..talk of the sch mans..n me n sis were the lucky few to be one of her passengers..cool! yes..studies wise shes dere too..i mus admi im jealous..haha n still i guess

mummy saes gers whu r pretty n capable will lead a hard life..i noe whu she meant not onli my frans mum but oso my ma's frans..either divorced or gt dumped by hubby...n so happened tt they r pretty with the former being attractive and capable..told ma tt me wld rather be pretty n capable n she went quiet..guess she din noe wad to sae..she like to ask bt darren..haha..hmm..think she gt the wrg idea..haha..shes afraid i guess..was tellin her all the benefits i will be enjoying as an exec(hopefully) in the future, the material stuff me can gt to own n be able to provide for her as well..she seemed to be accepting my idea..ma ended saeing 'tt's if u r really tt capable!'

yah!its true n mes gg to ensure tt mes gg to reach tt position!nothing till now haven i achieved wad ive wanted..as in academically wise..yah so mes cfm gg to push myself dere! high in the hierarchy the status the corporate ladder! i aint gg to be satisfied with the lower position, to be jus another employee in the company..being in the 'limelight' since sec 1 me aint willing to be a nobody..dats y me contemplated to be a politician, dreamt to be in the entertainment industry etc etc..its all bt fame popularity n stuff..haha..so now the 2 dun seem possible ive gtta another chance to prove dat im able n i will be dat able!

love thurs cos i love to read URBAN tt comes with straits times..reports n articles on fashion trends n styles..cool suggestions..n wads is it like to be a socialite? very rich elegent pretty with a super rich hubby n family backgrd..?are these all?i mean wad r the rest of the criteria?imagine spending 16k on a gown..my god!life as a socialite sds so fun..gtta attend galas n idinners which only U and other big names r invited!gtta dress up like a doll..wear beautiful expensive gowns..put on makeup n haf ur hair all done up by celebrity hairstylists n make up artists like david gan n andy lee..grabbing everyones attention n haf the media oogle n dying to intervv u etc etc..socialites life seem slack..life aint gg to be a bitch animore!

oh well not even an exec now..jus an uni grad gg to start climbling the corp ladder..with a miserable income of 2.4k per mth..not 24k hors! when will i reach tt stage mans?unless...haha..starting to dream again!haha..tired u see..haha..

but mes very sure tt me wun jus stop dere..2.4k aint gg to be jus 2.4k its gg to grow exponentially...gonna enjoy n learn as much..grab wadever opp for me to perform..cos i aint simply satisfied to be jus another joleen i wan to be tt JOLEEN whom everyone noes n wanna now! my fighting spirit is back!not gg to back down cos i noe if i do my dreams my aspirations will crumble..n ma dun worry even if me aint gtting hitch ill be providing u n pa with the best i can!best living environment best food best life which will definitely be tonnes betta than now!n i believe i can!

its time to sleep...time:1016pm

(tmrs his day..wishing u happy birthdsy..yah happy birthday)

awakening

2007-04-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

thanks zw!

surprised by the way u handled my problem..realli dun expect ya to publicly 'annouce' n whack him so hard..thanks really!

sorri to haf caused u to lose a fran..hopefully he didnt realli mean it n its jus cos he cant take this sudden betrayal on my part..

no matter wad..its realli good to af such a great pal like u whus dere to ting4 me all the way!!haha

yah n promise u dat u will gt the bestest treat when me gt my first paycheck but dun whack too hard sia!!haha..dun wanna leave on grass for the after dat!haha

thanks a million..other than a big big THANK YOU!!its still a BIG BIG THANK YOU!!!

aim high, work smart, hit max!

2007-04-02T09:47:00.000+08:00

im so motivated!!haha..

came back hall early cos ltr deres a 311 quiz..so mes settled in my room:)if not for this, me wld haf gone swimming n be bk tmr lahs!oh well..hopefully wed and fri wun rain else ill reallie 'sweat'!haha..

so so motivated realli..these few days the neighbours r all so excited over the upgrading prog..as for my family we voted 'no'..wads the point?i mean small means small mahs..wads the diff w another utility room?u might as well name it store room lahs!bestest n weve gtta pay so much for it?hmm..at 10+k..not alot actualli..if mes like julin..so capable so smart so pretty n earn 12k per mth!wads 10+k mans!but seriously not worth!

mes gonna aim high wrk smart n hit the max. increment n performance bonus with my stay in kpmg!so so motivated lahs!working hard wun do wrking smart will!n me cant wait for the bucks to be rolling in!with me upgrading to prada, gucci etc..owning gold card den platinum card..travelling ard gg on hols w my family n frans..eatin at higher end rest. cool!n gonna save up to gt a bigger house enuf for my family..with good accessibilty..signing up for facial pkges for ma etc etc..cool!well after another 2 yrs mei will be out too so we shall wrk towards the dream hse!:)mum brought up a gd point ytd..no matter wad weve gtta gt another hse basing on our ability shldnt sell the current flat..makes sense i thot..so we shall rent this out end extra cash for them n MOVE tgt!!:) i cant wait for the day when mes capable enuff to go 'hse searching'!

i wanna be able to provide the best for family!hey look study for 18 yrs to haf come thus far an honours grad with a above ave. job..i aintgg to be satisfied with jus gettin married off early den degenerate with kids ard!no no no way i tell u!last time mb but now focus has changed!marry can..but wait..:P

16 days to my first 2 papers n after tmrs meetup with my dear zhiyu me will spend the next five days mugging at home!haha..n thanks mei for lending me ur blackie top!!gonna dress well for the last lect n since mes gg out so might as well!

goal for the week: complete own notes for 311 chapters, finish studying jap syllabus for next week's listening n oral exams, complete the notes for cs814..so next week me can conc on revising these mods n preps for 2 presentations!n after 18 mes more or less done!cool right..25th will be the last time mes tking a NTU paper..may not be the last paper in my life cos tinking of pursuing masters in hospitality..shall see hw wrk goes..my interest is still in the hospitality n tourism arena..but oh well it will be quite some time ltr till i will be in touch with exams!

can u understand hw im feeling now?excited!!realli!:)

so happy cos meis asking if mes able to go study w her next week..haha..of cos can!!dat will be my revision week!n me shall go mug at coffeebean pw this thurs!!wed thurs fri all activities packed cum mugging!!

im lufing my life now!n my goals my aims r coming true!!:)

simply luf being this joleen!

does it matter?

2007-03-31T12:25:00.000+08:00

does it really matter that im attached?issit really important for u to noe tt im attached n hence u will stop n GET ON W UR LIFE?yah i noe it hurts..whu wun feel the hurt when u gt a rejection?but no nid to msg n tell me tt cos i wun back off i wun be moved..wadsoever wun reciprocate now means ill nv will..u simply dun geddit!stop asking if im attached or not..uve asked bfore..i dun owe u an answer, ive certainly no obligations to msg n gif u an ans..n i wun be replying tt msg..ytd's msg was clear n its my last to u..u made me do this..u make u wanna hate u..u made it such dat me wun even wanna keep u as a fran..yes..fran?wondering if u r even jus an acquaintance..i dunno n i dun wanna haf anything to do with this and u!
yes heartless u peeps reading may say..not caring wads ya view/s...even if mes unattached till death..u will still b in that basket!no chance!to be blatant: i will nv like u?din wanna type this in the msg ytd..it will cause a trillion more pain than now!so ive gt this entry to vent it out n get it clear!so it realli doesnt matter whether im attached or not!stop asking me this qns!!!get it clear!!!urghh!!!
dun force me to change my hp no. i tell u!seldom blocked peeps on msn n u r in alr..cutting it off may be betta for u..ya im a heartless soul n frans shld be chiding me now...go ahead for me will not look back for me had nv bothered to..yes i nv consider at all n im sure me wun be considering now or future or yrs down the road!the more qns frm u the more resentment i haf! guess u r smart enuf to comprehend the msg n my choice to not reply urs. dats it n u better jolly well move on i tell u..even if ya cnt ive nothing else i can do..drowning in ya own sorrows while im leading my normal n better life..geddit?me will be hafing lotsa fun with my trips hafing my hols n wrking life..!me wun be affected by ur hurt..so dun be silly..uve been thru tt for 5 yrs aint u tired?even if ya aiint, i am! so wadever msges u ever sent u noe where dey will g0--outbox, deleted without second thots!yes mes this jue!!!u forced me to!
dun qns y u wun be considered..perfectionist sae so means its like this, subjectivity is the answer, go find one whu can see all ur good..for me can onli c ur flaws..yah..dun make me list down y u dun fit the bill dun make me be dat nasty cos i mus admit tt mes at a level worse than being just nasty alr..dun make me gif u my 'checklist' to see hw many pass n fail..dun force me to do things tt me haven nv done bfore

alas..needing a good good nap n continue with my prep for my 10% quiz on mon n its happy time with zhiyu on tues!!!yeah!!!:) so while u r in depression, im in my wonderland..so i sd demonic to u or u still tink im dat angelic?u shld noe for urself..c'mon...no will always be a no..no will nv ever become a yes! GET A LIFE!

once and for all..please..

2007-03-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

has been looking fwd to today since tues:) and yeah!!!todays been a great day till 9pm..
as usual met up with hs for 830am's 311 class..the usual brekkie n walk to class..todays class is small lahs..n i fd it amusing when the prof..dunno if hes degree has increased..actually said tt my photo looked like hs'!wah..hellos n whey dun u understd english??i told u im joleen which is equals to im not hs n u mus keep repeating the qns:'r u hs?' hellos!!!!feel like struggling u lahs!!haha..hmm..looks like hs is a compliment sia!so pretty!!haha.. n hey ger!!n my fran yanshan saes dat you r pretty too!!haha..n bestest my mummy saes u look like some actress..haha..hmm..ive pretty frans yeah?!!!n yes!i mean franS with the S!!!!haha..n so the classes ended at 1230..

went to zhiwei's hall n hey it had to rain lahs!!in the end left ntu at ard 230 n reached vivo at ard 4..by the time we were both starving!wad to do din tk dinner ytd night n had a bun for brekkie..haha..btw u shld realli go THAI ACCENT!the reviews were npot exaggerated i feel..good food..we ordered the green curry chicken,beef with basil leaves, otak and seafood glass noodles..nice!!!i love the curry!!!:) n the bill came up to 63 for 2 of us!!ex right but i think its good value for money!!thanks zw!!!so its a certified place for me to bring my mummy dere for mother's day!n mes gg to treat my family to ding tai feng:)haha had our dessert at earl swensons decided to treat myself betta by ordering the chocolate crunch, thanks zw for the dessert treat..nice toking to u n oso thanks for listening to my complains..u r one of those frans whom i can complain to!haha..thanksthanks!!so felt real great!!nce food nice places, good frans!great

mood was down but was lifted a little cos was toking to zhiyu-my good fran frm tk too..yeah good to be mtg u on next tues dear...cant wait to see u babe!n hopefully zhuo hao n u wun mind gg hk with me n yanshan in june:) haha.. cnt wait for tues to go raffles for another rd of good food!!!:) so..its gg to be dieting for the next 3 days

im gg to slim down..gg swimming on wed n fri next week n gonna speed up the process by tking slimming tea which i haven decided on which one!urghh..

yesh!!me n zw have a common goal!to be able to earn tt much dat we will be able to walk into the shop n jus get things that we want!not hafing to consider further n not even to hafta haf the word 'but' when buying stuff...no more 'i feel like buying but...'!!!it will hafta be ' i feel like buying cos i want to n i can afford it!!!' yesh!!dats it!!!go dude we can do it!!!n dun forget me when u r offered a job of 12k per mth or more horSSS!!!!haha

yah..n here comes y my mood was down..he msged to ask if ive rec. the bdae card..wun at home so of cos not..guess tt when things hafta come it will come..was still toking to zw bt him this afternn..sians..told u!im cursed!exam period realli is an idiotic period for me!ive decided to end it..yes i crushed ur hope..that lasted for 5 yrs..yah..i admit dat mes a bitch to haf given u false hopes..i admit dat me shld be more frank n sae:'we cannot, will not be able to be tgt!' mb these will it straight!yah so dat explains the lengthy sms which ive sent..u shld gt it now right?clearer?a witch i am!but ive gtta let u noe this!n im seriously qns ur reason of not gg imperial for ur uni now..but me shant probe further..dunno hw mani times ive said sorry but its now or never..at least please gt it now yah?once and for all pls!i will be realli speechless if u aint gg or refuse or try to act blur bt it..dun mind as a fran but pls dun push further cos it will turn into irritance n i dunno how nasty i can gt..so pls..sorry dat u r gtting this during this exam period..wake up ur idea? u will find the one n i will nv be ur zuan shu tian shi like wad uve mentioned in the card..n now im like gonna hate this song alr!sians...mood was totally affected

at least this aint as bad as last sem's, last last sem or even for the past 4 sems..so me gtta jus tk it easy..for me after this blog..this complain..this ranting..it will be alright but for him..hes gg to gt it tons worse..u haf a bright future realli..nothings wrg on ur part..nothings wrg to like someone but mus noe its not dat if u like means hw hard u try the other party will reciprocate!

yah my frans reading these paras may despise me may chide me for being heartless..yah i am..im not denying..jus leave any comments if ya r displeased..to me i dun believe gan qing shi ge yi pei yang de..nopes..click means click, attraction means attraction, whens deres not even an initial attraction dun tok bt pei-yanging anithing lahs..be practical..both guys n gers r shallow lorhs its jus the extent yah..zw alr mentioned ieven if one is super zai will super good credentials talents if hes cui looking..its cmi still..so it shows sth..

im a perfectionist i told many..im an elitist kj told me..m frans ys n von too r the former so wad can u expect frm us?mb me shld apologise to those guys whom we haf rejected?haha..not trying to sd wanted or desirable but m jus wanting to voice put wad im feeling n thinking..not tt me tink im perfect..i noe no ones perfect n perfect is an subjective issue..but we do haf a choice to decide wads perfect n wads not right?or blatantly phrased, whos able to mk the mark whos not right? to us (guess im correct)till weve fd the 'perfect' one guess we wont be settling down or even not be bothered to consider those below 'the mark'..we r independent gers though family n kids r important, for us they r secondary..wads impt is enjoyment, fulfilment..whether to start a family or not aint the topmost..if not we wun be mentioning bt our bachelorette's club,mansion, remaining single but desirable?yah

so its bedtime n mugging for exams..heartless, yes dats me, cruel, yes i am, evil, yes not denying, wadever u sae im not shaken n not gg to be shaken cos wadever it is its impossible n m glad those previous ones do gt it..

focusing on my final exams, focusing on my tutees exams, focusing on my grad trip n fun with hs mei n jennifer, focusing on fulfilling my mei's dream, focusing on starting work, a new life in july, focusing on my career n savings for next yrs 2 weeks london trip with von, focusing on my near 1k perf increment next june or end yr..focusing on gaining status in the wrking wrld, focusing on fulfilling my daddys dream, focusing on alot alot more, n u see..my focus is not on getting into a rship..when it comes it has to come, if hes mine, he will be mine..no point forcing no point trying to get into one dats not urs n ultimately hurt urself thru a breakup..seriously ive realli gt lots more to do den to tink of these n to deal with rship problems!!!

so its gonna be a good slp, wake up early n mug for my mon's quiz n jap self study lesson tmr!whether he replies doesnt affect me since its clear on my part..

meimei..rem..im keeping my 1st june free jus for u!if anything crops up or u gt pangseh again..uve me!we will go dolphin lagoon n underwater wrld like cos u haf always wanted to..n mes gg to save n not spend n gif u a nice treat yah?me will save more to bring pei along den the 3 of us can haf fun tgt!n haf good food dat dae k?i promise u n ill fulfill it!

yes!so my family comes first, my frans n myself..

THANKS HUISHAN!

2007-03-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

yah mes as blur as usual!huishan left me a comment after reading my previous post n my jap cmi till me read 'huishan' as 'kanjian'!haha..n happily msg kj to thank him..wah...gt more paiseh one not?haha..
anw..dey r my close frans so nvm right?haha..jus cnt believe myself!
anw, thanks ger!
n look!!hs even went to photoshop this photo!so pretty right?with the frame n words..its like a neoprint!haha..n the peeps removed at the back..wah..immense amt of effort put in..bestest!she did it till 4am!!:( xin ku ni le ger!!thanksthanks!if ya were to ask me to use photoshop now..me will nt be able to do so alr..

hmm..nice nice pic!thanks again ger!

oh ya jus to add on, thanks edmund, wanyu n charmx for ya msges:)

so my birthday came n went jus lidat..haha..

looking fwd to gg vivocity after jap tmr..its a dunch with zw..haha..thanks dude for taking time off to celeb my bdae despite the cming exams!thanks in advance sia!!haha:) wanna try the thai food frm thai accent..wondering hw it will tast like:) yeah..no need to wait till after exams le..if its great me shall bring ma dere to feast after exams den!:)

quite proud of myself to haf gone for info visualisation class today..cos kj n joey nv attend..hmm..its alrights lah..lecture onli..n cos me gtta go print stuff oso..but as usual my laziness or 'enthusiam' to pon classes has set in n mes tinking of whether to skip tmrs 311..haha..oopps!haha

thanking session 2

2007-03-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

yah wanna continue my 'thanking' session:)

thanks von for ya msg n wishes ya:) u mus be hafing a hard time rushing for ya proj n mugging for ur exams in 2 weeks' time..jiayou ger!!:)

thanks mel!thanks for ur msg:) hope ya had a great day today too:)

thanks shan!!!yeah!!thanks yanshan for ya early wkeup msg:) my bestest fran whus always dere for me..im so sorry to have to paiseh u n go taiwan:( i wanna thank u for alot of things dear ger!despite hafing lessons in sch today, u dun mind mtg me for dunch...though it was a short meetup but i felt veri good:) veri at ease n at least its wad i had looked forward to today:) thanks..though usually me will spend it at home me decided not to travel back n forth this year so dats y:) alot of things i wanna tell u..alot alot but me gtta be strg:) realli appreciate ur presence!n not forgetting ur sweet exam goodie bag with the marks n spencer sour gummy:) yummy!ill go q for the doughnut when exams over n pass half to u!!!cant wait!

thanks shunzhao for ya wishes as well..real surprised to rec. urs..thanks dude!!

thanks weinee for msging me ya:)meet up soon ger!

thanks daphne!!DAPHNE!!my ex-roomie my current neighbour, thanks for the litle surprise..this is my second slice of bdae cake..yah n me finished it alr..minus away the cream:) thanks!!so heartwarming!!:)

kangjian oso..haha..if me nv check my blog ill nv haf read ur wishes..n hey me dunno u haf my link lehs..hmm..anw thanks for offering ur help!thanks dude!:)

pampered myself today!really 'pampered'!haha..went coffeebean n had my vanilla ice blended, bot a loreal hydrating eye gel, n best!proudest gift for myself..a chrisyl mini hairclip for 9.8..yesh its ex but im gg to wear it for wrk..cos tink me look more pro with my hair clipped to the back..yah she me decided to jus whack!wanted to gt chomel's but its like 20 for one lahs!!!when im richer mb ill consider..yah so u see the materialistic me?haha...no i believe tt me will be more confident with it..its bt brand, style etc..so yah n shans sae shld gt heels from aldo but aldo sia!!how ex..haha..ill wrk towards dat ger n me will make sure me will get dere..a provider for my family, myself n sisters!

the phrase realli proves itself:' higher the expectation, greater the disappointment' n im believing it truly...

(there r 2 frans whom ive treasure..n treasuring since my tk days..guess its the slip of their mind..its okie..exam period..jiayou gers!meetup soon:0)

blessed

2007-03-28T00:41:00.000+08:00

thank you frans for ya wishes ya:) thanks!!

wanna thank my nbs coursemates: huishan,joey,iris,mel,kangjian n kahhon for celeb my bdae w me ytd..aint easy cos its exam period..so realli appreciate ya presence ya!n thanks for the gift oso:) thanks!

wanna thank darius!yeah!darius for wishing me ytd..haha..n hope ull have fun with ya trip ya..n we wan u n clarence n zhenhao to be bk in sing!!!quick finish ur exams n cm bk quick!!!make us wait n wait!!heh!!dun forgt our pressies k??haha

wanna thank zhiwei for ya real earli n realli 'timely'--2222h wish!haha..n its cfm a day early lorhs..anw, thanks for the thot n hopefully the thai food on fri will taste good:)looking fwd:)

wanna thank yongjie for ya 40mins early wish too..haha..wondering y pals r wishing me so early nowadays..haha..thanks 'uncle'!thanks for rem..n thanks for the times uve heard me complain n complain..a great listening n soulmate i feel..realli thanks alot..n im waiting for ya second wish TODAY!!YTD's dun count!ill rem ya!!u owe me!haha

wanna thank daphne for wishing me as well..haha..since mes jus beside ur room dun nid to msg ya..haha..thanks ger!!known u for cming 10 yrs alr!!!dats lik a decade!oh man!haha..n looking fwd to the yrs to cm in kpmg!!:)

wanna thank stanley for ya msg..another vj fran for the 0000hr msg..thanks..other than thanks me dunno wad to sae alr..wish u well..n all the best fran

wanna thank zhiwei again for his 2nd msg!haha..this time rd ill accept n mes appreciative hors!!see me dedicate so much of this entry to u lehs!haha..thanks alot yah u r indeed a great fran worth keeping for life ya!!!:)

wanna thank yingni!!yeah my jc classmate n now nbs schmate!!thanks for the msg n wishes..after 4 yrs u still rem..mes feeling gulity tt me din reciprocate..thanks babe!my triplet!haha

the list shall accumulate since its onli 53mins past 0000h..haha..yah n mes turning in:)looking fwd to mtg shan at menolti tmr for hi-tea!yea!!!:)a last min arrangement..since me will be mugging in twn so might as well meet up right..haha..shan wun mind hors!!haha..:) shall go walk walk n shp bfore mtg u n of cos will situate myself in coffeebean n immerse in the aroma n ambience!!yeah!good life sia!!n shall go shp as well:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF??haha

(yongjie: birthday=mature, more chio, wiser etc...mes onli gg to agree with the 2nd!!haha)

aint suppose to *** aint suppose to **** but when daph mentioned they jus came..oh well..its okie..the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment...y bother when one doesnt care..no matter how, its gg to be dat way..deep breathing helps..keep breathing..aint worth the effort,time,****

shall enjoy this day as its my day n yah..ive great frans with me n my closest bestest fran gonna dine with me:) thanks yanshan!!!:)

no excuse

2007-03-27T16:45:00.000+08:00

with the advent of techno theres simply no excuse..
no excuse to say i dunno
no excuse to sae i forget

no nid to promise wads not meant to be, this reflects how much it is..
'lemme be the one to remind u', yah as though dats really gonna be the case..
dunnid much, dunnid ani jus simply show tt remembrance or at least knowledge
choosing so reflects the amount..should i thank u for tt? maybe den doesnt it mk u a saviour? wadever..

not letting me to be affected..for the past sems, me seemed to be cursed..weird pple, unforseeable events, hopefully this time rd nothing of such will happen, heh!look last sem of exams lemme conc in peace lahs!at least if anything is gonna happen let it be a good one..dun involve me in all the crap n unnecessary stuff!

dunno wad to say, aint gg to say..letting it be has been the case..wondering if smu wld be a better choice back den..no pt regretting, no pt wondering, its destined to be this way, to go this way n yah..its gg to be over soon!OVER!

taiwan coming true!

2007-03-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

there are 2 things to be happy about today!firstly, went NATAS fair with mei n her 2 frans so in the end we managed to settle on a 7D package there, with a price of onli 926.6 including of insurance, airport taxes, tourguide's tips..heh, wad a bargain right?hmm..at least the 4 of us r happy bt it..secondly, best of all is that huishan is gg with us oso!!!yeah!!!she is my closest fran ive made in ntu n yeah!!we can go for our grad trip tgt!!thanks ger!!! really looking forward to it!!!yeah!!yipppi!!guess we r all veri excited :) haha

hmm..gonna brag a bit bt the itinerary..haha..we r gonna stay in 4/5* hotels thruout and AND AND!!!wads real exciting is tt we r gonna stay in the 5stars hotel where jerry yen aka dao ming si filmed his debut ahow--meteor garden...wah!!!cant imagine me have been dreaming of the sheltered swimming pool, the wen zuan!!!haha..good good n mes gg to enjoy all these with my mei and my good fran!!!yeah!!!n theres another night at another 5*!:) the food? guess its quite good oso..haha..oh yah at least we r travelling on EVA air instead of chinaair, hmm..SQ is simply too expensive alr..haha..oh n we r gg take a train from taipei to hualien..first time on a train..hw issit like i wonder..

cant wait!n so mum is nagging now..n i literally now!!!urghh..okie..surprised to see felix n jeremiah at the air as well..yah..

its been quite long since i had eaten at KFC..hmm..gonna treat it as an exception cos bdae is cming?hmm..shall not take a heavy brekkie n mon gonna swim!!

seemed like a long day..gonna sleep n wake up early to mug..test cming!n next exams cming n off to taiwan!!!:)

hw i wish me haf a more supportive parents or at least dun nag n nag..i can feel tt mes repelling..so irritating!snap like siao..can understd hw it realli feels..no wonder..suddenly mes appreciating my hostel room more!sighh

a word of thanks

2007-03-22T09:50:00.000+08:00

work hasnt started in kp n me has gtta noe 2 colleagues! feel good really..one of them is my hallmate, ex-victorian, in jcrc during my term as well..not dat we r super close but at least shes someone i noe..gd thing is dat she interned dere last summer..mostly positive feedback frm her:)
another fran is his fran..phew luckily aint gg to risk as well..thanking god for tt:) i mean realli din wanna wrk in the same company..ya mb mes trying to avoid or shld i sae im afraid..haha..oh well, no lahs wads over must be over..liking the current status:) so happily he intro-ed me to his fran on msn (vice-versa) ytd..guess this is the onli thing he has done for me..yah..or mb those 'few' things if my memory aint failing me:P thanks though
this fran of his is a high flyer, just like him..same sec sch same JC as him..no wonder they r good pals..a law student as well guess dey mus be dble spec tgt..stress..imagine wrking with this kinda of peeps..super stressful:( so this wrld is full of elites! oh man, to think tt me cn be considered as 'cream of the crop'..haha..there r many others whu r much better, they r those whom i term as ' the bubbles/vapour of the crop!' haha..hmm..quite curious to find out whu this colleague is esp after reading his testimonials on friendster..an allrounder dats wad his friends claim..bowler, softbowler, magician, guitarist, eloquent, a jammer, a smartie etc etc..wah!rich pple's kids r like this..haha..no wonder he noes him..of cos lahs..RI RJC kids sia!my god! stress me out of my wits man!n hes dads base in hongkong..wondering wad hes wrking as..n hw cm his dad is featured in the papers? hmm..
quite surprised dat he hadnt plan his grad trip..shocked when he asked if he cld join..so weird lahs..n the new colleague is nice enuff to fill me up w a little info of hk..helpful though..
hopefully with this 'good' start of hafing known 2 frans, i will be able to start wrk with a 'BANG":) no matter how hard me will wrk towards my dream, our shared dreams:)

today's thurs..n 2 more days to NATAS fair..so excited as me n sis r gg to book our first ever trip overseas tgt:)

UP-ing the stress adrenaline

2007-03-21T08:54:00.000+08:00

everyone's starting to feel stressed up again..wad to do?its the exam time!yeah..n ive gtta agree dat the engine pple r definitely much worse than us! reading mei's blog as well as zhiyu's blog..even darius' blog makes me feel empahthetic twds em..as in those many lab reports, tuts etc etc..not as if me dun hafta do tuts n churn out project reports..but theirs like an every week's affair so its alot much much terrible den mine!
hope u guys can manage n yesh!survive thru ya?

dun realli like my da bo mu to call us..i noe its rude but sometimes me realli feel like jus telling her dat me mum aint free or in..everytime she will update ,y mum bt the members' life of my paternal side..we aint close to em at all or to put it straight, we dun even wanna b in contact w em..okie its bt filial piety n suvh..mes tired ofhearing those stories repeating again n again especially when my mum is hafing menopuase now!wah bestest!its as if oil has been added to fire lahs..KAOS!non-stopping nagging at my poor dad..non-stop churning of the past..the victims?of cos us lahs..whilst we r all trying hard to mug our brains away in the little small spaces we can find at home..we wanna jump down n die tgt mans..mb dats y me n mei wanna go out n mug n yah..dat will be it in a week's time cos my papers r starting n me shall ask mei along..at least go to our fav haunt to mug dere will be some peace..

yes mes portraying a rather ugly image of mum hafing menopause but dats only when shes aggravated n agitated..othertimes?oh well guess shes fine bahs..i dunno but we r afraid dat dad will blow up one day too..sometimes me thot tt it isnt dat bad an idea to keep in touch with grandma?ive nv called out to her since we moved out of dat hse..ive nv seen her since den..nv haf i seen or recog the rest of the family..nv in touch..for us we onli haf our maternal side uncles n aunties..a small small family tt explains my damn slack CNY visiting routine..haha

one thing to look fwd to this week is todays suki at CCK and fri/sat's NATAS fair to book our package to taiwan with mei n her frans!yeah!den its taiwan in early june!!will cm back n conc on teaching my tutors n prep em for their mid yrs..n hopefully dey will continue thru the june hols!den will haf income mahs..shans interested to go with my hall guys to hk in june..hopefully dey will be gg den might as well jus tagged alg..haha..den me gtta quickly save more to go to hk in june as well!haha..

meimei!work twds our hols k? dun put too much stress n pressure on urself..scary to read ur blog entries..seems like u will be exploding or really kill urself mans..scary..i dunno wad i can do to help u also..jus take care n lets go mug n slog tgt like wad we did for the past sems to prep for exams..after dat its the annual reward of 3 mths break!jiayou ger!!

okie time for a 2 hr mugging session bfore gg to meet yj n daph:)

oh yah!thanks hs for org a bday dinner next mon:) thanks alot for the effort esp when exams r nearing..din expect u all to rem:) so its real heartening..
n mel!thanks for the suggestion..me has nv org a bbq bdae before, thanks for offering kh's condo for a celebration..its the thot that counts..thanksthanks!!

im blessed with great and thotful frans! wanna thank u peeps for being there when i nid u guys:) kudos to all!n i hope i will be the fran u peeps will look for whenever u nid help or a listening ear! ill try my best to be a good fran:)

tatas:)

waraKU'S MY favourite!

2007-03-19T13:23:00.000+08:00

haha..all ready to 'DIG IN'!

yumyum..our me n mei's fav: BABY OCTOPUSSies!:)

n here comes the MAINs!woohoo..

have been asking ard for new eateries as mes quite tired of gg to jus those handful which i always patronise..so was quite 'despo' tt day n started searching online for new places..
theres a new authentic thai restaurant at vivovity, reviews are not bad, prices quite reasonable..haha..looking at the pictures jus made me salivate!haha..hmm..shld go there after my exams..hmm..shall bring mum dere since shes a fan of hot spicy food..
another's peranakan food at joo chiat--chilli padi..have been saying tt we will go but till now still haven so its time to gif it a try!
hmm..haven been to minolti at raffles city..haha..okie great!after exams shall go find shan at smu n we can happily 'drop' by for lunch/dinner!idea!
dere another up-market fusion restaurant at rafflescity's basement..reviews were great n of cos prices start from the low 20+...haha..so me still haf a to try out!yeah!happy!:)
oh yah not forgetting pei's treat to suki..tink she has been waiting n as a sis me shall fulfill this promise of mine!
this wed gg suki at cck with daphne and yongjie:) cant wait!baby octopuses n jellyfish, sashimi etc etc..im cming!!!haha
today's the last day denience will be ard in hall so us gers r gg to cook n haf a 'feast'..hmm..dunno hw me can contribute though..haha..time flies man!n its 29 more days to my first 2 papers!yesh!n ive started to load my engine..haha..
quite glad tt me had gt my GE proj drafted out n hopefully kj n joey can asap contribute their part n we r off with it!next will be the presentation of our strategic game..off sia..the stupid game..
woke up early this morn wanting to go swim in the end it poured like noone's business so came back to hall n mugged one chap of 311..yawns..shall nap soon n revise my jap bfore von n charmaine come..when night falls me wun haf the time for myself to do work so betta buck up n make use of these free hours:)
seems like me gtta forego gg taiwan with yanshan this summer if jetstar still refuses to haf promotions for june..will be gg 4 NATAS fair with mei n her frans..so its gg to be choose n book by sat!yeah..no fuss of planning since its gonna be a tour..to tink of it gg on a tour mb a little more ex but its safer(like wad mum is always preaching bt)can visit more places live in better hotels etc etc...mei dun worri though its ard 3 weeks in advance of ur actual bdae..can still celebrate with u if ya pals aint in singapore yet...:P looking forward to taiwan!

happy..

2007-03-15T08:07:00.000+08:00

it's been quite enjoyable for the past few days..or shld i sae past week.with some events occuring n happy news here n there:)

happy for mei for her first recorded n uploaded song(me wan too!!teach me)
happy for vonnie over her attachment with EY
happy for daph cos she has found her happiness
happy for peipei for her improved academic results( me will definitely treat u to suki after ur mid-yr ya!!work harder!)
happy for charmaine cos she has decide to face it and hopefully become a stronger person
happy that dads able to attend my convocation in july
happy dat my midterm quizzes are over
happy dat me daph n yj will be gg for suki's buffet next wed bfore the exams!
happy cox me gtta noe more n msned n cared

today's already thurs n i cant believe tt the weekends are here once more!everyweek jus pass like nobody's business!especially this week..mb it's cos me came bk hall onli on tuesday hence the speed..wah!oh well, ive always been looking forward to tmr cos im gg to watch the 'cyborg' show starring rain with mei tmr!yeah!shall go waraku tmr too:) feeling so xinfu!or issit sinful?haha

jetstar hasnt been hafing promotions for june..sigh..hence the trip to taiwan will shan seems 'bleak'..haha..hmm..in that case me shall go with mei in may with her uni frans bahs..felix mentioned tt the hillstreeters may be thinking of gg hk this june!hmm..wondering if me will be able to tag along..haha..shall see how..but its so weird if daph wun be gg den me will be the only ger..hmm..cfm weird..oh well, to think of it aint really important for me if theres no trip to aniwhere..im happy as i am now..hmm..me has my sis wad!jus ask her?haha..shall let her noe tmr over lunch:) yeah gonna wear my new pull n bear denim skirt tmr n my nice top again!so happy to be clad in pretty wear!!!okie, this is vanity or wad dey sae bimbotism?haha

tonight's the last event for this year--hall dinner. cant deny tt it was really duper super fast lahs..jus remembered last year ard the same time i was in jcrc..similar setting, same venue etc etc. this year's much worse cos for choir performance there gg to be like jus 8 of us its like an huh?hall choir?pengs n having the thot that me can slack ard as a final year n 'dissolve' in the midst of the crowd isnt gg to work cos dey need sops!alas!okie since its the last event in hall this year, since im leaving, since me will haf no chance to stand on this hall 3's stage, since im a good n loyal hall 3 choir member, since i was once in jcrc, since i noe my junior..i will be 'nice' to help out with my pathetic voice! :)

its gonna to be my ge proj for this coming weekend!:) all the way mans!

shag

2007-03-11T08:27:00.000+08:00

it was a really tiring fri cum sat!

rushed straight back to hall after lunch with von n guobin n his proj grpmate..best..after napping for 2 hrs still felt super tired so slpt again after an hr odd of youtube
the long n eventful night started frm 8pm..with duties or shld i jus admit tt they r sai gang..!haha..alrights la...end of term, end of schooling years..this is the onli way me can 'contribute' to hall for the last time?haha..so shant complain so much!yah
practiacally sat in the roving vehicle'car with the chair of the night cycling committee, huanlong, frm 1130pm to 630am. of cos they were mins when me was out n WALKING STANDING (not jus sitting)..times when me was hafing fun with the hs n lh peeps!last out of hall event tgt..though not mani gers jus me daph n 2 junior gers..it was alrights cos we haf a bunch of our hs guys..crappy souls!yah..so the rest of the time was in the car helping huanlong with the picking up of phonecalls frm the route leaders n calling them for updates while hes driving, planning of the schedule..flexibilitys involved..alas!the worst was tt me aint awake n had to depend on ko-hi!haha..yah caffeine for us..else cfm cnt survive the night..so afterall we reached east coast in the car whilst the garang cyclists 'flew in' in the bikes!haha..nearly gt 'killed' when me told them tt i was tire n my legs were cramped..haha..not cycling but siting!haha...
by the time me gt home, was alr 8pm..after brekkie..it was slping time frm 9 to 4pm!haha..n had my early night at 830!plus all the way to this morn(sun) 530!haha..jus revised my jap for my quiz on tuesday..mes gg nap soon to haf enuf energy for 3hrs of tuition till 3 ltr n yah its jappie revision again!
cant wait for this cmcing fri cos mes gg to watch cyborg starring rain with mei!n mes gg to wear my pull n bear skirt!haha..pretty pretty!
this session is a session of break-ups!cfm!after hearing so many of them in hall..quite sad..oh well..shant be a kaypoh n me shall jus mind my own business..!yawns

the waiting game

2007-03-09T18:13:00.000+08:00

wait..dats what we wan others to do..or we unconsciously will wanna do..so y wait?y issit dat weve the tendency to wanna procrastinate? issit cos we aint sure or issit cos we just dun feel like progressing? its a long process, a long time..the result? can be positive or negative or dere wun even be an outcome!
it's a time when ive cm to realise dis no longer applicable..initiative is the wrd..quoting von: deres no pt looking back, aint us..since its the past, its gone, we will look forward n move on!
no point..no more waiting game n me shld wrk like mei n wrk towards the shared dreams no matter hw busy..life's short so jus t end this waiting game for goodness sake!

photo-update

2007-03-09T16:40:00.000+08:00

my sweet frilly pokkie top!

sisters in black:)

looking forward

2007-03-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

so nice to have gone out with mei today..apart frm gg to sch on monday, tues to the pool, thurs to aunts place n today to ms' kbox n bugis..ive been a 'good' ger n is gg to be one tmr again..on the one hand, me cnt really ask my frans out as dey r busy w tests, me sis w lessons, shan whu has started sch huishan w tuition during weekdays..so jus rest at home n youtube is my entertainment..so mes really glsd dat me gtta go out after gifing tuiton at 1..

sworn tt me will nv go marina sq's kbox for good!lousy sucky service! aiyas n bestest both of us forgt tt we shld go to the one at suntec!alas!haha..oh well..we did enjoy ourselves..drooling over wuzun n da dong in their fei lun hai's mtvs, busy tking shots of ourselves n recording our voices..haha..how to resist when our phones r so multifunctional?haha..i wanna go k soon!haha

thanks mei for enlightening me, wad uve said are true..wishing us all our best n we shldnt gif up on our interests, dreams, desires..yah mes gg to grab any opportunities which come by:) thanks..haha..looks lyk u r always shwing me the way..

looking fwd to our movie outing on the 16th mar..guess dat will really be my last last outing..1 mth to my first 2 papers so hey!mes gg to mug again! n dat means more trips to coffee bean:) my 'mugging' cafe:) had the caesar salad n my fav. mocha n dey were splendid!hmm..salads healthy n filling so dats gg to be on my foodie list for long:) yeah! wondering if me shld bring my ygest sis out for sukis buffet since ive gt the craving for jap food:)haha..shall c hw n depends on my dieting outcome..mes forever under this 'self-torturing' regime so wads new?:P..so tempted to gt the nivea's cellulite cream which in offer so its now 29.9 instead of 36.9...haha..shan will cfm scold me n comment dat i mus be crazi!haha..hmm..jus wanna be slimmer mah:)

todays sat so it means recess' left w a day..gg bk on mon w mei n its gg to be all the way till fri..fris gonna be our hall's night cycling event..thot me wldnt be involved this yr..oh well,its always so unexpected..daph told huanlong to ask me to be the first aider!haha..thanks daph a good idea to keep me involved..haha..whu ask me not know how to bike?so first aider lorhs..gosh..tink ive gtta to be aided instead.not the other way!
so its gg to be an overnight thing..ok so dat means full scale mugging in hall during the week days!

have been watching corner with love starring show luo n barbie tsu..barbie's so elegant looking!her clothes, style, behavior cool!i definitely wanna be lyk her!so pretty some more!haha..show?hmm not as goodlooking as wu zun..but ma saes he is..hmm..so me mum n i have different taste..jus lyk her commenting dat my frans r not bad while me tink dey r jus ok...so mas std aint HIGH!haha..wadever..
theres dis segment whcih was so close to heart..truly reflected wad i felt..wth!mus dey include those?hmm..so wadever experienced had been experienced?yeah dey mus have..n the best was one of the actors' name is his!gt more coincidental not?not dat his is super unique but its not exactly dat common wad!told mei this afternn n she gasped too!oh well..gonna continue with this show while waiting for hanakimi's last epi tmr to be uploaded on mon..den ill start my girl..n en dats it!its back to books

gonna look for a temp job to try kill my 2 mths bfore wrk starts at kpmg..hopefully cn gif tuition oso..yah admitting tt mes a workaholic..really can sit still at home n rot..at least earn a few more hundred bucks for me to spend..haha

meis sae its obvious mes materialistic!wah..wads so evident?dun understand..i mean i dun realli splunge..my stuff r mostly below 30 n me seldom buy tops which r bv 30 depending on the material n design..must admit dat me gt 2 to 3 expensive bottoms but dey din cross the 40 mark..as for shoes..okie..most ex my imported birks=60..dats it mah..not counting the wrking suits which i gt for pa last april lahs..accessories..veri few, a long necklace=36..anithing else?yah toking bt facial?hmm but tt i sacrificed too esp m,y nov n dec hols last yr..terrible terrible..hating the life hafing to live w limits..urghh!so restricted!

haha..next big item?gt a digicam!:) okie so now i noe wad mei means!

my little nephew n me:)

2007-03-02T15:39:00.000+08:00

was at aunt's place ytd..quite fun playing w pengpeng..haha..young boy at 2...rich vocab, fast learner, smart! cfm a bright future!haha..hw not too when my uncles(grandpa) a chinese tutor, my cousins a masters in TCM, his dad a masters in eee n uncles n aunties masters in chemical eng..n us!his aunts potential hons grad frm NBS n chem eng!haha..hopefully yah? pretty boy he is..n WE SO LOVE HIM!!!!:):)

back

2007-02-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

was queuing at bank counter this afternn..long queue but me dun haf a choice

it wasnt him, but the backview resembled his. cnt help but kept looking his way..luckily its a back. the hairstyle, the height, the dressing, the feel..its jus so him.fortunately, it aint ultimately

suddenly, the feelings were familiar, so familiar dat me dun wish to remember

issit destined?or issit a trick played on me after such a long period?
guess me wun forget dat back..

7 weeks later

2007-02-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

its gonna be 7 weeks later bfore me and shan can meet up again:( so sad..n 7 weeks later will be my exam week!yah mid april..sighh..haha..

todays the chingay parade so instead of our usual meetup in town, shan suggested vivocity..a bit relunctant at first but in the end thot its not a bad idea to go somewhere further away frm the city..haha..it turned out not bad:) waited for dearest shan for almost an hour haha..bfore we even started shopping mes alr tired frm walking into and out of espirit, topshop, pull n bear etc..din noe u f hafing diarrhoea ger..so poor thing hopefully will recover soon
had our super light lunch at marche(for shan its brekkie), the view was nice, good thing we sat beside the window..however, there were some food which werent available e.g. hot crepes!wah pengs and some other..so we had a fulfilling mushroom soup plus bread n plain crepes w ice cream..quite full after dat considering dat i had my brekkie..
felt depressed when me lost one side of my beloved clip on earrings..urghh!cant remember where i lost it n me mus realli admit dat mes DEPRESSED over its lost!not onli cos its expensive ..its also my first pair of earrings..:9 okie me shall go bugis n try to gt a replacement next week:) hopefully will haf! shan bot a shirt n a denim skirt frm that shop..as for me, i got myself a mini denim frm pull and bear..haha..35..was indecisive but thot that its gonna be my last shopping session n the next will be after the exams!so jus whacked and bot it!haha..wanted to gt the brown one but shan said its hard to match w tops...furthermore, me have 2 browns ones alr..im so happy with my buy n its a birthday gift for myself yea?phew, mummy nv nag at me when i showed it to her jus now..was worried dat she will sae tt its SO SHORT!yah i mus agree tt its short..but hafing compared with the other pair its of the same length..haha..oh well jus gtta be careful n alot careful..aiyas!im jus so happy with this buy!shall post a pic of it soon:):):) it sort of lifted up my mood a little after dat..
its real amazzing dat we walked for 3 hrs on our heels n i din even realised it!haha..by den it was alr 6 odd..haha..leg breaking exercise cfm!so we went to chill at a coffee bar..arghh..forgt wads the name alr!sheesh..real short term memory:( so nice to have slacked dere as usual..felt so slack so slack..oh yah n thanks SHAN for treating me to the coffee n the blueberry cheesecake!thanks babe!
so ive decide to go taiwan with shan since we r so tempted by the hana kimi show!haha..so dere goes our hk trip..its good in a way as mes wun nid to sav up for 2 trips..haha..mums nagging tt we shld go on a tour..she jus doesnt geddit!n threatened dat me cnt go..aiyos how to persuade her lehs?but shans mum allows her to do so..so unfulfilling to go on a tour lahs..go visit the memorial hall?go to the zoo?go n visit museum?wad kaos dats not our aim lahs..we wanna go shop eat walk!dun realli wan to go sightseeing lehs..sians
great!mes gg to bed now!time check 10.55pm n waking up early again to mug for jap tmr, tuition n den mug again!:) good can rest!

received the moe letter reg the postphonement of placement..so it really seems like me mus start drafting a rejection letter!wad the crap me gt myself into!go mess with moe n hafta spend time clearing up this shit!brought it upon myself..anione care to help?haha

being shallow isnt a crime..issit?

2007-02-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

finally the recess is here again!boo..after tt its 6 more weeks to exams n dere!end of semester and end of my uni life!dats really fast..not tt my current sem is super hectic like previous yrs but jus wanna whine..haha..so its a jus 1/12 of my uni life left! will definitely start to miss everyone, the events, my commitments, my close frans. whom ive made during this period..etc. etc.. feels good to have good frans like daph graduating tgt with me!
daph!thanks for being dere for me when i needed ur advices, thoughts..ur presence really makes me feel much much better!thanks ger!
huishan is yet another close fran whom ive made..those times when u had to bear with my complaints, babblings etc etc.. will definitely miss those bitching sessions we had over the phone, in sch etc..haha..mus keep in contact ya?:)
of cos frans like mel,joey,kit,edmund,danny,zikai,alvin,delvin do play a crucial part during this period!i wanna thank u all n hugs too!

since its half a sem more me will enjoy it n leave the rest of my reflections till ltr:) okie..that will be cfm boring to my 'avid' blog readers i guess!haha

suppose to be studying jap now but my brains dead lahs!its sleeping time though i jus napped for an hour!wad to do?so exhausted..aim: slp early tonight n wake up earlyto mug bfore mtg shans for our light detoxifying lunch meetup!haha..hmm..okie..mes cfm gonna lose all the weight which i had gained over this festive session..swimming swimming n stop munching!back to the routine!

was updating huishan bt the recent events in my life..yah shld be 'events' i guess since i feel tt my life is jus normal..nothing real challenging or tough, unless u consider 11 hrs of sch per week, finding entertainment to spend the remaining time, pondering over the unnecessary, wondering y sthg happened/doesnt happen and dreaming over the impossible as TOUGH!haha
yah was telling her bt stuff n the conclusion(mb our conclusion:P): im shallow!told hs tt me was browsing thru one of our fran's friendster photos n wah! her new bf is cfm a good looker!not tt her previous one was bad or average..its jus tt her current one was even better looking than the previous whose alr very good looking(am i making sense here?haha..yah..it's like wow!is it in the name of jealousy?or is it jus admiration for my fran?shld be a mix bah..haha..oh well, she herself is a hottie, a pretty lass!so its pretty babe n cute hunk!where to find such a combi?cfm difficult right?haha.too bad hs cun access her site else we will be gossiping bt it alr n mb shld rope in joey as well!haha:) me really pale in comparison to her mb dats y me aint entitled to such 'good fortune'!oopps!

so it boils down to looks?hmm..i guess so bah..character, personality, communication count but c'mon lahs bfore u getta noe the person better its looks first right?get wad i mean?haha..okie i can 'hear', 'sense', 'feel' some violent objections cming my way!haha..ya can stop reading now ahs..haha..if this isnt so, den why pple bother to try to noe another via friendster?dun tell me thru friendster u will be able to noe the person better..hey its the photos lors!u tink pple will b so free to browse n b bothered to check who n who out n leave a msg asking for a meetup?oh please!dun cm n bluff ur way thru lahs..den wad bt those pple whu approach another on the streets, the train n try to ask for numbers n attempt to start a conversation..no ones so free im telling u!no one!n dey have agendas!

even in sch dere r weirdos(not pinpointing anione i stress). those whu dun gt wad ya mean n keep cming back at u..those whu try hard to impress but jus simply aint impressive at all, those whu try to attract attention but ended up being a turnoff!loads n loads more..puff!

mums worried, frans r curious. when worries n curiosity start to fade away deres no onger any excitement in waiting for any news, updates..mb the next thing i will face will be matchmking sessions!haha..

remember e other time me n hs went to the wrg tut class for our 311 module?dat mus realli b sthg to remember!not tt anithing happened during the class or wad..guess both of us took notice of the 'gang' of guys..how not to when dey move ard in grp of 5?4? how not too when at least 2 of them r prominent, tall n walk with 'an air'!hmm..dats my feeling..n how not to when me told hs tt one of them looks cute..haha..for 2 fris as we were walking to class frm can a we 'met' em on the way..n yea!dey recognised us..so paiseh lahs..MIA for so mani at least 3 sessions being seeing us again..n yah its not surprising for em to fig out dat weve either dereg frm the class or went to the wrg room..guess the former is likely possible..else it will be super embarrassing!haha..
n today, me n hs 'met' em on the way again..hmm..not on purpose i mus swear!wad to do when our tut timings r the same..we concluded dat todays dere presentation with em clad in white long sleeve shirts n jeans..untucked..looks sloppy i tink m another in a pink one..hmm..we were cfm intimidated when dey walked behind us, overtook us n tries to attract attention by speaking so loudly..hmm..hey!dere were onli me n hs earli in the morn lors..no nid to purposely act cool right?or shld i sae beng-ish?dunno y we quickened our pace as we headed to the flight of stairs at the nanyang audi..asked hs y we did dat..haha..n we admitted tt we were pressured to do so..weird feeling but frm a ger's instinct dey r trying to attract our sttention cfm!but for wad?crazi ahs?tink dey r jus bo liao..haha..hopefully wun c em on the way again when we have our next lesson..eh...den no shuai ge to bio alr..haha..besides the pt!

yawns..tink im all prepared to climb onto my bed now after chucking wads in my mind here! todays facial was not bad other than me having to 'dig' for my contacts which went out of place during the massage!haha

looking foward to mtg shan tmr n wearing my sweet pretty little match ger top tmr!!haha..yeah!n its gg to be another phototaking session!

photo whores!

2007-02-23T14:15:00.000+08:00

happy valentines day!

the rose from the hillstreet guys-darren, felix, zhao, jeremiah and jingda..thANKS DUDES!

photo whores!

2007-02-22T21:47:00.000+08:00

the cute bear on the bouquet

the legendary bouquet of roses

my sis n i on e bus!(we r the undeniable posers!)

trying to achieve 'the perfect' shot on the bus!:)

FINALLY! a satisfied product of our endless smiles!

okie..self indulging shot!

hmm..my CNY 'dress'..haha

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hw to resist a close up shot esp with my makeup on??haha(too bad aint obvious:P)

heh..me daphne and winnie entertaining ourselves while waiting for the arrival of guanjun..late lahs!haha

a simple formal CNY wear for day one..haha..anything will do lahs..look nice n pretty can le!haha..grins

HAPPY birthday DAPH!!

2007-02-21T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BDAE DAPHNE!!! haha..tink this the 3rd time mes wishing u alr!hmm in 5 weeks' time it will be mine!eeekss!hate the 22nd yr n mes cfm dreading it to be here!!!alas!!!pls dun cm mans!!hope daph enjoyed herself n bet u did right?with us ard!haha
may all ur wishes come true n our new bdae wish: hope to find a bf a nice, sweet, thotful as ******...haha..we shall keep our fingers cross yar?haha..

todays the 3rd day of CNY n mes glad tt me went for the gathering a jeromes place..yar at bradell, far, but thot might as well since ive gt nothing on today n mes graduating soon so might as well spend more time with my hall peeps..not dat me gt nothing to do at home..jus dun feel like doing tut..hmm..me shall finish up tmr since tmrs my free day!heehee

so was at jeromes house played 2 rds of mj in a blurry n confused state den watched a bit of shws, guessed me dozed off bahs..after waiting for our mr. darren to appear which was alr 7pm we headed to junction 8's cafe cartel..ordered chicken n mushroom macaroni, not bad but since it was alr nearing nine so me din finish the food..hmm..feeling fat mans..but paiseh to order salad oso..haha..so in the end shunzhao the hungry bioy finished it..good at least not wasted!nice to be cutting cake n celeb daphs bdae dere again!haha..rd 1 was last thurs!!haha..supposed to go watch movie in the end due to e limited number of shows n the odd timings we decide to jus go home..by tt time it was alr 10pm..yawns..haha

luckily darren drove so he sent me daph n zhao home!!so nice..glad he did mans since mes hafing blisters!dunno y will haf blisters since ive worn dat pair of heels a few times le..aiyos..painful..haha..mus thank daph mans..tuo ni de fu!haha..:) a nice chap he is..thanks daph thanks darren..haha

hmm..shall go slp early swim in the afternn tmr..gt myself out of the hse mans!exercise since ive input quite a bit..n mes gg to revert back to my formal diet regime!haha..hmm...guess mes rather good at calculating n est my intake this few days..okie mus jiayou!!n so dis explains y my mum has to coax us into eating those CNY goodies!aha.

really cant wait for recess to cm n mes gg to ensure dat mes gonna go swim at least 2x n mugged for my jap, do my ge proj!veri soon its gg to be over!realli!its scary but its the reality!

gg to haf a sweet dream tonight i hope!a good dream to end this great day!!!

sweet!

2007-02-15T08:39:00.000+08:00

a day after ytd..glad ytds over..

it's so sweet for the hillstreet guys- darren, felix, jeremiah, jingda.zhao, to buy us flowers!nicely decorated with a heartshape card with greetings and pop-up heartshaped stickers!haha...so sweet..its the thought n effort tt count..no wonder daph said dere will be flowers frm 'downstairs'..realli comforted to have received from them!:)

supposed to have slept early as blogged but was quite affected when my called..it was 1035 odd i guess, thot me was save tt he eventually din carry out the plan..but mum called n toked bt the bouquet of flowers..ALAS!she sounded excited..but over in my room i was monotonous..such a headache explaining to her the situation explaining whu he is..aiyos!wad the crap!cld hear her excitment drifting away..n mes sullen..took me till today for things to sink in..but my stand is clear..nothings changed..

daph wasnt in her room then, aint back frm her work..suddenly me felt really lonely!realli despo to talk to a fran..someone!scrolled down the MSN list, he aint longer dere to hear me complain i guess..a pity..wad to do?i mus haf taken him for granted..brought it upon myself..so in the end left a msg for daph..nv reply..so me msged partner!thanks for replying..n i felt betta!thank u!!:)

guilty? yes cfm!dey sae its out of his own accord n deres no nid for me to reciprocate..true oso..i din force him to do anything n my stand has been tt he shld wake up alr!upon seeing the msn nick made me felt worse!mes a bitch lahs!im irritated!cfm disgusted..im really a bitch to be typing all these..urghh!wad can i really do to make him realise?zw said he gtta realise it himself so cnt do much..yah true oso..so mes not gg to gt bothered by it after this entry!so lemme carry on?haha

wad daph make sense but its hard!haha..gt attached! hmm..but how?again its bt 'my stds too high' ,'lower stds', 'dun b too picky',....the list can go on bt me n my stds etc..perfectionist?mb..dats y me von n shan r still single bah..critics?to a lesser extent i guess..but still we r critical..condemning us?yes..jus condemn as u wish!

he asked if hes a potential..alas..guess the hall mus be talking bt it bah..wad to do..since ive thot of asking him to perform ive more or less expected it to come..hopefully dey believe me tt we r really onli frans, not even those kinda clode ones u noe..treasuring the shortlived moments n im satisfied..wad more can i ask of since mes realli living hall less than 8 weeks!yah ill really haf this as part of the memories..him?haha..trying to do some love test huh?no wy m i gg to ans that qns mans!n u peeps cn go on guessing with the male n female lead keeping mum bt anything n everything..

gt quite anxious when the pink handmade flower at my door went 'missing' for a while..dunno y but it felt bad when me realised its gone..so paiseh to have msned jeremiah n ltr daph passed it back to me!mb its cox mes used to seeing them at our doors..dats y..n mb its frm him..dats y?

sighh..tmrs gg ktv when mei!so happy!!yeah!!can sing without restriction!me aint gg to think so much..gonna go to class soon n back to revise my jap for tmr n have a happy hall outing to chinatwn n geylang..hope von will haf fun gg for the first hall outing w us!!:) von enjoy k?

n mei: dun be jealous over the bouquet of flowers k? deres nothing to be sad bt..singlehood rox k? i aint happy over this side.im filled with immense guilt u noe?sighh..dunno hw im gg to face it when im back home tmr..sians..aiyas gg to treat it as a gift frm a fran since its FRAnSHIP DAY!!n i EMPAHSIZE its cox its FRIENDSHIP DAY!

a fun fun ktv session awaits!hugs ger!

jus another day..

2007-02-14T20:45:00.000+08:00

today's 14th feb(wed),a special day but for me its the 22nd year which im spending alone..haha..cant believe im on earth for 21 yrs+ alr!heh..today doesnt feel 'normal', mb cox its meant to be different..yet for me it shld be the same..haha..my v-day gift? free day!no class today!i tink im jus so fortunate to b spending it in my room, finished watching 5 episodes of tokyo juliet, studied for my jap n TADA!time flies n its alr nearing 8pm!so this day is gonna end soon!cnt believe mes so lethargic tt me took 2 naps!yawning away now!haha

wanted to blog on mon, tues but din, mb aint inspired enuff to 'pen' down my thots..haha..

it was a great mon i felt..nt tt my perf was damn good, i thot i enjoyed the process quite well..cant explain y i felt tt way..mb its the company?i dunno..thot its nice of him to agree so my wish was fulfilled, thot it was tough cos he aint as slack as me..thanks alot fran!one whom me dun really noe but bothered to help:) thanks!

for the past 2 weeks, me din join huishan n khakis during lecture cox von gtta leave earlier n it aint nice to be sitting in front with her eating her lunch so we sat with him..situated right at the back n i mean really at the back!the last row!haha..its really nice to be conversing like normal..its really comforting!im happy tt we r good frans??:) yah let it stay tt way ya?:) thanks alot for being part of my memories in uni!thanks!thanks for the encouragements and i wish u n her well ya!

that day he msn-ed. well true enuff its cos he needed my PA report as ref.. din noe y but i was a little irked when i sae the msg..wanted to send my gt my lappie reformatted so all i cld sae was 'im sorrie, i aint of any help'. as for u, its in the past, far away tt me cnt exactly track which day it was.thanks aniwae gor!

hopefully nothing is gonna happen back at home..hopefully wad he said was true, just a CNY card..i cant stop u frm doing anithing more, but pls tell me wad i can do to help u move on in life?aiyos..not tt mes bothered by it or wad but i jus cnt understd y u cant move on?tink its hard..but this the 5th year dude!alas!dun u gt wad i mean?uve gt ur life n ive mine!i can jus quietly pray hard tt u can gif up n mv on lehs!oh pls dun drive me nuts hor:(

spoke to mum minutes ago n im glad me called home:) looking fwd to the reunion dinner on sat!with my aunt uncle cousin n hubby n nephew!!cool!its the first time hes cming to my hse!!im so excited!bet my family is!!esp daddy who has been real busy preparing n shopping for groceries at least 2 weeks bfore!my mummy??bot toys as a gift for him..haha..y?cos its his first visit so my mum said mus gif him a welcum gift!haha..sds duh right?but oh well!pengs so cute!!hw not to pamper him with lotsa n lotsa of luf n toys!!haha

guess me wun be blogging for the next few days..so CLARENCE!if u r reading this entry..HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY!!!haha..our best LAOS buddy!!enjoy urself ya??i noe u will!cfm!!!haha..cnt wait for u peeps to be back!!n we wan gifts!!haha..me von n lin wan!!!haha
n to darius n zhenhao as well as clarence again!happy CNY!!!

gtta go read up my notes le..cant wait for this week to end n hopefully mei can cfm the ktv on fri!!cant wait!:)

today's 12 FEB!!the lg awaited night!!

2007-02-12T12:14:00.000+08:00

wah!cant believe today's 12th FEB!!heehee..quite excited but afraid of tonights event i guess..had a short practice in his room ytd..tink we r almost dere..but he seemed tired n really needed a gd gd rest! feeling quite guilty for pulling him in jus cox me wanna haf fun..wanna enjoy the 4 mins of 'fame' on stage..poor boy..but if he were to reject den ill be jus an audience..thanks alot for agreeing n thanks a lot realli!
hopefully it will turn out well ltr on..lyk wad felix said ytd:'wads dere to be scared. we r all hall frans..its to haf fun!' yah with these in mind me will definitely try to relax haf fun n bring out our best to enjoy...to impress n to prove to myself tt ive done it!its a performance which ive lg-awaited for..one which mes yearning for..so me mus mk the best of it!yes, the jitters n the initial stage fright n stuff but at least me aint doing it alone! ive done it last year so this year i shall do it again!a treat for myself!
im really looking fwd to tonight!confidence is back!wad i need is the correct atmosphere!haha..

glad tt meis mood is becming better these days..with all the stress n stuff..ya gtta buck up!starting to feel helpless as i feel tt weve drifted apart..not as close as we were in jc..guess its gonna be worse when me start wrking..hopefully we can still find time to go out to chill shop n haf fun ya?
shall go mug for a while..been awake for 4hrs n did nothing!haha..was watching hanakimi with daph in her room n bk in mine to watch tokyo juliet..
indeed mylife is so slack compared to mei n some of my peers!BUT!!felix is slacker!7hrs per week of sch onli!!4 hrs fewer than mine!!!hey!!!bestest!!!oh well we r still the busiest peeps ard cox we r occupied with games shws frans n him..his gf..haha

thanks for the encouragement..putting up my best ltr!

hot stuffy but fun!

2007-02-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

just came back frm chinatwn with shan..tink this yr's trip aint fantastic cos din gt to eat the nice chee cheong fun at the market since its under renovation. now its at outram instead!of cox ots smaller..haha..in the end shan recommend this little eatery tucked at a corner of pple's park..hmm..tink the guo tie(S) were good..aint suppose to be eating those but haha..since shan has the craving n she cnt finish so me jus ate lor..haha..in the end it turned out to be satisfying..the sweet n sour pork was ex but crispy ya..its been a long time since ive eaten 'so much' red meat!haha
first time dere at chinatwn with shan..poor ger by the time we headed bk home her legs were alr hurting cox of her heels..hey!4 more days!!no matter hw tough jus bear w it ya?jiayou yah!!den its gonna be bk to sch for 3 more sems!den u will be joining me in the corporate wrld!
toking bt work!received kpmgs letter n the starting pay for me is 2.4k!yay!most prob gonna start on 1st aug:)saw alot of wrking ladies in those pretty dresses..wah..so smart so pretty!mus be like them!!stay slim..n skinny?den me can fit into those pretty dresses be it formal or informal!wah looking fwd..heh..shans saes me lost wt..yeah!so happy..so my low carb 1000 calories diets wrking!im so happy!gtta jiayou!but one prob..my skirts gtting looser so its gonna be belts n more belts!haha) but im happy..though im also feeling lethargic..attributing my frequent exhaustion to the lack of food?haha..oh well..i dun mind sacrificing!
mon is cming!im almost done with one sg..but jus in case we lose our voices on mon we have decided to have a backup sg...haha..how nt to lose our voices when weve chosen tiantian yeye by FIR?so weve jin tian ni yao jia ge wo by DT n Jolin Tsai..haha..n best!a fran of mine will be doing the same sg as us!sheesh!but jus gg to haf fun..no stress no stress..but gonna memorise lyrics first!
ahhs..so gonna be bk in hall on sun night..coincidentally deres choir practice so cn save sm warming up time i guess..
it turned out ok for ytds ktv..was a bit apprehensive when yl cum make it ytd..so its left w me n him..thot it wld be rather odd jus the 2 of us..so far other than yj nv been ktv with other guy bfore..but its cos weve gt BUSINESS to do..as pro as ever..he prepared his lappie n recorded the minus one for the sgs!realli din expect him to be so prepared!impressed?haha..mb cox hes experienced bah..feel paiseh for asking him to duet w me cos me sucks at harmonising!aaahs!me cn jus like sing the melody lahs n sm obvious harmonising..so it aint easy to sing either!dun tok bt being a singer!its gonna be worse!
tmr gg to trim my hair n yeah!no one will notice tt ive TRIMMED it!haha..but i noE!!!haha..
next week dere will be 3 hall events!cool!going to c alot of the hall peeps!hmm..haha..n dat means late nights:( oh crap!my dark rings!!:(:(

yupps!back to my lyrics memorising session!

mummy always asks this n that..whus this whus dat..haha..oh well..even if i sae she wun noe so me aint bothering to explain..always end at saeing: yah a guy n we r jus frans!haha..

12th feb!

2007-02-04T23:32:00.000+08:00

12th feb will a day to remember for me!its gonna be exciting!fun!interesting!!yesh!!n mes gg to ensure dat mes gg to enjoy every moment of it!though its onli gg to b a 3 mins plus segment, im sure ill treasure those shortlived momentS!my hearts thumping..real hard..bloods rushing..so so xciting!cnt wait for 12th feb..BUT!me aint prepared for it yt!!haven chosen the song to perform..but ive gt a trump card!haha..a super zai fran to duet w me!cool..aint sure wad we will b singing..feel lyk doing the latest duet by cao ge and zhuo wen xuan: liang shan bo yu juliet..dunno hw it will be like..haha..looking forwrd to the ktv session on thurs!sds fun..
a little apprehensive to ask him to acc. me for this annual hall's MOOD FOR LOVE competition cox me dunno him afterall..gtta noe him thru hall's choir during the caroling period went out w him n yl for a ktv session,plus a trip to the esplanade to support him at his SW CDC's choir concert..yah dats all..so its a bit paiseh though..hopefully we will pull off a good performance!
yeah!tmr me shall go swim..its been 2 wks since my last swimming session..missing it!cool!:)
shan was at my hall last fri n guess we had fun watching shw..exchanging secrets??haha..n of cos our supper!( hey babe!mes hafing a terrible sorethroat mans!)haha..so almost cfmed tt we r gg for our free n easy hk trip frm the first week of july!cnt wait!n hopefully it will be well under 1K!!!we r the budget-ers!!haha..wondering hw much taiwans trip w mei n her frans will cost..hopefully within budget den me wld haf conquered both taiwan n hk in a 2 mths!haha
oh yah..kpmg recently upped the pay for associates by 200 bucks so now it stds at 2400..hmm..bfore cpf though..haha..gd gd hopefully me as a risk associate will be entitled as well!haha..
yawns..me shall go slp n swim swim swim tmr!!!:)

CNY's coming!!

2007-01-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

din really feel tt CNY is nearing till i went shpping w mei ytd n shan today!hmm..feels great afterall:) well it was the squeezing w the crowd dat made me feel this way but the atmosphere n i guess its the company bah..w mei we enter almost every single shop in far east plaza though both of us were dead tired frm the walking n me had to lug the stupid bulky bag:( haha..at least it wasnt a wasted trip, mei gt a necklace n a top whilst me gt a formal pretty white top n a black belt to go w my dress(top)! so fulfilling!
today met up w shan to shp at bugis..so mani peeps!full of youngsters, families, couples n those 'gin-nas'!haha..too crowded for my liking man!bugis street was worse!urghh..hw to browse thru the stuff?so we jus walked one rd n dats it!while waiting for shan me happened to enter little match ger n TADA!!!me cun resist the temptation of getting the white polka doti,lacy, princessy, sweet, unique top!wahs..it jus stared at me!it cmes in white red n black..thot tt reds not bad but after trying the white mes like wah me really dun wanna miss it!haha..so its gg to b my CNY clothes for the 2nd day!wahaha
legs' aching after two days of walking, me n shan chilled at starbucks n me supposed we spent ard 2 hrs plus/minus dere..haha..its been such a lg time since weve had such chilling session..with my light dinner consisting of a tall ice mocha n low carb muffin, we jus situated ourselves there:) nice feeling!superb..no stress nothing..
weve decided to go hong kong in e end..hmm..tink its not a bad idea so me cn go w mei n her frans to taiwan in may..so its most likely taiwan in may n taiwan in end june!wa..sds exciting n ive gtta go to 2 places! so these translates to rking harder!!!hopefully me cn start gifing tuition to peis fran whu lives downstairs only!n its sec sch english!wads more once per week!i really dun mind..haha..whu will mind earning more bucks right?
shan provoked my thot bt applying to banks not as internal auditors or wad but as r'ship personnel, or personal banking..its really thought provoking..sds good..hmm...me shall look ard..haha..hmm..lazy though since ive gt kpmg alr:)
next few weeks seem to be rather exciting cox apart frm schooling, there r meetups n gatherings here n there!so fun!weds gonna go out w ma treating her to nydc, fri: shan n tings n mb charms cming over to my hall to stay..haha..next next tue gg chinatwn to experience the CNY atmosphere w shan!n next next week!starting frm the week leading to CNY its even more packed! mon: hall's valentines day celeb..tue: HO closing, wed: valentines day(my rest day!) thurs: hall's midnight fiesta..n den its alr CNY!!!haha..so fast..n when it cmes fast it will soon be over!n de next thing to look fwd( tink me aint!:()to will be my bdae!urghh...hating this day! den den it will be exams n everything will be over!!fast! den im no longer an undergrad but a grad!!! woohoo!
shan n i were toking bt being profs whilst me von n huishan were toking bt being partners in the yrs to come!haha..wah..hopefully we will c the mountains n mountains of cash rolling in n this means we will c heaps of wrk for us too!oh well..sacrifices!at dat pt of time, me wun b bothering bt price tags of mere 50 bucks?haha..mb its the status bahs?one gtta look gd to feel gd n confident!:0 tink shan has gtta agree w me!
its our ninth yr of franship..same w ting n charms..its really amazing!thru these yrs weve gtten to noe one another better n im really treasuring n holding onto this tight!there wlll definitely be mani more 9 yrs to come!all the way frm sec one!cool right? im proud of this franship!really!:)
tmrs the first time mes gg to the esplanade to watch a choir concert..im really so excited n im gg w yuanling my choir n mayfair freshie!heehee..nice ger..so talented..n choir-y?haha..shld go ktv more often w ya bfore me grad..will definitely miss the ktv n tok crap days w u!!heading bk to hall afterdat n im looking fwd to wed w ma!hopefully ma will be happy w NYDC since shes nv been dere bfore..shall treat her to ben n jerry too!hmm..
actually he aint dat great afterall..seems like all my crushes r hafing shorter shelve lives!haha..oh well growing out the phase alr i guess haha..making heads turn, turning peeps' headS?haha..wadever..dun care..so long as im happy confident n comfortable aint caring wad other tink..haha
cant understd y pple haf the time to browse thru friendster profiles of strangers etc. n haf the guts to wanna meetup w pple jus basing on their profiles n mb photos!aiyos, cnt b bothered mans..
yawns!its slping time..so its jap in the morn followed by tuition n jap n concert!!dun be jealous orh!!this is call the life of a slacking yr 3 NBS GRP A student!:)

nice outing

2007-01-25T00:32:00.001+08:00

back from KTV at jurong east..hmm..still not too late i guess as we were able to catch one of the last bus bk to hall..yah..this session weve gt daph n deniece w us!so it aint the 4 of us onli!!really glad dat both of them came alg:) hmm..hopefully we cn org another one soon..if aint gg overseas animore cn consider hafing one during the term break??!!haha..shall see yah..din really sing much today but its the company which makes it fun i guess..
dunno y but flt a bit off today..haha..mb too tired bahs..
the week starting feb 12th will be an ultra packed week!n as mes typing me jus realised its the week of CNY!!oh my!!!dats lyk next next next week!cool! so many hall activities happening every night starting frm the 12th feb n with a break on 14th feb!wahs..scary n mes gg to spend this special ( meaningless to me though) mugging my jap!haha..
hmm..cnt seem to study ani more of jap so shld go slp now!yawns shall wake up earli tmr to revise, tk my bf before me go for my 10 o'clock class:)
fridays cming n im so looking fwd cos im gg twn w meimei!lg time nv go shp w her alr!!hope we cn gt sthg nice n gtta buy my nice dress!!:)
ran the 199 route today n im so so satisfied w myself!haha..shall go for another rd next mon since me wun be gg swimming..will be bk in hall on sun night after shannons concert at the esplanade!haha..first time gg esplanade to watch a choir concert n im so excited..hmm..shall ask if hes keen to tk part in this hall's duet competition..feel lyk singing n performing lehs..once in a lifetime..oh well..hopefully will gt this chance to 'play' n enjoy the attention..haha...
thot of watching phantom but shans sae its too arty farty for her..hmm..haha..shall see hw lahs..haha
whenever theres gatherings their will always be conversations bt whus tgt w whu etc..haha..n so another of our bros gt hitched recently n best!!ultra low key again..our side aint tt bad either, at least one of us r bt there too!haha..right ger??as for mine?no where to be found..haha..its gods will n i believe hes keeping the best n hes somewhere out there:)

craze/stress?

2007-01-20T15:00:00.000+08:00

can fathom n decide if its a jap craze or stress..was quite excited when registering for jap this sem but after 2 lessons mes feeling super stressed up!i mean i do noe frm e start tt learning a new language is indeed tough..so y m i complaining bt it?uurghh..kept tinking how slack me will be if me were to tk another slacker ge suc has choir!i mean its my interest wah..not tt im nt interested in jap but its diff when u mix interes n stress tgt..with stress the amt of interest will jus diminish a little..get wad i mean?urghh..considering the fact tt im taking w a bunch of 5 other khakis..mes gg to perserve n mug for at least a b!yes!else my transcript will cfm b destroyed by a GE!!!eeks!
thot this sem is pretty slack n pass w a breeze..looks lyk it aint gg to be tt smooth n carefree..nonetheless, mes enjoying my time in hall esp at night when me will be drawn to the lounge n fix myself dere for the 7pm n 10pm shw!entertainment..n in e day n afternn r my mugging times..w my naps in between..seems free right?hmm..tink so too..haha..think this sems diff cox me gt to c von every week!twice somemore..haha..gd gd!!hope vons enjoying herself in hall n with the activities cming up hope she will gt a feel of the hall culture n spirit!..:)
suppose to go shp w mei today but cox she haven finished her wrk so the trip was shelved..oh well me gtta slogged for jap too..so much to learn..so its a blessing in disguise!hmm..decided tt we shld go this cming fri after class..
guess both of us r tempted by the many dresses which we see!im so so tempted to gt a pretty dreamy white dress esp after ytds urban published a picture of the latest korean fashion!so pretty!!!OMG~~~ n bestest!its 39.9! hmm..mummy asks y me wanna gt so mani dresses..but me onli haf one on my wardrobe now!haha
oh well shall try them on on fri!!!cool!
ytd was quite an embarrassing day for us..me n hs actually went to the wrg tutorial class!!n happily waited, 'debated' over sms tt we were in the correct class!funny!to refrain frm embarrassing ourselves we stayed thruout n decided to join the correct on next week!haha..cfm blur..i mus haf infected hs w my 'blurry' state!haha..hmm..everything has its good n bad side..theres this cute n tall guy in the class which we attended..part of jacks clique but nv c him in sch bfore..haha..so its gg to be a one off thing..gd gd change bk to the correct class cn conc better!!haha
its not being selfish i guess..planning a trip aint easy..hafta accomodate this n dat..no wonder clarence gv up planning last year!shan cnt mk in may n mei cnt mk it during the end of june as previously agreed upon cox shes tinking of doing special sem..den me how??split into 2 mehs?if i decide to accomodate shan, den im seen as selfish n place more importance on frans n hafta disappoint mei..if mes choosing mei den wad bt shan?kaozs..its so hard to be caught in bet!if me cn afford two trips one in may one in june den dats gd..but where do i find the bucks?damn!
how now?i dunno!feel lyk gg w mei cox we cn go in may n promised to spend her bdae with her in taiwan last yr..but shan cnt!its so unreasonable to ask mei to not do her special sem as it concerns her future n i noe me wun do tt jus to force her to go in june..pengs..another alternative go in june during sch hols n pay more? pengs!i dunno lahs..nothing wrks out den cancel lorhs..sians..hating this game of accomodation!

24hrs is TOO LONG!

2007-01-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

cant believe it cn be rather hard to pass a day! either sleep eat watch tv read a bit n have still some time left!wahs..m i slacking or issit really too long?hmm..

me n von were so bored tt we decided to meet in town n shp..in the end we did minimal shopping..zhenhao cm t meet us n we chilled at the NYDC outside heerens..hes still the same..as vain as ever..haha..with his rebonded fringe n dyed hair..haha..oh well he will not b our zhenhao le..haha

walked down twn as usual n ended up at PS..at least it wasnt really a wasted trip as von managed to gt a G2000 top at a super low price cos it was hafing a clearance sale..so our day ended jus like dat...haha..so u see dats hw we r leading our life..haha

today, at least me finished reading my 311 chapter one n me mus really start my mugging n studying routine cum engine!if not..ill die!haha..okie so its finishing tut bfore me meet shan for lunch at raffles place n heading bk to hall:P suppose to go swim tmr but its raining like crazi these few days n its gonna be damn cold!!me shall make it up by jogging on tue, wed n thurs n next mon hopefully it wun rain again!!urghh..excuses leading to procrastination..aiyos!

great to noe tt me aint as tanned as bfore n pple do realise it!haha..dats gd!yay!!shall keep it up!

too lazy to go ard shpping for CNY clothes..since ive gtten one dress alr tink me shall jus make do w my shirts n skirts..anw my new yr is jus slacking n resting at home..shall save the dollars n wear my wrking shirts at least i noe ill feel good n look good in them!haha..vainpot?cfm!!!

morphing into a slacker

2007-01-12T11:25:00.000+08:00

first week of sch zoomed past jus lidis n im still in my slacking mood considering the extent of 'schwrk' which ivw done..to be truthful guess they constituted less than 5%! oh well as for classes wise me only went for half a lecture n a lecture for my GE!guess everything will fall into place proper next week:) hmm..hopefully wrk as a facilitator will commence as well!if not den ill haf to really plan my finances:P

hmm..slacking in hall last week felt good though me cnt foresee myself doing so for the cming weeks..guess theres not much fulfuilment?hmm..guess me wun be eventually given tt me gtta really mug for my jap lang!cool!mus adopt the primary sch method to learn hw to read n write jap!so exciting..its fun to be gg down to the lounge to watch tv prog noeing tt my freshies will be dere..if not its gd to haf the entire lounge to myself!haha..supporting gmes n attending events will become part of my life as well..to top them of will b my regular jog twice per week!:) cool!!

me n daph went suki for lunch cum dinner buffet!first time dere!me shant go sakae buffet animore!nice stuff with the baby octopuses, the scallop, jellyfish salmon, ebi temura softshell crap etc etc..wah..really more worthwhile compared to sakae lahs!went window shpping n we cun resist ourselves to try on the pretty dresses! truly love the white dress..so pretty, classy, elegant!!haha..wah..so tempted!urghh

daph told me a secret which she had kept for a while..hmm..mb u shld haf mentioned or hinted earlier so me noe wads happening..haha..oh well:P mes adopting a dun care attitude..or shld i sae im in the hack care mode..aint sure either..mb it aint either..wadever!enjoying my last sem n nt pinning any hopes or anything..daph noes well:)i wish u well ger!!a bit too slw alr but haha..no use rushing into things..initiating aint our cup of tea so mb dat explains

this weekend is gonna be quite slack..me shall finish the first chapter of 311 as well as the tut:p hmm dens its all bt tuition n mtg lin von n zhenhao on sat n slacking on sun..haha..next week is week 2 n so the routine begins again:) looking fwd to chinese new yr so me cn wear my nice dress/es n the week after which is recess week..the hs n lh trip to cameron..hopefully we r gg..haha:P

(commiting, gifing up, forgetting, withdrawing r stages to be experienced...pple sae' once bitten, twice shy', true enuf, when withdrawing is tough, deres no one to blame but urself)

5 HRS of fun!

2007-01-06T11:39:00.000+08:00

cnt imagine hw 5 hrs jus flew past when we were KTV-in at clementi ytd!it was great!absolutely fun!haha..after 4 weeks of NO ktv days, it felt great to be bk to the 'familiar' ground..haha..wonderful sgs!haha..n of cox voices?haha..cox we r all frm choir..yuanling n me sang our favourite sop part n rock the room w our high notes..guessed shannon mus be deafened!haha..too bad that he fell ill n gt a sore throat so cnt shw off his powerful tenor voice..haha.oh well more sessions to come!

accompanied pei to gt her edusave scholarship this morn at macpherson sec sch..so many students so many parents..were dere early, was observing the peeps the surroundings etc etc. remembered myself in those uniforms..it felt great to see students in HGS TKGS uniform..my schs..reliving those days..then imagined myself as a teacher.it felt awkward, cnt fathom why suddenly i felt dat way..students nowadays r different frm then. i dunno dem but jus felt uncomfortable when i see some with dyed hair, the 'attitude face', the potential beng n lian face..haha..of cox dere r those w the goody kuai kuai look..sighh..gg bk to sch does feel foreign now

schs starting on tuesday..last sem alr! hmm..veri fast activities will be cming up..at least for now im looking fwd to shannons choir concert at the esplanade on jan 28th!nice! 23rd jan will b HO opening..12th feb in the mood for love..

resting today n enjoying the hrs while it lasts..it will be long..

favouritism or independence?

2007-01-05T10:31:00.000+08:00

thot ive mple sleep for the past few days yet im still yawning..haha

todays the 5th jan..5th day into the new year and its great to know tt our dearest weilin is back frm korea!!cool!!welcum back ger!so it will not onli b me n von alr!now its me lin n von!haha..shall meet up w zhenhao bfore he flies off to US again on the 15th!

next tues will be the start of another term..its fast!my veri last term in sch!wah!i jus cnt imagine the number of yrs ive been in case. compared to my peers, they have jus entered uni a sem ago..wad to do?its their NS..haha..i will enjoy my last sem wrking mugging n hafing fun in hall! will be bk in hall with von on mon night..tink shes quite excited and me too!!haha..n im looking fwd to gg bk to hall this sem!haha..veri free veri slack with frans like daph, winnie, qianyi, deniece ard..and von!its gonna be more fun i guess! of cox my main aim is to mug n earn more cash apart frm my tuition fees!money aint enuf given all my aims goals n wants!haha

went out w ma n sis for the past 2 days..was it all bt favouritism?or was it cox its a sign of independence?mb im jus tinking too much..hate the idea when i saw sthg which i like n it suits me, she will ask her if she wants n buy for her..its lyk huh?dun mind paying by myself...ill definitely do so if im nt saving up for taiwan trip, not cox of her bdae treat..sians..mood was thoroughly ruined cox of those instances..tink its seen as independence? i dunno..nt really i guess..

its an irony, i yearn for independence n ive sort of gtten it. now?im questioning if im liking it..oh well, moving on to a life of a 22 yr pld, i guess, yah this is the sacrifice..consoling myself tt it aint favouritism..its a sign of independence..im feeling more comforted!

wanna gt a pair of heels frm charles n keith, yt me stopped myself.
wanna gt the nice collared top frm iora, n i restrained myself again
wanna gt the leather handbag at the robinsons sale, me drew further frm those displays
wanna gt the lather frm bodyshp, me resisted the temptation of entering the shp
....
the list can go on..nvm..aint necessities..dey r wants!haha

changed my mind, instead of treating ma to kuishinbo me shall bring her to nydc instead..haha..had enuf of kuishinbo, after visiting it twice in a month!wah..n me wanna puke out the sofshell crab, tempura etc etc..so its gtta me a lg while bfore me were to go bk dere again..this the diminishing marginal rate of return!haha..but me shan n charmx did haf fun eating on the 3rd!haha..de phototaking of the food drew curious stares..but hack!we jus enjoyed ourselves as we marvelled at them!cool!wonder when the four of us will gt to meet up again..hmm..shall go find shan for lunch during one of my free days!haha

was reading the papers daily be it chinese or straits times. todays life reported bt brazilians being bulimic and aneroxic..yah..i read w fear of ending up like dem..but i cnt control..day in day out ill be counting the calories im taking..its become a routine..a routine which ive grown used to..yea i confess its an obession with wt loss, bt looking good..its like ive been programmed..i dun believe ive achieved wad i wanna achieve, still not enuff..mums true bt putting myself thru all these but me aint convinced tt im suffering..haha..yah i aint!after next wed's sukis me wun wanna eat buffets for a while..den dere wun be excuses for me to throw out wad ive eaten..its becming out gross n it happened for the 3rd time..issit uncontrollable?or issit me whu doesnt wanna ctrl? hate tking dinners..haha
oh well, sacrifices have to be made n im a willing party..no forcing at play..im nt an aneroxic nor a bulimic i assure..

surprised tt keith msned me tt day..glad to hear tt hes doing veri well at the royal bank of scotland!wah..cool!haha..hmm..he said tt i looked as if ive lost wt!yea!dats it!!BINGO!!haha..but apart frm tt..he said tt he was impressed tt me gt all the 4 offers..yah..tink it aint tt impressive..i mean i noe of frans whu have all offers as well!like lijing n linda..so yah..furthermore my results aint great!not dat great at all..if not me wun be gtting such shitty results for this sem!hmm..a little disappointed i mus sae, but i wun wanna go thru all the trouble of appealing n stuff..so well..wads more, ive gt a job..dats wad shan saes..sighh..no lahs..2nd upper is still betta den lower on paper right?nvm..shall live life as it is..i guess..

yawns..feel lyk sleeping again n its onli 11am!!but cnt gtta go prep for ktv which ive been longing for since the last session which was a mth plus ago!woohoo..ktv-in w my sop junior n cool choir junior..so weird to be calling him junior when hes of the same age as me..

its the ktv which im looking fwd..sians gtta meet him n pass him my sis book bfore dat..its gonna be awkward..cfm..hopefully, no stunts nothing..urghh..treating it as doing my sis a favour i guess..pray n pray hard..gonna rush off to meet yuanling at clementi!hmm..no stunts no stunts no stunts!god bless joleen!haha

good dat mei is recovering well frm her repeat double eyelid op!good good!!

yawns..haha

fortunate blessed timely

2007-01-03T12:29:00.000+08:00

woke up so early as usual cox me jus cnt fall bk to slp at 6+..as usual took a light breakfast today to prep for kuishinbo ltr!!haha..was rather excited to spot a few potential job which i cld tk up..was pondering whether me shld jus gv em a try..THEN
!!me jus checked my mail n TADA!me gt a reply frm a job which me applied via NTU's careermall!cool!!million thanks to daphne for reminding me!!thanks babe!!haha
so hopefully me will hear frm em real soon so ill be employed and earn $..n with $ me can spend n save more for my taiwan trip!haha..blessed child i guess:) really looking fwd to be a faciliator..haha..im viewing this job as a hobby to pass time, free time during my non sch days so instead of jus slacking and lazing for 2 days in hall me cn go wrk!haha..

read meis blog, n i can really cfm tt shes really more mature than me..her thoughts n reflections.thanks for the most current entry..me din realise those if ya nv mantion it in the entry..i have to agree with u..im feeling real guilty for not even realising it n its really shameful to onli realise it now..but wanna thank u for this enlightenment!yes i will definitely reflect more on myself

was talking to mum ytd..she told me alot of things..she can be quite understding i thot..hmm..mes gonna sign her up for a facial prog so we cn go tgt when i earn $..gd investment!n when shes happy i will be happy too!mummys bdaes cming in less than a mths time..n shes gonna be 47..dats fast..hmm, since me haf class on thurs me shall treat her to kuishinbo's buffet lunch on wed instead!so its twice expensive jap food in a mth!wah..cfm mus earn bucks..but as long as mas happy..its okie..i can scrimp n save..i really dun mind..:) splunging on my family..its okie:)

have been eating alot of jap stuff recently..mum realised too..haha..wad to do me luf jap stuff!heh:) last fri waraku, today kuishinbo, next wed suki sushi w daph..den me shall fast till 31st jan for the next rd of kuishinbo..wah seems like mes an avid fan of kuishinbo!

im gg to run n make an effort to swim every mon n jog with daph on tues n thurs!!we mus persevere daph!!lose weight!!haha..dun mind jogging in the morn n night!since so free ma..haha

hmm..going out with mai n ma to shp before mtg shan n charm at 7pm:)
tmr with b out w mei n ma again at eye center n bugis!

(he aint feeling well as usual..always dunno hw to tk care of himself..luckily his girl is dere..so nt tt bad afterall..doing well academaically..which is good too:P)

its gonna be a great 2007 considering the number of positive things happening to my pals, myself etc. even if dey arent, i choose to believe 2007 will be a good year, a yr when miracles, happiness and fun set in

!ST day 2007!

2007-01-01T11:18:00.000+08:00

todays the first day of 2007!!haha

woke up at 615pm today n had my refreshing swim w my sis!thot there wun be mani peeps..but pple drove there n were as early as us!!haha..okie..fortunately weve gt space to swim..nice 45mins relaxed exercise,haha..n tmr shld be round 2!
haf been staying at home for these 2 days..nice feeling..breakfast papers sleep youtube tv sleep again..n e routine continues..so nice to b slacking the week bfore sch reopens..oh well..me aint compalining cox this wed me shan n charm r gg for our much awaited kuishin bos dinner!so its gonna be diet n exercise before wed!hmm..thurs will be gg eye center w sis n ma n den bugis!fri?swim in the morn my beloved ktv session w yuanling n the super zai n cute looking tenor freshie!haha..cnt wait..n im learning this new sg!cool!sat?accompany my ygest sis to gt ger scholarship at macpherson..so these will bring this week to an end!
my resolution?wanna exercise during my free days in sch..jog frm hall to src n den rd the tracks!n swim on mon morn bfore me go bk to hall w von..mei asked wad kinda of resolution is this..haha..to think of it..quite true hor..haha..hmm..den another resolution?hmm..
guess this yr will be a betta yr ahead considering the slacker modules which im taking this sem..n tada!after 19th april..i wld haf graduated!yah!dad asked if im graduating this july..yah n i proudly answered!YES!n its in april!dad n mum will be proud yes n if ive get a 2nd upper hons dere will be damn proud of me!haha..though dey may nt noe exactly wads the diff..n off ill be out wrking in the corporate wrld!wah..dats realli fast my frans!next yr during this time i wld haf wrked for half a yr!wow..
gonna finish watching some shws n immerse myself in music!
wad will happen this yr i wun noe..at the back of our minds..i guess we r hoping for things to happen to occur..whether or not they r cming true..we shall sit bk n wait..n ill be waiting n yearning quietly silently n patiently..

a brand new 2007!!!muckzs!

upper?lower?..UPPER!

2006-12-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

finally met up w weinee today!!n went to waraku!!my fav jappie restaurant!haha..yumyum!she still looks the same!hmm..feels great seeing u my dear fran!:) really glad to c u today n yah guess the next time we meet will b after exmas again:P so take care yeah?:)
best!n it was weinee whu told me tt the results r out!best right?din check site for the past 2 days n dey posted it!haha..i wan my second upper hons!but dunno whether its possible or not..mus be focused!!another B+ or the best will be an A-!!hopefully will b like yongxiang 2nd upper!lower?i wun be satisfied w a lower..a high achiever?yah?cfm wun wan a lower!pray n praying hard..but if realli a lower than sighh..no choice oso..at least ive gt a job!so still not too bad..nee reminded me tt the big 4 r located in the same area so cn meet for lunch!haha..yahyah..so its nt tt bad!:)still cn meet up!heehee..n if von is hafing pa at ey/kpmg it wld b nice!haha
tmr gonna haf tuition n recoup my spendings!mtg shan for lao beijing..i gtta go swim next week!!please dun rain again!!!urghh..so mani sales gg on..metro robinsons, john little, pull n bear n zara!!!wah!cool!!this hols haven been buying lotsa things cox of my facial liability!haha..but complexion has improved!great!happy!after me start wrking me shall sign up for slimming course!haha!
next week aint so pked which is quite good..shall go swim on the 1st day of the yr n prep myself for kruishinbos dinner next wed!so its gonna be another swimming session next wed morn!!cool!cnt wait for next fri to cm!KTV with my sops freshie n a tenor freshie!this guy is so zai!cn sing!!n quite gd looking!haha..but freshie..haha..ooopps!
met up w zhiyu the day before!wah thanks ger for the pretty necklace!so pretty!all e way frm shanghai!me shall wear sn!hmmm...hopefully u haf realli chosen the one u realli luf..n me gv u my blessings ger!!haha..hot babe u r ya!!but its true to haf to choose amgst 4!headache!haha..luf toking to u ger!!mus meetup in sch n u r always welcum to cm bunk w me!!haha
so happy to haf bought a unique dress/lg top!cool!!lufing it n dere r onli 10 pieces!!hm..dat shall b my chinese new yr clothes!haha..shall jus gt a nice long top n my levis jeans for new yr:P

me n weinee at coffee bean suntec:)

boxing day!

2006-12-26T12:09:00.000+08:00

todays boxing day a day after xmas..
jus gt bk frm eye center w mum n sis after her repeat op..hopefully u will heal quickly ger!!yah like wad ya frans sae ya gtta be brave..lifes hard..difficult n nt everything will go smoothly so tink uve haf a more tedious life compared to others so gtta be brave jus face it n nt tink too much..after tt can haf fun n taiwan trip!!yah..gt well soon sis!

ytd me n shan went to charmx church..haha..tink we were in the wrg attire..peeps were in more formal clothings..at least jeans but sjans was in 3 quarts whilst me as usual in my skirt..din realise till shan mentioned..oh well our beloved charms nv warn us!!oopps..so we went dere to watch her perform..nt bad the dance was nt bad!!haha..as for the prayer n singing of sgs of praise we simply entertained ours by whispering n looking busy..din expect to see marissa dere!wah she has lg hair n shes more feminine now!!haha..n saw a few sch mates frm arts..dey r shans frans..robin n hmm..another guy..surprised tt robin noes tt mes frm vj n a councillor..haha..oh well he noes emma too..so mb dats y..haha..was telling shan tt me thot hes quite goodlooking during jc days..tink hes still till now..haha..hey ger dun go tell hor so paiseh but its a compliment sia!
so hungrily me n shan took 14 which was a long long journey to wheelocks cedele..me n nado nado which sds lyk gado gado..haha n shan had her sandwich quite nice n the banana crumble n blueberry cheesecake..haha..watch night at the musuem n it was quite nice!so xmas day whizzed past jus lidat!wah
gt today to rest n tmr mes mtg ZHIYU!!woohoo n thurs will be isetan sale!friday mtg WEINEE!!sat lAOBEIJING BUFFET n rest on sun!!cool!!mb mon meet shan for minoltis bf tues meet von for ktv n wed kruishin buffet dinner w charms n shans!wah!!mes gonna turn fat sia!!!okie a meal a day!!!haha
was telling ma dat mes gg to save up for a treadmill so tt me cn run 'at home'!she din object to this idea jus dat me mus find space to place it!yeah!!treadmill!!!so me cn cover 3km per day!!wah!!okie!!so mes gg to save up for my cameron highlands trip w hillst n ladyhill during term break..taiwan trip in june n a digicam n when mes wrking it will be treadmill!!
pls stop raining n flooding so tt me cn go swim!!!

hmm..turning into a photo freak!!

presenting.....my cute little nephew!!peng peng!!!

me n shanshan!!!

haha..selftaken pics!

a DIFFERENT merry xmas:)

2006-12-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

this yr's xmas is different..furstly, spent it without my council khaki..me n von had our celeb ytd at pasta cafe taka n watch ed a touching n romantic jappie movie!quite nice..second, its the first yr which ive 2 gatherings in a day!!cool..went to our beloved grandpa zacks place at kembangan for steambt..the guys were the best..dey r definitely good housemen!!me n daoh volunteered to help w the shpping..in the end darren, zhenming zack n zhao went n did all the preparatory wrk..so impressive for guys to do those!!jus one wrd:IMPRESSED!n zhenming was the best!!he was busy slicing the chicken..wah..skilful n suave!!our tall tanned good looking eligible zhenming was jus so zai..okie..gg gaga alr..haha..so conclusion!!mus be a good eligible hseman!!haha..
den rushed off to cousins hse for family gathering at punggol after singing bdae sgs for winnie n my dearest mummy but missed the gift xchange..haha.oh well darren will help to safeguard mine!!haha..it was veri cosy..with my nephew entertaining me n stuff..its the first yr we r hafing this..n ill definitely hope we will continue tis tradition for mani yrs ahead!!the turkey the log cake the sushi the pizza..haha..so nice..ate enuff..n i can happily n safely drink up my wine..at least 3/4 cup? feeling a bit heavy-headed..haha oh well...it was at least 2 mths ago since i drank wine..n im lufing it!!cool!!!
quite glad we managed to chat like bfore..at least it felt like bfore..were there restraints..guess its on my side..yes gtta be lidat..but at least the franship is still dere..thanks alot dude!
tmrs gg to meet shan shan again!!!heehee..hopefully can watch another nice movie!!the holiday?night at the museum?spending alot this session!haha..oh well its isetan private sale w daph this thurs!!!cool!!i wan my dress!!haha..okie shall eat cheaper food for the next few days n back to my 1000 kcal diet frm tmr onwrds!!!

merry xmas everyone!!!!

merry merry mood!

2006-12-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

happy xmas babies!!!haha..it was a yr ago since i last carolled..today this feelings back!!was caroling at GREAT WRLD CITY's residence lounge!cool..the expats were singing alg w us n the kids..dey were beaming..n oh well we jus enjoyed the 2 sessions tremendously!!cfmed!!im so happy!haha..with the compliments n such..so cool!i jus simpy luf to carol!n one of the residents took down our contact n praised the sopranos!!of cox!im one of the 3 sops as well!!haha..lalala:0
tmr dere will be another session at great wrld's shpping mall!!so nice n its gonna be the last for this yr..hopefully me will b able to join em again next yr!!:)
haf been tking quite a number of photos these days cox of my new samsung z400 phone!!!*winks*
cnt wait to go shpping!!!wah..cnt wait to go for isetan sale on thurs w daphne!haha..cool!!good dat schs starting on the 8th!cool!!ive another week to slack ard!:):)
tmrs tuition carol n meeting von for xmas dinner!so nice!!:)
so here r the photos galore!

me n vonnie at suntec 20122006

me n my soprano freshie- yuanling!!

me shan n ting at bugis after xmas dinner 20122006

lastly...solo pics of myself!!!!:)

welcome back!

2006-12-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

so elated to receive zhiyus sms today!!!

wanna sae a big n warm welcum to u dear!!!haha..u r finalli back frm ur half yr stint in shanghai!great!!we cn meet up more often in sch also!!heehee..cnt wait to c u dear!!:)realli so glad to c ur msg!

wads more?!!receive clarences email today..n gtta noe tt zhenhao is bk for xmas!n linnnie is cming bk soon!!!wah!!welcum back my dearest frans!!

gt my new samsung z400 today!n ive gt a 60 bucks levis voucher..my sis oso has one!so we shall go levis n gt stuff!wah!!gd gd..
had my second session of facial today!!so comfy!worth the bucks i tink..hmm..spent alot today..abit guilty but..wad to do??go earn bk lorhs!!!
wanna dye my hair!!gd gd..gtting my pay this week but almost gone cos of facial!haha..
my days r packed so packed till me realli cnt believe it!!mes like a busy bee!haha..all the way to the end of the yr!!woohoo..dat means broke!!haha..wad to do??haha..so fun so fun..but so sick!its been raining for the past days..cnt go swim again!urghh!!
in 18 weeks time me will be graduating!wah..dats realli fast!!jus cnt believe it!

wah busy way to end the yr!!

19th dec: halls xmas party
20th dec: tuition n xmas dinner w shans n tings
21st: ktv w von
22nd: tuition n caroling
23rd: caroling n xmas steambt w rioja mates
24th: xmas lunch w hillst n ladyhill, xmas dinner w von! ( so eat as little for lunch!dere goes my max of 1000kcal!)
25th: xmas bf w shan
26th: acc. mei n mum to eye centre
27th: meetup w dearest zhiyu?
29th: mtg w weinee!!!
30th: mtg shan for lao beijings timsum buffet
2nd jan: dye hair?
3rd jan: mtg w charmn n shan for kuishin bo dinner!!ladies night!!

wah!!cnt believe so my plan stretches all the way to next yr!!2007!!oh my!!my graduation yr!!cool!!cnt wait to go taiwan w shan n mei!!gtta gif europe a miss..cox its europe in 2008!!!

accomplishments

2006-12-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

thot ive accomplished quite a lot this year..at least im accountable for myself..its been tough making difficult decisions, putting myself thru various challenges, hafing fun making frans..getting to noe schmates betta..getting hurt etc. etc.
shld i sae its eventful? or was it shag? actually i cnt rem much..everything seems so distant..
jus veri satisfied tt ive accomplished wad ive set out to achieve..at least me dared to challenge myself..ill nv forgt those times me n mei sang on stage in the malls..nv forgt the lg queue at the superstar audition..nv forgt the times weve trained..thanks mei..yah still hafing jitters for todays..shall improve for the jans one:) weve gtta jiayou!
finally saw hws the lee wei songs sch look like..not veri fantastic..haha...but it was no doubt fun..opportunities after opportunities for us to bond?hmm..more like argue over whus singing wad n stuff but in the end its still okie..not far we cn go but since weve this shared dream we shall proceed n test our limits..dere may not haf an ending but its the process tt matters
this is my passion, this is our passion..a shared dream
i miss the stage..yes i wun forgt the stage fright n stuff..it was a aplendid feeling during those beauty wrld time..ill nv forgt hw hard we rehearsed, we danced, we memorised, we gt scolded..in the end the performances were great!i miss those times..the singing n dancing on stage..on stage..basking in the floodlights, enjoying the limelight.. the attention, the silence in the theatre the appluases..the best was tt my frans my relatives n family were watching!oh my im really missing those times..still remember how my dance partner encouraged me n the assurances tt she will hold me tight n nt allow me to fall esp when hes watching..so surprised to receive her bouquet of sunflower..so beautiful..thanks pals for the little gifts oso
uni life is finalli cming to an end..jus one more sem to go..its realli fast.still rem teck wee shaking his head n sae 'its veri fast' yah!its realli rapid..it seemed like ytd tt i went to the nbs nbs camp, hw i skipped hall camp, hw i gt sabo-ed during the SP night, the life as a JCRC-ian, the currently slacking yr 3..this yrs' halls foc was memorable..truly memorable..performed during the sp night n the praises frm my guitarist n freshie.loved n treasured every moment..thanks!
not forgtting the hurting moments..cun rem hw many weepy nights but after those its a strger me..looking fwd n nt turning back..life has to go on..hurt is part n parcel n when it keeps repeating the heart will eventually bcm numb..yah..NUMB is the goal:)
marriage seems so far..yt ive gt frans whu r alr planning theirs..thats really fast!mummy always sae dun walk into the 'graveyard' so quickly..haha..wah if u two read this u r gonna to kill me mans..haha..if its here it will come..seriously wishing u all the best..hey n dun forgt lemme b host/perform hors!haha..
met up w shan today n gt all my days packed!!dats cool!gtta go swimming next mon again!!yeah!

updated schedule for one whu has a short term memory--me!

16th: pengs bdae
17th: tuition n caroling
18th: swim n facial
19th: blading,tuition, halls xmas party
20th: xmas dinner with shans tings n charms at kruishin bo
21st: ktv w von
22nd: tuition n caroling
23rd: caroling n rioja xmas dinner
24th: meetup w von to celeb xmas n her bdae!
25th: xmas breakfast w shan at minolti
26th: acc. ma to eye center
29th/30th:lao beijings tim sum buffet w shan

wah..damn pack!!wanna haf a new look for next sem!!shall go dye my hair brown instead of red!haha
cnt wait to go for pengs bdae party tmr!!yawns!its bed time!!!!

idol mania

2006-12-12T08:47:00.000+08:00

leading a very relaxed life these days!cool!
was quite disappinted when mei din cm over n accompany me last fri..so me decided to entertain myself by watching the taiwanese idol drama-smile pasta over youtube!!n ITS SO SWEET N ROMANTIC N FUNNY!haha..good good shw..n we like the theme songs!cool!very touching!wah..haha..listening to it now!din noe zhang dong liang can be so gd looking( frm certain angles)..haha..oopps!these r cameo tricks? finished watching ytd n its cfmed plus guaranteed an expected ending..but its the process and the story development..
wads the feeling of fallin in love with a star?an artiste?the problems the ups n downs..the feelings involved in a rship etc. etc. yah all these were covered in the shw..n the female lead is sweetie pie, wang xin lin..haha
some parts were so touching dat the emotional part of me was revealed again..haha..guess mei u too right?haha..
mel asked if ive a passion..yah i do haf a passion..my close frans will wads my passion..mei u noe too right?think we haf the same passion..but for pple like us passion can only be a hobby? in our case passion cant tk us far i think..nonetheless we shall try to have fun n jus try hard..dun worry though its a duet its not ur fault..im really nt blaming u ger!really:) look on the brighter side..lets jus haf fun ger!take it easy
hmm..looking fwd to more idol dramaS!haha..immersing in series after series of romantic dramas!haha..wad to do xmas is a season of love!haha

bickered w ma the day bfore again..said im calculative?alas!i felt so depressed..i wasnt lorhs..jus lyk in smile pasta..im always the bad guy..jus cox me nv mention explicitly wad i did etc..im automatically degenerated? sighh..luckily dads on my side..but its nt bt tking sides its bt gaining trust. mum has a hot temper i noe..so im trying to give in..speak less..moreover, considering dat shes hafing menopause..yah but me wld still gt it somehow..haiz..asking me to go bk hall..yah i noe..i will but hw lg cn i stay in hall..jus one more sem..mb watching in kpmg w the lg hours will help?mb this arranged again?haha..

wanna go europe with huishan kj iris joey but me gtta go wrk..hs seas shes gg to tk up mani tuition assignments..me feel lyk too but tinking lg term..hmm i fel that me cnt cope cox hafta juggle full time wrk n tuition..ill die n i tink nt veri nice to teach for 10 mths n den chuck them aside once ive started wrk..if im really gg to tk up 2 more..ill bring them thru the entire year..yah den ill haf 4 kids..haha..okok shld call catherine..

gonna receive kpmgs contract withing these 2 days..hmm..good good..okie better go watch my sleppyhead sis n prep for ktv at cine!!!n shopping at bugis!!!my fav sgs!!!:) here i cm n rock the hse down!!!woohoo!!!

cosy outing

2006-12-08T11:19:00.000+08:00

we celebrated yanshans bdae ytd!!!haha...finally right??bot her a 50 bucks topshop voucher..n she told us she changed her mind n tinking of the mango jeans instead...oopps!haha..but tink u will still need the voucher since u r such an avid 'fan' of topshop!haha..had brunch at kuali..food wasnt realli fantastic though..haha..but guess we r all veri happy n enjoyed slacking tgt!haha..derived more satisfaction w the desserts haha..after which went to watch happy feet..hmmm..changed my view of an animated movie..was telling meis not to waste money watching it but in the end it turned out nt bad though i was practically freezing like mad in the theatre..haha..mes too stubborn to change out of my 'dressy' spaggetti top so in the end froze!haha..mei went off after the shw n as usual the three of us jus jalan to citylink n went home..

cant wait for the 20th night!!!our annual xmas dinner at krushin bo!!!woohoo...!!!ladies' night!wah...good good..so no more jap food for me..n gtta save up..:)

gt the lg-awaited call frm kpmgs risk!!finally..wondering wads taking them so long to call me!!urghhs..mb im on the reserve list?i dunno.. i dun wanna noe oso..haha..since im in!!!haha..okie its bt ego again..kj was saeing ey rejected him n it spoilt his plan of passing all intervvs..n joey told him to put his ego out of the eqn..haha..but in the end he gt all!yah so me gt all too!!haha..

pwc n dt r out cox me dun wan audit but at least me passed the pwcs!haha..thot me din gt kpmg so dug out the ey's contract n wanted to fill it up till i gt e call..mummy n sis r more for me gg to the corporated wrld..even the ey's gst director told me to go join em..haha..i thot of it but tink im more likely to join kpmg..im fickle n m feeling guilty dat i bragged so much bt being a teacher..yah..
a corporate lady..calculated if everything goes well ill be a manager in 7 yrs time n the pay will be at least a 5k!!dats a lot..i tink risk is more for me..i hope..getting a bit excited though:) kpmgs known to slog pple to death..haha..well im willing so lg as i lyk the job..i dun mind..10 yrs is all i gif myself..its gg to be a focused n ambitious joleen..a better living space for my family..eating well..looking good..i wan to gif my family a better live n im willing to sacrifice my 'spare' time to achieve all these...n of cox! i hope i will derive enjoyment in it while wrking hard..so its kpmg's risk!:)

believeing its god's will..i thank him for his blessings:)n ill wrk hard!!for pa ma siss n myself!!:)

gonna be an activities filled weekeend n next week as well...haha..fun fun!

8th(today): choir camp in sch n mei is cming over to my hall to acc. me!!
9th: ktv?
10th: tuition n shpping for dads pres w meis
11th: swim, tuition, dinner w dad
12th: ktv w mei
13th: blading w meis
14th: swim n tuition
15th: shpping w mel
16th: celeb pengs bdae
17th: tuition
18th: swim n facial
19th: xmas celeb--choir in hall
20th: xmas dinner w shan tings n charms
23rd: xmas dinner w og mates
28th: isetan private sales?

betta go gt ready to go to sch for choir..im gg to be late..haha..its gonna be a fun fun caroling practice session:) haha..fa la la la la la la la la :)

18th:

cool timetable!

2006-12-05T11:10:00.000+08:00

phew..luckily we managed to gt the slot we wan for the module!!haha..so it went as planned..will be in the same 311 class as huishan, kj iris, joey!cool!!hopefully cn be in the same proj grp but shant be greedy yah?mels tking the mon slot so diff frm us..hmm..luckily still haf lect so cn still see one another?

ytd went kruishin bo w kj joey n iris..haha..not bad not bad..went shpping n went orchard..this yrs lightings not as pretty..i prefer hafing a white xmas!!!haha..

had a relaxed swim ytd morn!shall go w mei tmr again!!haha..cool damn earli so the suns not a prob!!mes gg to swim regularly now!!n its blading next wed cfm!!:)

gg to DT's cocktail reception tmr .iris kj r gg DT..hs most prob EY..me?waiting still..haha..no hope?mb..nvm if dun haf ive MOE..:) nt bad oso:)
me n shan gg for wallet shop intervv tmr..hopefully cn gt the parttime job n ill wrk my free days..yah we r gg to save up..hopefully cn save enuf for grad trip..if ive enuff shall join kj iris n joey on the europe trip..backpacking in europe!so me n shan r gg to wrk..for me dres another!!taiwan trip so ard 3.5k?so my aim??earn 3.5k!!!a bit hard but wad to do?slave drive myself!!!haha..

cool..todays gonna be a fun fun day!!mtg yanshan in 65 mins time!n im still at home haven prep yt!!oh no!!gonna be late..but im happy cox im 'prettily' clad?haha..second time at vivo!haha..shan cnt wait to c u!!haha:) cheers

nice weather..good mood..beautiful day!!enjoying my life as it is!!!onli hope dat mum wun nag so often..haha:)

mb it aint passion..else y wavered?

2006-12-02T09:13:00.000+08:00

facing a delemma..guess everyone is..

sighh..all the temptations n such..hw not too

everything is finally over!exams n interviews..todays sat n i was up since 8+..wanna go bk to slp again..yawns

waiting for the reply frm kpmg..some of my frans alr gt the offer on the spot..if me nv imply wrgly me shld be accepted too..haha..oh well i applied for risk whilst deirs are assurance n tax so mb its different?

gt the offers frm Deloitte n TOuche as well as PWC..but those r for audit..aint taking them up though its so so tempting cox its PWC!!!if its a positive frm KP den im really wavered..risk management..fraud detecting..internal auditing? sds fun n exciting..but ive realli gtta find out more frm seniors or even the manager if im really accepted..suddenly i feel lyk im more for this..alas?y lidat?thot ive settled for MOE..

im proud of myself..a big ego i have..my aim for the interviews: to ace n shw wad ive gt n see hw far i can go..mb its a wrg choice..in the end gtta decide gt tempted..life's full of temptation..n its bad..mb if im nt so welll educated mb if mes limited to jus a few choices me will be betta?confident n felt good after the interviews..thot i jus crapped the sessions away..each lasting at least 40mins..i dunno..jus gt veri driven n excited when i narrate bt my life..my achievements..hope me din bore them to death..haha..the partner frm pwc even told me tt he went for a jog before my interview..told me tt his wife was teaching in tk n quitted in 1999..told me his daughter is in tk..his current n past residence etc etc..dats a cool lot!interviewer frm DT? ended up telling her hw frightened we were in lee kin wais lecture seminars n the tensed up moments dueing my class presentation..we had a gd laugh indeed..haha..KPMG's a little less casual but ti was comfortable enuf i guess..
so much so much for me to digest within this short period.one after another..
was telling my sis e importance of studying n gt involved in sch in activities dun care wad jus gt ur lazy bum up n DO STHG!!im jus an average student..mb cos of e additionals dat y ive gt wad ive gtten..thanking n owed this to my alma mateur..TKGS!my confidence my character etc etc..the fighting spirit n stuff..
dun tink im good..seriously i dun tink im..kj was telling me dat me cn portray my self well..the bosses like this kinda of employees..my sis told me im more suited to be in the corporate wrld cox of my personality..i aint sure full of doubts bt myself..im confused by my abilities..i dunno..self-doubting is destroying but overconfident kills n its hated..at least by myself
will be realli drawn to kp if i gt the offer..kp is highly perf based..bonus is dependent on perf n OT??haha..wad to do?intervv qns: wads ur view bt OT?haha..oh man wad cn i sae?of cox its alright lahs..haha..kp promises partnership in 8 to 12 yrs' time!!dats like hw cool..with my personality n if i really choose risk my goal: 10 yrs!!yes..ill gif myself ten yrs..at least the post of a risk director..well well it will be a bonus if im a partner..haha..its all tok n no action till now..but ive gtta realise it.
called my cousin whus a high flyer assistant director at PUB..a zai guy..his wife is as capable as him..at 33 he has alr achieved this much..me wan too!!tt means all the thought of hafing a more relaxed life n enjoyment which im seeking will be gone..again he told me dat i may be more suited to the corporate world..suggest dat
i shld try joining the rat race..he told me to condider 3 components: money(practicality), job nature(interests), environment( people)..yah..my focus is on the last 2..risks diff frm audit as least frm my pt of view..people?dey 'look' okie i guess..whu doesnt but i believe im adaptable to pple..shldnt be an obstacle for me..mes open n i dun mind all types of peeps will diff personalities..haha though may complain here n dere but whu doesnt complain?money?lg term its good..hoping me can gt onto the fast track prog call the HIPO..with all the promotions n stuff..money in the lg term looks good..
i wanna be over the rest..liking the feeling of power, acknowledgement n the ability to spend..yes being materialistic here..down the road veri soon ill be able to gt a bigger hse for my family..me n mei r always veri impressed by the condos n the penthses alg parkway..pretty..sighh..its all bt social status..i dunno i wanna be able to walk into posh shps..clad in elegant clothes n allow my parents to eat well and live well..its time alr..my dads 50 today in 10 yrs time hes alr 60..no no..mb 10 yrs is a little too lg..ive gtta tink far!!so it seems dat risk aint dat bad afterall..it all depends on the outcome of the interview..else im with MOE..
before it cmes me shant tink too much..gtta do up wad ive gtta do now:)n enjoy the free time while it lasts..cnt wait for the 13th to go blading w mei..cool n ktv..gonna protect my voice..so its 3 sessions of ktv for the next 2 weeks..wah..haha
had facial ytd..now my face is smooth!!!haha..gt rid of those black heads n dead skin..scrubbed off the dirt..my sis' comment: jie u gt no makeup on..eeks!!!haha..n bestest me saw my sec sch fran n mes so cui!!!aiyos..cnt believe feel lyk digging a hole n jump in!haha..its a lg term investment..the next session will be on the 18th n ill go again before sch reopens dats ard once per month:) gonna tk up an additional tutee so ill haf 3!!high maintenance?haha..wad to do?no lahs jus feel good to haf extra cash ard since next sem is more slack..guess its gods will..he has it all planned out for me..deres no the other half for me so me cn jus focus on wad i wan n wad im doing..thank you god for this..n i truly believe its for my own good
was reading meimei's blog..yah u r right..we shld make plans w/o the other half..its our life..whu noes wads gonna happen if hes gone..if hes to come into the pic hes dere to complement it to share the ups n downs..i agree..truly agree!
so broke liaos..haha..mus gif tuition..haha..next sem is gonna b a great sem i guess..but im forever overloading myself..with additional commitments..vons tking frence n i jus realised deres no korean..haha..told lin the wrg info alr n shans tinking of tking jap!!!haha...me dun mind but dun understd y the OPA's schedule is for this sem!!ellos we r reg for next sem ahs!!me gtta clear 4 aus..wanna mk it a 2 dats week but with the GEs mb hafta haf a 3 days..dun mind a mon to wed week!!haha..den will haf a damn long weekend for me to gif tuition n haf fun..
meanwhile..this the updated schedule for myself..

4th: swim n celeb vonnies bdae!!
5th: sch to reg for subj n meet yanshan to go vivocity
6th: swim n DT's reception dinner at hilton
7th: celeb yanshans bdae
8th: CHoir camp
9th: tentative ktv session w yj
10th: out w meimeis to gt dads prezzie
11th: celeb dads bdae
13th: blading n ktv w meimeis
16th: celeb pengpengs bdae
18th: facial
19th: hall caroling?
23rd: rioja's post exam n xmas celeb steamboat at our beloved cgl's hse

hmm..shld haf more dinners b stuff ard this period i guess..haha..wah its really time to recoup all dat ive spent this hols..n ive gtta be fast!!!

when too mani becms a chore

2006-11-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

received my moe letter 2 weeks ago n im supposed to go for a briefing this cming tues for a briefing n to hand in the contract...

ytd was out studying w mei..gt too calls frm deloitte n kpmg for intervv n my fran told me tt ive gt shortlisted for pwcs as well!pengs..wads more?an ey's contract in my cupboard!

thot im settled for nie..gt a bit wavered ytd n i mean now..supposed to be aslp but decided to blog cox gt no one to grumble to!sians..mei mugging for tmrs exam..
hw not to b wavered when uve gt a potential job w pwc waitng for u!!not tt ill cfm geddit but if i realli wan it ill mk sure ill ace the intervv!!cfm!!sighh..
feels great getting shortlisted by all esp. pwc but wads the pt if ive chosen nie?

yah the pay the reputation the ego of a great company!!compared to teaching?
but i can cfm in the long run ill enjoy the latters life more!!

so its NIE NIE NIE!!!!!

shant be wavered but ill still go for the intervvs lahs..haha..as a challenge?see if im gd enuf to gt into pwc..another challenge for myself?

maybe..so i shall sae bye to the lg run high pay job!! welcum me to the life of a teacher!!jus realise im may be an elitist..dun realli wanna teach acctg cox usually special n express stream schs dun offer tt..shall go ask if i cn select schs basing on the eng subject..hopefully can:P but i tink chances r low!

following my heart following my instinct n dey choice is rather obvious..another year in ntu..dats it..yupps..dats all!

getting excited once again

2006-11-21T17:29:00.000+08:00

yah after tmr's paper ive a paper left which is on wed! n im not done w revising dat yt..gosh!!!:( wadever im done with revising w tmr's done..phew.nt dat im armed w 100% knowledge n confidence of dealing w all qns..but ive tried my best alr..wadever cmes up tmr me will jus haf to try hard n apply..tink im still okie apart frm not noeing hw to reconcile stuff like the Minority interests shit..the rest lyk passing journal entries r alright..having done the past yrs' papers..possibility of reconciling is rather low..praying hard

hey mei read ur blog..wah pengs hw cm u tiinking of such things so weird..anw nothing wrg with keeping touch w a fran right..its okie wads..so lg as hes not a desporado or sm baddie den i guess its still ok..haha..hopefully not lyk the one whu always try to initiate a conver on msn..wah can gt a bit irritated esp when im busy..:P

hmm..was browsing thru the blogs n realise tt clarence's blog has the most number of pics!haha..photo galore!!cn compete w lin alr!haha..tinking wad phone me shld gt..either samsung z400 a slider phone or the sony erricsons pick phone tink its 610i..cant decide but lotsa peeps hafing the pink one alr!so tink me shld jus gt the slider one..gonna spend a bit on decal for protection else it will gt scratched again!yah..mus quickly settle right after exams!haha..so exciting

yahyah..getting so excited over my schedule after the stupid paper next wed..so here it goes:

1st dec: acc. sis to sch to gt TB, lunch at jack's pl. w mei n ma
2-3rd: tuition..gg out to shp? look out for dads pres?
4th: bdae celeb w von!!
5th: outing w shans to vivo!
6th: choir camp in hall
7th: celeb dearest shan's bdae with tingx n charms!!
11th: celeb daddys bdae!
13th: outing w mei!!blading ktv!
16th: celeb little nephews bdae!!
19th: TTS n hall's xmas party

hmm..so far its lyk dis..pending activities:
ktv/east coast park outing w yj n co.
meeting w weinee
vj class gahering
xmas dinner w shan, von hs n lh
new year meetups?

haha..so mani so mani!!great!
n ill top everything up w swims!!haha

hmmm..shan ahs meanwhile tink of ur prezzie k?tell us tell us!!haha

oh ya von!ive planned ur bdae outing as below..but im still tinking of wad we cn do in the morn..haha

2 to 5: ktv!
dinner at the balcony heerens/french restaurant at taka!!opp. mos!mongolian buffet at park mall(all sds quite ex hor) haha
afterdat either a movie or go admire the xmas lightings!
actually tinking if its too late u cn cm visit my hall..but its lyk a bit far hor?haha
morn we we cn go shp?or u haf betta suggestions?

it's coming n going fast!

2006-11-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

suppose to be deep into my sleep!hmm..shld quickly complete this entry and concuss!

finally signed up or 2 upcoming contest..gg w sis..jus to enjoy n gif ourselves wadever opportunities dats available!haha..

went out to mug today..well had a super sinful drink at pac coffee parkway..haha..jus ordered mocha brownie w/o thinking cox me din realli haf time to consider wad to drink!haha..

nice!saw a lot of caucasian..n taitais i guess..at least its more conducive than yoshinoya..shld go mos one of these days since it looked as if its newly renovated..hmmm:)

nearly bot another pretty top jus now but was carrying lotsa stuff so had to gif dat up!sighh..nvm..shall go shp after exams..plenty of time!haha..hmm..hafta go find time to go facial!gt a 100 bucks mary chia voucher..n me jus bot meself a new wallet shp wallet!heh..gonna wash my GUESS wallet frm shan tingx n charmxx..so sad a bit dirty alr so mus wash..

hmm..thurs the start of my first paper..hope it cn jus cm n go den me cn start on my 206!!!if nt its cfm death for me!!sians

nvm its gg to be over soon!yupps all the way mans!

yawns..

mani tmrs

2006-11-07T19:02:00.000+08:00

todays betta..

teary ytd..

thanks mei for the msg..changed my blog add n onli restricting to my closest frans..no letting the rest noe..cfm esp when most posts r sch/hall related..too personal..so onli my realli close pals n mei can read..yeah..

hmmm..was comtemplating if me shld join sfter thurs quiz to celeb kanjians bdae cox wanna mug den i thot cm bk oso too tired to mug..might as well enjoy for a while..treat it as a destress activity yah?den its my first paper next thurs..n shld start practising the papers n start revising for the consolidation on fri!:) gg suntec's chongqing quite ex..29.8 nety oh well thot gg krushinbo but in end end cancelled..mb when lins bk we cn go dere??go for the lunch?cheaper..since von n lin both lyk so we shld go!!heehee..

tmr shall go out n mug else ill be slpy in the afternn n nt be efficient again..haha..

i wanna gt a princessy dress..shld try getting frm isetan at wisma..went w von dat dae n dere were so mani:0!!!pretty pretty!!!

ive gtta treasure wadever i haf n wadever aint mine me wun force too..well..it will tk sm time again to gt out..silly to haf fallen in unknowingly..yah when realisation becmes too late

Treasuring

2006-11-06T12:33:00.000+08:00

feeling sick n jus had my medicine..slpt late at 2 though me knew me shldnt be..gtta slp more to recover fast..gtta noe bt it there n den..at least im privileged to noe bfore the rest..yah..mb..thanking u for tt..realli

woke up at 6.30 this morn..mes tired but noe me wun be able to fall bk..told sis..she went quiet..she noes wad im tinking..i noe she noes..she din sae..she noes..i noe she noes..mei i noe u noe..thanks for keeping quiet at tt moment..din tk med after bf cox simply thot ill try nt to rely on panadol but gv in cox i can feel the heat rising in me..simply lazy to see doc..self medicating again?

finished 3 chaps of 304 at one go since me cnt go..cnt conc..read thru sentences after setences n still at tt sentence/phrase..alas..forcing myself to conc n focus so in the end managed..affected..y? i noe y..roughly noe..

treasuring the franship, treasuring the trust..thanks for the faith tt me wun sae..taken aback for a while..oh well..dats it..full stop..wishing u well
yah still gd frans:)

ma noes i told her hw i felt..it runs in the family i tink..same as mei she onli kept quiet..she noes hw i feel but jus din sae much at least ahe noes..n i jus wanna share w ma..

hafing a clearer vision of my life..meimei...i admire u!!we will wrk tgt k??our goal our life our dreams..cnt wait for exams to be over so we cn go out enjoy activities tgt!hafing plans here n dere alr:)which is good?at least my lifes occupied n my mind too..yeah its good

mus focus for the next 3 weeks..everything mus be off my mind..completely n nothing else..when it hurts jus slp on it..fortunately this isnt as bad as a yr n a half ago?
now its jus time for studies..anything else can wait!!!

lufing myself more n more..protecting myself to an extent tt its uncontrollable..it all lies in the wrd 'stupidity'

DOWN finally

2006-11-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

finally ill..i knew ill fall ill someday..jus haf this veri bad feeling
:( n yah these 2 days hafen been good..mb its exams stress..cun slp well oso..always waking up at 5+ to mug..will always wake up in fright..sighh..this bad..no wonder lack of slp n my eyebags r gtting worse:(

no choice this is the period..its the same for everyone..

oh yah today is LINNIE's 21st!!n me can openly blog down wad we did for her!!hhaha..hey lin hope u realli lyk the gift frm us yeah??all the way frm mango taka to korea via freight!!haha..hmm..me n vonnie oso feel lyk gtting but too ex..haha..:) y not u gt us one frm korea..haha..joking ger!hmm..21 alr!finally babe!!welcum on board!hope u will enjoy urself today!i noe u will!!

was reading mei's blog..yah i agree w her on certain issues..shes strger than me..strger than i thot..gd!shes gtta clearer goals n vision than me..yah our penthse dream!!lets wrk twds it!!if nie aint my place ive to decide if its kpmg or ey..den i shall wrk twds the 2million..though me cnt possibly be a partner..hopefully deres a miracle tt sth is gg to happen

2 mores cming up..im gg w mei!intense practices n selections!but gtta sign up first..yeas!i mus recover fast so my voice w be bk..no heaty stuff again!but i dun mind sacrificing for my interests my dream n life!!

wanna concuss alr..but toking to him..its been a long time since he initiated..thanks for the concern n the reminder..sending him the sgs but its so slow!urghh..dun care he mus learn else hes gonna geddit frm me when w k the next time rd..haha..oops!jus told me he gt attached..yah
ya dun seem to care or choose nt too..so oblivious?den y do i always hafta care?

KTV ROCKS!

2006-11-03T18:12:00.000+08:00

cool!!!im so so happy!!
had two sessions of KTV on 2 consecutive dayS!

finally our last presentation for the sem was over ytd!!haha..we r cfm the best team lahs!nv had so much fun wrking tgt bfore..haha..as in its jus quite amusing..e 5 of us gtta noe one another jus this sem to be exact 3 mths ago..n we behaved as if we havw known for years..dey r so approachable n i guess we r of the same frequency bahs..hhaa..most importantly tink kenneths the one whu gel-ed us tgt?haha..hes so funny..brotherly?or mb fatherly?haha..tink hes a veri funny n energetic fellow..

so us gers jus dashed into the toilet n gt changed out into our gg out clothes our pres was over..sians tink prof is bias against us..okie lorhs..but we dun care lahs..kenneths brought so mani things even his wireless keyboard!haha...his crumpler is super huge!!haha..immediately after class we dashed out of sch!!haha..we went crystal jade for lunch cos he wanna eat xiao long bao..so we went n the la mian was lyk so much n in the end guess other den kennie n yingying..de rest of us jus gv up!n he ate lyk 7 xiao long baos lahs!!!crazi sia..so filling!he wanted to treat us but in the end we jus declined the offer..hw nice!!haha..we r close but nt close to tt extent i guess..haha..n we were all given names lah..hes kennie..yiing yng's yingying,lijing's jingjing, debbie's deb deb n mine? jo jo or he will sometime call me joleen meimei..so funnie lahs..tink its this kinda of informality!
so went kbox at clementi!haha..n bestest!!we r all ktv freaks!!!tink all r regulars so r sang relatively well!!!haha:):) good good! thot hes zai but in the ebd he told us he goes ktv to jus listen!best lahs!!but we forced him to sing..in the ens as a SHE fan!all the sgs he sang were SHE's!!!haha..pengs..we were all lauging lyk crazi..bestest feat ytd!he sang one night in beijing w the falsetto n did a duet himself..the theme sg frm dunno hw long ago from shuang tian zhi zun!haha...deb video taped it!!so we shall post on youtube n bribe him!!!haha..sg for 4 hrs n we refilled 15 bowls of tidbits!!haha..mus gt our money worth!!
conclusion?????!!!! we had tremendous fun!!!n its realli FUN!!haha..

this morn woke up earli to finish 2 chaps of 304 bfore proceeding to kbox at parkway w mei!!heehee..cool!!exposed to so mani new new sgs these 2 days n mes gg to master them all!!!duets n solos!! veri veri nice duets mus learn n make sure im super zai so tt me can force felix to sing next time!!!haha:) bet he doesnt noe!!dun care den its my time to suan him le!!!
realli luf singing w mei cos we cn sing lyk crazi!!shes always the one introducing the lastest n hippest sgs to me!!!heh!!n we always gv each other comments on hw we sded n ways to improve!nice!!lufing singing yuan dian n ah mei's zhen shi w u ger!!heehee...we shall go more more often after ur exams yeah?looking fwd!!mmm..okie as for now im looking fwd to a session w vonie on the 4th dec!!heh!!cant wait!i wanna go hark's cafe!!live on stage ktv!!best!cool!!okie tt ive to wait for yx?haha..den ktv's w my hall's freshies..hmm..tink dec is a singing season for me!!all these sesions n caroling camps n caroling seasons..ive been looking fwd to dec since uni cox me gtta go carol w pals in shpping centers n hotels!so cool but of cox will gt sick of the carols by the end of the month!!haha..
hmmm..so hint hint!!me nid honey water!!!haha!!!

immersing ourselves in our dreams..preparing ourselves for them..e feelings r back!im glad to be gg thru these w u, mei!!!thanks!!!:):) jus haf fun yeah?

as for now..its exams first!!!

whee!

2006-10-31T15:12:00.000+08:00

jus had a long morning of project!skipped 206 again n poor kenneth was dere alone..hes our super leader mans!!haha..of cos hes the MAN!!planned everything alr..goodgood!the rest of us r jus slackers..cant wait for thurs to be over n can jus conc on mugging,,tink wad kept us gg is the grp's crankiness n of cox how slack how slack!haha..we enjoyed one another's company i guess!n bestest!!tink after our pres on thurs we r gg KTV!!!haha..y? to celeb!!haha..so cool right?n we all lyk to K!!!woohoo..haha..n fri mes gg w sis in the morning!wah stress relievers bfore exams!cant wait cant wait!todays debbies' 22nd bdae..n kenneths so sweet to go help buy card n cake n went to gt an empty tut room to celeb for her..simple!jus sing song n crapped!hmm..guess tt's hw we bond tgt?haha..oh well we had fun though..kenneths so thotful!cant stand!!haha..mb hes mu ji no. 2?haha..*winks*

in the midst of the crowd when i was gg bk to hall!guess wat!!i saw charmaine!!!my PARTNER!!haha..so long nv see u alr!!!so glad to see u heh!!:):) so sad din gt to tok much..hmm..but u still look e same yeah?haha..thanks for telling me ive lost wt!haha..me nid the assurance!:)shall catch up soon yeah?

back in my little cosy room:)

jus realised when mes filling up the app forms dat daddy's approaching his 50th!dats lyk how fast!!oh mans!!the big 5!!urghh..me n mei is planning sth!shall bring pa to eat good food..chinese rest i guess den tinking of wad to buy..

was quite stunned ytd when i heard wad ma said while ranting at pei..shocked mans!she actually said tt eating at hawker centers is low class!!wah!!was practically shutting myself frm her naggings as well but when she said tt me jus woke up apparently!!wah best..since when she gt dis kinda mentality?hmmm..hawker=low class?wah..cant believe cant believe still..wah..mb too angry w my sis alr..dats y..

doctor doctor

2006-10-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

stopped revision for 306..pengs..crossing my fingers for tmr's test..haven filled up any of the app forms..shall do it tmr after the sickenig test..hmm..great gg to my fav cafe to mug for 304 aft sch tmr!!!goodgood..so depressed tt me have lost my sense of smell n taste:( sighh..

was uplaoding pics onto friendster n happened to re- read the testimonials..
so here's one..

My dearest mei,
Never believed in the sister brother
thing.. thought it was very cheena.. but..
you are my first ever and most beloved
adopted sister.
Thanks for all the times you make
breakfast for me... the messages you
send me.. the herbal drinks you make
me swallow when i have sore throat =)
All the good luck messages, the
reminders and concern you have
showed me in uni. Eh guys, trust me,
this girl will make ur fairytale gf, but
she's extremelly picky so try hard =)

its slping time!off to sch tmr again:P sians

overdose..overdozed

2006-10-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

overdose of 306..its 306 day in day out but dun realli seem to master em completely..als..bestest?closed book quiz..pengs:( jus checked results for 206..phew at least okie lahs..but can definitely do better!!:p gtta buck up:)
waiting for mon for veri long..den she told me she din noe its this mon!best lorhs..hating to tok to her..tell her stuff..she jus din pay attention..always hafta repeat myself like crazy!urghh..im not a tape recorder mans!keep repeating?exams cming..no more ktv..after 306's quiz shall study for 304's exam!!banking in all my time n energy into my studies..gtta buck up!
ktv's my life..gtta wait..yah no choice..
stressed up..not well..betta go see doc soon..sians..waiting money..1000cal per day..hmm..so afr so good..headache..its tking effect..panadol, sorethroat pills, flu tablets, vitamin pills..hmm..any more medication?lemme tk more?haha..
gonna slp n wake up earli for 306 again..sians..but no choice!
so mon shall go n mug at my fav cafe after test n den shp for a pair of low heels:) dis wad i call destressing via shopping..yah shpping
decided to continue keeping my room in hall..vons cming over so she cn stay w me for a few days when shes here!cool!den we cn go find lin in nus when we r free!!heehee..den we cn 'gather' again!so nice!another reason..afraid of the nagging..third..mving out is a chore..4th: fun?hmm..mb? 5th: underlying reason..so the 'hedging instrument' shall depend on this hedged item!yah hedged item:P
gg crazi cox of wrk..
sis managed a position of 9/110 in her express stream..8th in class..shes in the first class..best class in her sch..w all the stress which weve given her she g t this result..can foresee further pressure on her..its gonna increase nv decrease..we r setting her goals for her.issit correct?or r we doing it wrgly? vons right..weve nv in their sch..weve nv been so rebellious bfore..weve nv been in a neighbourhood sch before..weve always been at the top..we wun noe wads the feeling of being below..wun understd their feeling..we r afraid our kids,if ever we have, wun be able to make it to the top like us..wad if they lag behind?gosh?hw hw?we dunno..sighh..so much stress..no wonder its reported tt singaporeans r not happy peeps at all..hw to when we r faced w so many responsibilties?
kj was telling me n hs tt ministers earn much lesser than partners of EY..wah best lahs..senior partners can earn $2m per year whereas junior partners can earn 250k per year..dats alot alot of money but gtta slog lyk shit..ltr becm shit hw?haha..
its betta to do things which uve passion for..its a lg term thing..not jus for the $..$ can buy alot of material things..can help to destress..can mk pple happy..but $ cant buy love, precious time, interest
dats y dere r artists/artistes out dere whu r able to forsake $ for interests...

difficult choice..lost..life juncture..

short but nice

2006-10-28T00:21:00.000+08:00

met up w zuzu for the 3rd time for e 3rd consecutive week!haha..but seems lyk we haven met up for a lg time..hahaha..today meetup was a short one..both of us were tired..haha..poor von had sch for the entire day n had to invigilate her juniors..aiyos..den had to lug her stuff:P
haha..cnt believe we r always so good!!haha..we r the best of pals mans!telepathic!n aiyas!we r jus so zai!!always manage to choose the right thing n at the right time..last week chances upon a taiwan snack shp near bugis n today went cineleisure n ate at a little eatery..jappie fd..wanna go for korean at the basement of le meridian but we were jus so exhausted..hmm me dunno y so tired oso..sians..muged the whole day..n since exams r cming!im prepared for my mugging days whereby ill jus mug n do nothing!!no life sia!!no choice!mugging days=mugging daze!!
cnt wait for mon to come dat means 306 quiz will be over n me cn happily go meet meimei for ktv!its been at least 7 wks seince we last k-ed tgt!haha..shall train up again!try out my new sgs!!haha..n one month's time me will be gg w von!!mb when lins bk!we will go again lin!well of cox during hols ill jus go lyk crazy!!i wana go harks cafe!!hmm..shall ask yx alg!haha
meanwhile gtta mug hard..so far most or less haf some plans for hols alr!
0) after xmas celeb!
1) celeb vons bdae
2)celeb shans bdae
3) celeb zhiyus bdae
4) celeb pengs bdae
5) jc class gathering
6) shans tings charms xmas celeb
7) xmas celeb w von
8) xmas w zhiyu
9)blading sessions w meimei, hs,kj?
10) ktv sessions
11) caroling camp
12) caroling sessions

relaxing at home?vexed

2006-10-24T16:06:00.000+08:00

supposed to be at aunties place now..decided not too cox if i were to go..ill jud die for my quiz next mon!betta not..finished reading the chapters but gtta practised n gt organised n my 206 report..wah..supposed to start my 304..but 306 is bugging me!!
cant breathe..cant taste, cant smell..wadever i eat is tasteless..tink shld see a doc soon:( pengs..sorethroat n cough too..best!jus let me fall sick?but exams cming!
not as good as it seems..not as perfect as it mus be..a perfectionist?yah mb..n dere goes my nv ending quest to achieve the veri veri best..its tough..taken a toll on myself but no choice..ive no choice
slping cures..shld sleep more, mug more..less of it..dats the life ive

the 21st century independent women!!

2006-10-21T18:57:00.000+08:00

YES!!me n vonnie agreed tt we r the 21st century INDEPENDENT woman!!yes!we r CFM!!

mugged a bit den went to meet von at cityhall!!best!!went for bodyshop sale at suntecs convention hall n guess wad we spent again..irresistable mans!!von bot makeup bershes purple mascara n a super unique lipgloss named prism!haha..pretty name ritex?as for me?haha..jus cnt resist the purple mascara as well n bot another set of SHIMMERY GLITTERY SHINY EYE COLOUR!!wahhahaa..cool mans!!okie great mes gg to put em on!!!dun care mus use!!!im so happy w my buy!n oh ya a bottle of cuticle oil as well..so after our satisfactory buy..we trotted to smu to von's locker to leave my comp n stuff den made our way to cathay cineplex to watch Departed the eng version of wu jian dao..not too bad cox me din watch the chinese trilogy.e shw was so lg dat we had no choice but to leave halfway to the toilet!haha..good good onli 6.6 for the tixs for a 2.5HRS SHW!im gg to start using my mini debit card frm NOW on!!hmm..i mean during my xmas spending n stuff!heehee..but mus mk sure gt money first!!haha
proud to sae tt we walked alot ytd!woohoo..gd exercise!after movie walked to bras basah wanted to intro von to ms clarity but den waited for 40mins still gt no seats so went to the stretch of shops at ICON n guess wad we fd a nice taiwan little shp!nice bubble tea n iced crushed mango..the fd isnt ex quite nice given tt mw cnt smell/taste well:( sighh..but we had our fill so headed to bugis which was supposed to be the highlight cox von nids to gt a pretty dress for her bdae party on the 10th nov!!heh..me wun be dere but nvm mines special..hey ger ahs!!quickly choose k?great planning my schedule after my exams alr!cool!!so 4th dec will be crossed out to celeb vonnies bdae!!yeah!!!:)
it was so funnie ytd..was toking bt guys whom we consider r ultimate BASTARDS esp when dey gt attached right after a breakup!yah!she was telling me bt her fran whu gt tgt w a ger cox she comforted him after he broke up w his ex!wah best!!can forgt so fast one mehs?yah we cm to a consensus tt they r BASTARDS cfm!!n yah we were toking bt gers doing likewise oso!but din bother to tink of a classification for this kinda of gers..but both will be condemned bahs..haha..so ger n guy the same!rd 1:on par..den we saeing gers in ntu nbs haf a higher depreciation rate cox of the shorter dep life compared to SMU babes!yah n im left w 16.5% to be depreciated!haha..den we jus simply burst out laughing mans!!so funnie lahs..n if im gg NIE den ive gtta agjust to reflect my fair value n uselife to 4yrs dat is a prospective adj!!haha..best rights?haha..but WE dun care if its 4 yrs 3 yrs or hw many % lahs..if it cmes it cmes..if notgt on w/o lahs!!21st century liaos..guys or no guys its the same lahs!no wonder me n von r so alike..so telepathic dat explains our closeness!haha..n if lin were w us!!cfm!!another of us!!m i right lin????help u ans ya?yah we r right!!haha
so we had our fun over dinner!:)
cn feel the stress alr but its inevitable..after this sem will be fine will be better alr..great!von applied for an exchange to ntu next sem!!cant wait to see u in ntu ger!!we shall tk the same ge n me shal shw u ard n most prob keeping my rm so u cn cm n stay over dearie!!:) we will haf fun n me shall intro u to my khakis in hall..e.g. my friendly neighbours dey will be glad to mahjong w ya!u can join us for our fun n activities..den the few hunks in hall!!hey lets go bio guys mans!!haha..n my og mates..shw u whus darren n felix..n if u dun mind mb jeremiah zhao//my grandfather guanjun, mother qianyi..haha..cool right?me bet u r all ready to dive over alr!!cant wait!but of cox mus quickly start mugging for my exams n urs too..

suddenly me jus realised my nephew will be turing 2 on the 15th dec!!woohoo!!cool!!so dat makes it 5 bdaes!!heh!

though its tough, its a challenge..not onli applicable to me..its exp. by everyone so gtta hang on!yes!hanging on hard..

GOD noes

2006-10-20T08:28:00.000+08:00

din noe tt my belief in GOD has been so strg..hes the father of all mankind..hes plans for everyone..he guides us in our life..he has his plans for me n i noe

its hard to realli explain why im starting to believe this..ive forsaken him cox of conflicts in the family..my familys a taoist family..yah..feeling as if im a traitor now..so guilty. mb im attributing all my failings..my problems..troubles to fate..to destiny cox of my incapability in achieving/solving em..mb

was BIG 4 netwrking night ytd in sch..the auditors were so agreesive..y?cox dey nid us..dey r despo for pple..PWC portrayed a gd image but dey aint as approachable i feel..the largest n most pop!wad to do?wanted to miA asap after the pres..in the end no one did so n me hanged ard w kj hs joey so we mingled n managed to tok to a few peeps..one of deloittes' manager kpmg's joseph n partner frm risk management..pwc's tax n oh well was toking to my gst partner!!best he still remembered my name!so paiseh me forgt his lorhs..luckily gt nametag so big somemore!!haha..yah hes kaieng n the super duper elegant n pretty tax partner hhmmm..her name is...sheesh:(all were eagerly promoting their wrk their firms..its their passion?r dey realli realli enjoying??shant doubt their sincerity etc. me hope im lyk em..tok w pride bt wad dey r doing..its hard wrk i mus sae..everyone starts frm scratch when we grad..no ones superior to another..so dat explains the equal platform?
thot i was a little wavered over my nie decision after hearing n learning more bt big 4..as i 'limped' back to hall..me had the little time to think thru again..the ccompetitiveness, the hecticness the long nv-ending hrs..the agreesiveness jus seem so alien to me..well..ive been 'competing' for my past 14 yrs as a student..tink ill die jus to carry on..its not an easy wrld outside alot of backstabbing bad mouthing..etc..its jus complicated..tink ill go crazy dere..oh well if tt's the plan for me ive to accept it n tk up this challenge which ive to overcome..mb ill becm a betta person?
nv thot bt gg into risk or advisory services..bt after toking to joseph n the partner..its lyk hey!!!deres sth out there still!!so this n opening for me?a sign?i wun noe till ltr..but if its really this!den i mus sae im realli blessed cox dun nid to go thru the entire tedious process!gtta noe the partner so its more or less cfm direct into kpmg's!dats if im gg to kpmg..another choice?ey?
hmm..shant tink too much..gg to enjoy my dae w vonnie ltr!shpping movie n fun!!woohoo..betta finished my readings now!!haha..den its play time bfore i start my weekend mugging hard for my quizzes!!!aiyos!!
von!!!so excited!!

feeling at ease when i see the little flower..so sweet..mb its cox its pink n mb its cox its frm ya

jus for ZHIYU!!!

2006-10-20T08:18:00.000+08:00

hey ger!!as promised this entry is for u!!me knew ya bdaes on the 29th NOV!!!heH!dun angry k?we will celeb WILDY when u r bk in mid DEC n we can also celeb XMAS tgt babe!!!aint u excited?as im typing ive sth in mind alr!!!:):):)mes gtting excited!!hoping tt u r doing fine in shanghai!all the travelling to mongolia ..u noe wad?im afraid me cnt relate to u when u share ur experiences w me ltr on:( so sad!but i wanna listen ger!!!listen to u describe while i imagine as usual!!t all ears..wish im lyk u travelled to US..china etc..seen so mani things..me felt so small..reclused on this little island:( so sad..wait for u to be bk ger!!n do tk care of ur health yeah?missing U!!!:)

btw gt this frm ur blog..tink it means alot to me as well..so dun mind mes gg to copy n paste it in mine too!!!haha..alot of things to tell u dear ..but when u r bk k?now u haf a lot to share w me oso!!so here it goes...

When there was me and you..

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

moodless

2006-10-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

was in a rather good n relaxed mood minutes ago till my mum the 'nagging machine' started again!yes!yet again..ISt target: daddy 2nd target: me, reason relating to contributions me hafta gif when i grad again 3rd target: my sis, reason for trying to stand up for me. poor ger..thanks for trying to speak up for me but in the end ganna scolded as well:( poor thing!next time jus keep quiet lyk me n jus ren!!
mb ive made the right decision to keep my room in hall..at least me can haf some peace..yes some peace..contemplating to continue next sem given my situation mb even if i gt into NIE?i dunno..jus so tired of hearing everything again n again..repeatedly..everytime im home every weekend..thot supposed to be the opposite?supposed to show more concern? vexed..

exams cming..stressed so stressed..betta start..else cfm die!fortunately dere r tests cming up so at least can force me to study now!!yah!NOW!
its off to Mac with huishan n mug again!miss mugging w u!!haha

tmrs gonna wake up early to read 304 text..den back to sch den off to MOE den back to hall again..all the travelling..sighh..but nvm

looking fwd to fri cox gg out w von!hey babe!jus read ya latest entry!heehee..yah shpping w u is so fun ya?a bit ge xi if we cn haf lunch me can intro u to miss clarity near ur sch!!haha..gd place rec by yanshan:) nvm next time yeah? ill promise to org an outing w u to celeb ur bdae!n we will wait for u weilin!!LIN U SEE THIS??WE WILL WAIT FOR U TO COME BACK!!4TH JAN!!yeS!!celeb w U!though it will be ard 5 weeks late!hey to tink of it u will be bk soon ger!looking fwd!heh ger on a spending spree ahs?wah..so jealous cnt wait to go on my taiwan trip w shanx n meimei next june..woohoo..grad will hafta be postphoned cox gg to wait for von so we can visit darius n clarence in LONDON!wah!!dat will be in UK!!okie dat means save save save!!my NIE pay if im in!if not den hmm..die lors! heehee good den can go visit london bridge, UCL and hmm..wads darius' uni ahs?ooopss!cant wait..we will b 22/23?alas!cant believe!dun wanna believe

slpyhead's turning in..zzzzzz

ohh..fd out whus he alr..so sweet..yah thanks!nice little 'surprise':)

secret..admirer?

2006-10-16T18:52:00.000+08:00

these pics r frm mel's blog! us at waraku!!:):):)

2nd post for today..slpy my eyes r veri dry:( tink its cos of the stupid haze:( sians!so warm outside:( so now im seated comfortably on my chair enjoying the aircon n yah gg to pia my 206 proj n pres tonight!!urghh..jus so feel lyk concussing but gtta wait for my hair to dry:P

was telling mel bt danny's engine fraN..getting a bit weird n mes gg to be on guard..in my defensive gear!haha..hopefully he doesnt try to whine to be abt how sad he is!scary:(

was greeted by a little but nice surprise this morn cox deres a mini stalk of pink rose stuck to the door..my meighbours haf them as well:) so nice to see sth so sweet earli in the morn..thot its frm the hall's welfare com to wish us good luck for exams or sth..so din bother
when me was bk deniece screamed across n happily told me tt its frm 'my bf'..hmmm..first thing first!me dun even haf a BF!not even close to anione to start ani rumours!2nd: third yr alr whu will care bt the lao zao bo?freshies first wads!so cannot be..asked daph she refused to tell me oso!haha..best lorhs!hey this is called fran?den she said hes a good catch..haha..ellos!ger ah if dat helps..wadever..but mes interested to find out whu!!jus tell me whu!!!haha..n mummy was lyk dun shout so loudly jux cox u haf a bf lehs!wah!stunned!dunno wads happening mans!haha..i wanna noe whu!!!haha

today's lunch was alritex..as funny as ever..as crappy as ever..its bt progression..i can see..doing well n perform is the priority..a pity tt its aint really wad ya wan..so sad..forcing urself?mb frm my viewpt..its hard but it aint formidable for u..wishing u well.
kill me for eating the meat mans..jus kill me!but thanks..jus saeing thanks
(heyhey pls dun reveal whus whu yeah?thanks..jus needing a little space, a little privacy..a little understanding..stay hush hush k:)thanks peeps)

thy limit is my limit

2006-10-16T08:43:00.000+08:00

back in hall on a lazy monday mon..dreading the day's lessons at 1030 ltr..wanted to cm bk ytd but jus cant bear to drag myself back to sch..so in the end stayed at home gave tuition..first time gifing 2 tuitions at home!!bestbest!!haha..good money no transport costs at all..den finished up 306 chapter 7 n prep for todays auditing class!so this week starts again..sighh..gtta focus on the coming 2 tests n 2 presentation..boo:(

had a fulfilling weekend last fri n sat!!tok bt sat first!!

me n my dearest sweetest n telepathic zuzu--von went to the super hyped-up n highly publicised VIVO CITY!!yeah!!was telling her tt we can be counted as one of the many early birds to visit the MEGA shopping paradise!haha..cfm!!so big jus so big..all the stores some cn be fd in orchard..lyk dah!!r jus crazily humongous!wah..ranging frm forever 21 topshop espirit n to the me-cant-afford GAP!woohoo!jus so marvellous sia!haha..as a shopaholic cox me was super duper thrilled..plus the crowd was lyk wow..real surprised tt they were so many pple tt we were stuck at the mrt gantry!pengs n our dearest von gt so so excited tt she took out her cameo n started snapping pics of the 'SCENE'..haha..me fd out the STOMP add alr ger!!
yah we were so pleased w our buyings tt day!went to the mega espirit shp n cox von was gtting a lipstick for her aunt so we hanged ard the red earth counter..haha..wah..n then whu noes!!we spent 72 ++ on makeup!!haha..zuzu bought a sweet pink blusher n the lipstick whilst me still hafing my eye colour craze bot an orange n green eye shadow plus a pretty glitter powder!heehee..spent lyk at least an hr trying on and stuff..so pleased yea?we cfm had fun..after tt headed to twn cox von din managed to gt a wallet for her frans 21st..so in the end were at taka n she bot an ELLE blue wallet!not bad..the lady was super friendly..haha..gt 20% disct somemore..gd buy ya? walked ard n von finally bot the oriental slipper frm URS!gd gd wear this fri yeah?
great!we r mtg up to go bugis this fri..1st it will be movie at cathay cineplex den bugis!haha..gd gd..hopefully we cn find ya dress yea?n me shal gt mine so when we meeet to celeb ur bdae after exams we will be all clad in pretty princessy dresses!yahyah..n our beautiful makeup k?haha..so we mus find a fine rest. to be served!haha..so excited!!ger im so looking fwd!!!:):)
there r 3 veri important bdaes cming up suppose to be 4 but lin aint ard!!so outstding ive von's shan's and charmaine's!n my fav. festival!CHRISTMAS!!caroling n of cox xmas meetups n dinners!woohoo..hmm..saving up for a lot of things..of cox gifts lahs!first yr gifing xmas prezzies..so exciting!!
noeing my limits..sm things its tough to ctrl but i guess its alright..doesnt mean anything jus means care n happiness..tink its alritex:)yah its alritex:)

fri: our OG+CGL yongxiang+iris+kangjian+edmund went place waraku tgt to celeb huishans bdae!!heehee..me suggested the place!cfm!!cox its my FAV jap restaurant in town!the sashimi is quite cheap after asking iris jus now!great!i shall order the next time!heehee great idea iris!find a day we cn jio a few more peeps to go for kuishin bowl's buffet!!woohoo..i like jap!i like korean's as well!!hee
after dat we went KTV at chinatwn!mel n xiaohan went too!both of them nv sing:( fun fun!yah mel now ya noe y i was saeing yxs good!haha..sang till ard 2+ den yx drove us home in his SUV..such a big family car! comfy:)good for large grp outings:) surprisingly he remembered the way w/o me guiding him..wah impressed by his mega memory!haha//a veri gentlemanly senior indeed even offered to walk me to the lift by tt time it was alr 3 plus..these r the many little things to impress a ger sia!at least for me!haha..oopps!well was so tired after tt n jus concussed!final verdict: FUN(minus away the stupid 206 quiz which dampened my mood a bit:()

suppose to be aslp at 1045pm ytd in the end cox my sis n mum were watching pirnncess hrs esp the last 2 discs me jus cldnt bear to miss!!so stayed up till 1240am?so sorrie tt me din go online..yah
so touching so touching..sighh..it ended well or shld i sae expected..emotionally touched by wad the prince did..hey meimei..dun pretend u din cry okie?haha..caught u!!everytime laugh at me n mei..ytd u did too lorhs!!haha..best!wonder the no. of sheets of tissue we used..haha..so paiseh so old alr still lidat but wad to do?so touching so sweet so lovely!but in reality none of this will happen!whu in wrld will be so lucky to be picked to be a crown princess jus lidat!moreover, this is spore sia!where gt this kinda of things..unless its britain, japan, korea?
i mus realli commend on the outfits of the princess!best!she was nv dressed in the same dress/clothes twice!n dey were jus so so prrrrerrrrrtttyyyy!!!!!!!!!wah!!so jealous sia!n shes so sweet!!!

hmm..betta go read up on my case for 206 pres on thurs den the day will start again!sian dun feel lyk gg for 306 lect but its mon!once a week..treasure the short time..yah treasuring bfore its gone:)

korean korean korean!!

2006-10-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

its been a few days' since ive last updated cox im totally engrossed in GOONG!PRINCESS HOURS!woohoo!!haha
of cox apart frm tt busy w tmr's 206 quiz n todays 306 killer pres..phew finally the most dreaded pres for this sem is OVER!!haha..stumbled cox was too seh till the end..aiyos where gt peep present for half hr one?cant conc animore mans..oh well its OVER!!n im glad cfm!!

tmrs quiz..sian..not totally prepared n me skipped 2 sems for auditing!pengs..but well its still within my targetted 2 sems per sem of skipping!haha

im in luf w goong..same as other idol drama..but this is in korean!haha..gt eng sub..still its quite alritex..i like the modern clothes worn by the actresses..so pretty esp by the princess!so princessy!!shes so pretty!n shes onli 22 in reality..wah..so nice to be able to act yea?but i can vouch tt acting is not joke all the stress bt memorising n stuff esp when u haf to rehearse n co-ord w ur partners..its nice when u watch but the amt of hard wrk n effort is immenwse!!really.. so sad me wun be acting next yr cox next yrs hall's production aint gg ti be a drama..nonetheless me was veri glad tt me had the experience of gg on stage n danced acted sang bfore..though 2 yrs aint long but im veri proud of myself for doing so..n thankful to my pals whu supported me for the past 2 SPs perf!!esp my council frans whu went for 2 consec yrs!!thanks alot dudes n babies!!

was quite entertained in the afternn as i was chatting to this freshie online..hes thomas..act. shldnt sae hes a freshie cos he aint frm NBS n he crashed into our OG last yr..so ya..anw he was so entertaining..bothered to play alg..haha..addressed me as princess joleen..haha..no one has played alg so well bfore..hmm..okie gt a few lahs..but he was the most gungho!!haha..i knew he wld ask whus my prince n stuff..yeah..cos he asked bfore..sian..so told him no prince lahs..so funnie..
cant understd y pple always haf e impression tt im attached..pengs..dun lehs..so stressful sia..den dey will start asking bt this n tt..like wad r my criteria etc..aiyos spare me can?hahs
looking fwd to tmr n sat!yeah!!aft celeb. shans bdae gg KTV yeah!!thanks danny for booking the rm!!i wanna sing bei feng chui guo de xia tian w yx!!heehee..he cn harmonise well!!!goodgood!!heehee
den its vivocity on sat w my dearest n sweetest zuzu!!!yeah!!so sun shall stay home n mug for next weeks stuff..okok..betta go nap awhile den wake up to try the quiz qnsn revise..concussed!!

timecheck:1056pm
location:hall 3

thankful!

2006-10-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

i mus really thank GOD for his kindness and love for me..really really blessed!
just when i am busy looking for a paet time job on top of gifing tuition..n jus when me was bt to call up my usual tuition agency, my current tutee's mum requested me to teach his son as well!haha..of cox me agreed..w/o hesistation!first no travelling involved..no longer need to spend 3 hrs gifing tuition n travelling to bedok alr!phew!so m veri thankful tt mes financially independent to an extent again!
me dun nid a lot to keep me gg..though me do splurge now n then but hey!im a ger lehs!!haha
thankful tt mes always veri fortunate, meeting nice pple..renxing's parents n even nainai were so grateful twds me..alas..no nid to be grateful..i mean hes a clever kid whu has alot of potential n hes cfm hardwrking!but im appreciative twds them..thanks for the further pay increment!haha..hopefully he manages to get into dunman high..at least me din mk it when i was in pri 6..i can declare proudly tt my student act. made it!!yah
always thankful tt me have veri good frans!not fogetting my tk n vj mates n a few ntu pals..thanks!!but i wanna specially thank zhiwei!zhiwei thanks alot..in the end me din go..i noe ive disappointed u..n most importantly ive disappointed myself..studies or shld i be more specific..cox of next fri's test..tt's y i din go..struggled quite a bit..esp. after wad u told me ytd at KFC..thanks for letting me noe..ive let an opportunity slipped past..but im realli grateful!thanksthanks!!:):) no wonder u r my good fran!!wun disappoint myself again cox me noe deres another coming:)
thankful tt mes hafing support though not full but at least mes aware tt dere r at least peeps behind me!thanks!
my hall freshie read my palm..sceptical over wad he said cox me dun believe his skills!haha..he said tt hes jealous!cox ill be hafing veri good life!!haha..thanks leh!i really hope its lidat yea?haha..if not den ill kill u!!haha..
suppose to meet von to go vivocity on tues but after weighing the opp cost decide to change it to next sat instead..atleast me dunnid to worrie bt 306 pres n 206 test!sians..so mes gg to put in my 150% to mug these few days den haf fun on sat!!fri's gonna haf fun oso..but sat's tuition will be rather early n intensive..hopefully he can grasp wad im teaching..1 mth leading to his p3 exams..aiyos me will jus try my best ya?
cant wait to von next sat!
ytd my pres treated to sakura buffet at somerset..not too bad:P wah ngiam n winnie dey all can realli eat!!so much its jus so much..so scary mans!!me lyk the sweet n sour fish n the black chicken soup..tasty..yumyum!thanks yutian!n tt meal costed him almost 300bucks..heard frm winnie tt the past pres treated their secretaries to places posher than ours..luke treated his to pariss international..aiyos cant be compared cox lukes a rich kid!of cox lahs..n chuan teck treated his to one whicn is even more ex. than pariss!wah dat means its lyk so hotel or sth alr!!best!!haha..ai feel wads impt is the fun n socialisation not interms of which is pricer..yah..i mean so wad if its ex..u still bite/chew/swallow the food..it will still undergo the same digestive process..den exit frm the body..so wads the pt..?mb for me whus not picky wun mind lahs..haha
tmr gg to pon 304 to mug for 206!yah so tt's a lect n off to hall to mug!mus finish on tue n study n complete the slides for 306..after this week den gtta start on 304's 2nd quiz alr!den 306 again!nv ending..sighh..
im gg to wrk twds it cox when all these r over im almost done..almost dere..i noe i will be blessed!!
thank you!!

thank you shans!

2006-10-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

thanks shan!!so happy to see u ger!!yah though it was onli 6 weeks since we last met!so nice!gd rec. Miss Clarity is great!nice food n cheap ger!heehee..n i lyk my brows!!good after exams we mus go to the PS one n trim!!!goodgood!!heehee..hope u r well ger?mb food poisoning!hey we mus go gt dresses after exams n wear for our outing k?demand tings n charms to wear oso!!heehee..mes gg to gif u babes sth real diff this xmas!!!heehee..u gers jus hafta wait yea?heehee!!cnt wait 4 exmas to be over mans!!
it was a nice shw--wrld trade center..we din plan to watch this but den jus bot the tixs cox we had nothing to do aniwae..jus cnt bring ourselves to watch chinese movie in a cinema..not worth we think..haha..quite sad but it realli mkes me reflect alot bt the vulnerability in life..sighh..when it cmes it will come so no pt..well live life to the fullest i guess..
feeling okie..but getting worried after reading..dun wish to overdo things..but its worrying..has been a prob/illness?wads happening?wanna noe/do more but wad for?can i?shall i?shld i?as a fran mb?yah as a fran..
thanks zhiwei for being so helpful..i dunno if i shld go..hafen been practising..losing confi..in everything even in the most basic..definitely not pleasing to the ears..cfm!affected n inflicted..

vivocity will b opened tmr!shall ask von to acc. me den cn go watch movue in the new GV!a way to destress?yah mb?suddenly feel lyk being drunk..haha..ts saes ive an ex way of destressing..haha..mes not rich lahs..jus so onli mahs..no harm!!

slping time!1154am..i shall do it bfore i concuss..yah bfore concussing

2006-10-06T00:11:00.000+08:00

wanted to finish watching espisode 4 of princess' hrs but gt streaming probs..sians

suppose to finish my 206 industry analysis..but cun tk it animore..so din..

suppose to complete 206 chapters..but too seh..

tmr's a day of fun w shans!good..lunch n slack n movie but im alr so happy..so elated..so looking fwd!best!!heehee..jus cnt wait animore..

hmm..so tmr gtta wake up earli to mug first if not me will feel super guilty!!!yes!!!MUG!

shared my joy w daph she understd cox we r in the same shoe..yeah..sad case..but its alritex..nids no reciprocation..a little acknowledgement will do i guess:)

happy contented fulfilling silly stupid naive

things hafta remain this way so dere wun be sacrifices

not gg bk not turning back not looking back

tired n incapable of doing so

an opportunity a chance a hope a dream

all i wan is satisfaction happiness n assurances

reassurances

2006-10-05T01:07:00.000+08:00

its been a long time mb a yr?mb a little lger since we chatted..its nice..thanks for the reassurances..thanks for remembering..thanks for shwing tt u care..cnt help but to be sceptical bt wad u said but i am trusting u..thanks alot! its part of my life now..a part not integral n shldnt be crucial..its aint i must tell myself..thanks anw!

as cool as ever, as cool as cucumber?cant fathom wads in e mind..cant seem to foresee anithing..useless to probe n carry on endlessly..wasting effort?wads the pt?wads my pt?ive no pt?

betta turn in alr..gtta wk up early to do 206 proj!cant wait for fri shans!!cool day!fun day!!a day when i can go all out n play n enjoy shans company..cant wait to c each other!really cant wait!my dear fran!

it gts tired sometimes..not noeing wads the aim..so stupid

chatter-boxes

2006-10-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

had a very long and tiring day..fortunately 306's quiz was over!!great..a load off my mind but gtta prep for 206 alr!quiz wasnt tt bad i guess din finish as usual but shld be able to pass..having a veri bad headache esp during the last hr of of the day's tut..tink really lack of slp considering tt me always slp at 11+ pm at home..so im in hall now n u bet t mes gg to slp a little ltr..

trying to prep for tmr's discussion on the report evaluation for thurs team..sians cant understd y 304 is so troublesome..so mani reports to write..wad participation..waste my time mans..urghh..no choice..do lorhs..so reading the case n e report but feeling slpy alr..suppose to be doing 306 slides but guess haf to complete them tmr!!yah by tmr n prep it!!else thurs cfm die..dunno y but me can feel tt mes falling sick real soon..

went to can 14 w daph n cheryl our tk n vj junior..so funny lahs..ended up gossiping for 2 hrs at the canteen n den in daphs room when we were bk!haha..bestest!!so its all bt guys n more guys n gers again!pengs..haha..but quite enjoyable cox veri seldom can gt to suan daph till shes like 'dont lidat' lehs..haha..now u peeps understd how it feels to gt all those...

he gt electrocuted by a live wire in the dance room..luckily wasnt injured..phew..hes a devout christian..so gods on his side..

gg to watch princess hours den concuss n waking up earli again

saw him today..looked super exhuasted...cfm mus be all those mugging n stuff..yeah cfmed he mugged if not he wldnt haf completed e paper..good good dats y im always impressed..

alot of goodfrans..yesh good frans

motivated

2006-09-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

im more motivated now!at least for the next 2 weeks!haha..y? cox all i nid to do is to pass mon's horrid test n thurs disgusting pres n start w my 206 quiz!yah den it will be over..:)

next fri gonna be fun mtg yanshan though place n time not cfm..but im definitely looking to mtg u babe!!n next sat will be our JCRC treat frm our pres!!yes our 23rd pres whus so super ons hall tt his spirit nv die!!yah so dats next sat!either lunch or dinner!n yes on thw 10th oct!!woohoo mtg another of my best best CT council buddy!!!really looking fwd to these outings w my pals!!so fun!!i mean nt tt we r gg to do some out of the wrld antics or wad but jus a simple lunch/dinner or jus walking ard..tink we r satisfied alr!hmm..hw bt watching a movie?or mb go blading?haha..me dun mind anithing!tink we jus nid a breather bahs
n shanshan!if ya r reading this..hw cm nv see u online?sighh..come online more often lehs..:(
darius is living tmr..night flight..bon voyage dude!!take care
tmrs gg to wear my new top n my heels..gg to my first mac party after passing my childhood yrs..wondering hws a 21st party held at mac will turn out to b like..interesting..shall meet daph before tt n gt prezzie for my kids..
so sad to hear tt my fran broke up w his ger for a few weeks..poor thing..gt jilted by gers?haha..recently hearing alot bt bois gtting ditched by gers..haha..ohh..so sad:( but none of my bix though shall b a busybody..else me may gt embroiled into some unnecessary trouble as well..aiyos betta shut!yah dats the way
jere mentioned him jus now again..pengs..its non-stop reminder..whilst e lead r dormant souls the rest r immersing emselves in fun n laughter..best..dunno n dun wanna sae anithing more..jus let it be bahs
jus submitted my application for an assignment based job..hopefully can gt n oso to hear frm MOE..meanwhile its still job hunting time!

my aim my goal my dreams my aspirations..my hope

it's about discipline

2006-09-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

jus realised tt me haven been eating rice n noodles for quite sometime..todays wed n e last timee i did 'savour' rice was last sat tink it was e most 20 grains?n it was e japanese sticky kind..dis is the fifth year into e regime. frm no fried,unhealthy, creamy food to low carbo n fattening ones n now its no carbo..no wonder mes forever feeling slpy n exhausted
was reading darius' blog..all bt him busy preparing for dis fri- his departure day..feeling excited for u boy!a new phase of ur life!hey dude!!find urself a caucasian babe ya?no nid to be 'made in spore' lahs!haha..e the most break bfore u cm bk lahs!since breaking up is a trend now!!haha..oopss..no lahs jus joking yah?
read clarences entries as well..beautiful photos pretty london!n ur room is so nice..looks comfy n homely..one wrd: splendid!! glad u r hafing fun clarence! so darius u mus post photos k?
saw linnies photos as well..n korea is great as well..hey babe!issit ur super powerful cameo r issit really so nice?haha..but frm the pics we cn tell tt u r hafing fun dere!!goodgood my frans r living well..im happy for u peeps!:)
oct 1st is coming n its gonna be childrens dae..tink ill go taka sq to get the nice choco bis for my kids:) today yanyan was feeling tired..poor little ger..sorry for hafing to schedule it today..mes tired too..after 2 rds..appalled by the no. of times me hafta got to renxings place..was tinking if me can skip tmrs since he had finished 8 papers in 2 sessions..in the end jus cant cox gtta revise his compo w him..nvm a few more sessions onli..jus this few more n it will be the last session w him..i guess me will nv gt to meet him again..really feeling good tt his parents r so appreciative but mes jus doing my job as a tutor..mes doing so not cox of treats or wad..gradually i feel tt its my responsiblity to share my limited knowledge w em
his dad told him tt hes tinking of gifing me a treat..i was lyk hmm..its my job n tink aint necessary
these few days haf been flipping thru classified again..hafing been doing so for sometime..yah me nid another job..gtta be financially independent..sentosas new hotel is looking for guest relations officer me feel lyk trying mb ill jus email n ask if they r offering part time..mons deres one frm clinique, mac etc. looking for makeup artistes offering part time oso..wondering if daphs keen if so we cn go try it out!no wonder im so busy no time for this n dat..still rememberes clarence commenting tt mes a workaholic..yah i cant stp..n me cn feel the imapact..jus feel great being able to spend wad i earn..not much though but sometimes mus chong3 myself!yah
tmrs 206 mtg has been cancelled..phew no nid to head back to sch jus for it..glad tt my grp aint lyk 304 else me cfm mati the second time!more time to studi for 306..not suppose to be online now but mes super sian of mugging though me onli mugged for 3 hrs today..din touch the rest of the mod..shall start mugging for 206 next tue after mon's test..wah pengs..
looking fwd to next fri!cox finally gt to meet shan during her smu hols..din see her online often nowadays..sighh..so it will be really glad to meet u my dear:) tings oso!!n of cox charms!i shant haf ani tuition next fri jus to make it free for the meet up!tinking of gg sakae since its been a while weve been dere..or shld we try sth new?tink after this mtg weve to wait till after exams:(
was reading charmaines blog!yah my partner's blog..hmm..hope u r fine yah?lg time nv see n hear frm u alr..hope tt ur IA at exxon aint too tough yah?take care!!
thanks for ur msges..yah guess mes doing well..guess a boring n repetitive life means leading a not too bad life for me bahs
losing e shine?losing the vigour?mb wads essential is a break..a lg lg one..far far away..so far tt e peeps r total strangers..beautiful sea cooling breeze placid waters quiet n natural..a paradise to be spent w one to be treasured the most, one who understands u e best..one who noes wad ya r tinking even if u dun speak..
its 11th n counting..hopefully it will jus stp dere..no more bees n flies..jus gtta haf a butterfly for a vibrant sunflower
slping n its mugging earlier at 5 again..how not to be repetitive?

timecheck:1120 pm wed

dreams do come true

2006-09-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

newly crowned singapore idol: hady..jonathan lost..his dream came true

everyone has their little dream..hafing dreams, being able to dream is a dble edge sword..too little?lifes not exciting..too much?one will be clouded by e impracticality..

dun be afraid to dream..be it a career, being w ur perfect lover, a blissful family..jus put ur heart n soul into it..wrk twds it..but reality rules..they do come true but seldom..dun even attempt?uve gt no chance..no guts..all have onli one life if we dont do it now den when?

getting tired frm all these..suxs..cming to terms w alot of things..when situations dun wrk out jus gonna let it be..concentrating on the important foregoing the burden.. the load..jus when the load is lightening more has been added..not falling back i noe its another tunnel a different path..though it was jus dat mani minutes when translated into seconds..dats quite substantial..dats sufficient n wun be asking for more

gods been kind to me n mes believing

the power in me is glowing?flikering?

whens its the end i noe i still have my family

pretty siloso!

2006-09-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

wasnt supposed to be at siloso today cox me was intending to stay at home to mug..in the end me relented cox gtta pass the access card to him at harbourfront this morn..true dat it will b weird if i were jus go dere to pass e key n jus cm home..cfm off!n as usual the hall peeps will try to start some unnecessary rumour le..so in the end went sentosa w em..it wasnt too bad afterall though me n my freshies proclaimed tt we r taitais n jus sat in the shade n refused to join in e games..so 3 if us jus crapped n oogled at the babes n hunks..haha..no mani hunks but dere were bikini babes!!haha..dere were onli 5 freshies n lotsa of seniors n mes the onli one frm the side whu went..daph winnie deniece mummy din go..sighh..but at least i was entertained by the freshies..woohoo..of cox entertaining w the presence of my hall queen n her roomie plus another pretty junior n my eye candy n his roomie..haha..furthermore gt my yr 1 hs eyecandies..haha..n yr 2's?hmm..wah so mani..cfm happy!haha..
sadly we were pretty divided into 3 grps: the freshies, the super seniors n the current hs..hmm..a bit bad as i can feel tt the freshies r a bit left out..haha..at least mes mixing w em!quite happy w myself cox through this short gathering, ive gt to noe em betta!yah im enjoying this kinda of feeling n hopefully they r feeling likewise too:) making new frans is always fun for me..its rather easy cox im kaypoh?im chatty?crappy?haha..dun care lahs..mixing wif hot babes n hunks!whu dun wan ritex?haha..oopss!
as ive mentioned before, without fail every gathering someone will haf to mention bt him n me..aiyos headache!since yr one..hmm..can gt a bit tired u noe?but dun care lahs..see hw lg they can last..tahan-ed for 2 yrs plus alr might as well jus let em continue..after lunch we jus sat down at one of the benches n watched the peeps play n the beach-goers den me rushed off at ard 3pm cox of tuition in the end changed my mind n cm home cox mum n sis n dad r all sick..alamak!!sighh..but had one at 8pm..
so dere goes my sunday!urghh..one more week to the killer 306!im gg to die but me cnt let myself to jus die!
ytd was well spent n im always right tt my sis is really my confidant!she understds me so so well jus tt we haf no time dats all!my sis my sis!thanks mei mei!!wanted to shop at far east as well however, we hanged ard bugis for so long tt in the end we shoped dere frm 2 to ard 8 plus including dinner!haha..it was cfm a great shopping trip!bot a pair of ripples for pei our belated bdae gift for her..glad tt she loves it!tsk!!den me gt an exotic belt for 10..damn damn pretty!!will go well in jeans!haha..mei bot stuff too..myuk's pencil case..den went bugis street where we spent the bulk of the time!hmm..saw a veri pretty yellow top but din gt though it was onli 18 cox was lazy to gt a tube to go w it..haha..den was glad tt me bot a princessy top!a long one to go w denim pants!haha..nice!!i like!cox it looks good!meimei bot a halter one frm the same shp n with my ultimate bargaining skills managed to gt em at below 20 each..den mei bot a bag frm maryjane..quite nice as well!haha..so good..its so so nice to shp
we had dinner at ajitai..kuo meimei is the spokesperson of the restaurant..haha..i luf the setting..we shared n the bill cm up to onli 27!superb price great deal!food was so so onli but e ambience was dere!confided in meimei..n she did gif her two cents worth!feeling better after toking to her..she knew wad i want she suggested tt me shld go NIE first since its the most feasible alternative..she knew i hate to force myself to accept EY..she noes me jus too well!thanks meimei for ur sound advices!n yah shldnt care wad others sae..others' comment so lg as i noe wad im doing its good enuff..deres no nid to explain to anione bt my behavior..ive to ans to myself instead!u gtta tk care too yeah?yah we can both wrk twds our penthouse dream!!!haha
told daddy bt my decision..he was veri nice, more understanding den ma..nearly teared cos of his response..hes so supportive..'decide on ur own n tk the path which u tink is easier for u' tt's wad he said..i was super touched cox he din blame me for wasting his money for putting me thru a course which im no no interest in..he din complain abt it..thanks dad!!!im sorry for not decideing properly..mummy was complaining on the other hand n as usual said tt ive wasted their money..yah i agree but daddy stopped her frm nagging..sighh..its my fault for not making a wise choice not mking myself realise wad i really wan earlier..if not..sians..most prob i wld haf ended up in poly doing ma-comm/tourism/hotel mgmt n dis means i wldnt haf met all the frans alr..no ctc..no vj no 02s44..no nbs..of cox no him/em as well..mb tt wld be betta?den me wldnt be affected for the past mths..dat means me wld haf been wrking rite now!alot of changes i wld haf said..mwis more mature i can assure..shes noes n shes veri sure of stuff which i aint..shes definitely strger than me!enjoyed ytd's session thoroughly..im so blessed to haf so a sis! n family..at least im starting to feel tt my future aint tt bleak afterall
its late..i shall wrk hard twds my goal..ive done it once, done it twice n im gg to do it again!!its my life n im gg to steer it fwd heading twds my goals..not gifing up on things n i noe at the back of my mind tt goal will nv be extinguished..its really not the end for me..an imperfect joleen

i will survive eventually

piggish..

2006-09-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

feeling tired again..today din accomplish much..suppose to finish chapter 5 of 306..instead was so exhausted tt me slpt for 15hrs n now still feeling the ZZZZ monster coming
ytd's 304's test was sucky!sians study so much but result doesnt show!if onli my hand wasnt itchy to haf changed the ans i cun haf jus passed..urghh
oh yah thanks zhiwei for ur bdae treat at jack's place orchard!!its been a long time since ive eaten at jack's!!n hopefully the swensons dessert was good enuff too!haha..interesting to hear bt ur diving trips n experiences!!so cool!wait till mes free to organise a 02S44 gathering..haha
toking to lin online n she mentioned bt the photos which clarence had uploaded..yah n it really brought back fond memories!those days when we gathered at the delifrance at citylink..so long ago tt the outlet has alr been replaced by the current asian kitchen..our xmas dinners followed by lord of the ring 1,2 n 3!still remembered von waking me up in the middle of the show cox me was so tired tt me jus dozed off!!haha..n best clarence was busy wishing us merry xmas when the clock striked 12!haha.. n the rest were lyk huh?haha..n celebrating darius' bdae last yr was at his hse n we had steamboat!haha..den me n von stayed over n watched a super crap shw w his bro darren..so funnie..those were the times..
clarence glad to haf read tt u r doing fine n busy settling down..n mus tk more pics of france k?UCL mus be so zai n post pics of ur room n sch k?i wanna see!!!haha
n darius!!u too! i wanna see pics of imperial college n oso pics of ur roomie..hopefully hes not gg to be a gay yah!!if not u cn jus arouse him n see wad he does!!!haha..all in all jus haf fun yah?
lin was saeing ive still gt time to consider..yah more of less its true..thanks ger for the little advices!thanksthanks!:)thanks frans for being supportive..the final decision means alot to me..thanksthanks..
mummy nv sae anything..i noe she wun be of much help..all alg since yg shes let us choose our path..when i was in p6 i knew veri well dat me had to excel ive always been in the best class my head is always held high!i mixed w the best peeps in sch..not exactly an elitist cox no matter hw good im im still not e best in class n in sch..jus cn sae im definitely no where below..i knew veri well dat my aim was dunman high..my dream sch cox my cousins were dere n i knew tt if i were to enter tt sch my parents wld be extremely proud of me..in the end i missed my 3 points..i failed:(
i din regret gg TKGS cos its a turing point for me..a change frm a meekly n soft spoken ger to one whu had to constantly speak up in sch..help w the class discipline n basicalli be a busy-body..ill now my pals still remember me as their chairman..haha..ive been lotsa frans even peeps whom i dunno noes of my existence!i was jus so so surprised when my one of my uni frans joy recog me when me dun even rem seeing her in my life in tk!waah..qiang!again i knew my goal..tt is to get into VJC no matter wad..not even TJ cox i hate the uniform..so i made myself study..started lyk half yr before hand n the sch lib becm my home!mugged till dusk bfore me headed home i rem..tink till the librarian noes me..yah n so me gt 4 points enuf for me to enter VJ n stayed..
it was den tt me started to fail my physics so i drpped first time in my life ive failed a subj one cld imagine the impact on me!of cos apart frm tt being the class rep again enabled my jc life to be extremely fulfilling..so much so tt im still in contact w my jc pals!!im jus so happy!my tk my jc frans!i knew uni is the next phase of my life..other than tt it was cloudy..i aint sure wad to studi..i din noe my interest till now..i din!regretting big time..real big time!!was to do amend lorhs?
daddys really getting old..fell sick tink its gastric..hes always speakinbg so little but u noe he does care..i saw him real up close today..pa uve wrked hard..all ur life..so sad to haf seen u aged..i wanna help i wanna contribute can i jus lyk stike a few million n u cn jus stay at home or go travelling n enjoy life w ma?it aint an easy yr for ya i guess..tik this the 3rd time this yr for u to haf fallen ill..u used to be strger..im getting worried:( ma too..both on medication..high blood n cholesterol..sighh
nows shes nagging again..complaining bt us..complaining tt children r a burden..complaining tt one shldnt gt married..the fuss..the illnesses which will follow when ones children grow up..etc. etc. seldom does she paint a good picture bt marriage..at least all tt ive hearf were n r going to be negative ones..:boys no matter hw nice they r they haf an agenda..man when they gt married they will chuck u aside, as bfs dey r good as husband u will see their true self etc. tec. sians..mb i do agree an extent..mb tts y i cn feel the impact on me..tink me sis too..on the other i cn sense her worries tt she wans us to find a bf soon or issit other wise?but all tt shes saeing pt to the former..dunno mb its jus typical mummy whu lyks to complain but its hafing an impact on us i can cfm!!so man or guys to us doent matter..
walked past prada n gucci stall at paragon ytd n thanks zw for reminding me bt my aim of hafing to upgrade myself!hopefully mes eligible enuf to walk in n sae i wan this n that!wah i wan!!den i can bring my mummy alg..n tt pair of diamond crusted heels!!woohoo!!dats damn nice lahs..but..hmm..dats so far away mans!
tmrs gg shopping w sis..going to dress nicely n wear my princessy heels!!tink ill gt blister!haha..but nvm!pretty can alr!haha..pengs cant stand myself oso but its onli when im in nice looking clothes tt will mk my day betta!
ill miss teaching my china kid..he did so so well for his prelims!im jus so proud of him!1st in class n 9th in standard n he gt 73 for eng!2 A* but missed by a mark to another A* for chinese..so proud of him!he will do well i noe..jus 5 more sessions den ive gtta sae byebye..its good in a sense cox me will haf more time n nt travel all the wae to bedok n stuff but..sighh..parting aint sweet..renxing uve gt a bright future ahead of u!a bubbly n brillant kid u r..hope me din bore u to death yeah?will miss the days when u keep calling me lao shi lao shi..thanks for the memeries n experience n i wish u all the best for ur PSLE!u will excel n perform!a high flyer u r..hopefully u will rem me as ur first kou you lao shi..n hopefully im of help to u yah?thanks for everything boy..ill never forgt teaching u:) gtta take care n haf fun when u r bk in china after ur exams..go n eat the food which u missed lyk yang rou tang niu rou mian n ur fav. jiao zi etc..5 more sessions n dats all..
gtta gp slp alr..waking up to mug for 306!sians

may the power be w me..
waiting for the 6th of oct!shans!i miss u!!!cya den!!

being nice doesnt mean it mus be reciprocated.at least its not necessary..

when e tough gets going..

2006-09-20T20:19:00.000+08:00

still trying to complete my SSAs for the 10 MCQs auditing test tmr..sighh..super exhausted..jus cm bk frm tuition..
haf been reflecting alot these days..so much so tt i hoped tt i hadnt done so..my past my present my future..past wasnt real fantastic but wasnt tt bad..seriously if i were to mention bt my past im usually beaming w pride!my life as a student as a leader as a fran..nice..mb its cox of innocence n ignorant?din noe hw ive managed to struggled thru uni life to have come so far to the present..till now..jus realised tt me have been gifing tuition for the past 2.5 yrs..so long..roughly ard 8 students?i dun see a future for meself..i dunno wad to do?im perplexed by circumstances..i noe wad i definitely dun wan..but aint certain wad i really wan..if its another yr in moe it means alot..it means commitment to students, foregoing the EY offer, another yr in NTU, a yr later to bring money bk home..sigh...it aint jus as easy as ABC..regretted once which is to tk up accountancy..wun wanna commit the same mistake again..ming boggling..cnt jus apply n see how..it aint so simple.hw i wish i can be lyk some of my pals..the 'see how' attitude or wait n see..jus whack..ive whacked n im feeling the pain n trouble..time is all i nid i guess..mummy aint of help mb tokin to sis may be good..but we r all busy:(
sent clarence, our beloved CT khaki off on mon!our OCS OFFICER..his army frans went too so many!me emma darius zhixian were there n if lins ard she will be dere as well..daph was dere..its sad..i stupidly told clar not to go..so stupid ritex?cox it aint possible..he was strg to sae bye to us..so sad..daph said his granny looked sad..din tear cox i noe dey will be back next june!dey r gg dere for studies..haha..dey will be back:)
read darius' n clar's entries..yah clarence me n von will take care n waut for u darius n zhenhao to be back w us!uve gtta tk good care too!!n darius..u mus tk care as well yah!no stress no stress le..go dere no nid to gif bro tuition..yah..we will miss u guys!mb ill be in the teaching league as well?but of cox u peeps r scholars im not..haha..mb next time we can haf a teachers' gathering n celeb teachers' day tgt?haha..sds so fun ritex?wah so many councilors becming teachers n so mani w scholarships!tink VJ will be damn proud of our batch!!haha..
gtg cox meimei need her lappie..sigh..test n more tests!
its a tough period for me..to come to terms w things, w wrk..but ive to cheng!lyk wad ive been doing for the past years..looking fwd to metg shanx, von n gg out w meimei..i wanna splurge..but i noe i cant..deres an extent to things..
mb if i aint joleen i will feel betta?
at least he rems he cared he msged..thanks alot dude:)
dere r things ill nv forgt things i can nv let go but gt to..things which im regretting..things tt will nv change..things tt will last n continue n...n...

ARTY- FARTY

2006-09-17T10:09:00.000+08:00

tmr will be a day w great sorrows..tmrs the 18th n clarence will really be gone..to UK..wah!yah i will b dere to send u off..hmm..gtta travel frm boon lay to changi..haha..wondering if the rest of my/ur scholarly frans will b dere..von will be dere i noe..n of cox darius!darius!urs will be in a week's time:( when it has to come it will come.n i hate it!hate it to the core!!
was toking to yiwen tt day..din noe u have the interest as well..haha..great!good tt our ktv sessions inspired u..the sleazy dynasty place..though the lemon honey doesnt even taste lyk lemon honey(its jus lyk water!!!)the total cost for a 3hrs session for each is jus 8 bucks!!wah..good good..though its all dark n a little stinko cox of the cigar..its cheap n comfy..haha..no wonder its a spot for all those china 'babes' to entertain all the se bei beis!
shall visit HARK's CAFE soon..heard its a cool place..sing not in a kyv 'box' but live on stage with the rest of the patrons as audiences!!wah!!u bet!ive gtta enjoy it..lyk wad mr. felix had said:' u missed being charmed by me!' nearly wanted to puke when i heard this!!haha..ello!!i noe u haf a good voice but pls dun sae such things lehs..sure pengs..okie..tts being self-confi!!good good!i shall learn frm u!!haha..yah gg bk to hark's!!hmm..sds nice singing alg with the live band n stuff..woohoo..perfect!!mb peeps will be 'charmed' by me too!!haha..( u r welcome to go n puke now!!)haha
this weekend suxs...study all the wae gtta rush n mug for 304 test!urghh..cant finish all the readings so ill haf to pick n choose..:P
looking fwd to break?no lahs gtta prep for another 306 test!urghh the killer n im at chapter 3 with partial knowledge..die!im a gonner..no no!!me cnt mus at least pass it!
me n daph went shopping on fri!great we both bot 2 things each!!n i bot an off shoulder black top!daph too a lg sleeved off shoulder..super happy cox ive been eyeing for one..a bit ex though but good material!!okie shall wear to sch next week!mb thurs?haha..happy..wanted to gt the unique shorts but den decided to go for the white covered heels!we spent at least half hr at charles n keith deciding which pair n colour to get!n deres up to 50% disct!!my my my ..my white ones looks so princessy!n im loving it!!great! cn b used for presentation also!heck pple wear black but i dun gif a damn!i wanna b different n wear white!!haha..rebellious huh?but so?haha..i lyk can alr..anw its not as if im presenting for bix comm..yah..im becming more n more lyk him..gosh..wanna go against everything..oopps!n daph bot the bronzey one!!wah my white heels..feel good in it!!n tink i look good at tt height too!!haha
hall mummy saes im playing hard to get..gt mehs..i dun tink so..gers shld haf the chastity..believing tt gers shldnt go after guys..even jolin tsai saes so!!yah i wun go after one even though he has the potential..one may sae its alr the 21st century..but u will be surprised tt my close frans r jus lyk this!we dun live for guys!!haf or dun haf?we cn still live on mans!!tts the TKGS spirit n the CT gers SPIRIT!!we cn survive well n abv even WITHOUT man!!yupps!at least shans von tings r lyk this..its not my style to do this n tt for them..dey cn do things on their own wad..y mus help them?as if they r crippled or sth?ooppss getting mean..but this is wad i feel..hey cmon mans this is not the wae..u listen to em etc..dey wil tk u for granted!of cox deres a limit..help cn onli be rendered if dey r realli in nid..other than dat hey able-bodied guys n if u call urself a man do things on ur own!dun depend on gers!!pengs..luckily my frans r sharing similar views as me..not a weirdo afterall!haha..
deres still hope after chatting w u dat dae..thanks for the compliment..thanks for the reassurances..deres still some light afterall?
todays gonna haf 2 sessions of tuition again..urghh..wanna concuss again..
high on wine!!i mean ICE winE!!mummy nv nag at me when i told her bt the drinking session..jus told me to watch myself next time n be careful tt my drinks wun be spiked..yah i agree..not a strg drinker..wine apprciation..nice!thanks prof lok!!
tmrs mon again..sians..yawning alr n its onli 1033 on a sun morn..can i dun go to sch n be lyk helen?stay at home n mug?den y m i paying sch fees?
daddys so nice helped me w my hostel fees n gv us money to spend:) whee!!! so my shopping spree on fri had been offsetted w tt amt!!n with my tuition fees..haha..still gt extra!!okie..hoping to watch devil wears prada n forbidden city!!hmm..nv been to esplanade to watch a high end musical before..mb im trying to be arty farty n stuff..but i do hope tt ill reach tt social class one day..a high class taitai..a high end wrking woman..teacher?haha..i wanna be my own devil donned in PRADA GUCCI GUESS ARMANI!!..haha..m i daydreaming or wad?

arty-farty? CFMED!!!

when im still sober..

2006-09-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

decided to blog now bfore i concuss soon..yah still sober but a bit seh..haha
hall's prof invited the 23rd n 24th JCRC to his hse for dinner..wah..n before anything he started pouring wine into our glasses..initially rejected it cox not feeling well..in the end under pressure n out of curiosity me succumbed to it!!haha..tried beer bfore, had vodka..woohoo..the burning sensation jus deterred me frm touching em
my first contact w vodka was in yr 1 during NBS camp..it was jus a shot of vodka lime..quite nice but concussed..haha..then was sabo-ed to play game during hall bash n gulped down 2 mugs of beer in lyk seconds...3rd? last yr's DnD..some new flavours of vodka..suxs!eeeks..abstained frm then..haha
tonight it was a night specially 'dedicated' to wine..told myself me cnt but jus cld stp myself frm lifting the wine glass for more..tried at least 5 diff types!wow!!impressive!all expensive ones..started w the lowest alcohol content at 13%?proceeded to 20%..a bit sourish..eeks..den cm the 40%!!wah!!dats good!fermented madarin wine!!woohoo!but the best is always saved for the last!!we had ICE WINE!!10%!!wah!!so nice!!nv tried such good stuff before!!
drowning myself in wine n more wine..me n weiching were enjoying ourselves but she definitely took more than me..haha..mes not her match!shes zai mans!!
jus felt lyk drinking..it was great though i noe i din enjoy the taste..my throat my stomach were on fire..long time din haf this feeling alr..now a little giddy..haha..tink me cnt afford to go club or pub else sure chui!haha..nice nice!!
mb shld haf more of this kinda of sessions!den i can built it up!haha..drink n forget bt the problems the work etc. sians..mb tts y adults when they enter the corp wrld luf drinking..yah..he dao lan zui den no worries le!haha
okie..gtta go mug..mes gg to shp tmr..hopefully no hangover!
sorrie ma..me broke my promise again n again..u will kill me i noe if i were to tell u i drank..hopefully u will gt well soon..feel sad when u keep mentioning bt death..oh no!it seems as if gors premonitions n all those entries bt deaths r true..so sad:(
meimei..u r so stressed up..i m too..tts y we always quarrel nowadays..sighh..so sians..luckily 304 proj is over..1 less to do!urghh..tell me how i can earn big bucks so me can buy lotsa stuf?
heard frm daph dat wendy's alr at gucci n prada levis etc..im onli at mango:( sians..progressing to topshop or not even dere yt!!urghh! daphs at least betta!at mango n guess..
haha..high maintenance?nah me dun agree cox i do go bugis to gt cheap stuff..sigh..tink me will nid more yrs to reach her level..haha..but me dun mind cox at this moment me dun nid all these!!so still can wait!urghh..
cant tk panadol w wine in me else cfm die!
may the power be w me!

parting sux!

2006-09-11T00:26:00.000+08:00

today went ktv for the 3rd time dis week..my throat is a bit sore now:(
was surprised to see yiwen n marcus but it was great to haf dem ard..or shld i sae the last time ill be seeing us tgt..sadness setting in..guess this feeling is gg to be w me for the next few weeks esp when clarence is flying off followed by darius!our buddie..deserting me n von in sing!!lin!!can u pls cm bk soon?the guys aint cming bk so soon..
as im typing tears welling up..dun realli wish o send u guys off den..4 yrs ago we meet in sch..its so sad to see u peeps go..oh mans..a weakling i m:(
its the franship which we had built over this 4 yrs cming 5..remember spending our xmases tgt..our new yr tgt..our outings..remember our 21 days in laos n bangkok..remembering our ct council days..our days n afternns n evenings spent at the stonetable..so fun..ill remember!
uni is different!its so superficial!everthing is so fake!i dun lyk!i seem to be feeling forever empty!forever alone!i aint enjoying my life!dats y im alwaya looking fwd to all the meetings!yah i mean it!!all my mtgs w yanshan tings charms..with clarence darius lin zhenhao marcus emma von!!!weinee!yah n of cox my forever fan!zhiwei!!the memories r dere i cfm!!now my lifes clouded..aint as carefree..aint as happy as before..lifes sux!everyday its wrk..cant relax..pple cm pple go..
i realli wonder hws life lyk if ive been to smu..mb its more for me?at least ive yanshan at least ive von!at least i aint alone in jalan bahar..i wun be a lost soul in jurong!
its my 3rd yr alr..thot ive gtten used to ll these..but apparently not..i miss my frans..my tk vj frans..sometimes missing turns into depression turns into regret..ill rather not tink bt it..hoping holidays will cm quickly hoping a sem will be over fast!vo next yr we go bangkok tgt k?when u grad we go look for clarence n darius k?when lin grad we go travel again k?
i noe ive to let go somehow..dey cnt be w me forever..i understd..i have to understd!
my term break is cming..shans n vons we mus meet up okie?

i noe if im gg to be alone..i still haf my bachelorette club:)

proud of myself!!cfm!

2006-09-09T22:59:00.000+08:00

its a long n tiring day...me n 2 sis went to the HDB hub yah n waited..so long a q..haha..jus cm b frm dere..tking the rejection as an experience..its okie..cox this is cfm not the end of the world n its not gg to be the last..im still positive bt things:) at least ive my pals w me:) thanks for all the well wishes..haha..so tking things esy n back to work haha..hmm..there r 2 upcoming ones..so all the way n look fwd!haha..so now its gg bk to my studies..n mb time to look for a BF?haha..jus kidding:)
suddenli feeling a bit empty..or issit suppose to be a relaxed feeling?hmm dun wanna tink too much..it was an experience which i wld bear in bear!at least i cn tell my child tt ive tried..yah..no major lost wads..
proud dat ive taken the first start..its a little stumble but aint serious enuf to extinguish my passion for it!no no!never!ill still be a KTV princess turning queen!haha..so its KTV rd 3 tmr with councillors..yah the last time w my beloved frans!!:)

when i wake up tmr..its alr a memory..memory to last,stay n keep!

ive nv lufed myself so much before..e spirit within me lives on!:)

drawing nearer..

2006-09-08T01:22:00.000+08:00

this is a special entry for joleen! :) good luck for your superstar quest....jiayou jiayou....though i always suan u... but i joking only lah...good luck k!! pursue ur dreams!! :) :) i'll definitely vote many many many times for u....trust me!! a few hundred calls k? juz GET IN!! :D good luck!

if i were to sae i aint afraid of sat..i will be kidding myself..kidding everyone!yes!im excited but im scared as well..wad if i screw it up?can i tk e result?i dunno..haf been telling myself not to pin too much hope n im realli psycho-in myself to tt!yes!nt getting far

i dun wanna disappoint my frans..esp kh n zhiwei..n darius n clarence?dey haf been very encouraging though the formers din hear me k bfore..thanks for the confidence in me..the abv blog entry was posted on kh's blog..veri appreciative n touched by it..thanksthanks..but looks like even ur good fran whus helping u at ur tuition center noes bt it too!whey!!u promised not to sae!n u broke ur promise!!result: vote a million n one time!!haha..no lahs jus kidding..as ive said many a time..i wun be dere its jus a try of luck n ill accept the outcome..yah i chose to put myself to this test n failure means ive room for improvement n of cox failure= ive gtta buck up!failure=disappointing my frans n of cox myself..it will definitely be a blow to me if i din geddit..but ill let fate decide..mb ill jus lock myself away..n move on after a while..to sae tt me aint disappoint tt the ktv session was cancelled mus be lying to myself..i noe i nid tt session but no choice..i do understd:)kh said tt me mus tell myself tt i wan it badly..haha..so wad if i wan it badly?haha..no lahs..for experience for experience n for FUN!!!

feeling lost now..was toking to daphne jus now while carrying out our duties..sharing our thoughts on matters n stuff..felt sweet n the feeling at those instances jus cm bk naturally..so naturally as if the scenes were re-enacted!he din care, he din bother to find out..great hor!2nd yr alr still din noe..

e steamboat is jus crazi..so mani pple..so mani freshies..all crowding around 4 steamboats..haha..nevertheless three cheers for the organisers!haha..not bad not bad..thanks for the effort..was alr hanging ard not noeing wad to do so cm bk to rm earlier..concussed!!