freed!

todays finally the day!
the lg-awaited day!!my last day in E&Y dis marked the end of my internship!yah..dat means im really left w 2 more exams n dats it!no more yah..

i hate mking decisions esp. when i aint prepared at all..i aintt prepared to accept the job offer..din expect the offer to join EY's GST department right after my pa or even on my last day!yah im shocked but elated cox i feel that its an indication of my performance during this period.ill consider really! told the director n my managers that if i were to choose EY ill cm bk to GST!yah..GST being so specialised will haf its pros in the next 10 yrs at least! 10 yrs seems long..mb not so for guys.as for me i feel that its 2 long..10 yrs ltr im 31..oh no!ill be so old..so old..i dun wanna tink bt it..tink its inevitable hafta start frm scratch!bear w the nonsense n yah ive learnt that we gotta haf 4Ps:patience, perserverance, passion and...haha..i forgt..yah passion?i aint sure to accept cox i cnt guarantee the passion i haf in GST..

gave out my namecard to the fellow interns..haha..gt lyk 200 lahs!so might as well gif them away!din expect that my seniors oso wanted and dats indeed great news so in the end gv the seniors, the assistant managers n my senior manager..yah my senior manager..ive gt his namecard and my mentors too!it was a really touching n costy feeling esp when they gathered tgt to wish me good luck..haha..business manager is really a bix manager..he cm over to join the seniors as well..thanks everyone!thanks!n im extremely glad that the case which i was involved had finally cm to a close!i cld see the delight frm my senior.she had wrked hard n thanked me a million times..seriously i tink i din really help much either..its wrk i guess and i did learn sth frm it..thanks for the experience i shld sae! n so i left EY..

next week activities r rather cfmed!yippi!
mon: KTV w ZHIYU!woohoo 2 to 7pm!
tue: swimming in the morning
wed: KTV w sis n shopping!
thurs: Swimming!
fri:tuition n gtta go bk to hall for mtg

the rest of the time shall be spent slacking watching tv, drafting n finalising my PA report!..so i realise im nt really dat packed oso..its alrights!cox mes gtta haf time to sleep n rest!back to the good old days..

well of cox,ive my challenge, a challenge for myself..a test of how far i can go..no matter wads the outcome, ive gtta try cox if i dun try ill nv haf the chance..yah ITS NEVER!!!!ive made a promise to myself n i shall fulfill it on my own!i can only do it on my own..a test of ability..
its here and its finally here..i aint exactly prepared but me shall mk use of the time now to prepare myself..

a quote which ive gtten frm the shw today: 'if one hessitates to sae wad he wanna express, there may not be a chance to do so in the future'

n this is mine:'if one hessitates and ponders over too much to do sth, the chance may jus slip away and nv be available again'

dunno why

i dunno why..really dunno y..
mb its a crush?
hes so nice..mb cox hes the business manager so hes sociable?
hes helpful..tink hes jus trying to shw sm concern?
yah..has good manners, good natured i guess, accomplished..jus one thing hes too old..haha..
lyk wad i always sae im easily impressed but dat will depend too
tmrs the last day and yah good!its jus a crush

today the whole team went to the BOD's room for a quick gathering they bot lotsa food some celebration for us interns? dunno hw cm haf oso..den jus toked to the directors n one of my directors jus turned a partner!wah!ill hafta wait for years to go that far..mb even not so far..sighh..

stood next to us..felt weird..awkward but managed to strike a conversation!
can tmr jus cm n be over?PLEASE!haha..hospitality?yah u noe?haha..thanks for everything yah?thanks for being so patient..thanks for the guidance..thanks!though i always complain but my mentor..wanna thank her too..shes a perfectionist mb dats y..tink she means no harm..my senior whus wrking so hard for survival..under lotsa pressure..i truly wish her well..my buddy?tink not as close to her as claren..jus gt married..haha..

as im typing this im pissed wif msn cox its signing out every other moment..urghh!

was watching my fav shw jus now..so sweet forever so sweet..i feel lyk stopping myself frm catching it..cox m afraid ill tear if i were to carry on.still rem when i watched meteor..wah..dats bad mans..when jerry saved her n gt beaten badly..tears jus welled up my eyes..tmrs episode will b good hope me will be hm on time!the prince will keep his promise which he had mad to his princess..yah he definitely will!

after pa its time to concentrate..concentrating on wad i lyk to do..focusing on my likes..fulfilling my unfulfilled want..spending time on myself, my frans, my family, my relatives
ignoring the hates, switching off n outcasting the donts..

im jus a simple me
these thots keep surfacing
clouding my vision
blocking my path..
moving on in my life seems tough
mb i aint as strong as wad ive thot/look
mb im jus vulnerable
mb im aint good at all
mb i lack security
mb im jus a nobody
a nobody whus name happens to be joleen heng

veri afraid dat ill lose my tk frans
veri fearful dat my closest pals will all go overseas
veri worried that i wun haf company
veri frightened dat i will be left alone
treasuring my franships
treasuring every moment
but i noe not everyone is willing to do so..
really not everyone
not everyone

melancholy

din actually wanna come online

its cox me wanna blog..cnt figure some stuff.blogging wun help much, at least its a way to offload wads in my mind

HYPOCRISY

its a wrld of hypocrisy. be it deliberate or not, i m not cut of to be living in this kinda wrld.
jus when i was bt to change my impression of her. she shwed her dark side again..its realli so sickening!yah..blame it all on me..'jus an intern' i guess..i dun give a damn man!
i cnt understd y its so difficult to jus smile n not ignore pple..even a simple wrd lyk 'hello' or 'bye' do not even cost anything!its free!cmon lahs..lyk wad ive mentioned..no EQ no PR skills den y call urself a manager?are we all living behind our own masks?i guess we all do..i dun deny cox i mus agree that i do some time as well. however, i swear dat its lyk less than 5% in my life.
making use of me to wrk when senior was busy..bother to check on me when u nid stuf urgently..trying to sd nice when u nid me..im jus trying to be respectful thus me BOTHERED to smile at u sae bye to u..u tink ill do dat if u werent e mentor? cmon!im not so thick-skin k? noeing roughly wad kinda person u r..me wun be bothered to exert that little negligible energy on u..alas!will this 5 days pass quickly pls!n dats not the end!me hafta wear this mask to gt my report done bfore im done with her!

REPENTANT?

im stressed?but y? cun be!cox no sch, no exams, jus wrk everyday..n im STRESSED?or m i jus simply tired?
its been so long since ive been real rude to my mum..she nagged at the nitty gritties..this time rd over some droplets of water which she accused ive flinged onto the floor!wad the!i cun stand it!i screamed back at her..i cun control!my threshold is usually high..jus let her nag n whether it goes in its another matter.dats one reason y hall is a better place. yet i will miss home.issit cox of her hafing menopuase?or issit me?hafing PMS?i dunno..i noe i was rude.i jus dun wanna sae sorry.being in a rather traditional family its not common to do so..i hate being accused n esp when i feel its jus so ridiculous!wads up w a few droplets of water?alas!its an outburst which wasnt deliberate i guess

melancholy

am i drifting into melancholy? hate to haf this feeling..reaching this stage in life really suxs!deciding my career choice?wondering wads up w everything..suddenly realising the urge that ive to contribute to my family to support my family so dat dad wun be the sole breadwinner.if i were to sae im stressed..my daddy is cfm worse xinfinity!yrs of hard wrk..ive seen him aged alot..i saw his grey hair dat dae..i feel bad. im always proud to let pple noe that im paying for my own hostel fees..my own stuff..i do draw little allowance frm my daddy's salary..dats y mes more or less financially independant.dats one thing but i aint good enuff. deres so much more that ive gtta do.mb this is y i cant wait to earn big bucks!i dunno hw?i hate wrking for pple..i hate the rigid org. structure..i hate it when ive to accept sth cox ive no choice or cox 'i dun mind cox im used to it' this is not wad i wan in life! this wrld is not perfect im aint perfect either..i cnt gt the best of both world.n i noe.

love

watched the channel u shw again..so sweet to haf someone trying hard to fulfill the promise which he had made when he was a kid.the ger acted well..i hate her for trying to break the 'prince' and 'princess' up..the scheming behind it and stuff. luckily the 'prince' is well aware of her ploy..having 2 guys to fight over u..wads the feeling? me tink it will realli be a tough decision to make esp when one is ur childhood prince n another ur childhood playmate whu has been secretly in love w u. tell me hw she shld choose?both r good lookers, one is damn rich n accomplised. e other acted as the support..quietly helping her, a violin genius. tell me hw the story shld end?
i tink she shld live happily ever after w her prince cox prince r meant for princess.yet me noe the other will be devastated..the other haf wasted his time on u..my fran once told me that the guy wun be tinking this way cox she lufs u n tink its worth it. i dunno hw true. if the princess aint gg to be w the prince den it wun be a perfect story alr..well i do expect the former to be the ending.
in life its not so simple i guess.since when will someone b so 'lucky' to haf 2 boys gg gaga over u? fighting over u?guess u wun be happy either.hafing to make a decision which will hurt the other party. mb u wun even wanna k a decision!
its a cliche story but ill still catch it.

my mood is down today.hopfully it will gt better tmr..gg to meet yanshan at 11 for mango sale..hafing a feeling dat its gg be a retail therapy again!haf been buying things every week..wasting money?yah maybe..its retail therapy..tmr still haf to gif tuition..haha..at least some inflow to compensate for my outflow.
shall slp now

timecheck:1059pm

love is not simply jus MCQ

my lappie is gifing me problems!hopefully me cn finiah this entry bfore any tricks occur again!sighh

'love is not simply jus MCQ'
'i will use my life to protect u forever'

these r the two phrases which ive picked up frm the channel u shw this evening..a taiwanese shw i guess..there were childhood frans n de guy promised the gal dat he will be her prince william forever..how sweet!

in real life nothing lyk this will happen..n i really MEAN NO ONE!dats y watching such dramas is jus so lame..for pple lyk me whu r so free yeah?so wad?i tink dey r so romantic..nvm im a dreamer..full of imagination..so u noe wads up w my nick?princess?yah its an imagination..noeing i cnt be a princess..never!

ill gt a makeover dis cming hall's dnd!yah dat means i mus scrimp n save for jus dat night..dat few hrs!but its all in the name of FUN!yah..a nice hairdo a cool mkup a beautiful dress and ill tk loads of photos!haha..feels lyk prom!its gonna feel so real since im in my fianl yr..uni no prom so dnd will be the substitute

my mum is so weird..was telling her that my senior manager is veri nice n she immediately asked if its a HE/SHE!OLD/YOUNG!haha..mummy..oh my!wad r u tinking bt?its a HE!hes in his early 30s n nice..n dats all!oh pls..mummy u n ur funny thots!its nt the first time shes asking hw yg or old..my mummy ahs..

i always feel blessed cox i believe im surrounded by many nice n helpful pple..definition of nice?i dunno..ive a high threshold for alot of things..or shld i sae ive a high tolerance level..if i sae i dun lyk u den most likely u r a gonner!dats it!i seldom hate a person..i dun..its better to haf another fran den an additional foe..im easily satislfied..easily pleased and contented ger mb dats y i feel rather depressed when me dun gt appreciated or sth. i dunno..i live by this motto: u gt treated the wae u treat others

was reading a fran's blog. such a co-incidence..the latest one was bt love as well..haha..he blogged bt gers behaving similarly as guys..esp when it cmes to luf..being sweet to their ex n their future steads..doing the sm n saing the sm sweet things to their past n future beaus..haha..i agree n me dun deny dat ive frans whu r lyk this..hes one i guess

as for me?me can haf frans whu r lyk this but this is their private life ive no rights to interfere n mes nt so nosey to want to be involved..its a personal preference to haf multi-bfs/gfs?sometimes i believe its jus fate..yah tricked n fooled by fate

i choose not to follow the crowd..i noe wad i want..my vision is clean..my mind is conscious..i noe wads right wads wrong..i noe wad cn work out n wad cant..i dun wanna waste time n waste others time..i dunno if these attitudes r correct but again i choose to live by these
guess its becox i hate to be led by the nose be it at wrk, in sch or wadsoever..being a leader for close to 7 yrs..i cnt help but wanna go against everything im uncomfortable with..of cox me noe my limits..
mb these had caused hurt to some..wad i can see is 'sorry'
lyk ive mentioned dun ask me y i noe..i jus tink its impossible n pls dun try to mk me hurt u deeper by repeating myself..im picky?ive stoned?im cold?wad ever u sae..

nv in love..only crashes..dunno wads this four letter wrd is about..guess its a candy in disguise..basing on hw u choose to chew this candy can turn into a caramel chocolate..it can result into a dark chocolate or even jus a white chocolate

my 'prince' will gt all my attention i guess..my care my concern..tink its bt gifing my best putting in my heart my soul..likened to my attitude in other arenas me noe my sturbborness, my determination may not gt me anywhere

waiting is the word for now..chances n opportunities

hating my sensual self

StoRies

everyone lives and when we live, we spin our own stories
stories which reflect happiness, pleasing, memorable moments that we yearn to keep
stories which involve anger
stories which are repetitive and
stories which are painful, which hurt..we wish we can forget

weaving my story daily..every single moment..every single second..
every step i take it's part of my story
every passed second equates to one second less in my life
one less entry in my life

thy story is inspirational
im touched
nv expect the ending which seems to be nv ending
living hell i guess
looking back is nice
looking back brings memories
looking back is sweet
looking back brings pain
it is this pain that mkes us wanna suffer
suffer quietly n wlllingly
this pain which we refuse to admit to regret

reality rules the past
wads past cant be relived
wads past cant be w us animore
wads done cnt be undone
living in wads done, living in memories wards off reality
however, reality still reigns

choosing to turn back against this past is difficult
its tedious
it seems impossible
wanna let the past go but the past doesnt wanna us go
does it mean when its gone..its really gone?
gone with the wind?

its a choice remember!
its a difficult choice

we r the scripwriters
we r our playwrights
we r one another story writers
most importantly, u r my novel writer

my novel writer who crafted the bulk of my story
my novel writer who impacted me the most
my novel writer who took me so far
my novel writer who formed my smiles, my cries, my hate, my love
my novel writer who becomes jus another normal companion
the novel writer who gradually fades away from being my novel writer
not wishing u to be part of my novel writer again
u hafta go craft someone's story..
u contribution to my story had ceased and shld ceased
i thank u sincerely for being a contributor
i thank u for those moments
i THANK YOU TRUly

if ya r reading fran, this entry is urs
gtta noe a little better
hafing a habit to worry for frans
hoping everyday is a new dae for all of us

my frans u hafta be happy
my frans rem, stories once written r hard to erase
every step we tk, every thing we do etches our story

my story, ur story, our story

appalled..but thank you!

i was taken aback ytd..not when he said dat he walked to SAO frm hall to help me pay the hostel application fees. i was embarrassed.tinking dat he had lesson dat dae..he din go in the end..not cox of paying of cox its cox he usually skip classes..mb dats y he gtta retake 3 modules again..heh! uve gt the potential!n uve gtta believe it!
i wanna thank you!realli!!din noe u din drive dat dae..im veri grateful!

ytd we went to this chinese restaurant n paid 20 bucks for a buffet style chinese dinner..haha..as usual..there were more guys(12) den gals..haha..the hall guys r definitely a closer buch of peeps!watch dem haf fun realli feels good..mb dat will be the reason y i will miss hall life..it was great seeing the peeps..haha..celebrated denieces and chuan teck..

spent alot of money dese daes tking cab home..spent 8 bucks last sat tking cab home frm tings bdae..ytd oso..a little lesser..2.8 frm paya lebar mrt to my hse..im scared to walk home aln ..n it was only 1030pm..no lahs ill rather save less n trust my life to a cabby..last week too..cab n cab n cab..luckily dis week nt mtg anione..phew!onli zhiyu on sat when me wun be home after dark!

tink eventually taiwan trip may nt be realised..since no updates till now..its alritex i tink..i can use the $ to go for my photoshhot..fd one at millenia walk..looks pro!wah!but i wanna go slimming center oso!tinking of slimming santuary which is near my house..but dunno hw much..sighh..

its cming in a few mths..me n meimei have made a pact to train hard.. n me can expect to go k every other week!wah!i like it!ill rather shp less n entertain myself more!realli!!

sm times its getting a little lonely..cant always hang out with my frans cox of our differing lifestyles..sighh..now busy with PA..13 more days n dats it!fianlly!wanna slack..wanna blade..wanna swim..wanna slim down..aiyas me wanna do so many things!how how?

ya cming bk?i welcum u..welcuming qianyi!my hall mummy!haha..we've gtta spot all the good looking hall freshies yeah?haha..mummy..gt urself a daddy!haha..no one wanna be my daddy..haha..heh!guys out dere!my mummy aint bad okie!!jus a little loud!

next sem..im yr 3 alr..haha..still remembered mr yap my vj physics and CTC tutor saeing this: yr 1, u r a fresh flower which will attract lotsa bees. Yr 2: a fully bloomed flower, still attracting bees, yr 3(final yr): a dying flower, bees r starting to leave..haha..yah im gg to be yr 3!does it mean i belong to the 3rd category?haha..dying?

hmm..if i were to ans. my own question..haha..of cox not!definitely not dying!!bees leaving?ahha..i dun care!i wan BUTTERFLIES!haha..butterflies r so pretty..so beautiful!!even if dere aint any wadsoever flies..i dun care!a flower can still survive..of cox it gtta be a fake flower!haha..im crapping again..

tingx party!!

ytd went to our beloved, pretty, sweety, deary TINGX's 21st Birthday PARTY!
haha..was at her sis' condo at river valley road..Nathan ville!haha..me n shanx had a little prob finding though

ytd woke up at 7am gave tuition den met up with ys in twn to finish up our TUTORIALs!!--the 2 pieces of artwork!!!haha..finished the skeleton at home n pasted the pics n designs at the taka's coffeebean..gt chased away after spending lyk 3hrs dere..quite paiseh leh..den afterdat went to gt the prezzies n went to heerens spinelli to finish up wadever we had to!haha..so funnie lahs..we were rushing for time..dats y we were late tingx!haha..even thot charmx wld reach earlier than us!luckily nver!!!!

it drizzled a little n tingx our beloved host was hurrying us to makan!ahaha..the food was thai frm SIAM kitchen..the salad was good and the beehoon!haha..saw jacelyn, sugui n yinbing wif her bf..haha..so long nv see one another alr but we still cld click n crap as usual!dats good!!we managed to entertain ourselves whilst our tingx was busy entertaining her frans..haha..

tings!u best lorhs nv entertain us!haha..jus joking lahs..so shou alr..tink u r so sick of us alr!haha..but we enjoyed ourselves though!angry lehs.wanteed to ask dew dey all to help throw u into the water!!haha..joking joking!!heehee

the tiramusi cake was great!was alr melting lyk dunno wad when we were cutting n distributing..so the looks of it was rather unglam..haha..its lyk melted...hmm..better not describe ani further!

hey ger ah!hope u realli lyk the prezzie yeah?me n shanx do the 2 tutorials till we wanna pengx haha..esp cutting the stars..was hoping we have the stencil sia!haha..but the end products?were FABULOUS of cox!!heh!frm us lehs..of cox of the highest quality lorhs!!!haha..

quite fun doing though..but wun be doing one in the near future yeah

tmr is gg to be exciting cox gg to meet up with my hall seniors n hall peeps..its gonna be loads of pple!heehee..
n tues mb sending charmx off n celebrating her bdae befor heading to the office..sianz!its yet another week!but im looking fwd to next sat alr!cox gg to meet zhiyu!!!!haha..n its the 6th week!aft dis then 2 more weeks!!!haha..lalala..

okok..gtta go prep for tuition at 2 alr..haha

lastly, wanna wish charmx n tingx:HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DEARIES!!STAY SWEET,PRETTY AND HAPPY yeah?HUGGXS!!well next will be yanshan alr!!!haha

fees!!urghh!

re-read the stupid email from office of finance..n jus when i thot ive cleared all my DEBTS..i realised i still owed them $ for school fees!urgghh..wad fuelled my anger even further is the email stating dat ive to pay $320 of hostel acceptance fees n have to stay for a minimum of 2 mths cox bfore dat i wun gt my refund!!

this is super shitty lahs..damn!!all my saving up plans r gone!!shoosh!i wnna move out oso cannt!!wah the hell mans!!n i cant view my results cox me still owe them money!!alas!if only me cn jus drp by sch n pay all that they want!!all at once!!im super duper zuper PISSED!so pISSED dat i can jus spill out FIRE!i jus cant stp cursing lahs!!yucks!!

but whus to blame?of cox its myself lahs..whu ask me nt to pay on time?too bad..i dun pity myself..hw to pay so much at one go?its lyk hell lahs!as if im printing money!i jus hope that i could turn bk the time n chosen nt to stay in hall..nt to be in JCRC..den deres no nid for me to incur so much..so much of my time...my money!!damn wasteful!!urghh..ive to pay everything on my own..with my miserable amt of tuition fees..n once its used to pay for hostel im broke!!nw? asking me to pay 390 for may n june hols when im nt even staying..im alr bu gan yuan!n u dare send me another mail asking me to pay acceptance fee of 320?hey!go to hell mans!i dun haf money lahs!!!urghh!jus feel lyk jus cancelling sia!!!i cant stp staying after a mth which i planned to..ive gtten stay for 2 mths at least

do i really haf no choice?can i dun stay for even a mth?i dunno the answer..im really vexed!sighh..

dat dae when we went shpping, felix said im conflicting myself..its true that i will miss the pple..on the other hand im tired i wanna go home..yah i jus laughed it off..i did..im afraid of loneliness..the initial fun which i had when i entered in yr 1 was no longer dere..im afraid of loneliness in hall..alone in the single room..it aint stuffy cox of the aircon..the wind..but the feeling of being inside is driving me crazy..i cant breathe..i dunno y..mb its psychological..mb its all in the mind..i really aint sure..its bad..my wrld seems to be crumbling down again..its nt even the start of sch n im feeling this way..this is really bad..

ive been thinking alot recently..but i dun gt it..y is life so unfair..no one is perfect..dats y ive imperfections too..but i aint satisfied..i wanna be the perfect one..i noe i cant..I CAN'T..its impossible i noe..BUT I JUS TINK ITS POSSIBLE!
im stubborn!veri n i mus tell u!the important wrd is VERY!

as i grow older i realised im gtting more n more depressed bt my life n the outlook of it...i jus seem to be comfortable wif wad i haf..i cant stay put on sth..im nt as happy or happy-go-lucky as wad i used to be..i simply cant!ive become a stranger to myself..sometimes i dun even noe whus joleen? seeming good on the outside..but u wun noe wad im tinking internally..nt in the negative wae i mean..as ones emotion will affect/infect others..i choose to affect my friends positively..wun want to ruin their days..

detesting myself for everything..hating myself for being bitchy..despising myself for being incapable..disliking myself for the failures..remorseful for being lousy..regretful over my choice..

is dere a wae to redeem myself?i feel as if im jus a nobody..a busybody..

im tired!exhausted!sleepy!i dun wanna tink..i dun wanna wrk!i refuse to face the reality..i hate being mean..simply cant stand this ger called Joleen..falling into depression for no good reason!yah no reason at all! i nid to see a psychiatrist i feel..haha..a physician wun help!

its nice to tok to u online..u still remembered the east coast hawker?haha..nt gifing u my blog add..cox u simply cant read..sorry for that..portraying a blissful ger..u noe nothing..wad u see is a shell carefully crafted n wrapped..its superficial at least to myself..hafing our own life is good!wishing u well though..dun ask me th things uve asked before..dun ask me y i dun gif the guys a chance..dun tell me nt to choose this n that..ur advices i do read..i gt it but before u mention..im well aware!well aware!unless u lemme go, unless u choose to let go..unless u tell me so..u can regard as wad uve regarded since 2 yrs ago?yah n dat was 2 yrs ago!dats fast..i will respond similarly too

heard a shocking news bt my sis' fran turning into a les..or is she a bi? i dunno..me nv ask..its jus so weird to hear this news when i was trying to rush off to wrk..for a while, i was made to think..r singles at this age always stray ,always choose the alternative?

yah i guess so

cramped!

was actually in quite a good mood minutes ago..urghh..had a bicker w sis!sians..cant stand me?ellos!who cant std who ahs?urghh!

wadever!!!

was out since early afternn..was suppose to go for tuition at bedok but in the end he cancelled!haha..great!so i slept later n went out with sis to marina sq and spent the afternn at millenia walk..saw kelly poon n ho yao sun..haha..the sd system was lousy today..cant really hear wad they were singing..aiyas was there to pick up the prizws for gtting into the semis..was suppose to gt birkies and meet shan in orchard but in the end din cox not meeting shans so dun really wanna go to jus gt our birkies..haha..next thurs?shld be lahs..

these few days were spent at cityhall, marina sq area!wah its the 3rd day i was dere!thurs went waraku with shans tingx n charms..fri went shopping with felix followed by mtg up with weinee at changing appetite, marina sq n today with sis to shop!wah..seems lyk dere r a lot of things to do ritex?haha..mb..

ytd bought a top for 12.5 from ebase!haha..my fav colour again!pink diagonal strips with yellow!woohoo..today gt a yellow top from giodano..haha..but so cheap 10 onli!haha..cant spend alot!else will be broke at the beginning of the month!haha..

hey u see i aint a spendthrift k? n accompanied u to fox men hors n levis..still sae its cox of 'joleen's aura' that caused u to spend so much:( thanks lorhh..n whens KTV?haha..felt good ytd shopping n choosing guy's clothes cox seldom shop for guy's stuff..hey!c'mon lorhs ive gt good taste can?if not u wldnt haf bot the green polo tee n the red tee which ive selected!haha..n ill make sure u gt an orange one if deres a chance!dun wear jus blue, black n white k?take the brighter colours!example, the red, the orange the yellow!n i noe ill haf to kill u n mb even myself to ask u to wear pink!haha..so mb not pink at the moment!haha..n i dun care if ya lyk/dun lyk pink..i noe i luf PINK n no one is gonna stop me frm lyking the colour!even u!!looking forward to ladyhill n hillstreet's gathering!haha..fun i guess..

tinking of getting a skirt from m'phosis but 4o bucks!shud i gt?i feel lyk gtting so dat me cn be clad in it for tings bday dis sat!haa..mb its an excuse jus for me to buy it!!how how?:( tink colour is very important!the correct colour gifs luf, reflect the mood u r in, the personality etc. so from the choice of clothes u will gt to noe yeah?

as for me..if ya were to tk a peep into my cabinet..of cox its obvious that theres PINK!haha..no only PINK but SHOCKING PINK!!orange, yellow, purple, red are my colours!feeling great when im in the correct colours!haha..

tmr's gg to meet up with mel in town..haha..cant buy but jus to walk around after gifing tuition..me shant wear heels anymore..feet cramp!n its wrk on mon again!sians..its the 5th week n after which 3 more to go!!woohoo!!

G.U.E.S.S!!guess? GUess!!

wah!!this is realli the first branded wallet which i have!!thanks dearies!!thanks for the GUESS wallet!!din expect u all to realli buy a GUESS one!thanksthanks!heehee..luf it loads!but me a bit se bu de to use cox afraid that it will gt dirtied:(
hope u peeps lyk the desserts at hiagen diaz!heehee..n hws WARAKU shanx?not bad ritex?i luf the atmosphere!heh!!thanks for celebrating my 21st bdae with me today babes!!heehee..next sat's will be our dearest tingx den followed by charmaine's!!wowwe r all turning 21!!haha..n shanx we will remember ur prezzie k?no probs!within 5 mths we promise to help u find a super rich, super cool boy yeah?haha..

oh ya before i forget!thanks yiting for the handmade card ger!so cool!ill sure hang it in my hostel!n thanks shans n charms for the sweet msges..well of cox nt forgtting our artistic tings!heehee..really glad to haf u all as my pals!n thanks for ur support all alg yeah?heh..we mus keep in touch hor till the future..till forever!n pls do tell us wad ya wan for ya bdae babes!!

tmr gg to meet up with weinee at marina sq again but she cn onli meet me at 630pm..nvm ill go shp aln or mb ask mel alg?haha..feel lyk stking more skirts for next sem!moreover so many sales gg on!contempting on gtting a tube of the celebrity body cream..sighh..dunno whether will work or not..desperate..slimming center too ex..cant afford at the moment..so gtta depend on these..shakehead..desperate to diet..:( afraid to tk cambridge diet/extrim/tummy trim..wadever...i wanna be rich n go marie france bodyline!!or bottomslim or anything lahs..

hopefully next thurs ktv with the interns will be successful..haha..n me shant be eating heaty stuff alr!else hw to sing yeah?

yawns..haha..time to bed dudes!nitex:)